“Even when he shuts me out?”
“Especially when he shuts you out,” Lucy said. “When Edgar got depressed, I stayed with him. I moved into his condo. I wouldn’t let him give in. Did you know that it’s a scientific theory that laughter and humor increase the odds of survival among patients with terminal illnesses?”
Blue shook his head. “No, I didn’t know that.”
“I stayed with Edgar till the end,” Lucy said quietly. “I was holding his hand when he died.”
“You don’t run away from anything, Yankee, do you?” Blue continued. He smiled slightly. “You should’ve been a SEAL.”
She had to smile at that. “Yeah, right.”
“What happened to your software business?” Blue asked.
“When Edgar got sick, it was at the point where it could run itself,” she explained. “We hired some key people to do the work for us and booked ourselves passage on a cruise around the world, but it was already too late. By the time Edgar found out he had AIDS, it was too far along. I think he knew he was sick for quite a while. He just put off getting tested. So we never got to Egypt and Kathmandu. Instead, I held his hand as he fought off all sorts of viral infections and three different kinds of pneumonia. The pneumonia finally won.”
She took a deep breath. Blue was still listening, so she went on. “After he was…gone, I went to the office for the first time in months. I wasn’t there for more than thirty seconds before I knew that I couldn’t go back. I didn’t want to be there without Edgar. The woman I’d hired as acting president asked me not to sell, at least not right away. She was afraid one of the larger companies would buy us out and all the employees would be excessed. I didn’t want that, but I knew I couldn’t stick around. So I just kept things as they were.”
“That’s when you came back here, huh?”
Lucy nodded. “My mother left me this house when she died. Hatboro Creek seemed like the logical place to go. And then the job opened up on the police force….”
“Law enforcement is pretty different from computer software design,” Blue said.
“That was the idea. I wanted to do something entirely different. And it was. You should’ve seen me learn to shoot. At the risk of bragging, I got a high percentage of bull’s-eyes the first time I was on the firing range. I was good at it. I figured the rest of being a cop would come even easier. Boy, was I wrong.”
Blue watched Lucy, realizing that this was the first time she’d ever really told him about herself. He’d done a great deal of talking over the past several days and she’d mostly listened. It honestly hadn’t occurred to him that she had had a life beyond Hatboro Creek. But it suddenly made incredible sense.
He knew she was a rookie—that she’d been on the police force for only six months. He hadn’t known that before that she’d lived and worked in the city. She’d owned her own successful computer business. She’d probably gone to meetings with clients, worn business suits, high heels….
Well, probably not. Lucy probably had one of those laid-back, jeans-and-T-shirts kind of computer business. That was more her style. But either way, she’d definitely had a life beyond Hatboro Creek.
He was glad for her, and saddened for what she’d been through with her friend.
“Being a cop isn’t that easy.” Lucy forced herself to smile, trying to disguise the unhappiness in her eyes.
Blue pulled Lucy to him, hugging her tightly. He bet she’d smiled at her friend Edgar all those endless months as he’d died. He could picture her smiling for Edgar’s sake, even though she was crying inside. She was a remarkable person.
As he held her close, as she buried her face in his neck, Blue suddenly felt his own heart beating. It was slow and steady and quite possibly stronger and louder than he’d ever felt it beating before. He felt a sense of calm, a state of peace, more powerful and complete than any he’d ever felt in his entire life.
And that was odd as hell, since he was currently the main suspect in the murder of his stepbrother. He should feel turmoil, anger, frustration and grief.
But all those chaotic feelings were pushed aside, dwarfed by a powerful sense of completeness.
He was in love with Lucy Tait.
The thought popped into his mind out of nowhere, and his first reaction was to dismiss it entirely out of hand. That was ridiculous. He couldn’t be. Love didn’t happen this way. Love hit fast and hard and devastatingly intensely, like a wildcat bringing down its prey.
These feelings he had for Lucy—whatever they were—had crept up on him while he wasn’t paying attention. He had become slowly and steadily surrounded by this gentle warmth, this calm happiness.
