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by Aly Martinez




  The Fall Up

  Copyright © 2015 Aly Martinez

  All rights reserved. No part of this novel may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted without written permission from the author except for the use of brief quotations in a book review. This eBook is licensed for your personal enjoyment only. If you would like to share this book with others please purchase a copy for each person. This eBook may not be re-sold or given away to other people.

  The Fall Up is a work of fiction. All names, characters, places, and occurrences are the product of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to any persons, living or dead, events, or locations is purely coincidental.

  Editor: Mickey Reed

  Cover Designer: Hang Le of By Hang Le

  Interior design and formatting: Stacey Blake of Champagne Formats

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  Chapter Twenty-Seven

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  Epilogue

  Other Books

  Acknowledgements

  About the Author

  To my husband:

  No hero ever written could do you justice.

  Not even the ones who are six foot five.

  You were, after all, the original “badass.”

  I love you even when I hate you.

  And that’s a lot.

  IT WAS RAINING. Isn’t that the way all great love stories start? And also usually end? The midnight air was cool against my skin as I stared off that bridge. My blond wig was secured in place by a headband, and chunky sunglasses covered my whiskey-colored eyes. I didn’t look like myself any more than I felt it. Bruises from the night before painted my legs while fresh scabs covered my knees, but it was the hollowness in my chest that hurt the most.

  Yep. Still me.

  Which was exactly why I was standing on that bridge, wishing for the mental fortitude to hurl myself off.

  A man’s voice interrupted my thoughts. “You finally gonna do it tonight?”

  I instinctually smoothed my fake hair down and pressed the bridge of my glasses closer to my face, sealing out any possible glance he could catch. I stared ahead as I snapped, “Excuse me?”

  “I’ve seen you here three nights in a row now. I was just wondering if tonight was going to be the night you finally jump.”

  My eyes flashed wide, but since they were covered by the dark glasses, my reaction remained hidden. “I just like the view. That’s all.” What a load of shit.

  I watched him nod out of the corner of my eye. “Yeah me too. It’s gorgeous up here.”

  Shuffling my feet to the side, I attempted to slip away as he pulled a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and offered it my way.

  “You want one?”

  I shook my head and then crept down a few inches to put distance between us.

  “Suit yourself.” He used a hand to shield the lighter from the wind, but the constant sprinkle of rain made his task impossible. “Damn it,” he cursed with the cigarette tucked between his lips. “Little help?” he asked, swinging his gaze to mine.

  Arching an eyebrow, I asked, “With what?”

  “It’s raining…and windy…and I’m trying to burn one.” He tilted his head, equally as incredulous.

  “You want me to call God? We had a bad breakup recently, but he might be willing to do me one last favor.”

  He breathed an exaggerated sigh of relief. “That would be fantastic. What’s the big guy’s response time like these days? Last time we spoke, it was”—he paused to look at his watch—“oh, twenty-seven years.”

  A soft laugh bubbled from my throat, and one side of his mouth lifted in a gorgeous grin.

  “I’m not exactly in the mood to wait that long, so maybe you could just block the wind with your body?” His smile spread as he stepped toward me, forcing my gaze to nervously bounce away.

  “Sorry. Can’t help you there. Lung cancer and I broke up too.” After gathering the back of my wig into a ponytail, I pulled it over my shoulder and turned away from him. The chill of the wind blasted my face and roared over my ears as it rushed past me.

  I went back to staring out at the dark, choppy water, becoming lost in the idea of how cold it might be.

  Is tonight the night?

  No.

  My feet would more than likely never leave the edge of that bridge, but there was a definite reason why I was imagining ending it all. Exactly zero other people in the world would understand why. I had it all, and I dreamed about losing it all—more often than I would ever admit, even to myself.

  After stepping out of my heels, I slipped my foot between the bars on the railing. The wind slammed my bruised leg against the metal. “Shit,” I hissed as pain shot through me.

  “You think that hurts? Imagine falling twenty-five stories then crashing into the water, which might as well be concrete, at speeds upward of seventy miles per hour,” the man said, leaning on the metal railing next to me.

  “Wow. Someone’s done some research,” I said sarcastically, barely sparing him a glance.

  “Daily,” he responded frankly, causing my surprised gaze to swing to his. Simply shrugging at my reaction, he turned his back to the railing and propped himself up on his colorfully tattooed forearms. “You forget I’ve been here the last three nights in a row too.” He smirked, lifting the cigarette up to his lips for a deep inhale.

  “Listen, I’m not going to jump if you’re some kind of caped crusader on a mission. I just needed some fresh air.” I pointedly glanced at his cigarette.

  A laugh escaped his mouth in a grey puff. “Fresh air is overrated. Especially given the reason you’re standing here.” He knowingly arched a dark-brown eyebrow.

  “Riiiiight,” I drawled, rolling my eyes behind my glasses. “Okay, well, I was just heading out anyway.”

  “Then my work here is done.” He bowed, and the corner of my mouth lifted in a smile as I stepped back into my shoes and walked away.

