Shepherd banged his fist against his head. ‘You’re right.’
‘I can be with him, so it’s not as if you leave him on his own, but I’m not his family.’
‘And I’m carrying on exactly as I was when Sue was here,’ he said. ‘I can’t believe I said work was more important than my son.’
‘It’s a demanding job,’ said Katra.
‘That’s no excuse,’ said Shepherd. ‘I’ve been such a bastard to him.’
‘No,’ said Katra. ‘He understands. Really. And he’s proud of you. He talks about you all the time when you’re not here,’ she said.
‘I didn’t know that.’
‘You don’t tell him much about your work, but he knows you don’t have a job like his friends’ fathers. He understands you don’t work regular hours.’
‘I don’t think I could do any other sort of job.’
‘Even for Liam?’
Shepherd sat back and ran his hands through his hair. ‘I want both.’ He sighed. ‘I want a job that challenges me, and I want to be a good father.’
‘Perhaps you can’t have both,’ said Katra. ‘Perhaps you have to choose.’
Shepherd pushed back his chair and stood up. ‘You might be right,’ he said. He went upstairs and knocked on Liam’s bedroom door. When the boy didn’t answer, Shepherd knocked again and opened the door a little way. ‘Liam, can I come in?’ Sue and he had made it a rule since Liam was seven that they asked permission to enter his bedroom. And Liam had to do the same with theirs. It had taught him the value of privacy, and prevented embarrassing interruptions. ‘Liam, I’d like to talk to you.’
‘There’s nothing to talk about,’ said Liam.
Shepherd opened the door fully. His son was lying on his bed, gazing up at the ceiling. ‘I’m sorry,’ said Shepherd.
‘You’re always sorry.’
Shepherd sat down on the side of the bed. Liam rolled away from him. ‘It’s a big case,’ said Shepherd. ‘It’s one I’ve been working on for a long time.’
Liam said nothing.
‘Last time I was away, remember? I had to go to France. I was on a boat. I told you, right? Well, it’s that case and I’m still working on it. I’ll have to go back to France again and this is part of that. I have to go and see some people this afternoon.’
‘Why today? It’s Saturday.’
‘The bad guys don’t work office hours, Liam. I can’t tell them I’m playing football with my son, can I?’
‘Why not?’
Another question to which Shepherd had no answer.
‘Do the bad guys have kids?’
‘One does,’ said Shepherd. He thought of the four photographs Salik had shown him. ‘Four. One’s a boy of about your age.’
Liam rolled back to face Shepherd. His cheeks were wet with tears. ‘So he’d understand. He’d play football with his kids, right?’
Shepherd imagined Salik running around with his children, sweating and panting as he tried to keep up. ‘Probably,’ he said.
‘So?’
‘So what?’
‘So tell him you promised to play football with your son and that you’ll see him next week.’
‘It’s not as simple as that.’
‘Why?’
‘Like I said, it’s a big case.’
‘Is it drugs?’
‘No. Fake money.’
‘And are they gangsters?’
‘The men in France are. But the men in England…’ Shepherd frowned. He wouldn’t have described the Uddins as gangsters. Criminals, of course – they were breaking the law – but they weren’t what Shepherd would have called gangsters. ‘Not really. They’re bringing in the fake money. Smuggling.’
Liam sat up and shuffled back so that he was propped against the headboard. ‘Millions?’
‘Sure.’
‘Millions of pounds?’
‘Euros.’
‘And how do they smuggle it in?’
‘Boats,’ said Shepherd.
‘And is that what you’ve been doing?’
Shepherd was telling his son more than he should about an operational matter, but Liam was enthralled. He patted the boy’s leg. ‘This is top secret, you know that?’
Liam nodded seriously. ‘Secret Squirrel.’
Shepherd held out his hand, his little finger crooked. ‘You mustn’t tell anybody,’ he said. ‘Pinkie promise.’
‘Pinkie promise.’ Liam crooked his little finger and linked it with Shepherd’s.
‘They use boats to bring the money in from France. I’m pretending to be a sailor. That’s why I drive the Land Rover with the boat stuff in it.’
‘Is it dangerous?’
