Vampire Academy: The Complete Collection: 1/6

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by Richelle Mead


  “It means I don’t think you’re crazy.”

  “Thanks. That clears things up. You know, these dreams are really starting to bug me.”

  “Lissa doesn’t mind them,” he said.

  “You visit hers too? Do you seriously have no boundaries?”

  “Nah, hers are instructional. She wants to learn how to do this.”

  “Great. So I’m just the lucky one who gets to put up with your sexual harassment.”

  He actually looked hurt. “I really wish you wouldn’t act like I’m evil incarnate.”

  “Sorry. I just haven’t had much reason to believe you can do anything useful.”

  “Right. As opposed to your cradle-robbing mentor. I don’t really see you making much progress with him.”

  I took a step back and narrowed my eyes. “Leave Dimitri out of this.”

  “I will when you stop acting like he’s perfect. Correct me if I’m wrong, but he’s one of the people who hid the trial from you, right?”

  I looked away. “That’s not important right now. Besides, he had his reasons.”

  “Yeah, which apparently didn’t involve being open with you or fighting to get you there. Whereas me . . .” He shrugged. “I could get you into the trial.”

  “You?” I asked with a harsh laugh. “How are you going to pull that off? Have a smoke break with the judge? Use compulsion on the queen and half the royals at court?”

  “You shouldn’t be so quick to slam people who can help you. Just wait.” He placed a light kiss on my forehead that I tried to wiggle away from. “But for now, go get some rest.”

  The garden faded, and I fell back into the normal blackness of sleep.

  EIGHT

  FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS, I followed Christian around without incident. And as I did, I found myself growing more and more impatient.

  For one thing, I was discovering that a lot of being a guardian was waiting around. I’d always known that, but the reality was harder than I’d realized. Guardians were absolutely essential for when Strigoi decided to attack. But those Strigoi attacks? They were generally rare. Time could pass—years could pass—without a guardian ever having to engage in any sort of conflict. While my instructors certainly wouldn’t make us wait that long during this exercise, they nonetheless wanted to teach us patience and how important it was not to slack just because there’d been no danger in a while.

  We were also being held to the strictest conditions a guardian could be in: always standing and always being formal. More often than not, guardians who lived with Moroi families behaved casually in their homes and did ordinary things like reading or watching TV—while still staying perfectly aware of any threats. We couldn’t always expect that, though, so we had to practice the hard way while in school.

  My patience level didn’t do so well with all this waiting, but my frustration was more than just restlessness. I was desperate to prove myself, to make amends for not having reacted when Stan attacked. I’d had no further Mason sightings and had decided that what I’d seen really had been fatigue- and stress-induced. That made me happy, because those were much better reasons than being crazy or inept.

  But certain things were not making me happy. When Christian and I met up with Lissa after class one day, I could feel worry and fear and anger radiating off of her. It was only the bond that clued me in, though. To all outside appearances, she looked fine. Eddie and Christian, who were talking about something with each other, didn’t notice a thing.

  I moved close and put an arm around her as we walked. “It’s okay. Everything’s going to be okay.” I knew what was bothering her. Victor.

  We’d decided that Christian—despite his willingness to “take care of things”—probably wasn’t the best choice to go see about us getting into Victor’s trial. So Lissa had played diplomat the other day and very politely spoken to Alberta about the possibility of us testifying. Alberta had told her, equally politely, that it was out of the question.

  “I figured if we just explained things—why it was so important—they’d let us go,” she murmured to me. “Rose, I can’t sleep. . . . I just keep thinking about it. What if he gets loose? What if they really set him free?”

  Her voice trembled, and there was an old vulnerability there that I hadn’t seen in a long time. That sort of thing usually set off my warning bells, but this time, it triggered a weird rush of memories, of times past when Lissa had depended on me so much. I was happy to see how strong she’d become and wanted to make sure she stayed that way. I tightened my arm, hard to do while still walking.

  “He won’t get loose,” I said fiercely. “We’ll get to court. I’ll make sure of it. You know I’d never let anything happen to you.”

