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by Marjorie Celona


  C h a p t e r T e n

  Denny

  The sky was a pale colour, neither blue nor white nor grey, and it

  took Denny until Lewis was pulling into his driveway to realize

  that it was dawn and he’d been at the police station all night. He let himself into the house and bent down to hug Scout. Miraculously,

  his wonderful dog had held his bladder, and Denny praised him and

  apologized, then stood in the backyard under the awful sky while

  Scout peed in the snow.

  The dresser drawers were open in the bedroom, the bedclothes

  thrown to the floor. He walked from room to room, shutting drawers

  and cabinets, picking up clothing, books, shoes. Had he done this or

  had the police been here in the night?

  He made the bed and got into it, and held his dog. He leapt up

  and turned on the heat, then rushed into bed again, his breath visible in the frigid air.

  A few miles from where he lay, a search team was trying to locate

  his wife. He should be there, too, searching. The detectives obviously thought he had killed Vera. What a thought! Imagine him going out

  to Squire Point with Vera and—then what—murdering her? Burying

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  her body in the snow? To what end, he asked the detectives. Why

  would I do that? Marital problems, they said. Fertility problems.

  Infidelity. Life insurance policy.

  They would investigate every aspect of his life and marriage, the

  detectives told him. They would turn him inside out. He lay on his

  back and replayed the interrogation over and over, each time answer-

  ing their questions better, differently, more honestly, more deviously.

  He imagined an action scene from a movie: jumping from his chair,

  overpowering the detectives, fleeing the station. His hands began to

  ache and he held them to his body. He didn’t want to examine the

  thought, but there it was, floating in his mind. Maybe she hadn’t disappeared at all. Maybe he had driven her away. Maybe he had driven

  her to suicide. Leave me alone.

  He was relieved his parents were dead so they wouldn’t be dragged

  into this. Vera’s parents were driving up to Whale Bay, would be here tomorrow. Or was that today? It was already seven in the morning.

  A bird that he called the “whistle bird,” for lack of knowing what it was, began its morning whistling. When he and Vera had first moved

  into the house, he’d spent hours researching bird calls. So many dif-

  ferent kinds of finches. It had put him in a bad mood and he had

  given up.

  The pounding on the door startled him awake and he jumped from

  the bed and ran into the living room, where Scout was pawing the

  door with his big feet.

  It was Lewis, in plainclothes. Stylish jeans and a black parka,

  black leather boots with blue laces. He wore tortoiseshell sunglasses.

  Denny regarded him as if for the first time. He hadn’t considered

  until this moment that Lewis was a real person. But here he was,

  holding two cups of coffee and a bag of pastries, the bottom heavy

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  with grease. “My shift doesn’t start for another few hours,” Lewis said.

  “May I?” said Lewis, and Denny nodded and led him into the

  living room. They sat on the velvet couch and ate in silence and Lewis gave the last bite of his pastry to Scout. The dog looked back and

  forth between the men.

  “Scout and Vera are inseparable,” said Denny. “He’s nervous with-

  out her.”

  “A husky?” asked Lewis.

  “Mixed with something else, too, we think,” said Denny. “Lab or

  collie or shepherd.”

  “Heinz 57 variety then,” said Lewis.

  “Guess so.”

  “I had a border terrier when I was a boy,” said Lewis.

  Denny closed his eyes and felt the heaviness in his head, his heart,

  his hands. “You haven’t found her,” he said finally.

  “We haven’t.”

  “Well. Thank you for telling me, Officer Côté,” Denny said.

  “My name is Lewis,” Lewis said. “I mean, it’s okay to call me Lewis.”

  “I want you to know,” said Denny, “though I’m sure everyone says

  this, but I need to say it anyway. I don’t know where my wife is. And all I want is for her to come home.”

  “I believe you,” said Lewis. “I listened to what you said last night.

  And I believe you.”

  Outside, a rattling, a garbage can being knocked over. “Shit,” said

  Denny. He raced to the back door and into the yard, Lewis close

  behind him. A raccoon or possum, he couldn’t be sure, skittered away.

  “During the day? Really?” He bent down and righted the garbage can.

  Two trash bags sat a few feet away, ripped open, their contents spilled onto the pavement. “Oh, come on,” said Denny. He turned to Lewis.

  “You people are welcome to ransack whatever you want of mine if it

  will help you find my wife. But please.” He dragged the trash bags

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  back into the garbage can and wiped the tears that were falling fast

  down his face with the back of his hand. “Please don’t destroy my

  property in the meantime.”

  “Let me help you.” Lewis gathered the remaining trash and

  scooped it into the garbage can. One of the bags had torn and the

  ground was littered with cigarette butts.

  “You a smoker?” said Lewis.

  “It’s Vera. She’s going to quit. She’s down to two a day.”

