“I’ll get it fixed tomorrow.”
I turned back, peering through the rear window. “But Harper—“
“She’s fine. Mike’s with her. He’ll tell her what’s going on,” he explained as he steered his stupid truck back on the road
I flopped my hands onto my lap at glared at him. I was pissed! Angrier than I’ve ever been in my life. I wanted to smack him. To punch him. To kick the shit out of him. “You have no right to go all caveman and haul me off against my will. It was just a road trip. I was coming back!”
“Were you?”
“Of course I was,” I said. I sounded sure. But I didn’t feel sure. In fact, I was pretty sure I wasn’t coming back. If Harper was hired by the agent, and if I’d been able to find a job—any job—in LA.
“Liar.”
Ha! That was funny, him calling me that. “I’m... okay, maybe I’m a liar. But so are you. You’re the worst liar I’ve ever met!” I stabbed my finger at his big, brawny shoulder. “You’ve been lying to me ever since we met! And you expect me to trust you?” I let out a sarcastic hardy-har-har. “Puleez.”
“I have not been lying to you. Not once. Name one lie I’ve told you.”
“You told me you didn’t want my ranch. That’s one. A biggie.”
“I don’t want your ranch,” he stated matter-of-factly.
“Oh, yeah?” I snapped. Then I realized I was probably wrong about that one. “Okay, maybe you don’t want it. You sold it already. You just wanted to dump it and keep the money!”
“That’s not what I was doing,” he said, his expression and voice calm despite my ranting.
“Oh? Why don’t you explain it to me then?” I rolled my eyes. “I can’t wait to watch you try to dig your way out of this.”
“I don’t need to dig my way out of anything.” He steered the truck off the road and shifted it into park.
Yes! Now was my chance. If I could get out of this damn truck, I could make a run for it. All I had to do was push my way past two hundred pounds of man...
And go...
Where?
I looked out the window.
Fuck. Where was the restaurant? I couldn’t see it anymore. How had we gone so far already?
Dammit! I couldn’t outrun Clay. And there was nowhere to hide. We were surrounded by miles of flat, empty, dry land. There were no trees. No buildings. Nothing. Just empty pasture.
“Are we ever going to get over this?” he grumbled, sounding annoyed as he climbed out of the truck.
He was annoyed? He was annoyed?
I didn’t kidnap him.
I didn’t steal his property and sell it behind his back.
I didn’t pretend to love him so I could pad my fucking bank account.
He opened the door for me as I was scrambling toward the driver’s side.
As I slid out of the passenger seat, I jerked up my chin. “No. We aren’t going to get over this. So how about you take me back to Harper? I’ll call her. She’ll meet us.”
“No.”
“No?” I arched a brow. My fingers clenched into fists. “Yes.”
“No.”
“Why the hell not?”
“Because I told you before. I’m not letting you go. You’re mine. So until you’re ready to come with me, and give up the crazy idea of leaving, we are going to sit here and talk.”
I slumped against the bumper of his stupid truck and crossed my arms over my chest. “Just what is there to talk about? Are you giving me back my fucking ranch?”
He shoved his hands into his pockets. “No. Not exactly.”
That wasn’t what I wanted to hear. “What does that mean, ‘not exactly’?” I made air quotes.
“It’s a little complicated.”
“Not a problem. You have all the time in the world to explain. Because evidently you have nothing better to do than to hold me hostage. Freaking stalker. That’s what you are.”
The corners of his mouth twitched.
Bastard thought this was funny? It wasn’t funny.
“Start talking or I’m going to start walking,” I threatened, hooking my thumb over my shoulder.
He gave me the surrender sign, both hands lifted. “I’m getting to the point.” He inhaled deeply. “After the fire, Hardin contacted me about Silver Sage. He told me that he had to activate the surrender clause, moving the property from you to me. I told him it didn’t have to be done, that you could still operate the ranch without the house, but he said he was obligated to follow your aunt’s will and loss of any portion of the property under suspicious circumstances, in addition to the mounting debt the ranch had already incurred, were causes for immediate termination of your contract.”
