The Fall Up

by Aly Martinez

  Sliding my arm under her head, I said, “I told you he was your Kevin Costner.”

  “Oh, hush,” she teased, rolling to my side.

  “For what it’s worth, I think you’re doing the right thing. Hiding doesn’t help anyone,” Henry said, climbing off the bed and moving to the chair in the corner. “You still planning to step away for a little while?”

  Levee’s head tilted back to look at me. While holding my gaze, she responded to Henry. “Yeah. I really think I need to.”

  “Good. Then call Stewart. Make an official statement. Blast it everywhere, and then get better so I can stop spending my weekends alone with you two. It’s making me horny. I can’t even remember the last time I got laid.”

  “Tuesday. The photographer,” she informed him. “I got the play-by-play on Wednesday.”

  Henry smiled fondly. “Ah, yes. I should call him.”

  She turned her attention back to me. “Are you sure you’re ready for all of this? I’ll totally understand if you want to stay out of it.”

  “What do I have to lose, Levee? I’m in this with you one hundred percent, and if it means you get to stop hiding and we get to live a life…together, I’m ready for it all with you.” I smiled, kissing the tip of her nose. “And yes, I’ll sign the copyright release on that too.”

  With a groan, she lifted her phone to dial. “Nah. You can keep that one. It wasn’t that great.”

  “What!” I exclaimed.

  “Yeah, not your best work. You really should have tried harder.”

  “Seriously?”

  “Oh, come on. Don’t look at me like that. That wasn’t anywhere close to as good as ‘I want to struggle with you.’ Sorry, Sam. I think you were a one-hit wonder.”

  “Well, we can’t all be Levee Williams, I guess.” I tickled her until she rolled off the bed with the phone to her ear.

  “Stewart? We need to talk.”

  For over an hour, Levee paced the room, talking on the phone. Henry sat in the corner, alternating between listening to her and whispering his opinion. I sat silently on the bed, wondering what the hell they were talking about. I was a smart guy. But I swear they were speaking a different language. From what I gathered, they were debating the pros and cons on what details Levee should release in her official statement.

  Finally, when she hung up, she dropped her chin to her chest and announced, “And now, we wait.”

  “That’s it?” I asked, rising to pull her into a hug.

  “Yep. My publicist will do the rest.”

  “Let me know if you need anything. I’m going to see if the sexy photog sends dirty pictures.” Henry rubbed his palms together before heading down the hall to his rooms—plural.

  When Levee had originally said that we needed to do a press release, I hadn’t been quite sure what to expect, but it sure as hell wasn’t lying in bed while staring at our social media accounts.

  “Oh, oh, oh. It’s up,” she said, sitting up in bed.

  When I refreshed my rePURPOSEd Instagram account, a notification appeared that I had been tagged in a photo.

  It was a picture of Levee and me from earlier that night. I was pretty sure Meg had taken it on her cell phone, but it was utterly breathtaking. We were huddled together while talking to Henry. I was holding a beer and laughing, and Levee was pressed up on her toes, kissing my cheek, her smile visible even from the side. My arm was anchored around her waist, and her hand sat lovingly on my stomach.

  The post read: Once upon a time…I fell in love with Spiderman. #TrueStory

  I knew that Levee hadn’t posted that picture. Some publicist or assistant somewhere had pressed the magical button, sharing our intimate moment with the world.

  But I knew with absolute certainty that Levee had penned the message, and even though it was a load of shit, it meant the world to me.

  Grabbing my hand, she intertwined our fingers. “Don’t let go. No matter what, okay?”

  Staring into whiskey-brown eyes that represented the rest of my life, I knew there was only one answer. “Never.”

  My life changed that night.

  She was right.

  Everything was different.

  But, even as pictures of us flashed on the screen while news stations reported that Levee Williams was checking into a mental health treatment program for depression and a possible suicide attempt, one thing remained the same.

  Us.

  She drew circles on my chest as we stayed up into the wee hours of the morning, laughing and talking like two people madly in love.

