Yeah, we will.
We’ll keep rising.
Because we’re Leather and Lace.
And we’re stronger than we know.
Chapter Thirteen
Stepping out of the shower, I lean over the vanity and wipe my hand across the steam fogging the mirror and stare at my reflection. I didn’t look so translucent anymore, the color returning to my complexion. The first trimester of my pregnancy was trying on me, and the first eight weeks of the second as well, spending most days hunched over the toilet, releasing anything I put into my mouth. The morning sickness has faded and I’m starting to look like my old self, still pale compared to Jack’s olive skin but I don’t look like I am knocking on death’s door. I’m still waiting to recognize that glow everyone seems to think I have. It’s probably a myth but I’m still hoping to see it.
My eyes travel downward as I turn to my side and drop my hand to my tiny belly. I narrow my eyes, hoping to find the slightest change from yesterday, or the day before that, desperate for more evidence of the life Jack and I created. The doctor has assured us that he or she is growing just fine and any day now my pants won’t fit me. Who is excited to buy maternity clothes? This girl right here.
“Come on lil’ Parrish. Mommy wants to be able to show you off.”
I bet he gets his hard head from his daddy.
He.
I don’t know why but I have this feeling we’re going to have a son, another little boy for Jack to love, a second chance for the man who lost his first son so tragically. Our son won’t take the place of Jack Jr., he’ll be his own person, with his own spot carved in our hearts and Jack Jr. will always have his place too. He’ll be a part of this new journey even if only in spirit and memory.
I lift my arm and stare at the puckered flesh that travels down my body, a reminder I survived a tragedy too. The rawness of my skin isn’t an angry shade of red anymore, slightly fading to pink, but always visible. Reaching for the scarring cream, I slowly work it over the keloids that mark my flesh. I used to hide from my scars, believed my life was over because of the ordeal I had gone through and then I met Jack. He claimed my scars as his own and as they slowly fade in color, they also fade from my mind. I don’t let them dictate who I am and I don’t hang onto them anymore. They’re a part of me but I am not defined by them any longer.
The door behind me opens and the cold air from the bedroom creeps into the steam-filled bathroom, setting a chill through the air. I feel goosebumps rise across my marred flesh and lift my eyes to Jack’s.
Silently, he struts up behind me and my hand freezes against my scarred skin as he wraps his fingers around my wrist and brushes my hand away from my scars. He reaches around me and takes the tube off the counter top and squeezes some into the palm of his hand before tracing the scars with his own hand, working the ointment into my skin.
Jack bends his head and presses his open mouth to my shoulder as his fingers glide over the scars he has memorized. He knows every ridge, every curve—all the damage left behind from the fire.
“Mine,” he growls against my skin. His teeth graze my shoulder before lifting his eyes to mine. “All fucking mine,” he hisses. His hands are greasy from the lotion but continue to slide down my sides until they take hold of my hips and pull me against his naked frame.
I feel the thickness of his erection press against my ass and I press into it, earning a deep, guttural groan from him in response.
“Goddamn,” he grunts, spinning me around with a twist of my hips so we are face to face. I clench my thighs as I stare into the dark pools of his eyes and before I can process the ache vibrating throughout my body, Jack grabs my ass, hoisting me onto the counter and spreads my legs wide to fit between them.
I grip the edge of the vanity as he arches my back and leans my head against the mirror. “Been too long since I had my fill of you, Sunshine,” he growls, tugging me closer so my ass hangs over the edge of the vanity.
“You had me last night,” I remind him breathlessly.
“Never enough,” he mutters, running the heel of his hand between my breasts, down my stomach, pausing just over my navel. Bending his head, he presses his lips to my belly before finally resting his hand over my pussy. Arching against his hand, I am desperate for him to give me more, to spread me apart and shove his fingers inside of me.
A wicked grin works his lips as he brushes my wet hair from my face and grabs a fistful tugging my head back so my neck was all his for the taking. His tongue runs along the nape of my neck, picking a spot to suck between his lips and mark as his own.