  “Looks like a lot more than two,” said Lewis.

  “Well,” said Denny. “She was trying.”

  The men tossed the butts into the garbage can in silence, then

  returned inside and took turns washing their hands.

  “Listen,” said Lewis. “Why I’m here. There was a call placed on the

  Squire Point pay phone a few minutes before Vera called the police.

  We think Vera may have made this call.”

  “Okay?” said Denny. His eyes were heavy from lack of sleep.

  Lewis told him that someone—maybe Vera—had called a woman

  named Evelina Lucchi but the call had not gone through.

  “I don’t know anyone with that name,” Denny said. “As far as I

  know, Vera didn’t either.”

  “They’re about the same age. Maybe Vera had friends you didn’t

  know about?”

  “I don’t think so,” said Denny. “Look, I’m not that out of touch.”

  “We don’t know for sure that Vera placed the call. But we’re going

  to interview the woman to see if she knew your wife.”

  Who knows. Maybe Vera did have friends he didn’t know about.

  A secret life. He almost liked the idea. It was a better reality than the one in which he had driven his wife to flee him, or to kill herself.

  Some other friend. A secret romance. He smiled. Vera the lesbian.

  Why not?

  “What about the little boy?” said Denny.

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  “We have no new information.” Lewis took off h
is sunglasses,

  and Denny saw that his eyes were red-rimmed, exhausted. “No one

  has reported him missing, and the search team has found nothing.”

  Denny felt himself softening toward this man, who seemed so

  genuinely worried about his wife, him, even his dog. “Well, I hope

  the little boy is okay. Whoever he is.”

  The pastries had awakened a kind of deep hunger in Denny, and

  he knew if Lewis left he would eat a dozen eggs, then a whole box of

  cereal, and who knows what else.

  “I was going to make some eggs,” Denny said, not looking at

  Lewis but at Scout, who was lying on his side, panting slightly. Denny watched as Lewis knelt and patted Scout’s head, scratched him behind

  the ears.

  “Sounds nice,” said Lewis.

  They ate in the kitchen, standing up, not speaking much, while Scout

  nosed around in the snow outside. Denny dipped his toast into his

  egg yolk and raised it to his mouth. The food had perked him up a bit.

  He felt more rational and less guilty—more convinced that Vera was

  only lost in the woods somewhere and would soon be found. She was

  resourceful. She could build a lean-to, a shelter. He thought of her on her hands and knees, rubbing two sticks together.

  “A lean-to,” he said aloud, not meaning to, and Lewis raised his

  eyebrows but didn’t respond.

  The men looked at the ocean, visible between the snow-covered

  trees. Lewis gestured out the window toward Scout. “He’s got big

  paws, hasn’t he?”

  “We thought he’d be a lot bigger. Never did grow into his feet.”

  “Like me,” Lewis said, wagging his foot at Denny. “Twelves. And

  I’m not even six feet.”

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  “Like flippers,” said Denny, and the policeman laughed.

  The sound of laughter disturbed him. What if Vera was dead and

  could hear them laughing? “You know,” he said to Lewis, “she’s a

  wonderful filmmaker—her eye—she meant to make a living that way,

  to really pursue it, instead of teaching it. This kind of thing—when it happens—you realize you have to do the things you meant to do. Do

  you know what I’m saying?”

  Lewis set his plate on the counter and looked at Denny. “I think

  so. Maybe.” He gestured toward the wedding ring on Denny’s finger.

  “Did you make that?”

  “Yeah,” said Denny. “It’s meant to match Vera’s—the alexan-

  drite.”

  “What is alexander—”

  “Alexandrite. It changes colour depending on the light—red to

  green. They call it nature’s magic trick.” He tried to keep speaking

  but felt something in his chest, in his throat. “I can’t—”

  “Hey,” said Lewis. “She’s going to come home.”

  Was she? He looked at Lewis. “I think I’m going crazy, you know?

  Could we get out of here, take a walk with Scout?”

  “Sure, sure.”

  “I think I’m bored. I mean, bored out of my mind with worry. I

  need something to happen. I need something to happen besides what

  has already happened.”

  “I get that,” said Lewis.

  Denny whistled for Scout and the dog trotted into the kitchen

  and sat at his feet. The two men left the house. There was an owl

  somewhere in one of the Garry oak trees and Lewis and Denny

  stopped a minute to listen.

  “A barred owl,” said Denny. “This one I know. He’s here a lot.

  The neighbourhood is full of birds.”

  “Is that so,” said Lewis.

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  They trudged through the snow, past the other houses, some still

  lit up with Christmas lights. Professors’, accountants’, doctors’ houses.

  Denny imagined his neighbours rushing to their windows, watching

  him walk past. The Hill, the neighbourhood was called. The only

  way to walk was downhill, toward the town, and Denny felt an ache

  in his knees as he and Lewis navigated the slippery sidewalk.