  And, at the end of the day, that was all we really were.

  Our relationship had absolutely nothing to do with Levee’s celebrity status or my lack thereof.

  She wasn’t the princess.

  And I wasn’t the pauper.

  She was just a sad girl who liked to write songs.

  And I was nothing more than a simple guy who was lucky enough to have made her fall in love with him.

  LEVEE HAD BEEN gone for thirty days.

  Thirty unbelievably chaotic days.

  The first week had been hard. Just like in Maine, Levee had gone into a black-out period where she didn’t have her cell phone. It was probably for the best though, because the world was aflutter with all things Levee…and Sam.

  I was just aflutter for a smoke. An urge I resisted…barely. Quitting smoking was the hardest thing I’d ever done. And I, even one month later, wasn’t sure I’d really done it. But I kept going. I’d made a promise to every single woman in my life, and come nuclear warfare or the zombie apocalypse, I was keeping up my end of the bargain.

  World-ending disaster seemed easier though. God, it’s hard.

  But back to my new celebrity status…even if it was a miserable, smoke free one.

  With the exception of rePURPOSEd’s online orders, nothing exploded after Levee had released the truth about her sudden departure from music. If anything, the public had rallied around her. There was a massive outpouring of support, and while, yes, a ton of critics were predicting that this was all a big publicity stunt, for the most part, everyone was supportive. Even the fans who hated my guts. But especially the ones who thought I created unicorns.

  Reporters weren’t camping out on my doorstep the way Levee had feared, but there was no shortage of people grilling me for information about her. I’d had to change my phone number three times, and more than once, I’d been followed by a photographer while walking Sampson at the park. I just smiled and kept going.

  I’d gotten the girl. It was going to take more than a few pictures to bring me down.

  I landed my first tabloid cover on week two. It was a completely fabricated story about how I was really Levee’s stalker who she’d fallen in love with after I’d held her captive for a weekend. I was relatively sure they didn’t know about our stalker joke, but Levee and I got a big laugh out of that article. It was a delightful little piece of horseshit that I promptly framed and hung over our bed.

  As far as we could tell, Devon never went to the press about anything. All of our true secrets remained our own. There were a million speculations about how Levee and I had met, especially once the reporters had started digging into my past, but not a single person ever came up with the magical formula that ended with us standing on the top of that bridge together. I guessed Devon really did love her—or, at the very least, he loved the ability to earn a paycheck. Despite my urging otherwise, Levee gave him a glowing recommendation. She stated that their issues were personal and not professional. While I was against it at first, I was happy to hear he’d landed a job with a large security firm two thousand miles away in Chicago. I didn’t have to worry about him randomly showing up at our door, stressing Levee out.

  Unfortunately, there were plenty of others to more than fill that role.

  The third weekend Levee was gone, I finally got to meet her parents. Bianca and Kyle Williams decided to pop up for a surprise visit.

  Levee all but burst into tears, and I c
ouldn’t say that I blamed her.

  They were…awful.

  Don’t get me wrong. They loved Levee, and I was pretty sure Levee loved them too, but they were unbelievably exhausting to be around. Her mother paced, whined, complained, and nagged the entire time she was there. She lectured Doctor Spellman on the importance of accessorizing even while on the job. And the minute I removed my jacket, her lips curled in disgust. Levee lost her mind when Bianca asked how many of my tattoos I’d gotten while in prison. The woman was miserable, and to hear Levee tell it, she just liked to make sure everyone else felt as bad as she did.

  Kyle Williams sat in the corner, quietly texting on his phone, only pausing long enough to jab insults at Bianca, which, in turn, set her off even more. No one could even get a word in edgewise because they argued the entirety of the two-hour visit.

  At one point, they were arguing so loudly that there was absolutely nothing left to do but laugh. Levee scowled at me from across the room, where she was attempting to keep the peace.

  After I’d made an exaggerated cross over my heart, I mouthed, “We will never be them.”

