Once more, guilt flooded her, but this time for a different reason. Serenity hadn’t intended to involve Sebastian. She would gladly give herself up to the police and confess if it meant he’d never be implicated.
Now, thanks to her, he was an accessory to murder.
There’s still time, she told herself, I can still go to the police.
When—if—Sebastian came back, she’d make him tell her exactly what he’d done with the body. Then she’d tell the police she covered up her crime alone. As far as the police were concerned, Sebastian didn’t even exist.
So where was he now? She didn’t think he’d slept in the bed with her, but she couldn’t remember him leaving.
Serenity chewed at her lip. She needed to go downstairs, into the kitchen, face what she had done. The thought made her feel sick and lightheaded all over again. She wasn’t sure if she could handle seeing the place where the murder happened. What if Sebastian hadn’t done as he said and left instead? What if she went downstairs and Jackson was still lying on the linoleum, covered in blood?
A sharp sob broke the silence and she pressed her hands over her face. Oh, God, how am I supposed to do this?
In that moment, she would gladly have Jackson alive again if it meant she didn’t have to walk down the stairs.
Her clothes from the previous night were nowhere to be seen. She picked her robe off the back of her occasional chair and, before pulling the garment on, she glanced down at herself.
Not a drop of blood marred her skin. All at once, she remembered the hot water and Sebastian holding her in the shower. She recalled the security of his arms protecting her from the horror of what had happened. He held her against his chest, his own clothes soaking as she clung to his neck, her face buried against his throat. She yearned for him then, desperately wanting his presence with every fiber of her soul.
Where was he?
Serenity’s legs trembled beneath her as she made her way to the bathroom. She expected to find her bloodied clothes on the floor, blood smeared across the sink and bath, but the bathroom was spotless.
A flicker of hope ran through her. Had she dreamed the whole thing? Maybe she’d gone crazy and none of this happened?
Was being insane better than the truth?
Like an old woman, she left the bathroom and went into the hallway, clutching frailly to the banister of the stairs. Her legs wobbled and her head swam. A couple of times she had to stop and compose herself. Silent tears ran down her cheeks.
She made it to the bottom, taking choking little gasps of breath before continuing.
Using the wall for balance, she stumbled along the hallway. Her heart pounded so hard she thought it might explode from her chest or burst blood vessels in her ears.
In her mind, she saw Jackson lying on the kitchen floor, one arm bent at an awkward angle behind his head, blood smeared glasses hanging off his face. She saw the blood, thick as oil, covering their old fashioned green linoleum. The vision had been burned into her brain and she would see her dead husband’s face every time she closed her eyes.
She didn’t want to do this, but she had to.
Taking a deep, shaky breath, she forced herself to walk into the kitchen.
It was empty.
In disbelief and amazement, she walked in, her bare feet treading on the floor that, only a few hours ago, had been saturated with her husband’s blood. Like the bathroom, the place was spotless. It looked as though nothing had happened.
Suddenly panicked she had imagined it all, she raced back up into the bedroom and slammed open the closet door. Desperately, she threw out shoes and bags, searching for the bag she had packed for herself.
The back pack was missing.
Empty out your bag, Sebastian told her. Pack some of his things. I can make it look like he’s left you.
Still in a panic, mind blurred, she yanked open Jackson’s drawers, one after the other, flinging out shirts, pants and underwear. Some of the items were gone; not much but enough to notice.
Clothes littered every surface but Serenity wasn’t finished yet. She opened the bedside drawer where Jackson kept his passport and discovered the document was missing. She went into the bathroom and saw what she hadn’t before; empty spaces on the shelf where his toothbrush and shaving kit normally stood.
Her chest heaved from the exertion and she took a moment to catch her breath. Only one room remained unchecked, the spare bedroom—the one Jackson used as an office. The room was tiny, barely big enough for his desk and a set of shelves. Serenity never went in there. Jackson had made it clear—if he ever found out she’d been in his office, he would make her pay. Fear that he’d set up some kind of trap stopped her from going in when he went out.
Even now, with Jackson dead, the idea of going in scared her. He’d trained her well.
With a shaking hand, she pushed open the door. The standby light on his PC glowed, a mountain of paper balanced beside the monitor.
His book, she thought with a pang of uneasy regret. He’ll never finish it now.
She wondered if anyone else had seen the manuscript, if he’d been in touch with anyone about publishing the book. Someone might notice his sudden lack of communication.
The uneasiness did a summersault in the pit of her stomach. What if someone reported him missing? How well would she hold up if the police came asking questions?
Serenity turned her attention back to the office. Stacks of men’s magazines were piled on the floor and several cups of old coffee stood congealing beside them. Crushed, empty beer cans piled high in the trash. Wafts of stale alcohol and feet washed over her.
This was what remained of her husband; this disgusting little room.
Sick to her stomach again, she backed out of the office and gently shut the door behind her. She would have to deal with his things at some point but not now.
Somehow, Sebastian had done this for her. He’d fulfilled his promise and made Jackson disappear. Her earlier thoughts about telling the police had been quashed. She didn’t know how Sebastian had managed everything so perfectly but she would never be able to fool the police into thinking she had done the cleanup alone. Now it wasn’t just her freedom on the line, but Sebastian’s as well.
A spark of hope flared up again. Didn’t doing this for her prove he cared?
What now?
Still shaken and terrified, the words ran over and over in her mind, like a foreign language she needed to practice but didn’t quite understand.
I killed Jackson. I killed Jackson. I killed Jackson.
The moments before she murdered him replayed in her mind. She hadn’t been aware of her actions; she simply reacted. Serenity remembered Jackson laughing at the thought of her trying to leave. After that, everything was a blur.
She compared herself to Jackson; how, after beating her, he would tell her he hadn’t meant it, hadn’t known what he was doing. ‘I don’t know what came over me,’ he would plead. ‘Why do you push me to do these things?’
Serenity could use all of those lines now. For the first time, she could put herself in Jackson’s shoes and she hated it.
The thought brought her tears back, but she forced herself to stop, worried they smacked of self-pity. Tears were another one of Jackson’s favorite hands to play. Had she really become like him?
What to do now? Continue as if nothing had happened?
Half an hour ago, she thought herself unable to eat again. Now her stomach churned, overly hungry and a little sickly. With the sensation came an intense craving for a cup of hot, sweet coffee.
Could she make breakfast in the room where she’d committed murder? The idea felt as crazy as the killing, but she found she could do it. Going back to the scene of the crime, she filled up the kettle with water from the tap and switched it on. She didn’t stop shaking, however, and kept glancing back at the spot where she’d last seen her husband.
Serenity tried to pile coffee into her cup, but her hands shook so badly the brown granules spi
lled over the countertop. She lifted the kettle and boiling water followed the granules, that too spilling over the counter. Not noticing the amount she put into the mug, she dumped full spoons of sugar into the murky brown liquid.
Taking her too sweet, too strong coffee into the living room, she curled up on the couch and tucked her bare feet beneath her. Out of habit, she reached for her necklace. Her fingers found nothing but skin. Of course, Jackson had broken it. The memory speared her with pain and she quickly snatched her hand away from her throat, pushing away the recollection to preserve her sanity.
For several hours, long after her coffee had grown cold in her hands, Serenity stared into space, lost in the river of thoughts and memories swelling around her, threatening to pull her under.
~*~
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Table of Contents
The Vengeful Vampire
Chapter One
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