by Eileen Wilks
Glass clinked. “The balance has shifted, but I’ve been Nokolai all my life. I won’t lose that. It’s too much a part of me.”
She set her shoulder harness on the bedside table where she could get it in a hurry, if needed. Shoes and jacket went in the closet. “And your gut said?”
He came into the bedroom carrying two glasses. “I wanted Leidolf around me. I wanted them to feel the change. They may not consciously notice, but they’ll feel it. Leidolf is truly mine now.”
“That’s a very dominant way of seeing it.”
His grin flashed. He held out one brimming glass. “I’m a dominant kind of a guy.”
In the lupi sense of the word, she reminded herself as she accepted the wine. He knew he was in charge—but of the clan, not her. Which was sort of the problem, considering what she needed to tell him. Lily took a sip of wine. “Hey. That’s really good.” Good enough to burst through her preoccupation and make her notice. “It tastes kind of like the sky looks up high in the mountains. You know—really saturated, but crisp.”
He took a sip, too, his eyes steady on hers. “I agree. I’ll have to tell the wine steward we approve. What is it you wanted to talk about that you can’t bring yourself to talk about?”
He was too damn perceptive at times. She sighed. “Before we left Clanhome, Cynna asked me to promise I’d let her know if we needed her. You said Cullen can’t make his Find spell work. We have two people missing that we’re pretty sure are hostages. We need Cynna.”
“No.”
He said that coolly and with complete assurance. It was exactly the reaction she’d expected. In his mind this was a clan matter—Nokolai clan, not Leidolf this time, but either way, his territory. “You don’t get to make that decision.”
“Lily, stop and think,” he said impatiently. “Bringing Cynna here could be the reason for all of this. Why is Friar kidnapping people? That’s what you keep asking, isn’t it? Maybe because he wants the best Finder in the country to show up and try to find them. Stealing the prototype might get her here, but if not, grab some people, too, because that’s exactly the sort of thing we’d need her for. Exactly the sort of thing she’d want to come here for. Cynna has no apprentice. If she were killed, the clan’s memories would be lost.” He shook his head. “It’s unthinkable.”
“And it’s still not your decision. Look.” She set her wine down on the bureau and went to him. “You lupi have been around for over three thousand years. In all that time, has a Rhej ever died before she could pass on the memories?”
His eyebrows went up. “It hasn’t happened, therefore it won’t? You usually argue better than that.”
She laid her hands on his chest, wanting the contact. “It hasn’t happened, and maybe there’s a reason. You protect your Rhejes in every way possible, and that’s got to be part of it. What if the Lady protects them, too? By warning them, maybe, in certain special circumstances. Like if a Rhej who hasn’t passed on the memories is about to do something that’s apt to get her killed.”
He was silent for a moment. “I’ve never heard of such a thing.”
“I’m pretty sure the Rhejes know a lot of stuff they don’t talk about.”
“The Lady doesn’t speak to her Rhejes often. I know that much.”
“Speech isn’t the only way she communicates with them, though. Hannah talked about having dreams or feelings about stuff. And the Lady is a patterner. Like Friar, only with aeons more experience and knowledge. She’d be able to read patterns really well. She’d have a good sense of when one of her Rhejes needs to stay home.”
He didn’t say anything. She felt the tension thrumming through him.
“When Cynna asked me to promise I’d call if we needed her, she said she might not be able to come. She wanted me to call, but she couldn’t say if she would come or not. I didn’t think much about it then, but later I got to wondering…was she just keeping her options open? Or did she think she’d get some kind of mystical thumbs-down if coming here was a bad idea? Either way,” she finished gently, “Cynna gets to decide. Not you or me.”
His breath gusted out. One corner of his mouth turned up. “Nice of you to include yourself in the we-don’t-get-to-decide-for-her ultimatum.”
“Yeah, well, I was tempted to find a loophole in my promise. Don’t think I wasn’t.”
“You’re going to call her.”