  Her whole body sagged, but her lips curved into a smile. She gave up on trying to intervene and joined me on the couch. While they continued to bicker, Levee and I engaged in a very serious thumb-war tournament. She won even though I believed she cheated. Somehow.

  Over those weeks of separation, I fell even more in love with Levee than I’d thought possible. Every night, we spent at least an hour on the phone, talking about everything under the sun. It was during that time that I realized just how much I didn’t know about her. There was probably a herd of her fans that could beat me in a game of trivia about the woman I had every intention of marrying one day.

  I was okay with that. I knew all the important things.

  I had to ask how she liked her eggs and what clique she’d belonged to in high school, but I knew how to make her laugh with a stupid joke and how to make her cheeks pink with a simple touch.

  I knew her heart.

  And I knew it belonged to me.

  Thirty days, almost to the hour, after I’d dropped her off, I arrived to pick her up.

  “Ohmygodohmygodohmygod,” Levee nervously rushed out the moment I walked into Doctor Spellman’s office.

  I froze and eyed her warily.

  Her gaze cut to Doctor Spellman before jumping back to me.

  “I’m in trouble, aren’t I?” I asked.

  She shook her head. “I got an idea.” If the timid inflection of her voice was any indication, it wasn’t a good one—even if her eyes were dancing with excitement.

  Doctor Spellman stood up and headed to the door. “I’m going to leave you two alone to discuss this.” She stopped right before she reached the door and gave me a pointed glare. “Hear her out, okay?”

  Oh fuck. This is not good. Even the doctor is in on it.

  “Sit down.” Levee reached up to take my hand.

  “You’re making me nervous.”

  She smiled, pulling me down on to the couch.

  Then I knew that it was way worse than bad. She didn’t settle next to me. She slung her leg over my hips and settled on top of me.

  “Don’t be nervous.” She leaned in and pressed a lingering kiss to my lips.

  Gripping her hips, I gave her an encouraging squeeze. “Spill it.”

  And spill it, she did. “I want to put out an album next year.”

  I closed my eyes and dropped my head against the back of the couch. “What happened to a break, Levee?”

  “I’m getting to that part.” She playfully pinched my nipple.

  However, I wasn’t feeling playful in the least.

  I was anxious and frustrated.

  “Then get to it,” I growled, opening my eyes and pinching her nipple back.

  “Ten songs. No deadlines. When it’s done, it’s done. No publicity. Not even a photo shoot for the album cover. Surprise release. No tour. No interviews. The album will speak for itself.”

  While they were all really great selling points for me—but maybe not for an album—they didn’t answer my main concern.

  “Why? Why now? Why not in six months after you finish with the outpatient stuff?”

  She rested her forehead on mine. “Because I think it will be more therapeutic for me than anything else. Doctor Spellman agrees.”

  I laughed without humor. “What kind of voodoo did you have to do to get her approval?”

  “None. I told her my ideas. She asked a few questions. Then said okay.”

  I blew out a breath. “And what are these ideas, Levee? Convince me, because right now, I’m not so sure I agree with the good doctor.”

  “You will.” She smiled confidently. “Did you know that our bridge is one of the only ones left in the country without a suicide prevention barrier?”

  Unfortunately, I did know this. It was one of the facts I’d obsessed about after Anne died.

  I nodded.

  “Did you know the city has approved a plan to put one in place? But it’s ridiculously expensive and the state hasn’t been able to fund it yet?”

  Now that I didn’t know.

  I shook my head.

  “The Fall Up.”

  “What?”

  “The Fall Up. That’s the name of my album. I’m going to write ten songs about my journey to the top of that bridge. Then my journey back down. I want to tell it all. I started writing a few nights ago, and at this rate, I’ll be done in a few weeks.” She suddenly pushed out of my lap and onto her feet and began pacing the length of the couch. “God, it felt liberating, Sam. Molding all of that pain and darkness into something positive.” Her eyes lit as she stopped. “I want to help people, but you’re right. I have to make my life a priority. But why can’t I do both? Those two things don’t have to be mutually exclusive. So, with The Fall Up, I’m proposing I get the therapeutic relief of telling my story through music, and I donate every single penny I make so that no one can ever use that bridge as a weapon again.”