  He thought of Vera stumbling through snowbanks, trying to find

  the road. Sticking out her thumb. Or waving wildly at a passing car.

  “I think I’m done walking. I don’t want to be out if she comes home.”

  “I should get going anyway,” Lewis said. “But, listen, if you

  remember anything, anything at all, or anything Vera said, call us.”

  They trudged back up the hill, and Denny watched the police-

  man drive off. And then he and Scout went back into the silent,

  empty house. He looked at the ceiling. He looked out the window.

  Who did he have left? Who was there to talk to? Who could he tell

  about his day if Vera never returned? What he wanted to do was

  tell Vera about all of this. “Vera! Vera, you’ll never guess what happened!” he wanted to say. “You disappeared!”

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  Evelina

  The bruises unfolded over Dmitri’s face like butterfly wings. The

  white light of the early morning came in through the slits in the

  blinds and Evelina watched her son play with the stripes of light on

  the floor. He ran to the window, hearing something. He told her there were two taxicabs outside and so she went to the window to see what

  was happening. “No,” she said, her hand resting on top of Dmitri’s

  head. “Those are police cars.”

  A woman named Vera Gusev had gone missing at Squire Point on

  New Year’s Day. She didn’t know anyone by that name. She sat at the

  kitchen table with two detectives and a police officer—nice men,

  gentle men, snow in their hair—her sons in their bedroom with the

  door closed. She was wearing the peacock feather earrings, something

  Leo would have chastised her for had he been there. His voice was in

  her head. She offered the men coffee.

  “This woman called my house?” she asked. She picked up a dime

  she kept on the table for her scratch cards and fiddled with it. “A

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  wrong number?” she asked. “I don’t know anyone named Vera Gusev.

  And my boys—well, neither of them is missing. They’re in their bed-

  room.”

  She felt a kind of ticking in her brain, like a fire crackling, some-

  thing about to ignite. She held her coffee cup to her face and looked at the detectives, at the policeman, who, she noticed, had a beautiful jaw.

  “Can you explain your phone activity on New Year’s Day?” one of

  the detectives said.

  “My phone activity?”

  “You placed two calls to local hospitals.”

  “I—” The ticking was getting louder in her mind, so loud it must

  be audible to the men. She took a loud sip of her coffee, hoping to

  muffle the sound.

  “We’d also like you to tell us about that evening, when you brought

  your boy in to be treated for bruising.”

  “I—”

  “We’re trying to piece together what has happened.”

  “My boys spent New Ye
ar’s Day with their father,” she said care-

  fully. Her heart was pounding as loudly as the ticking sound in her

  head. She pressed the soles of her feet to the floor. She felt she might float away from the table and through the kitchen window, get sucked

  out to sea by the wind. Surely Leo couldn’t have had anything to

  do with this. “They were late getting home. I got worried. Paranoid.

  I called the hospitals, to see, to see if there had been any accidents—”

  She looked at the men, but their heads were bowed; they were

  writing things down.

  “—but they came home shortly after. My youngest—Dmitri—

  hurt himself while he was with his dad. He fell on the ice. That’s why I took him to the hospital. Anyway, it’s just bruising. There’s real y nothing more I can tell you.”

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  “But the boys, and your husband, you can confirm they were at

  Squire Point on New Year’s Day?”

  “Yes,” she said. “They were. It’s a large—”

  “It’s a big park, yes,” said the handsome policeman. “We know.

  We’ve been there.”

  When they left, Evelina bolted the door. Her legs were shaking. She

  felt the caffeine in her bones, behind her eyes. She felt the weight of what the detectives had asked her deep in her abdomen.

  “They’re gone,” she said to the empty kitchen and seconds later

  Jesse was beside her. She decided to make a big breakfast to distract herself—boiled eggs, toast, potatoes, bacon, and fried tomatoes—and

  she put on music while she cooked. Her sons sat at the table. They

  listened to Al Green, then Sam Cooke. Dmitri was drawing a picture

  of Jesse. She kept reminding herself that everything was okay. They

  were eating breakfast together in their pyjamas. They were safe and

  warm. Dmitri’s face would heal. Jesse would turn eleven this year.

  They would be her boys forever. She did not know this woman

  named Vera Gusev who had called her home and then vanished. A

  coincidence. An anomaly. Also a coincidence that Leo and her boys

  had been at Squire Point that day.

  Still, she found herself unable to think of anything else.

  Why had the boys been so late getting home? Why had Leo seemed

  so sad when he dropped them off? Why had his clothes been wet?

  “Did you,” she began, her sons shovelling the breakfast into their

  mouths unceremoniously, “meet a woman out at Squire Point?”

 

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