  I shook my head at the random stranger. Then, a thought struck me, stopping me only a few feet away. Spinning back to face him, I asked, “Wait. Were you reaching out to me as a cry for help?”

  “Oh look. Designer Shoes has a conscience!” He dropped his cigarette to the damp ground, stepping on it with the toe of his well-worn, black boots. Bending over, he picked the butt up and tucked it in his pocket.

  At least he didn’t litter.

  “Oh look. Tattooed Stalker has jokes!” I smarted back.

  He smiled, pulling another cigarette from his pocket and then pausing just before guiding it between his lips. “Were you judging me based on my tattoos? I’m offended.” He feigned anguish then laughed while lifting his lighter to once again battle the wind for a nicotine fix.

  I wanted to walk away, but he wasn’t wrong. I did have a conscience, and right then, I was worried that it might really be his night to make good on his apparent numerous visits to the bridge.r />
  With a huff, I headed back toward him, praying that I could wrap it up as quickly as possible then head back to my house for a few hours of sleep. Or, more likely, lie awake while staring at the ceiling and crying.

  “Are you planning to jump for real?” I asked.

  His smile fell as he focused on the water. “Nah. I don’t have the balls to do something like that. Talking to you wasn’t a plea for help or anything. You just look worse than usual tonight.” His gaze slid down to my battered legs.

  “Oh!” I exclaimed in understanding. “That’s not at all what you’re thinking. I fell down some stairs.”

  He quirked his lips in disbelief.

  “I’m serious!”

  “I’m sure you are,” he told the wind. “You can go. I’m good.”

  I could have walked away, but for some reason, I pulled my jacket tighter around my shoulders and silently stood there while he finished his cigarette.

  After a final deep inhale, he flicked it over the railing of the bridge.

  Apparently, he does litter.

  Turning to me, his face became serious. “You need to call the cops before he makes the decision to end it all for you.”

  “Who?” I asked, watching the burning ember hit the metal column then explode in a million different sparks before disappearing down to the water below.

  Lucky cigarette.

  “The stairs…and whatever inanimate object you’re blaming for those bruises you’re hiding behind sunglasses at one in the morning. You should call the cops before…” His voice trailed off, but his dark gaze narrowed on mine. His eyes bored into my hidden stare, combining with the rain and wind to send chills down my spine.

  I took the moment to secretly assess him. He was insanely sexy, but nothing like the men I was accustomed to. His chin was the kind of scruffy that made women weak, but it was obvious he didn’t pay four hundred dollars for his personal hairstylist to shape it. Judging by his shaggy, brown hair that begged for me to thread my fingers in it, I wasn’t sure he was even a barbershop kind of guy. He stood a few inches taller than I was in heels, so I pegged him at around six one. And while his tattooed forearms were deliciously sculpted and his shoulders were notably defined, his body didn’t appear to be swollen with muscles from hours spent at the gym. By the aura of bad boy he gave off, I would have expected him to be a self-consumed, arrogant prick.

  He wasn’t though.

  He was just an average guy worrying about the well-being of an average girl.

  Only he couldn’t have been more wrong, and a pang of guilt hit me hard.

  Just not hard enough for me to do anything to correct his assumptions about who I was.

  Very softly, I attempted to put his fears to rest. “I promise it’s not what you’re thinking.”

  “Okay,” he responded, unconvinced. He nodded to himself before dragging another cigarette from his pocket.

  I watched him struggle for a second before I scooted towards him, using my body to block the wind.

  Biting the cigarette between his straight, white teeth, he smiled devilishly around it. “Thanks.” Flicking the flame to life, he hunched over until a stream of smoke swirled up from the red tip.

  “You should stop smoking.”

  “Noted.” He exhaled through his nose.

  We went back to silently staring over the side of the bridge. The familiar lights of the San Francisco skyline danced all around us. And, even as tourists and locals alike passed by us, I felt an odd, and unbelievably comfortable, isolation standing there with him.

  When my teeth began to chatter, his attention was drawn my way. “I’m not here to jump. You really can go.”

  I nodded but didn’t move away.

  He chuckled, crossing his arms over his chest and rubbing his biceps for warmth.

  “How are you not frozen?” I asked, taking in his thin Henley for the first time since we met.

  Shrugging, he dropped his cigarette, answering as he bent to retrieve it. “Thick skin? I’m used to it? I come here a lot? I’m half Eskimo?”

  I eyed him suspiciously. “You’re cold, aren’t you?”

  “Fucking. Freezing,” he admitted, tucking his arms close to his body and blowing into his hands. “I just came up here for one smoke. Then I saw you. Now, come on. Be a lady and loan a man a jacket,” he joked, tugging on the edge of my coat.

  I laughed, hugging it even tighter around my body and stepping out of his reach. “How about we both just leave? Then neither of us have to worry about the other plummeting to their death.”

  “Sounds like an amazing plan.” He shoved his hands into the pockets of the tattered jeans riding low on his hips. As we began the hike back down to the foot of the bridge, he asked, “You have a name, Designer Shoes?”