He liked her. He really, really liked her. Maybe that was what this was.
But he really liked Joe Cat, too, and the thought of being apart from Cat didn’t shake him the way the thought of leaving Lucy did.
It was more than the sex, though Lord knows he’d miss that less than five minutes after he left her. It was her smile, her laugh, her bluntness, her cheerful honesty that he’d really miss.
Lucy lifted her head and still tried to smile. “I’m finding out the hard way that I’m better at designing software,” she told him. “The truth is, I was a lousy cop.”
“No, you weren’t.”
She shook her head, covering his mouth with her hand. “You know I wasn’t cut out for the job, so do me a favor and don’t try to pretend that I was,” Lucy said. “I prefer the truth, McCoy—no matter how difficult it may be. Don’t ever lie just to be nice.”
He pulled her hand away, lightly kissing her fingers first. “I wouldn’t,” Blue said. “Honesty is real important to me, too, Lucy. All my life I’ve seen people use other people.” He was quiet for a moment, then he added, “Do you know that you’re the first woman I’ve…been involved with…who hasn’t had some ulterior motive for being with me?”
Lucy looked away, hoping Blue wouldn’t be able to see the secrets she was hiding. Because she did have an ulterior motive. She was in love with him—and she wanted him to love her, too. That was one major ulterior motive. “You’re exaggerating,” she said. “You’ve got to be.”
“I’m not.”
“You’re telling me that you know for a fact that every single one of all the women you’ve ever been—”
“There haven’t been that many,” he interrupted quietly.
“That’s hard to believe.”
“It’s true.”
“And not one of them was with you simply because they liked you?”
“None of them ever tried to get to know me.” He paused. “Except for you.”
His soft words made her cheeks heat with a flush. If only she didn’t want more from him—more than an easygoing friendship spiced with hot sex. But she did want more. She wanted so much more.
“Even back in high school,” Blue told her. “Even Jenny Lee….” Something shifted in his eyes. It was almost imperceptible. Almost. “In some ways, she was the worst. It took me a long time to get over her using me the way she did. After that I started to expect it. Some women liked being with a man in a uniform. Others were after an officer—it didn’t matter who you were as long as you had some kind of rank. I once met a girl—she seemed really nice. Turned out she and her brother were writing a book about SEAL Team Ten.”
Lucy sat up, her eyes narrowed slightly. “You, of course,” she said, “having higher moral standards than those women, have never used another person in any way in your entire life. Every time you went home with a woman, you were searching for a meaningful relationship—something long-lasting, something special, right?”
Blue bowed his head in mock surrender. “Your point is taken. It’s just that Jenny Lee…” He interrupted himself. “Let’s not talk about Jenny anymore.”
Good idea.
Lucy looked up at him. “So tell me honestly,” she said. “Do you know how to break a man’s neck the way Gerry’s was broken?”
Blue nodded. “Yeah,” he said. �
��I do.”
She digested that information, still studying his face, her dark-brown eyes serious. “Have you…” She stopped herself. “Maybe I shouldn’t ask you this.”
“Have I ever done it?” Blue asked the question for her. “I’ve been in plenty of combat or counterterrorist situations where the enemy has to be permanently neutralized, often silently. So, yeah, I have done it. It’s effective and efficient.”
Lucy’s eyes narrowed again. “You’re talking about killing another person.”
Blue shook his head. “A terrorist who kidnaps and tortures and murders a cruise ship full of civilians isn’t a person to me.”
“But that’s how you feel in the heat of battle, so to speak,” Lucy said. “After it’s over don’t you wonder who they were? Don’t you feel badly then?”
“No,” he said bluntly. “No guilt. No remorse. What good would feeling bad do me? The way I look at it is, I didn’t kill them—they killed themselves by putting themselves in a situation where they’d have to go up against me.”
“But every life is sacred,” Lucy argued.