  She leaned her head against my shoulder, a small smile on her face. “That’s what I love about you. You have no idea how you’ll get us to court, but you still push forward anyway to make me feel better.”

  “Is it working?”

  “Yes.”

  The worry still lurked in her, but her amusement dampened its effects a little. Plus, despite her teasing me about my bold promise, my words really had reassured her.

  Unfortunately, we soon found out that Lissa had other reasons to be frustrated. She was waiting for the medication to fade from her system and allow her full access to her magic. It was there—we could both sense it—but she was having trouble touching it. Three days had passed, and nothing had changed for her. I felt for her, but my biggest concern was her mental state—which thus far had stayed clear.

  “I don’t know what’s going on,” she complained. We had almost reached the commons. Lissa and Christian had plans to watch a movie. I half-wondered how difficult it would be for me to watch the movie and be on alert. “It seems like I should be able to do something, but I still can’t. I’m stuck.”

  “That might not be a bad thing,” I pointed out, moving away from Lissa so I could scan the path ahead.

  She shot me a rueful look. “You’re such a worrier. I thought that was my job.”

  “Hey, it’s my job to look out for you.”

  “Actually, it’s my job,” said Eddie, in a rare show of joking.

  “Neither of you should be worrying,” she argued. “Not about this.”

  Christian slipped his arm around her waist. “You’re more impatient than Rose here. All you need to do is—”

  It was déjà vu.

  Stan leapt out from a copse of trees and reached for Lissa, wrapping his arm around her torso and jerking her toward him. My body responded instantly, no hesitation whatsoever as I moved to “save” her. The only problem was that Eddie had responded instantly too, and he was closer, which put him there ahead of me. I circled, trying to get in on the action, but the way the two were squaring off blocked me from being effective.

  Eddie came at Stan from the side, fierce and swift, pulling Stan’s arm away from Lissa with a strength nearly powerful enough to rip it out of the socket. Eddie’s wiry frame often hid how muscular he really was. Stan’s hand caught the side of Eddie’s face, nails digging in, but it was enough so that Lissa could wriggle free and run to join Christian behind me. With her out of the way, I moved off to the side, hoping to assist Eddie—but there was no need. Without missing a beat, he grabbed Stan and threw him down to the ground. Half a breath later, Eddie’s practice stake was poised right above Stan’s heart.

  Stan laughed, genuinely pleased. “Nice job, Castile.”

  Eddie withdrew the stake and helped his instructor up. With the action gone, I could now see how bruised and blotched Stan’s face was. Attacks for us novices might be few and far between, but our guardians were picking fights daily during this exercise. All of them were taking a lot of abuse, but they handled it with grace and good humor.

  “Thank you, sir,” said Eddie. He looked pleased but not conceited.

  “I’d be faster and stronger if I were Strigoi, of course, but I swear, you could have rivaled one with your speed there.” Stan glanced at Lissa. “
You okay?”

  “Fine,” she said, face aglow. I could sense that she’d actually enjoyed the excitement. Her adrenaline was running high.

  Stan’s smiling face disappeared as he turned his attention on me. “And you—what were you doing?”

  I stared, aghast at his harsh tone. It was what he’d said last time too.

  “What do you mean?” I exclaimed. “I didn’t freeze or anything this time! I was ready to back him up, looking for a chance to join in.”

  “Yes,” he agreed. “That’s exactly the problem. You were so eager to get a punch in that you forgot that you had two Moroi behind you. They might as well have not existed as far as you were concerned. You’re out in the open, and you had your back to them.”

  I strode forward and glared at him, unconcerned about propriety. “That is not fair. If we were in the real world and a Strigoi attacked, you cannot tell me that another guardian wouldn’t jump in and do everything they could to take that Strigoi down as quickly possible.”

  “You’re probably right,” Stan said. “But you weren’t thinking about eliminating the threat efficiently. You weren’t thinking about your exposed Moroi. You were thinking about how quickly you could do something exciting and redeem yourself.”

  “Wh-what? Aren’t you making a few leaps there? You’re grading me on what you think was my motivation. How can you be sure what I’m thinking?” I didn’t even know half the time.