I cry out, lifting my hips and gyrate against his hand just as he runs two fingers between the lips of my pussy, rubbing my wetness against my clit. I was hypersensitive, something new since the pregnancy, and with every stroke my body threatened to cave. His fingers left my clit and pushed deep inside my folds, filling me as his lips closed around one my nipples.
To say we were both enjoying the effects of my pregnancy would be an understatement. Jack couldn’t get enough of my body and I was never satisfied. His fingers thrust in and out of my heat, working me up to my first orgasm of the day, knowing without a doubt I’d have at least two more before the days end.
“This pussy’s always so wet for me,” he grits, removing his fingers and bringing them to his mouth, sucking my essence from them before peering at me devilishly. “Sweeter than pie,” he growls, winking at me as he drops his hands to my knees and spreads me out.
“You’re killing me, Parrish,” I pant, lifting one hand from the edge of the vanity to grab my breast, I roll my thumb over my sensitive nipple. I drop my head against the mirror, banging it slightly as I lift my hips and beckon him to claim me.
“Love it when you say my name,” he rasps, fisting his cock and lining it up with my slick heat. He slams into me grabbing my hand from my breast and laces our fingers together, raising our joined hands over my head and against the mirror. He takes hold of my leg with his free hand, pressing it against his hip as he thrusts mercilessly inside me, giving me all the roughness I’ve come to crave from him. My body screams, drenched in sweat from both the steam of the shower and the steam we were creating with our bodies. I slide along the granite as he pushes himself deeper giving me everything he has. Reaching for his shoulder, my nails dig into his skin. He slams our joined hands against the mirror again as he rotates his hips and quickens his pace.
“Jack,” I yell, feeling my body dive over the edge as my orgasm slams into me. Clenching around his cock, every thrust of his hips becomes a struggle as I breathe through the pleasure.
“Love the way you feel, love watching your face when you come all over my cock,” he grunts, working through the vice my pussy has over him.
“Give it to me,” I demand, arching once more before he lets out a slew of curses and grabs his dick, pulling out of me. I brace my hands against the vanity, watching through hooded eyes as he paints my stomach with his release, branding me and the baby inside me Property of Parrish.
All his.
He lets go of his cock, grabs my hips and inches his thumbs across my stomach, the pads of his fingers working his come into my skin, mimicking the way he rubbed the cream across my scars. He takes ownership of my scars and my body. I was branded by the Bulldog and freed from my past with the promise of a future full of sunshine.
“You,” I whisper.
“Me,” he pants, drawing in a deep breath as I reach for him, lifting his head as I take in the few gray strands of hair at his temple. I press my lips to his temple and lean my forehead against his.
“I have to take another shower,” I murmur.
“Better make it a quick one,” he replies, pulling back to kiss me gently. “Don’t want to be late to see that baby inside you.”
I smile, my eyes filling at his words and the sweet way my rugged knight looks at me. He didn’t know it but the darkness that shadowed him was fading and he was living in the light.
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He helped me down from the vanity, turned around and started the shower. As I stepped into the stall, he playfully slaps my ass and grins at me.
“Fifteen minutes, Reina, ain’t got time for another round with you,” he teases, tipping his chin toward the shower. “Go on, Sunshine. I’ll be waiting for you.”
I take a quick shower and dress, taking advantage of my jeans that still fit me and pair it with a Satan’s Knight tank top. When I finally make my way downstairs Jack is sitting on the front stoop, twirling the keys to his truck in his hand and about to light a cigarette.
“Jesus, Jack, I thought you were trying to quit,” I scold, reaching down and plucking the cigarette from his lips. I drop it onto the cement, crushing it with my heel before pulling out a pack of gum from my purse. “Chew on this,” I demand. “You know they say it’s an oral thing that you’re so used to having.”
“Reina,” he growls, popping the piece of gum into his mouth. “Leave it be, unless you want to tag along everywhere I go and give me something to fixate on every time I get the itch,” he grounds out, grabbing my hand and leading me to his truck.
