The frater was empty bar Jonathan, who sat before the fire, a large pot of wine in his hand. For a moment, Simon stood just inside the doorway, gazing about him, wondering about the doorkeeper and what he actually did for the convent.
In his experience, most doorkeepers and masters of priories were older fellows, men who could not be tempted by the young women within the precinct, men who had seen much of the world and who had chosen to retire from it into the sphere of ecclesiastical life. Their duties were simple: to protect the nuns from the unwanted attentions of people from the outside world. In return they had an easy life, mostly spent sitting in a warm gatehouse, granting visitors the necessary hospitality and avoiding unwanted interruptions to the daily round of services and work.
Simon reminded himself of the working of the convent as he went to the seated man. Jonathan would also be responsible for the receipt of accounts from the reeves and bailiffs, for storing all the goods produced within the priory’s demesne, for maintaining all contact with the secular world outside the gates.
And yet he sat here, ignoring his responsibilities at the gate, and similarly not attending the services or the chapter meeting.
Jonathan heard him and shot a look over his shoulder, spilling a little of his wine. Seeing who it was, he returned to his solitary study of the fire.
“Is the gate unmanned?” Simon asked as he approached.
“There’s a lay brother there. He doesn’t need my help.”
Surprised at the dead tone of his voice, Simon hesitated.
It was Jonathan who looked up and nodded towards an empty bench. “If you wish for ale or wine you’ll have to fetch it yourself.” He watched as Simon walked out to the buttery.
Sighing, Jonathan set his pot on the ground and put his hands over his eyes. He knew he was behaving ridiculously, but couldn’t stop himself. He had always been petulant, and this morning, when he had realised that his feelings for Paul weren’t reciprocated, he had come in here to think and drink until he had forgotten his misery. Later he would go to the church and try to soothe his soul and cleanse his spirit with prayer. After two pints of wine, the bitterness of his frustration had worn away.
There was nothing new about this sense of desperation. He had suffered from it often enough, especially when he was younger. Somehow the desires began to fade a little as he grew older, but that simply meant that there was a poignancy to each fresh encounter. He loved, but knew that his love could never be requited. It was his unending doom - a living hell in which he was forced to deny his own emotions.
The whole world appeared to abhor his kind of lust. His father certainly did, which was why Jonathan had been condemned to a life of prayer and service to God, in order that he could atone for the sin of his perverted attraction, and incidentally remain far away from his family where he could never again embarrass them.
Yet now he had heard that he was not alone. It wasn’t just he who found the male body infinitely more attractive than the female; rumours abounded that the King himself, Edward II, had taken the younger Hugh Despenser to be his lover, just as he had previously taken Piers Gaveston until that man’s execution by the King’s enemies. And that was why Jonathan now needed to sit alone before the fire, ignoring the summons to the chapterhouse, refusing to attend the church services; he knew his life was irrelevant. If he had been born to wealth, like the King, maybe he could have enjoyed the love he craved, but God had seen fit to deny him that solace; to punish him with this fixation. If he was King he could flout the law - but he wasn’t King.
He gazed sombrely at the bailiff who came and sat at his side. “How is your companion?” he asked.
“Sir Baldwin is resting, I thank you. He was fortunate. If he had been standing even a short distance to one side…‘ Simon held up his hands helplessly. ”He was lucky.“
“Some luck,” Jonathan said. He drained his pot and set it at his side, fixing Simon with a steady eye. “So did you come here to comment on an ageing doorkeeper’s laziness, or to chat about your friend’s near-death? Or perhaps there was some more pressing reason for your walking in here?”
“I wanted to ask, er…‘ Simon met Jonathan’s gaze, and suddenly his resolve faded.
“Whether I was on top of the church and pushed the girl at your friend?”
“She was murdered before she got up there.”
The canon gaped, but then blinked and gave Simon a curious look, his head set to one side like an intrigued terrier. “You’re not so foolish as you can appear, my friend. Let me assist you to another pint of wine. My pot is empty.”
“Here, have some of this,” Simon said, pouring from his own jug.
Jonathan sat back and held his feet to the fire, wiggling his toes. “I had no idea the poor little thing was murdered. She was killed and tossed over the wall like a rock hurled at a besieging army? That’s disgusting.”
“Whoever it was also threw a tile at Baldwin intending to kill him. I want to know where people were when all this happened.”
“It was between Prime and Terce, wasn’t it? You’ll have your work cut out to discover where everyone was at that time. The canons should all sit and read in the cloister, but that only happens in the really well-regulated priories, and I am sure you will have observed that this one…‘ he waved a hand airily and belched ’… this one is hardly on that sort of level. No, here everyone gets on and sees to themselves. Some come and chat here in the frater; others go to the cloisters, it’s true, while some walk in the gardens, thinking.”
“Where were you?”
“Me?” Jonathan asked sadly. “I was alone in the orchard, waiting for a friend to meet me, but I fear he didn’t come.“
Simon saw his mood, but he had no time to worry himself about the reason’s behind it. “Did you see anyone there?”