“I am. But not right this second.” She drifted her hands up to his shoulders. “I’m all talked out at the moment. You?”
He lowered his hands to cup her hips. Then he just looked at her, his gaze intent, as if he needed to find something in her eyes. Uncertainty pinched at her. “What? What is it?”
He smiled slightly and shook his head. “Nothing. Or nothing important, and I find I, too, am not in the mood to talk.” He bent his head and nibbled at her lips. “Especially not of unimportant things.”
She leaned into the kiss. He reciprocated for a moment, then pulled back, tending to the side of her neck instead of her mouth. Delicious little thrills raced over her skin, a goose-bumpy delight that made her smile as she reached for the buttons he’d just refastened on his shirt.
He smiled at her with lazy, hooded eyes and covered her hand with his. “Not yet,” he whispered, and turned her hand up and kissed her palm.
He wanted slow. He wanted lingering and teasing, and she was not in a patient mood. As with so much in a relationship, compromise was key.
She compromised by cupping his balls. And squeezing exactly the way he liked.
He gasped. When he smiled this time his eyes were still hooded, but not lazy. Not at all. “So that’s how it is, is it?” And he launched his counterattack.
Lupi move really fast when they want to.
She didn’t notice any buttons go flying, so maybe he’d unfastened her pants before sliding his hand inside. But then, she didn’t notice much at all except his fingers sliding, parting, moving. She forgot what she’d meant to do to him and grabbed onto his shoulders for balance—then, because her hands were right there, grabbed his head and pulled it down.
No more nibbling. This kiss was hot and deep, and she twisted against him, reveling in the flood of feeling. Wanting him to be flooded, too—to turn loose, pop the clutch, let go of that fearsome control he used and needed everywhere else in his life and go flying with her.
The flying buttons came from his shirt. It took her two tugs because he bought quality, and the thread didn’t break easily.
He laughed. His eyes were on fire and he laughed, full and delighted, and he jerked her tank up over her head and lowered his head and…
And she remembered something. “The door,” she said, as he traced a hot, wet path with his mouth along her collarbone and down.
“What door?” He hadn’t removed her bra. He didn’t let that stop him.
“The…ah, ah…” She had to pause and gulp in a breath. “The door to the bedroom. It’s open.”
He paused ever so briefly to glance that way. “But so very far away.” He resumed what he’d been doing.
Which was incredibly distracting, but she choked on a laugh and grabbed his head and said as firmly as she could, “Rule. The door.”
He flashed her a grin as impish and delighted as that of any little boy with a frog he meant to present to the girliest girl in class. He was thinking about making her forget the damn door, she knew it, and she wasn’t sure she’d be able to stop him, but the guards—they could hear too much. Even if they didn’t come out of their bedroom—and they wouldn’t. He’d sent them there and they wouldn’t come out until shift change, but even so—
“The door,” he agreed, and straightened and drew her hand to his lips again, but this kiss was placed softly on the back of her hand—a knight’s salute to his lady, not a seduction.
She used those few seconds to get rid of the bra and everything else, too. She might not be as fast as a lupus, but she was motivated.
He closed the damn door and turned and stopped,
looking at her. “Sometimes,” he said softly, and stopped, then started again, “I often wonder why human men are so fixated on how a woman looks when there’s so much more to explore, and so many kinds of beauty—why obsess over one particular version? But sometimes, when I look at you, I understand.”
And sometimes, when he looked at her the way he was now, she was beautiful. Not just okay. Not even really pretty. Beautiful.
“And you’re mine.” He sounded smug as he slipped off the shirt she’d ripped open and reached for the zipper on his slacks. “Not theirs. Mine.”
That smugness made her want to laugh because it was so innocent. Possessiveness was a forbidden delight for lupi, not one Rule was used to, and most of the time he was wary about indulging in it.
“And you’re mine,” she agreed when he came to her, and she put her hands on his wonderfully bare shoulders while down lower another part of his body said hello to her stomach. “The Lady says so.”