I’m not sure that’s a bad idea or that I’d mind.
He shakes his head, mumbling something under his breath as he opens the passenger door for me.
“Get in,” he orders.
“Why aren’t we taking the bike?” I question, pulling my head out of my ass and the thoughts of being Jack’s oral fixation. “I figured we’d still ride until I became too big to lift my leg over the bike,” I add.
“Not taking any chances,” he grumbles, slamming the door closed before opening it again. “Put your seat belt on,” he barks, slamming the door shut again and walking around the front of the car.
I shake my head, laughing quietly to myself. Jack was always ordering me to lock the door, wear a helmet and scolding me about my seat belt. If one didn’t know which side of the tracks his bike’s tires skidded across they might confuse him for a law-abiding citizen.
He rarely drove his truck but the few times he did he was cautious of the speed limits. I questioned him once, it was when we first dated and I took a ride with him to drive his daughter home. He told me speed limits were enforced for a reason and he wasn’t risking his precious cargo.
Say what you want about men like mine but there is no denying the heart that drives Jack Parrish. It’s bigger than his name, bigger than his patch and even bigger than his club. It’s an honor being his, because being his means I’m loved and cherished.
We pulled up to the doctor’s office and he drops me off in front so I can sign in as he parks the car—and sneak a cigarette. When he meets me inside the waiting room, he smells similar to the little tree air freshener hanging from the rear-view mirror. I bet if I reached into his leather jacket I’d find the ‘new car’ scented tree in his pocket.
He takes my hand and places our joined hands on his knee as he glances around the room, taking in his surroundings, focusing mainly on the poster of a baby.
“Nervous?” I ask, watching as he scratches at the scruff lining his jaw.
“No,” he insists looking back at me. “Anxious,” he corrects.
“Reina DeCarlo?” The nurse calls out and Jack stands first, pulling me to my feet and leading me toward the nurse.
She leads us into an exam room, takes my blood pressure and weight before instructing me to remove all clothing from the waist down and hands me a paper gown to change into. I quickly change, folding my clothes and handing them to Jack who sits on the chair beside me and watches me climb onto the exam table.
“This guy’s got some fucking job,” he grunts, motioning to the stirrups.
I chuckle nervously knowing any minute the doctor will enter the room and introduce me to the second great love of my life.
Jack’s hand closes over my knee as he looks up at me.
“If I forget to tell you…thank you, Sunshine,” he says hoarsely as his eyes bore into mine.
“For what?”
“Everything,” he states simply, moving his hand up to my stomach. “All this.”
The door opens and the doctor walks in, lifting his eyes from my chart to greet us.
“Good afternoon, how are we doing?” He asks, extending his hand to Jack. He lifts his hand from my stomach and shakes the doctor’s hand. The doctor takes a seat on the stool in front of me and signals for the nurse to hand him a new pair of gloves.
“Good, the morning sickness finally eased up,” I tell the doctor, watching as he fits his hands into the gloves and turns on the sonogram machine.
“Very good, the urine sample you gave showed everything else is fine.” He grabs the tube of gel and the sonogram wand. “How about we take a look at this baby and hear that heartbeat?”
“Yes, please,” I say, my voice catching as Jack grabs a hold of my hand and leans forward. I stare at his face and watch his eyes become glued to the screen as the doctor squirts the blue gel over my stomach and presses the wand against my skin.
Kaboom, kaboom, kaboom.
“Is that the heartbeat?” Jack rasps.
“It sure is,” the doctor confirms. He pauses to measure the beats before a smile spreads across his face. “Nice and strong.”
Kaboom, kaboom, kaboom.
I divert my eyes from Jack’s face to the screen as he squeezes my hand and the image of our baby fills the screen.
“Well, I’ll be damned,” Jack mutters.
“That’s the head,” the doctor points out, moving the wand around my belly and laughing. “Well now, look at that.”