“I did see the smith, Elias. He was hanging around by the wall to the nunnery, but I saw no one else.“
“There was a girl here last night. A whore servicing the canons - is that right?”
“Yes. So what? Even canons have desires, you know.”
“But… chastity?”
“God’s bones! What of it? Do you think all those who live in cloisters are capable of meeting each and every strict demand of the Orders we serve? I doubt whether God could be so cruel.”
“Does the prioress know?”
Jonathan took a deep breath. “My dear fellow, there is next to nothing ever happens in this place without her knowledge. She is the spider, sitting in the middle of her web, with strands reaching into every nook and crevice of the priory, and when a canon sneezes or coughs, she knows. Did she know that a girl was here yesterday, you ask? Well, I answer, yes. She not only knew, she probably spoke to the girl.”
“That’s hard to believe.”
“Bailiff, I retract my suggestion that you are not so foolish as you look. Have you not heard of the prioress’s sin? The girl is Rose - Lady Elizabeth’s daughter.”
Chapter Seventeen
The hardest part for Jeanne was admitting that she had no idea why the suffragan had demanded that Simon and Baldwin should go to Belstone. As far as Bishop Stapledon was concerned, it was ridiculous that two secular men should be sent to a convent for nuns, and strange indeed that the reason for their mission should be concealed. With Jeanne’s permission, he had sent one of her grooms to Crediton on a fast horse, with a request that Peter Clifford should tell him the cause.
Now he paced up and down, the reply gripped tightly in his hand, chewing at his lip and scowling. Walter Stapledon was no fool, and he could easily understand the urgent desire of Bertrand to squash any rumours - especially in a case like this, where the treasurer of the priory had alleged that the murderer was…
He stopped that line of thought. Lady Elizabeth was well-known to him. There was no possibility of her being guilty of this crime. Surely not. Stapledon’s frown deepened; there was that story in 1300, before Stapledon became bishop, that she had given herself to a man… but S
tapledon shook his head with decision. That a woman could lapse was not evidence that she could murder. The two crimes were utterly different. Lady Elizabeth was too urbane and refined for murder. No, it must be someone else, and Stapledon could only hope that she had not taken umbrage at Bertrand’s less than subtle manners. Stapledon pursed his lips. There was little likelihood that she would have suffered Bertrand gladly. Stapledon knew both reasonably well and the thought of Bertrand standing before her pointing an accusing finger and declaring her to be a murderer - the bishop winced at the thought.
The only thing that mattered was keeping news of this away from the general public. If it should become common knowledge, the nunnery could be closed, and that was a horrible prospect.
Very well, Stapledon thought to himself with resignation. I shall have to go and make sure that any ruffled feathers are soon smoothed.
Yet when he announced his intention, Jeanne was aghast. “Look at the weather! You can’t go out in this - think what it could be like in an hour or so! And getting to Belstone is not so straightforward as riding to Crediton. It’s much farther - you couldn’t get there before nightfall even if it was summer.”
Going to the door, Stapledon was forced to agree. The snow was light, simply a thin scattering of tiny flakes so far, and the road was not hidden; the air was too warm and the snow melted as soon as it landed, forming a thin, muddy sludge, but Stapledon knew only too well how different the weather could be on Dartmoor, for he was a Devonshire man, born and bred. He gauged distances in his mind and decided. “You’re right. We’d not make it to Belstone today; we shall need to travel as far as possible, though. We should be able to reach Bow before nightfall, and it would be a short enough journey from there. Yes, that would be all right,” he said.
He turned to the buttery and ordered his men to prepare to continue. When he returned to the hall, Jeanne saw his mood had not improved.
“My Lord, please sit and finish your wine,” she said gently.
Stapledon thanked her and sat down in Baldwin’s chair, but he glanced through Peter Clifford’s message once more and then muttered what Jeanne thought must be a curse. “Bertrand!” he exclaimed, and struck the arm of the chair.
As Jeanne watched in horror, the arm fell to the floor. Stapledon forgot his anger and stared at it, but even as he realised what was happening, he felt the rocking, heard the ominous creak. His eyes met Jeanne’s as there was a loud report, and then the seat collapsed.
Simon Puttock sat gaping after the doorkeeper long after the man had left the room. When a lad, Simon had been taught by the canons at Crediton. It had been drummed into him that the Church had a sacred duty to save souls; for them to achieve their duty, all clerics were men of integrity, led by their most responsible and honourable representative. It had been rammed into him while he was a boy, and he had never quite lost the conviction that those who wore religious robes were somehow different from others.
It was hardly incredible that a nun should be guilty of giving birth to a child - Simon was no fool, and news of such incidents were all too common, if regrettable - but that the prioress of a convent should do so had never occurred to Simon. It disgusted him, as if she had openly offered herself to all the men of the village.