“How convenient for you,” I informed him with a shake of the head. “Since it was your fucking sister who burned it down. You know what? I don’t care anymore. It was probably only a matter of time anyway. I didn’t know what I was doing. The ranch was in trouble. There was no way I was going to turn it around.” Feigning indifference, I tossed a hand. “All the more reason to let me go to California with Harper. I can start over. Doing what I’ve always wanted to do—educate and help young women. My dream was never to run a ranch.” I slumped onto the truck’s banged up bumper and crossed my arms. “I was mad at you. But now that I think about it, you’ve done me a favor. I’m free now. Free of an obligation I never wanted.” I stood and turned my back to him, intent on getting back in the truck and catching up to Harper and Mike. “Best of luck to you.”
“No.” He caught my shoulders and swiveled me around to face him. “You aren’t going to do this to me.”
“Do what to you?”
“You aren’t going to pretend none of it matters... that we don’t matter.”
Shit. My gaze took in Clay’s tense features before finding his eyes. Eyes full of raw, genuine emotion.
I couldn’t stay angry with this man. It was impossible. Not seeing the vulnerability glimmering in those eyes of his. “Clay, I don’t know what matters anymore.” I scrubbed my face with my palms. “I’m tired. So tired. Ever since I drove into Dawson my life has been one disaster after another. Maybe things will get better when I leave...”
His grip on my upper arms tightened. “Disaster? Is that what we are?”
I couldn’t answer his question. Were we? Weren’t we? As hard as I’d tried, I couldn’t trust him. I was hurting him. I knew that. But I couldn’t help it.
I was scared. And he wasn’t helping me feel safe.
If only he’d been honest and told me about the ranch the minute he’d heard from Hardin. “Clay...”
He smashed his mouth over mine, cutting me off.
His tongue slipped between my lips and took charge, flaying against mine.
I slammed my hands against his chest and fought to break free. But he wasn’t going to let me go. Not yet. I pushed a second time but he only tightened his hold on my upper arms.
I felt him moving. My ass hit the bumper. Then I felt myself easing back until I was reclined against his truck’s front end. With any luck a police cruiser would come by and arrest him... before my body decided it liked what he was doing to me. I rocked my head to the side, trying to break the kiss. But that didn’t work either.
His mouth still sealed over mine, he released one of my arms to hold my chin in place. Now there was no escape. None. His hips wedged between my legs, and the thick bulge in his pants ground against my lower belly. He was hard. And my body appreciated that.
My mind did not.
I writhed but that only made things worse. Now little pulses of erotic heat were rippling through my body, and my tongue was dancing with his, stroking, twirling, flicking. He broke the seal to scatter kisses over my jaw.
“Clay, dammit,” I mumbled.
“I’m done talking,” Clay said against my neck. The vibration of his voice made goose bumps spring up all over my upper body.
“But we need to talk.”
“No, we talk too much. Shut up.
” He nipped my neck then cupped a hand over my breast.
“Clay!”
He pinched my nipple through my clothes and I yelped in shock. “I’ve been too fucking nice to you. That’s the problem.”
No, he had that wrong! He hadn’t been too nice. He’d been sneaky. He’d kept secrets. Hid things from me. I couldn’t trust him. How could he say he’d been too nice? “That’s bullshit.”
He leaned back and grinned, grabbing a fist full of my shirt. “Is it?” He jerked it up, revealing my bra. His hungry gaze swept over my face then slid to my breasts that were, yes, heaving. Because I was gasping frantically for air.
“Clay!” I clawed at his hands, trying to pull them down, to cover myself.
“Tell me you aren’t burning up inside right now,” he commanded as he scooped my breast out of my bra. He dipped his head and pulled my hard nipple into his warm mouth.
My bones turned to gelatin.
“I’m...” I mumbled.