“As do I.” He kissed her lightly…then again…and again…and they were gasping and clutching and stroking all the delicious bare skin they could find, and stumbling in mutual haste to the bed, and when he slid inside her she felt jolted by reality—felt suddenly twice as real as usual, brimming with more than sensation. Full. So full.
He started to move and reality shimmered, breaking up into shards of need and demand. Rule!
Here. He moved smooth and fast. I’m here, right here with you, nadia, my love, my Lily…
It may have been pure startlement that broke the connection—his or hers or both. Certainly it broke their rhythm. She stared up into his astonished face. “Well,” she said, and gripped his waist and pushed up against him. “Well, that’s interesting, but so’s this.”
He grinned and followed her lead.
LILY lay sprawled on her back amid a tangle of bedclothes and Rule, breathing hard and frowning at the lovely but too-bright chandelier. “That’s stupid.”
Rule turned his face on the pillow—how had he ended up with a pillow, and where was hers?—to smile at her. “What is?”
“Most hotels don’t have ceiling lights. Why does this one? And the switch is all the way over there by the door. Why didn’t they put a switch by the bed? Stupid.”
Rule looked up at the light. After a moment he nodded. “You’re right. It shows a sad lack of planning.” He paused. “I can wiggle my toes again, however, so I’m sure I’ll soon be up to the challenge of sitting. No doubt walking will be possible soon after that.”
She smiled and snuggled closer. No matter how enthusiastic the sex, Rule recovered quickly, and in every way. It was nice to think she’d wrecked him for a little while, though. “You heard me. Earlier, I mean.”
“And you heard me.”
He didn’t sound sure. She nodded. “Does that freak you out?”
“A little. And yet…it was lovely, too.”
She propped herself up on an elbow so she could see him. “I didn’t do it on purpose.”
He smiled and toyed with a strand of her hair. “That much I knew.”
Since Lily had discovered her capability for mindspeech and began the sessions with Sam, she’d accidentally mindspoken Rule a few times. The first time was right after she nearly died. The others had been more random, in perfectly ordinary situations, like when she’d been trying to reach a bowl he’d put on the top shelf in the kitchen and was annoyed because it was supposed to be on the second shelf, where she could get it. That time, she remembered, the communication had been along the lines of, “Why can’t you remember to put things where they belong?”
It had never happened during sex, and she’d never “heard” Rule in return.
Eavesdropping on him that way him was intrusive and freaky and just as he’d said. Quite lovely. “I forgot to tell you, but earlier this evening I thought I had a breakthrough. Drummond was talking at me during the briefing with Bergman, and I told him to shut up. I mindspoke it,” she added, to be clear. “And he heard me, and I did it again later.”
Rule’s brows pulled together. He didn’t speak.
That made her frown, too. “What?”
“It bothers me, that’s all. You and Drummond seem to be getting downright chummy.”
Disconcerted, she swallowed her first retort. “You’re jealous. Of Al Drummond.”
“Don’t be ridiculous.”
Someone here was being ridiculous. She didn’t think it was her. “I don’t even like him, Rule.”
“You never wear the necklace. You could keep him away, and you don’t. It’s not a matter of him being potentially useful. There’s something else going on. I don’t understand.”
“I don’t know if I do, either, except that he has nothing. Literally nothing and no one, not even a body. It’s not just that he can’t move so much as a paper clip. He can’t touch the paper clip. When I make it so he can’t manifest, he can’t even see it.”
“You feel sorry for him.”
Yeah, she did, and that was kind of weird, considering what Drummond had done. But it wasn’t the whole story. “Maybe it’s some random roll of the dice that got him tied to me. Maybe there’s actually someone in charge who did this on purpose. I don’t know, but either way, it’s up to me to do the right thing. I’m not sure what that is, but making it so he can’t see the damn paper clip can’t be right.”