“What?” I ask, wiping the tears from my cheek.
“Do you want to know what it is?”
I turn to Jack, his eyes widen as he peels them from the screen and lifts them to mine.
“Do you?” He whispers.
A part of me did but the bigger part of me wanted to be surprised. I don’t know if he read my answer from my eyes or if he felt the same. He turned to the doctor and replied.
“Let’s keep it under wraps, doc,” he states, lifting my hand to his lips.
“Nothing wrong with a surprise,” the doctor says. “Everything checks out. The baby is right on target,” he announces removing the wand from my belly and wiping away the gel. “The nurse will print you out some of the photos and I’ll see you next month.”
“Thanks, doc,” Jack says, handing me my clothes and helping me sit up. The doctor exits the room, and I dress as the nurse prints the photos and hands them to Jack before she leaves us alone.
I am putting on my shoes when I lift my head and see Jack staring down at the photograph in awe. He reaches into his jacket and pulls out his pack of cigarettes. I open my mouth to object but before I can he turns around and steps down on the trash can, opening it and throwing the pack inside. He shoves the photos into his jacket pocket and holds out his hand for mine.
“I quit,” he states.
“Just like that?” I ask, raising an eyebrow.
He lays his hand over his chest, over the pocket where the pictures are safely tucked inside of and shakes his head.
“Don’t want to miss a goddamn thing, Sunshine. So, yeah, just like that,” he says, pulling me to my feet and wrapping his arms around my shoulders, he bends at the knees and claims my mouth.
He kisses me thoroughly as the sound of our baby’s heartbeat echoes inside my head and I silently thank God for the first time since the tragic fire.
I thank him for letting me survive.
Because surviving wasn’t so bad.
Especially when I had so much to live for.
No, surviving was a blessing, the first of the many I have been granted.
Chapter Fourteen
I dare someone to tell me that being a mom is an easy job. While it is the most rewarding job I’ve ever had, it is also the most exhausting. I’m fucking tired as hell and if I’m being honest, I have no idea how my mother did it. I mean she w
as by herself with two kids and always seemed to hold it together. Me? I have a gallon jug of Carlo Rossi Sangria in the fridge at all times.
Eric is perfect.
The best little boy in the whole world—when he’s sleeping. The first few months was easy, he ate, slept and pooped. Then he turned eleven months and found his legs. Eric took his first steps and life as we knew it changed forever. He’s constantly running around, getting into things he shouldn’t be—hence the wine.
Between the work out I get from running after a toddler and the one Riggs gives me every night, I’ve officially lost all my baby weight. Don’t get me wrong there is no denying my body has changed from my pregnancy. I still have that bitch of a pouch above the scar from my cesarean and the stretch marks over my stomach never really faded much either. I’m okay with the changes though and that’s mainly because of Riggs. He calls my stretch marks my colors and tells me to own them. He tells me the scar hidden under my panty line is my patch, branding me Eric’s mom. He takes the MC thing a little too far but with him it’s go big or go home. It’s all part of his larger-than-life personality.
“Eric, no!” I groan as he grabs a handful of SpaghettiOs and flings them at me. He giggles mischievously. Yeah, there’s no denying Eric’s got his daddy’s personality.
Heaven help us all.
“That’s a bad boy,” I scold, wiping the spaghetti sauce from my cheek, sure I missed some as I dig the spoon back into the dish and try to feed him some more.
I try to make those silly airplane sounds and bring the spoon to his mouth only for him to smack it away with his chubby hand and shake his head.
Yeah, I was acing this motherhood gig.
I shove the spoon into my mouth and take a bite. Don’t judge me, at least it’s not one of those puff things that melt in your mouth. Usually, Eric and I share a tub of those for lunch.
“Okay, you’re done,” I declare as he smashes the few SpaghettiOs that fell onto the table into his shirt. I unclasp the harness from his body and lift him out of the chair, placing him down on his feet and watch as he waddles off into the unknown.
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