He gently rasped his teeth against my nipple. “Tell me to stop.”
“Clay...” I practically begged. Even to myself it sounded like a plea for more, not less. I curled my fingers, grasping fists full of smooth cotton shirt and opened my mouth to tell him to stop. Nothing came out but a moan.
One of his hands got bold and decided to take a trip down my writhing, traitorous body. It somehow found its way between my legs to cup my sex. I might have actually inched my thighs apart a little.
I was so freaking weak!
Inside my head a war was being waged, between the good me—the one that knew I would be making a huge mistake if I let this continue—and the other me. Bad Morgan wanted Clay to scoop her up, dump her in the bed of the truck, and fuck her all night long. Good Morgan wanted him to stop.
Bad Morgan was shouting.
Good Morgan was whispering.
And it was getting harder and harder to hear Good Morgan’s soft voice the longer Clay’s hand remained between my legs.
Ohhh. And now that hand was moving. Friction was most definitely Bad Morgan’s best friend.
Where was Good Morgan now? Gone. Silent.
I shuddered, my legs softening even more. It was a good thing I had a solid grip on Clay’s shirt because it was the only thing keeping me from falling to the ground. The hand that had silenced Good Morgan slid up a bit, to find its way into my clothes. Fingertips teased my folds.
This time we both moaned. And then suddenly I found myself being swept into a pair of strong arms and being hauled around to the rear of the truck.
Ohmygod, he was going to do it. He was going to fuck me out here, in the middle of nowhere, under a blanket of stars. Just like he had that first night.
He reached over the hatch and set me down on the bed’s ridged liner before swinging himself up to join me. He kissed me until my head was spinning and I’d forgotten where we were.
Suddenly, he stopped. The jerk. “Now that I have your full attention, I want to explain what happened with the ranch.”
“Now, Clay? Really?” I asked between gasps. I was on fire. I didn’t give a damn about anything right now but the taste of his kisses, still lingering on my lips, and the pounding need thrumming through my body.
“Yes. Now.”
“But you just—“
He cut me off by literally clapping his hand over my mouth. “Babe, I love you. Listen.” He peeled his hand away. “I sold the ranch, that much is true. But I did it for you.”
“How?”
He gave me a warning squint. “I’m trying to explain.” He audibly inhaled. “The ranch belongs to you if you want it.”
Now my head was spinning even more, but it wasn’t because of lust. “Belongs to me if I want it?”
“According to the will, I had three options. I could keep the ranch, sell it, or donate it to a charity. If I’d had the option to give it to you, I would have. So the only way I could make that happen was to sell it to someone and then have him or her sell it to you. Then it would be yours, free and clear.”
I got it now; I saw what he had been trying to do. Sadly, it wasn’t going to work. My heart sank. “That’s fine, except I don’t have any money to buy it back.”
“Can you come up with a dollar?”
“A dollar? One?”
“Yes, one dollar.”
“Sure,” I said, growing confused. What was he trying to get at? “But a buck won’t buy a bale of hay, let alone a ranch.”
He smiled, his grin so bright it could illuminate the whole state. “It will buy a certain ranch that recently suffered a fire and needs some work.”
“A dollar?” I repeated.
“That’s all it’ll cost you. And then it will be yours. Free and clear. No attorneys watching every dollar you spend.”
Ohmygod.
So it was true.
Clay had sold the ranch. But he’d done it to help me.
It was mine. All mine. For the price of one dollar.
The burned down house.
The half-burnt barn.
The animals.
The debts.
Oh crap.
Then I remembered the insurance check, on its way to me now. Would it be enough to not only rebuild the house but also dig the failing ranch out of ruin? I doubted it.
The sad truth was I didn’t know if I wanted the ranch. A part of me felt I should want it. It was the only remaining tie I had to my father’s side of my family. For that reason alone I should want it. Adding to that, Clay had just gone to a lot of trouble and expense to make sure I could have it free and clear, with no outside influences. If I didn’t buy it back, I was telling him I didn’t appreciate all he’d done.