Rule sifted a hand through her hair. “You’re trying to do the right thing. That I understand. But I can’t help thinking he’s using this tie. Using you. In life, Drummond was a betrayer. He betrayed you and the Bureau. Do you really think dying changed him that much?”
“I don’t know, but—shit!” She rolled off him and grabbed for the sheet.
White, misty, and right there at the foot of the bed, Al Drummond sang out, “Incoming!”
TWENTY-SEVEN
AL Drummond really enjoyed the look on Yu’s face as she leaped out of bed. She probably figured he’d been hanging around while she made whoopee with her wolf man. He wasn’t that kind of creep, but that’s what she’d think. She’d probably come up with some way to make him pay for his grand entrance, but it would be worth it.
“It’s Drummond,” Yu said as she grabbed a fistful of clothes off the floor. “Who or what is incoming?” she demanded, stepping into her pants.
Al considered commenting on her lack of underwear. What could she do—hit him? Maybe later. He did have a warning to deliver. “I can’t tell,” he said. “It’s dark where the intruder is. He’s paying a visit via the ductwork.”
“The ductwork?” she repeated. Her lover—who’d sprung from the bed in that fluid, too-fast way lupi moved sometimes, which Drummond didn’t like at all—looked up and around. They both spotted the vent. “It isn’t big enough,” Lily said.
“The one in the other room is. That’s where he’s headed.”
“He says the intruder’s heading for the one in the sitting room,” she told Turner as she pulled her shirt over her head. She tugged it down and glared at Al. “So why the hell did you pop up in here? You could have materialized on the other side of the damn door.”
He smirked. “More fun this way.”
A low growl rose in the chest of her wolf man. Turner must have figured out where Al was by watching where Lily looked, because he seemed to look right at him. “Been hanging around watching, have you?”
He spoke to Al. Right to him. No one but Yu had done that since he died, and it shook him, how good that felt. Keep talking to me. Please. Please keep talking to me. “Maybe that’s how you get your jollies. Not my thing.”
Yu rolled her eyes. “Rule may see you now and then, but he can’t hear you. Come on.”
“See me?” He tried to grab her as she reached for her shoulder harness. Didn’t work, of course. It made him want to growl like the wolf man, or maybe howl like one.
The worst thing about being a ghost wasn’t when she went in the damn car. Even being alone, bad as it was, wasn’t the worst. It was the sheer, unrelenting uselessnes
s of his existence. Hell was being unable to do one damned thing, and maybe he’d earned a stint in hell. Maybe he deserved it. But God, what he’d give to be able to affect something. If Turner could see him…“What do you mean, he sees me sometimes?”
“Just what I said, and this isn’t the time to talk about it.”
Turner opened the door and moved silently into the other room. Drummond followed Yu through the door. He could go through walls, but he liked to use doors. Made him feel more real. She had her rig fastened by the time she stopped beside Turner. She drew her weapon and held it down at her side.
The two of them glowed. He’d told Yu that all the embodied had a glow, but these two lit up brighter than most…and brighter still when they stood close like that. Drummond thought he knew why. It was that weird, glowy cord stretched between them.
No one else had one. None of the people he’d seen since he died, anyway, and with nothing to do but watch, he’d been paying attention. He didn’t know what the cord-thing was, but it glowed like the living did. As if it was alive. It freaked him out. He stepped back, not wanting to touch the eerie thing.
Turner stood in front of the vent, studying it. Yu started to say something, but Turner tapped her arm and laid a finger to his lips.
“You hear something?” she whispered so softly that Drummond wasn’t sure he heard it with his ears. Well, whatever passed for ears with him like this. It wasn’t like when she’d talked in his head at the branch office, so it probably had to do with their goddamn mystical connection.
Turner nodded and tipped his head to one side. Yu glanced that way and nodded back as if she knew exactly what he meant.
Maybe she did. She went to the door to the other bedroom and opened it. She didn’t step inside, though, but whispered real softly again. “Get up. Be quiet. Someone’s coming.”