“You tell that to the terrorists,” Blue said mildly. “If you can convince them of that fact, I’ll be more than ready to agree. Until then, my job is to protect and defend—by deadly force, if necessary. I’m not an ambassador or a diplomat, Lucy. I’m a soldier. I’d far prefer it if the ambassadors and diplomats could get the job done. I’d be the first on my feet for a standing ovation if the entire world could live in perfect harmony. Hell, I’d gladly spend the rest of my life rescuing victims of natural disasters. But that’s not the way it’s gonna be anytime in the near future.”
“I know that,” Lucy said with a sigh.
“We’re doing more research into weapons that aren’t deadly,” Blue said. “If there was some kind of stun gun or tranquilizer gun that guaranteed neutralization for a definite, extended period of time, we’d consider using it. In certain situations, when the terrorists are asleep, for instance, we do inject tranquilizers, using syringes. But tangos who aren’t sleeping don’t often sit still and wait for you to stick ’em with a needle. And with a gun, it’s harder to be accurate.
“And that makes it tough when you’re in a life-and-death situation. Everything you do is focused on staying alive, on keeping your squad alive. If you only tranquilize Terrorist X instead of killing him, you’re going to expend a certain amount of energy and brain power wondering if maybe you didn’t do it right, and maybe he’s going to pop back up and mow down half your squad with his HK-93. But dead is dead. You do it right, and you know it. Terrorist X doesn’t pop back up and kill anyone after his neck has been broken.”
Lucy was still watching him. “I see your point of view,” she said. She didn’t necessarily agree with him, but it was clear that he’d given this a great deal of thought. He was a soldier. He had taken others’ lives—not because he wanted to, but because he had to. She’d read about some Spec Op operators—Navy SEALs and Green Berets and others—who’d actually enjoyed the act of killing. Blue clearly wasn’t one of them.
But he also wasn’t going to apologize for what he did. Protect and defend. Lucy knew he would give his life; he would die in order to get his job done.
How many people did she know who could say the same?
She glanced up at him. He was watching her. She could see in his eyes that he was waiting for her to make some kind of negative comment. He was bracing himself for her condemnation or disapproval.
“You know, I really like you, Blue McCoy,” Lucy said with a smile.
Blue had to smile, too. Her comment was pure Lucy. She really liked him. It made him feel warm inside. Warm, but wistful, too. Was it possible he would have rather heard her tell him that she loved him?
Mercy, the complications that that would bring were mind-boggling. But he wanted it, he realized. He wanted her to love him.
“We should try to sleep,” Lucy said, lying back in the bed. “We’ve got a big day tomorrow.”
“Are we planning to crack the case?”
Lucy sighed as he put his arms around her, pulling her so that her back fit snugly against his chest. “No,” she said. “Tomorrow we’re going to drive into Charleston and hire a private investigator—someone with more than six months’ experience. He or she will crack the case.”
* * *
“Excuse me, Officer Tait…?”
Lucy glanced up from filling her truck’s gas tank to see a tired-looking woman on the other side of the self-serve pump, filling the tank in her own car.
It was Darlene Parker, Matt’s wife. Her old station wagon was loaded full to the top, and Tommy, her young son, sat in the front seat. Matt was nowhere in sight.
“I was going to send this to you,” Darlene said, handing Lucy an envelope, glancing furtively around to make sure no one was watching them, “but as long as you’re right here, I figured I may as well risk hand-delivering it. Don’t let anyone see.”
“Are you leaving town?” Lucy asked, folding it in two and putting it in the back pocket of her jeans.
Darlene nodded. She seemed relieved that the envelope was out of sight. She lowered her voice even further, her thin face pinched and nervous. “I wrote to tell you what really happened the night Gerry McCoy died.”
Lucy felt a surge of hope. “You know who killed Gerry McCoy?”
But Darlene shook her head as she finished filling the tank and replaced the gas cap. “No. But I know that Matthew was paid quite a bit of money to make up that story about seeing Blue up in the woods, arguing with his stepbrother. I know for a fact that Matt didn’t see anything of the sort. He was with me that entire night. It’s all in the letter. When you read it, you’ll see.”