Shepherd remembered the Albanians. ‘No, not really.’
‘Do they have guns?’
‘Most gangsters have guns,’ said Shepherd.
‘Do they fire them at you?’
‘No, of course not.’
‘But you were shot in the army.’
Shepherd’s shoulder began to ache. It was his brain playing tricks, he knew, a subconscious reminder of the bullet he’d taken in the Afghan desert. ‘That was different,’ he said. ‘That was a war.’
‘But gangsters shoot people, don’t they?’
‘Not police officers,’ said Shepherd. ‘If they do, they go to prison for ever. Liam, I’m really sorry about today, but I have to talk to these men and show them the boat.’
‘The smugglers’ boat?’
Shepherd nodded. ‘I won’t be more than a few hours. If I get back before it’s dark, we can still play football. Okay?’
Liam smiled unwillingly. ‘Okay.’
‘And I’ll owe you one,’ said Shepherd.
‘So you’ll let me have my television back in my bedroom?’
‘Don’t push it.’ Shepherd grabbed him and began to tickle him.
Liam writhed on the bed. ‘No!’ he screamed. ‘I give in, I give in!’
‘Are you sure?’
‘Yes!’
Shepherd released him and stood up. ‘And I want all your homework done by the time I get back,’ he said, ‘or I’ll tickle you again.’
‘I’m too old to be tickled.’
Shepherd lunged at him again and the boy squealed. ‘Okay! I’ll do it!’
The boat was moored at a berth in a small marina on the outskirts of Southampton, rented in the name of Tony Corke and backdated for twelve months. Salik and Matiur stood on the wooden jetty as Shepherd pulled the faded blue tarpaulin off the boat and rolled it up.
‘Come on, climb aboard,’ said Shepherd.
‘I’m not good on boats,’ said Matiur. ‘I get seasick.’
‘A rib doesn’t roll like a normal boat,’ said Shepherd. ‘It cuts through the waves. It’s more like a car than a boat.’
Matiur put his hands up. ‘I’ll stay here,’ he said.
Shepherd looked at Salik. ‘What about you?’
‘I suppose so.’
‘I’ll just show you how it works so you can see for yourself how simple it is.’ He helped Salik climb in, fired the engine and told Matiur to release the moorings. He coiled the ropes, then eased the boat away from the jetty.
‘He liked you,’ said Salik, as Shepherd headed out to open water.
‘Who?’
‘Kreshnik. He said you were professional.’
‘Did he tell you what he did to me?’
‘What?’
‘His men hit me over the head and put me into the boot of a car at gunpoint.’
Salik seemed genuinely surprised. ‘They did that?’
‘Kreshnik’s a heavy guy,’ said Shepherd. ‘Dangerous.’
‘I’m sorry,’ said Salik.
‘It wasn’t your fault,’ said Shepherd. ‘Okay, sit down and hold on to the rail. I’ll show you what this baby can do.’
As soon as Salik had slid on to the seat, Shepherd pushed the throttle forward and the boat accelerated away from the marina, reaching planing speed within seconds.
Salik’s jaw dropped.
Shepherd guided it through a flotilla of small dinghies, then accelerated to forty knots.
‘This is amazing,’ yelled Salik, squinting against the slipstream. ‘And we can’t be seen on radar?’
‘We’re virtually invisible,’ shouted Shepherd.
‘Amazing!’
Shepherd put the boat through a couple of tight turns, enjoying the alarm on his passenger’s face, then spent half an hour showing off what it could do and eventually took Salik back to the marina.
The brothers helped him tie up and cover the boat with the tarpaulin.
‘How was it?’ Matiur asked his brother.
‘Amazing,’ said Salik. ‘Like a sports car on water.’ He slapped Shepherd on the back. ‘We’ll do it for real tomorrow.’
‘What?’ said Shepherd.
‘Tomorrow. We have already paid Kreshnik.’
‘That’s a bit sudden, isn’t it?’
‘The sooner the better,’ said Matiur.
‘What about you? Are you coming too?’
‘We’re not, but we will send someone with you,’ said Matiur.
‘To keep an eye on me?’
Salik smiled. ‘It is a lot of money, Tony. You can understand our reluctance to let you bring it over alone.’