  “Instinct,” he replied mysteriously. He took out a small pad of paper and made some notes on it. I narrowed my eyes, wishing I could see through the notepad and discern what he was writing about me. When he finished, he slipped the pad back in his coat and nodded at all of us. “See you later.”

  We watched him walk across the snowy grounds toward the gym where dhampirs trained. My mouth was hanging open, and I couldn’t even get any words out at first. When did it end with these people? I was getting burned again and again on stupid technicalities that had nothing to do with how I’d actually perform in the real world.

  “That was not even fair. How can he judge me on what he thinks I was thinking?”

  Eddie shrugged as we continued our journey toward the dorm. “He can think whatever he wants. He’s our instructor.”

  “Yeah, but he’s going to give me another bad mark! Field experience is pointless if it can’t really show how we’d do against Strigoi. I can’t believe this. I’m good—I’m really good. How on earth can I be failing this?”

  Nobody had an actual answer for that, but Lissa noted uncomfortably, “Well . . . whether he was fair or unfair, he had one thing right: You were great, Eddie.”

  I glanced over at Eddie and felt bad that I was letting my own drama take away from his success. I was pissed off—really pissed off—but Stan’s wrongness was my problem to deal with. Eddie had performed brilliantly, and everyone praised him so much on the walk back that I could see a blush creeping over his cheeks. Or maybe that was just the cold. Regardless, I was happy for him.

  We settled into the lounge, pleased to find no one else had claimed it—and that it was warm and toasty. Each of the dorms had a few of these lounges, and all were stocked with movies and games and lots of comfy chairs and couches. They were only available for student use at certain times. On weekends, they were pretty much open the whole time, but on weekdays, they had limited hours—presumably to encourage us to do our homework.

  Eddie and I assessed the room and made a plan, then took up our positions. Standing against the wall, I eyed the couch Lissa and Christian were sprawled out upon with considerable envy.

  I’d thought the movie would distract me from being on alert, but actually, it was my own churning feelings that kept my mind spinning. I couldn’t believe Stan had said what he’d said. He’d even admitted that in the heat of battle, any guardian would be trying to get into the fight. His argument about me having ulterior, glory-seeking motives was absurd. I wondered if I was in serious danger of failing this field experience. Surely, so long as I passed, they wouldn’t take me from Lissa after graduation? Alberta and Dimitri had spoken like this was all just an experiment to give Lissa and me new training, but suddenly, an anxious, paranoid part of me began to wonder. Eddie was doing a great job of protecting her. Maybe they wanted to see how well she could work with other guardians. Maybe they were worried that I was only good at protecting her and not other Moroi—I’d let Mason die, after all, right? Maybe the real test here was to see if I needed to be replaced. After all, who was I, really? An expendable novice. She was the Dragomir princess. She would always have protection—and it didn’t have to be me. The bond was pointless if I ultimately proved incompetent.

  Adrian’s entrance put my frantic paranoia on hold. He slipped into the darkened room, winking as he flounced into an armchair near me. I had figured it was only a matter of time before he would surface. I think we were his only entertainment on campus. Or maybe not, judging from the strong smell of alcohol around him.

  “Are you sober?” I asked him when the movie ended.

  “Sober enough. What have you guys been up to?”

  Adrian hadn’t visited my dreams since the one in the garden. He’d also laid off on some of his outrageous flirting. Most of his appearances with us were to work with Lissa or to ease his boredom.

  We recapped our encounter with Stan for him, playing up Eddie’s bravery and not mentioning my dressing-down.

  “Nice work,” said Adrian. “Looks like you got a battle scar too.” He pointed to the side of Eddie’s face where three red marks glared back at us. I remembered Stan’s nails hitting Eddie during the struggle to free Lissa.

  Eddie lightly touched his cheek. “I can barely feel it.”

  Lissa leaned forward and studied him. “You got that protecting me.”

  “I got that trying to pass my field experience,” he teased. “Don’t worry about it.”