  A lump of emotions suddenly formed in my throat. I couldn’t pinpoint what emotions they were, exactly, because never in my life had I felt anything like it before.

  In that moment, even as the memories of Anne ravaged me, I fell even more in love with Levee Williams. I shouldn’t have been surprised by this idea of hers.

  It was thoughtful.

  Smart.

  Beautiful.

  Kind.

  Brave.

  Exactly like Levee.

  I swallowed hard, fighting to keep my manhood intact and the asshole tears at bay. But shit, I was overwhelmed.

  I shouldn’t have been surprised by that, either.

  It was definitely Levee.

  Standing up, I hugged her tight, tucking her head into the crook of my neck. She didn’t even have a choice in the matter. She didn’t exactly fight me though.

  “I can handle it, Sam. I swear to God. This will be a really, really good thing for me. And if, at any point, I’m taking it too far, I know you’ll be there to reel me back in. Please say yes.”

  After clearing my throat, I said the only thing that possibly made sense. “Marry me.”

  Her head popped up in surprise. “What?”

  Cupping each side of her jaw, I repeated, “Marry me.”

  “Wha… Why?”

  “Because I love you. Because you love me. Because every second that you aren’t my wife, from this moment on, will be agonizing. Because I’m ready to start our lives together. Because I have absolutely no concept of romance and just blurt shit like this out, but I swear to God I’ve never, in my entire life, meant something more. Levee, marry me.”

  Her bright eyes filled with tears. A single one spilled from the corner, giving me the answer I knew I would receive, easing my entire world.

  Her voice was thick with emotion as she attempted to tease, “But where’s the other half of my photo album?”

  Smiling, I wiped the tear away from her cheek. “I’ll
finish it this weekend. I’ll sell my liver to buy you a proper ring too. I’m sorry I did this a little out of order, but I couldn’t wait. The Fall Up, Levee? It’s fucking brilliant. Of course I support you.” Placing my tear-soaked thumb over her lips, I whispered, “Say yes.”

  She held my gaze and, in a very serious tone, spoke around my thumb, “I’ve made worse life decisions, I suppose.”

  I gave her an unimpressed glare then replied, “I can attest to that. I listened to your performance with Lionel the other night with my mom.”

  She returned my glare, but a smile crept from under my thumb.

  “Say it,” I implored.

  Taking my wrist, she guided my hand away from her lips. While wrapping her arms around my neck, she took my mouth in a slow kiss that said even more than the tear, but it still wasn’t the one word I needed to hear.

  “Say it,” I urged as she forced me on to the couch.

  She didn’t follow me down. Instead, she made her way to the door, twisting the lock on the handle before very sensually removing her jeans.

  “Fuck. We should go home,” I growled when she mounted my lap and immediately went for the button on my jeans.

  Nipping at my neck, she murmured, “Can’t wait that long.”

  “Jesus.” My eyes flashed to the door as she stripped her shirt and her bra over her head in one swift movement.

  “I love you,” she breathed, finding my cock and dragging it through her folds before aligning us.

  “Does this mean you’ll marry me?” I asked, leaning forward to suck her peaked nipple into my mouth. Then I raked my teeth over the sensitive flesh before releasing it.

  Slowly sinking down onto my cock, she stared deep into my eyes and hissed, “Yessss.”

  Close enough.

  IT WAS RAINING. Isn’t that the way all great love stories start? And also usually end? The cool breeze whipped through my curls as I stared off the side of that bridge.

  Sam’s hand folded over mine, taking the umbrella from my grasp. “How you feeling?” he asked, brushing his hand against my swollen, but still hidden, stomach before gripping my hip.

  “Like shit,” I answered through a smile as dozens of cameras flashed around us.