But, then again, one fact remained.
I didn’t know shit about how to run a ranch. At least, how to profitably run a ranch.
And now I didn’t even have Harper to help.
Holy crap. What was I going to do?
“What’s wrong?” His brows knitted.
It would have been easy to lie, to tell him nothing was wrong. Because I knew that was what he’d want to hear. He wished I would thank him for his selfless act and accept the offer with due enthusiasm, as I would have expected if our positions had been reversed. But after just accusing him (falsely) of lying, that would make me a world class bitch.
No, this man deserved the truth, even if he didn’t like what he heard.
“Clay, I don’t know how to run the ranch.”
His eyes widened.
Compelled by the look of disbelief on his face, I continued, “What I said earlier—about me being better off without the ranch—was true. It’s a big mess now, thanks to the fire. The house is gone. The debt is growing every day, thanks to the cost of housing the animals at the neighbor’s. It’s too much.” I threw my hands in the air as a tear of frustration leaked from my eye. “I can’t do it.” I dragged my hand across my face. Trembling. My hand was trembling.
I was such a fucking baby.
“You can if I help you.” He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me against his warm body. And I relished his embrace. When I closed my eyes, I could hear the steady drumbeat of his heart. I could feel his chest rise and fall. I could smell the scents of life, of Wyoming air and wild grasses. And I could believe. “Together we can turn it around.” His hand stroked my hair. “Trust me.”
Trust him.
Once again, he was asking me to trust him. After all the times I’d done the exact opposite.
He pinched my chin and lifted it until my eyes found his. “Morgan, I want you to be happy. I want whatever you want. It’s your choice. Yours.”
Nothing like putting on the pressure.
What did I want?
Did I want to live in California with Harper? To watch her mix and mingle with Hollywood’s elite? Would I want to live in her world, of riches and egos and mansions? Of living lies and illusion?
No.
Had I ever wanted to live in that world?
Hell no.
But did that mean I wanted the ranch?
Well...?
I sure didn’t enjoy the hard work that went along with the ranch. Or the frustration.
And what about my dreams? Of helping girls?
Was there a way for me to make a place for myself here in Dawson, without totally giving up the dreams I had for a career? After all, what better way to teach than by doing? By being a living, breathing example?
I’d dreamed of helping girls find the power they all held within. Being powerful didn’t mean I couldn’t accept help when it was offered.
That sparked an idea.
A wonderful idea.
I reached into my purse and pinched a dollar bill. My lips curled up as I slid it out.
“Tell your seller I’ll buy. On one condition.”
Clay’s smile amped up to the wattage of the freaking sun. “What condition?”
“You manage the ranch.”
He jerked a nod. “Done.”
“But we’re going to fire the rest of the crew. We’re going in a totally different direction. Hiring young women.”
That mega-watt smile dimmed. “Girls?”
“All girls. Teens. Troubled teens. My girls are going to learn they don’t have to rely upon a man for anything. They’ll learn what I should have. What my aunt knew. How to split wood. And repair cars and tractors. And take care of animals. How to build a whole fucking barn. And how to be fierce, independent and feminine.”
“Babe.” He sandwiched my face between his hands. “You’re crazy. But brilliant. I love you.”
My heart launched out of my chest and soared to the stars. “Does that mean you’ll do it? You’ll help me?”
“You bet I will. Now, let’s get going. We have a lot of work to do. I have your aunt’s safe from the farmhouse. I’m sure you’ll want to see what’s in it.”
I looped an arm around his neck and shook my head. “That can wait... until you finish what you started here.” I cupped the bulge in his pants and waggled my brows.
***
I’d never felt comfortable going through another person’s stuff. It didn’t matter that my aunt was dead. There wasn’t any way I could insult her by combing through her personal papers. Not to mention she’d left all this stuff to me. Technically, that made it mine.
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