  I smiled and shook my head, not willing to lie—or divulge the truth.

  “Yeah. Me either,” he replied.

  I bit my bottom lip to suppress a laugh.

  Side by side, we trudged the rest of the way in silence.

  When we got to the foot of the bridge, he turned to face me and sighed. “Well, I genuinely hope I never see you again.”

  My head snapped back in shock, and maybe a little hurt.

  But he quickly corrected himself. “No! I just mean… Shit.” He ran a nervous hand through his hair while I watched, amused. “I just mean, given the way we met… I…um. I hope you never have a reason to go back up there.”

  I teasingly tipped my head to the side. “But I really like the view.”

  He cleared his throat. “Right. Of course, the view. Okay, well, have a good night.”

  “You too.” I smiled tightly, but my feet didn’t budge. I told myself that it was because I didn’t want him to see my car or the bodyguard waiting for me behind the wheel. But, in reality, I just wasn’t ready to leave. Home wasn’t where I wanted to be. I didn’t actually want to be anywhere.

  Not even standing at the foot of a bridge, talking to a witty and sexy man.

  Okay, maybe I wanted that a little bit.

  “Yep. Have a good night,” he repeated, shoving his hands inside his pockets and slowly backing away.

  I gave him a quick wave, which he returned before he jogged in the other direction.

  I smiled to myself, shaking my head at the entire interaction—secretly lamenting that it hadn’t been longer.

  The next day …

  “YOU HAVE TO come with me, Miss Williams,” Devon, my bodyguard, said, pressing his finger against the small speaker in his ear.

  “No. I really don’t.” I glanced back at the line of young girls. Lifting a finger in their direction, I signaled for a second. Dropping my voice to an angry whisper, I snapped, “I don’t care what Stewart told you. I’m not leaving.” I flashed the girls another smile before watching him repeat my words into the microphone on the sleeve of his suit coat.

  Devon extended a ringing phone in my direction, but I quickly pressed end, knowing that my manager, Stewart, was on the other end.

  “Tell him to get his ass down here if he wants me to cut this short.”

  “Yes, ma’am,” Devon replied.

  I turned my attention back to the line of girls freaking out and furiously snapping pictures of me with their cell phones.

  “Hey, sweetheart,” I cooed, walking in the direction of a little girl no older than eight. Tears were streaming down her face as I took in her bald head, which was wrapped in a Levee Williams bandana, and a slew of wires and tubes dangling from her frail body.

  “Thank you so much for doing this,” a woman, who I assumed was her mother, said with red-rimmed eyes while snapping pictures.

  “No. Thank you.” I hugged the woman before squatting down to the little girl for a huge embrace I wasn’t nearly prepared for.

  As her tiny body slammed into mine, I was rocked off my heels, falling backwards with her still in my arms. Security, doctors, and parents all tried to catch me, but my ass found the tile floor first.

  “Oh my G
od!” the little girl gasped, tears of embarrassment welling in her eyes. “I’m so sorry.” She frantically scrambled to her feet, continuously apologizing.

  My expression mirrored hers. “Oh my God. Are you okay?” I patted down her small shoulders and straightened the oxygen cannula in her nose. “Did I hurt you?”

  She shook her head and rushed to her mother.

  “I’m so sorry,” I apologized, feeling like a clumsy-ass for having made such a sick little girl cry.

  Her mother shook her head, dismissing my apology, and mouthed to me, “She’s just embarrassed.”

  “I’m embarrassed,” I mouthed back.

  Stewart suddenly appeared at my side. “Levee, what the—”

  I snapped twice and lifted a finger over his mouth, silencing him midsentence. “What’s her name?” I asked.

  “Morgan,” the woman replied with a kind smile.

  “Hey, Morgan.” I approached her, dropping to my knees. “I’m really sorry about that. I’m such a klutz sometimes.” I lifted the edge of my maxi dress, revealing one of my legs. “Look.” I pointed to the bruises and scrapes on my legs. “I even fell down the stairs at a rehearsal the other night.” I rubbed her back, and she peeked over her shoulder, flashing me a smile that relieved the tension in my shoulders.

  “I know. I saw it on YouTube.”

  I returned her grin. “Ah, yes. My dear friend YouTube. Always there when I need it,” I teased.

  She began giggling at my joke.

  “So, what do you say? Can we maybe try that hug again?” I reached down and made a show of pulling my heels off and dropping them one by one to the ground beside me. Squatting down like a baseball catcher, I motioned for her to come at me. I braced myself as she rushed in my direction then slammed into my arms a second time. I took a deep breath, holding her tight as she giggled.

  Stewart’s loafers moved into my periphery. “Levee, we need to go,” he ordered.

  Morgan began to release me at his words, but I squeezed her even tighter. “Nope. Not done yet.”

  She was amused by my joke, but I was pissed the hell off that Stewart had had the audacity to interrupt that moment.

  “Guess what? I think I have some special surprises in the back.”

  Her eyes lit up.

 

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