  And that’s when it happened. I saw it seize her, that compassion and undeniable urge to help others that so often filled her. She couldn’t stand to see pain, couldn’t stand to sit by if she could do something. I felt the power build up in her, a glorious and swirling feeling that made my toes tingle. I was experiencing how it affected her. It was fire and bliss. Intoxicating. She reached out and touched Eddie’s face. . . .

  And the marks vanished.

  She dropped her hand, and the euphoria of spirit faded from both of us.

  “Son of a bitch,” breathed Adrian. “You weren’t kidding about that.” He peered at Eddie’s cheek. “Not a goddamned trace of it.”

  Lissa had stood up and now sank back to the couch. She leaned her head back against it and closed her eyes. “I did it. I can still do it.”

  “Of course you can,” said Adrian dismissively. “Now you have to show me how to do it.”

  She opened her eyes. “It’s not that easy.”

  “Oh, I see,” he said in an exaggerated tone. “You grill me like crazy about how to see auras and walk in dreams, but now you won’t reveal your trade secrets.”

  “It’s not a ‘won’t,’” she argued. “It’s a ‘can’t.’”

  “Well, cousin, try.” Then suddenly he raked his nails across his hand and drew blood.

  “Jesus Christ!” I yelped. “Are you insane?” Who was I kidding? Of course he was.

  Lissa reached out and held his hand, and just like before, she healed the skin. Elation filled her, but my mood suddenly dropped without any real cause.

  The two of them launched into a discussion I couldn’t follow, using standard magical terms as well as some terms I was pretty sure they’d invented on the spot. Judging from Christian’s face, it looked like he didn’t understand either, and it soon became clear that Adrian and Lissa had forgotten us in their zeal over the mystery of spirit.

  Christian finally stood up, looking bored. “Come on, Rose. If I wanted to listen to this, I’d be back in class. I’m hungry.”

  Lissa glanced up. “Dinner’s not for another hour and a half.”

>   “Feeder,” he said. “I haven’t had mine today.”

  He planted a kiss on Lissa’s cheek and then left. I followed alongside him. It had started snowing again, and I glared at the flakes accusingly as they drifted down around us. When it had first started snowing in early December, I’d been excited. Now this white stuff was getting pretty damned old. As it had a few nights ago, though, being out in such harsh weather defused my mood a little, the cold air kind of snapping me out of it. With each step closer to the feeders, I felt myself calming down.

  A “feeder” was what we called humans who volunteered to be regular sources of blood for Moroi. Unlike Strigoi, who killed the victims they drank from, Moroi took only small quantities each day and didn’t have to kill the donor. These humans lived for the high they got from vampire bites and seemed perfectly happy to spend their lives that way and separate from normal human society. It was weird but necessary for Moroi. The school usually had a feeder or two in the Moroi dorms for overnight hours, but for most of the day, students had to go to the commons to get their daily fix.

  As I continued walking, taking in the sights of white trees, white fences, and white boulders, something else white in the landscape caught my attention. Well, it wasn’t white exactly. There was color—pale, washed-out color.

  I came to an abrupt halt and felt my eyes go wide. Mason stood on the other side of the quad, nearly blending in with a tree and a post. No, I thought. I’d convinced myself that this was over, but there he was, looking at me with that sorrowful, phantom face. He pointed, off toward the back of campus. I glanced that way but again had no clue what to look for. Turning back to him, I could only stare, fear twisting within me.

  An icy-cold hand touched the side of my neck, and I spun around. It was Christian.

  “What’s up?” he asked.

  I looked back to where I’d seen Mason. He was gone, of course. I squeezed my eyes shut a moment and sighed. Then, turning back to Christian, I kept walking and said, “Nothing.”

  Christian usually always had some witty stream of comments whenever we were together, but he was silent as we made the rest of our journey. I was consumed with my own thoughts and worries about Mason, so I had little to say either. This sighting had only lasted a few seconds. Considering how hard it was to see out there, it seemed more than likely that he’d been a trick of the eye, right? I tried to convince myself of this for the rest of the walk. When we entered the commons and escaped the cold, it finally hit me that something was amiss with Christian.

 

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