Simon took a deep gulp of his wine and then grinned to himself. What was more astonishing was his reaction, he realised, leaning back in his seat. The woman was hardly young, and yet she presumably had only been a prioress for a few years, since her lapse - if the story of her lapse were true. When she had been younger, she had taken a lover, perhaps only the once, and had fallen pregnant. To fail was human; surely since then she must have proved herself to be devout, and that was why she had been elected to lead her community.
Although whether they would do so again was a different matter, he thought, remembering the holes in the roofs of the main buildings and the freezing wind that whistled around the dorter.
He stood. The girl was not here. He would go and try to speak to the prioress. If Jonathan was right and the Lady Elizabeth had spoken to the girl, she herself might have heard something.
About to seek her, he hesitated, remembering Bertrand. He’d last seen the visitor hurrying towards the stables. Bertrand was supposed to be sorting out the trouble here; it was Simon’s duty to tell him about Rose. Simon was torn. He didn’t want to give Bertrand another excuse to proceed against the prioress, but at the same time didn’t feel he had the right to warn Lady Elizabeth.
Simon fretted but his duty was clear; he walked out to find the suffragan.
***
Baldwin groaned as the pain shot through his skull like a red-hot bolt from a crossbow. He half-expected to smell the singed hair and cooked flesh, and cried out as he tried to move his head again, but his mouth was oddly quiescent, as though it had been bound with velvet cords.
He tried to sit up, but his arms wouldn’t obey and it was only with an effort that he could force his eyelids open.
The room was red, warm, safe. He stared directly ahead of him, feeling the massive weight of his body; it felt so gross, he was sure the bed upon which he lay couldn’t support him. He felt as if he was slowly falling through the mattress, and the panic rose in his breast: he would suffocate! The bedclothes would rise up on either side and swallow him, smothering him in their warm embrace.
Even as he reached this conclusion, he forced down his fear with logic: the mattress was solid. He couldn’t fall through, it was impossible. His fear was the result of the drugs. Pillows and mattresses couldn’t engulf men. He forced himself to breathe slowly, concentrating on the flames of the fire.
A fresh blow of pain battered at his head, and he heard a low moan issue from his lips, as though it came from another person. He was not part of his body; he was near it, but somehow dislocated, a most curious sensation. However, before he could consider his state further, a shadow approached.
Immediately he was convinced that now, while he was incapable of defending himself, he would be attacked. For some reason he was sure that a hand would soon appear above him, from the head of the bed, drifting forward slowly, fingers outspread, before falling to cover his mouth and nose, extinguishing his life.
The feeling disappeared. He saw that the figure approaching was a woman in a nun’s habit. Such a person could be no threat. Dimly, he recognised Constance’s anxious but comforting eyes, and he wanted to smile back, but his mouth wouldn’t obey.
Elias had not joined his brethren for the service. He had sat in the small yard, waiting desperately for Constance so that they could talk; he had to explain why their escape was so essential, but she didn’t appear. Instead, as the singing in the church faded, he had lifted his eyes to meet the stern gaze of the prioress.
“It won’t do, young man. You cannot have her. She is already married to Christ.”
Elias fell back as if struck. Lady Elizabeth walked forward until she was at the metal screen, and Elias couldn’t meet the look in her serious face.
“Nothing to say? Well, Elias, you have misbehaved with her, but now she has partially come to her senses. She is pregnant -you knew that? Ah well, of course you did,” she added almost to herself. “That was why you wanted to take her away from here, wasn’t it? So that you could look to both mother and child somewhere. And how would you have done that?”
“I can smith - I could earn enough for us in any town or village.“
“And which town or village would allow you, a wandering stranger dragging two useless mouths behind you, to stay long enough to demonstrate your skills? Don’t be a fool! You would wander the streets, declaring your love for your wife, for such you would call her, and move from one small town to another, seeking work ever more desperately. And your child would die, of course: how could a baby live in the cold and damp for days without a roof overhead? Constance would have to give birth beneath a hedge, and she would be weak and fractious. You would love her and your offspring at first, but after days or weeks you would grow to hate them
both; your child you would detest as a muling, squalling brat, a blob of vomit and excrement; Constance you would grow to loathe, for as you struggled to keep you and she alive, she would always demand more, saying that your baby needed warmer clothes, or a better shelter, or any one of a thousand things a mother wishes for her child.”
“I wouldn’t -I couldn’t grow to hate her!” Elias declared hotly.
“You would,” she stated quietly. “And you would cause the death of your baby.”
“No!”
Seeing the desperate sadness in his eyes she wanted to stop in compassion, but she couldn’t. The thoughts were all there from twenty-one years before when she had run through the same things with Rose’s father, and it all spilled out in a torrent.
“You would refuse to stay near here; you would insist on moving further away to be free from any attempt to recapture you both, from the risk that you would be taken to another convent many miles distant to ensure that you and she never thought of escaping your vows again. While large with child, moaning and complaining that she had no energy left to run, you would force her to walk on,” Lady Elizabeth continued relentlessly. “And even as she gave birth, you would be looking over your shoulder to see whether the Bishop of Exeter’s men were following you.”
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