Darlene hurried to the gas-station office to pay. As Lucy watched through the window, Darlene quickly threw several bills onto the counter. She headed back to her car, but Lucy intercepted her.
“If you leave town,” Lucy said quietly, “you won’t be able to make a statement about this to the police.”
Darlene was already shaking her head. “No,” she said. “I’m not going to do that. I’ve already done more than I should. They killed Gerry McCoy. They won’t think twice about killing again.”
“Who are ‘they’?”
“R. W. Fisher,” Darlene whispered. “And the police. You’re the only police officer I was absolutely certain wasn’t involved.”
The police? And R. W. Fisher? Killed Gerry McCoy? Lucy’s head was spinning.
Darlene pushed past her and opened the door to her car. “I’m leaving with Tommy while I still can,” she said. “Matt is gonna wind up with his own neck broken, but that’s his own damn fault.”
She closed the door with a slam, then locked it. Lucy leaned in the open window. Tommy gazed sullenly at her from where he was sitting, surrounded by bags and unpacked things his mother had thrown, last minute, into the car.
“How do you know about this?” she asked. “Darlene, I need to know where you got this information.”
Darlene started the car with a roar. “I’ve already told you too much.”
“At least give me your forwarding address, so that I can reach you in case—”
“You’re kidding, right?”
Darlene put the car into gear and pressed the gas pedal. Lucy had to jump away to keep the rear tire from rolling over her boots.
Darlene’s reedy voice floated back through the open window. “If I were you, I’d get out of town before you end up like Gerry McCoy, too.”
Lucy pulled the envelope Darlene had given her out of her pocket. She dug in her other pocket for a pen and jotted down the station wagon’s license-plate number. Just in case. She paid for her gas and got back into her truck before opening the envelope.
It was a single-page, handwritten letter. Darlene’s cursive writing was scratchy and hard to read.
A glance told Lucy that the letter wasn’t signed. Without Darlene around in person to back up the contents, it would do little
to discredit Matt Parker’s story. Still, she read it slowly, working through the nearly illegible words.
Just as Darlene had said, she’d written that Matt had been home all evening on the night that Gerry McCoy had died. She said that after Matt had issued a statement that he’d seen Gerry and Blue near Gate’s Hill Road that night, he suddenly had lots of money. When Darlene asked him about it, since he was currently unemployed, he told her to mind her own business.
But later Matt had told her that he’d gotten the money from R. W. Fisher, and that in a few months, after the uproar died down, he was going to have a guaranteed job working for the Tobacco King.
R. W. Fisher.
It seemed ludicrous. The wealthiest, most successful man in town involved in murder?
And the police were supposedly involved, too. Darlene didn’t say why she thought that was true or who had given her that information. She just stated that the police couldn’t be trusted.
Lucy looked up from the letter, staring sightlessly at the morning sky. Blue had seen Fisher deep in discussion with Gerry at the country club on the night Gerry had been killed.
She’d wanted to go and talk to R. W. Fisher in connection to the autopsy report’s odd findings about Gerry’s blood-alcohol levels at the time of his death. She’d wanted to ask Fisher if he’d thought that Gerry was drunk prior to the dance-floor altercation with Blue and Jenny.
She’d told Chief Bradley about wanting to talk to Fisher….
And he’d responded not just by taking her off the case, but by suspending her from the police force and telling her to get out of town.
What if Darlene was right and the police—including Sheldon Bradley—were involved in some sort of conspiracy?
And what if, by wanting to talk to Fisher, she’d been getting too close to the real truth?
* * *
Whatever had come in with the morning mail was causing quite a stir in Chief Bradley’s office. Despite that, Annabella stopped Lucy as she was heading past her desk.
“I thought you got axed,” the older woman said with her usual sensitivity, lighting a cigarette with a snap of a match.
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