‘Just don’t make it one of the Albanians,’ said Shepherd. ‘I don’t want a bullet in the head.’
Salik patted his arm. ‘Don’t worry, they trust you now. As do we. But just because we trust you doesn’t mean we stop being careful.’
‘Where do I collect the stuff from?’
‘We’ll tell you tomorrow.’
‘And where do I deliver it to?’
‘Tomorrow.’
Shepherd smiled. ‘You love keeping me in the dark, don’t you?’
‘Tomorrow,’ Salik repeated. He put his arm round Shepherd’s shoulders and hugged him. ‘Everything’s going to be fine, Tony. We’ll make a lot of money and become good friends. We’ll meet again here tomorrow, as soon as it gets dark. Inshallah.’
Shepherd phoned Hargrove, using the hands-free kit, as he drove the Land Rover back to London. ‘They want to do it tomorrow night,’ he said.
‘You’re okay with that?’ asked the superintendent.
‘Providing the back-up’s in place at both ends, I’m easy,’ said Shepherd.
‘I’ll talk to Europol now,’ said Hargrove. ‘The snag is, we won’t know where the stuff’s being collected. Are you okay being wired?’
‘I guess so,’ said Shepherd. ‘They didn’t pat me down this time.’
‘We’ll know where the boat is from the tracking device, but not where you’re going.’
‘You realise they might not tell me in advance?’
‘We’ll have the Albanians under surveillance, and the Uddin brothers under the microscope here. The wire will be a fallback position.’
‘Will it work at sea?’
‘Let me talk to Singh,’ said Hargrove, ‘see what he’s got in his box of tricks. We’ll meet in Southampton tomorrow at four.’
When Shepherd got home Liam was sitting at the kitchen table with Katra, chewing at a pencil and frowning at an exercise book. ‘Dad!’ he shouted, throwing down the pencil and rushing to hug him.
‘Homework?’ asked Shepherd.
‘Science,’ said Katra. ‘Do you know anything about trees?’
‘The brown things with leaves on them? Sure.’
Liam laughed. ‘Photosynthesis, Dad,’ he said. ‘They turn sugar into starch in their leaves. I have to write an essay and Katra says I can’t use the Internet.’
‘Why would you want to?’
‘To download stuff. It makes it easier.’
‘You’re supposed to do it yourself,’ said Katra. ‘The Internet’s cheating.’
Liam looked at his father, hoping he’d contradict her, but Shepherd said, ‘Katra’s right. The teacher wants to know that you understand the science, not that you can download someone else’s work off the Internet. And you’re in enough trouble at school as it is.’
‘You’re so old-fashioned,’ said Liam, scornfully. ‘Everyone uses the Internet.’
‘Yeah, and everyone uses calculators, these days, which is why no one can add up in their heads any more. Remember when I made you do the times tables?’
Liam sighed. ‘Yes.’
‘And you didn’t like doing it at the time, right?’
‘It was boring.’
‘Sure it was boring. But now you know all the times tables, right? What’s nine times seven?’
‘Fifteen,’ said Liam, straight-faced.
‘What?’ said Shepherd.
‘Just joking,’ said Liam. ‘Sixty-three.’
‘See. You can do that because you learned your tables. Sometimes it’s better to do things the old-fashioned way.’
‘It’s hard,’ said Liam.
‘Nothing worth having comes easy,’ said Shepherd.
‘It’s okay for you – your memory’s perfect.’
‘But it never helped me write essays,’ said Shepherd. ‘The teacher wants to know that you understand what you’ve learned, not that you can repeat parrot-fashion what someone else has written. Having a good memory doesn’t make it any easier to understand things. And being smart is about understanding stuff, not just memorising it.’ He pointed at the exercise book. ‘So, get writing, yeah?’
Liam sat down.
‘Do you want coffee?’ asked Katra.
‘Please.’
‘What about something to eat?’
‘I’ll make myself a sandwich.’
As Katra made coffee, Shepherd took butter and ham out of the fridge. ‘I’ll be away tomorrow night,’ he said. ‘Just for the one night.’
‘Dad, we’re going to Gran and Granddad’s, remember?’
‘You and Katra can go,’ said Shepherd. ‘I’ll phone Gran and explain.’
‘She won’t like it.’
‘It’s you she wants to see, Liam, not me,’ said Shepherd, buttering two slices of bread.
‘Can we play football?’
‘As soon as you’ve finished your homework.’
‘Can I have my TV back in my room?’
‘No,’ said Shepherd, slapping ham on to the bread and smearing mustard across it.
‘You’re really mean sometimes,’ said Liam.
‘I’m your father,’ said Shepherd. ‘It’s my job.’
Shepherd had breakfast with Liam and Katra, and after they had left for Hereford in the CRV he pulled on his black army boots and brick-filled rucksack. Moira hadn’t sounded surprised that he wasn’t going with Liam, nor had she seemed disappointed. He understood why they only wanted to see Liam. Sue had been their only child and he was their only grandchild, all they had left of their daughter. They had a right to as much access as Shepherd could give. Moira and Tom would have liked Liam to live with them, but he wasn’t prepared to allow that: Liam was his son. They were a family – a family of two, but a family nonetheless. It was a pity they didn’t live closer, but Moira and Tom had spent more than half of their lives in their house in Hereford and he didn’t think they would consider moving now. It was also the house in which they’d brought up Sue: giving it up would be tantamount to walking away from their memories of her growing up.
He stared at himself in the mirrored door of his wardrobe. He’d told Liam that selling the house in Ealing would be a good idea, but that wouldn’t apply to Moira and Tom. Liam wanted a new mother, and there was a good chance that, at some point, he’d have one. Shepherd still missed Sue as much as the day she’d been taken from him, but he was enough of a realist to know that eventually he would find someone else to share his life with. But Tom and Moira would never be able to replace their lost daughter. Memories would be all they ever had of her. Memories, and their grandchild.
Shepherd left the house. He did two laps of his regular five-kilometre route through the streets of Ealing and on to Scotch Common, but it was
only when he was towards the end of the second that he began to work up a sweat. He preferred to run out of doors, even when the weather was bad. He’d tried exercising in gyms but the machines were boring, the air was stale, and most were full of middle-aged women waddling on treadmills or men in designer clothes with highlighted hair who seemed more interested in attracting partners than in working on their stamina. Shepherd ran to stay fit, but it also helped him to think. When he was working, more often than not, he was in character. He had to think and act in accordance with whatever role he was playing, not as Dan Shepherd. But when he was running he could be himself: he could think and feel without worrying that he might give himself away. Most of the time he ran on autopilot, barely aware of his surroundings and even less so of his pounding heart and burning muscles.
He thought about Charlotte Button and how his life would change when he worked for SOCA; he thought about the Uddin brothers and how their lives would shortly fall apart; about Liam and his piano lessons; about Moira and Tom and how he ought to let Liam spend more time with them.
He’d taken his work mobile with him, stuffed into one of the side pockets of the canvas rucksack, and it started to ring as he ran down the road towards his house. He stopped. It was Hargrove.
‘Not caught you at a bad time, have I?’ asked the superintendent.
‘Just running,’ said Shepherd.
‘The passport they gave you is genuine,’ said Hargrove. ‘It’s in the system. Whoever they’ve got on the inside has access at a very high level. We need to nail him.’
‘Any thoughts?’
‘Get them to fix you up another passport. I’ll get a name for you, and the Passport Agency systems boys will be watching when it goes up.’
‘Before or after the currency run?’
‘Do the delivery first. We might get one of the brothers to roll over on the passport guy, depending on how big an operation it is.’
‘Ten grand a passport? Even doing a few dozen a year it’s not going to be big bucks, is it?’
‘It’s not about the money, Spider. Anyone on a UK passport has visa-free travel to the States. It would be a terrorist’s dream. We need to know how many have been issued and to whom.’
The superintendent cut the connection and Shepherd ran back to his house.
Shepherd drove to a Best Western hotel on the outskirts of Southampton and arrived just before four o’clock. Hargrove and Singh were already there. The superintendent had ordered coffee and sandwiches from room service and was pouring himself a cup when Shepherd walked in.
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