by T. S. Ryder
She backed away from him, taking his hands in hers. “Parker…I’m sorry, I’m just not sure yet.”
“You’re special to me, Destiny. You mean a great deal to me.”
“You mean a lot to me, too—”
“It’s okay baby,” he said, but he looked disappointed.
She bit her lip and the rush of emotion had her close to tears. This was too much for two days. From fighting with Ava and all the shifter discrimination, to almost losing her job, and then Jaxon, and then Parker.
“You need to go,” he said.
She nodded and picked up her purse. She hurried up the stairs without looking back.
The tears started as she made her way through the house. She pushed through the front door, the night sky promising to hide her away in its darkness. She turned toward her car and crashed right into Jaxon.
“Whoa,” he said, catching her before she could fall. “What’s wrong?”
She stood to face him, wiping the tears from her eyes. “Parker.” Her hand flitted toward the door as if she could reach for him.
Jaxon wrapped his arms around her tightly and she started to calm at his touch. Maybe it was Jaxon after all. But that thought sent fresh tears to eyes as she pictured the hurt look on Parker’s face. She didn’t want to hurt either of them.
“Hey, Jax.”
Destiny stiffened at the sound of Parker’s voice.
“I was coming to check on Destiny, but I guess I didn’t have to.”
“Park,” Jaxon said. “She was crying, man. Come on.”
Jaxon took her hand. “Come back inside.”
They led her back inside the house and she tried to wipe her tears the best she could.
“So, here’s the thing, Park,” Jaxon said. “We both know the deal. No one was exclusive. Neither of us bothered to ask if she was dating anyone else, and you were dating someone else when you first met her.”
Destiny looked at Parker. “You were?”
“But I ended things after our first date because I only wanted to be with you.”
“Right,” Jaxon continued, “but maybe it wasn’t that clear for her. I mean, I know you’re an amazing guy, I don’t blame her. I’m not sure why she’s still into me, to be honest, but hey.”
Parker rolled his eyes. “Enough of the flattery.”
“I’m serious. Look. We’ve done this before.”
Destiny pulled her eyebrows together. “You’ve both dated the same girl before?”
“Yes,” Parker said.
“Not only dated.”
Destiny looked from Parker to Jaxon. “What do you mean?”
“Have you ever had a threesome?”
“No.”
“We have.” Jaxon lifted one shoulder. “We couldn’t decide who should get her, so we both had her. If we managed to work it out before, I don’t see why we can’t this time.” He raised his eyebrows at Parker as a question.
Destiny looked back to Parker. He met her eyes and asked, “Would you be into that?”
“A threesome? I don’t know. I’ve never done it.”
“We could try it,” Jaxon said.
“So…” Destiny tried to picture this. “I’d date you both, and sleep with you both?”
“Only if you want to,” Parker said.
“It can be really hot,” Jaxon added.
Destiny wasn’t sure how to handle this, but if they were both agreeing, it seemed like maybe it wasn’t the worst idea. If it would give her some time to decide, then why not? And if all three of them were in agreement, was there really any harm in it?
“You’d both want to do this?” she asked.
“For now,” Parker said. “But eventually, you’d have to choose one of us.”
“I want you however I can get you,” Jaxon said. He let his hand fall to her knee, then drift up to her thigh.
Chapter Nine
Destiny stood in front of Jaxon and Parker, naked. They both sat on Jaxon’s bed, also naked. She felt suddenly shy and uncertain around them, though she’d already been with them both.
Jaxon lifted a finger to beckon her over. She approached the bed and sat between them, with her hands between her knees. Parker tilted her chin to kiss her and Jaxon moved in front of her to suck on her nipple. Parker leaned her back so she was lying on the bed, and continued to kiss her. He let his hand fall to her other breast and played with her nipple as Jaxon continued to suck her other breast.
She reached her hand down and thought she grabbed Parker’s dick, but when she squeezed and Jaxon moaned, she realized he was much closer than she thought. This was all beginning to feel surreal. There were hands and body parts everywhere.
She continued to stroke Jaxon as Parker slipped a finger inside her. Every inch of her felt lit up with desire. Once she settled into it and just went along with kissing whoever kissed her and touching whoever was closest, she relaxed and enjoyed it more.
Jaxon spread her legs to suck and lick her clit, and Parker moved so that she could suck his dick. She was stroking and sucking him while moaning in the pleasure of Jaxon eating her out. Parker at the same time caressed her breast and ran his fingers along her neck, sending chills through her.
Jaxon pushed her legs farther apart and climbed over her. She almost choked as he entered her, causing her to moan deeply with Parker still in her mouth. Parker pulled back and for a moment, she lay there with Jaxon over her, as he moved in and out of her. She moaned in pleasure and he turned her so that they lay on their sides.
Jaxon brought her leg over his waist and pulled her close, and Parker slid into place behind her. He kissed along her neck, trailed his fingers along her back, then pushed a finger into her ass.
The feeling of having both Jaxon inside her vagina and Parker’s finger in her ass felt, incredibly, even better than it had felt when Parker and her had gone anal earlier. She thought back to that feeling and how good this felt.
She turned her head to kiss him, and said, “I want you to fuck me, too.”
He kissed her once, then slid his finger from her. He couldn’t use her juices to wet her this time since Jaxon was in the way. Instead, he licked his hand, then his dick, and when he pressed the tip of his cock to her ass, it slipped along effortlessly. He moved slowly, using the rhythm Jaxon set to press in a little deeper each time Jaxon thrust.
Parker made a final thrust to fill her completely. They all paused for a second. She let out a shaking breath as she came, crying out, “Oh yes!”
They both resumed pushing in and out of her. She was caught between their motions, like a ball bouncing from one point of pleasure to the other. Parker thrust deeper, sending her clit rubbing against Jaxon. Then Jaxon slammed in harder, making her ass tingle with the pressure of Parker.
Three more times, she came. She was warm between them, comforted by both presences, feeling more alive with desire and pleasure than she ever had in her life. Could she really have them both? Have them like this for at least a while? She was so full of them, so full of desire, that she came one more time.
She didn’t think she could move after that. She remembered one time when she was a teen, taking her first vibrator to her clit and seeing how many times in a row she could make herself come. After six or seven, she thought she’d never move again. And she felt like that now. Like her body had no choice but to keep coming in the intense pleasure they were giving her.
Jaxon finished first, thrusting a few times hard and fast as he came, then withdrawing. Parker held her tight from behind and did the same. She lay, empty and spent, on the bed. One of them covered her with a blanket. They both climbed into bed beside her and she wasn’t sure who kissed her cheek as she drifted off to sleep.
When she woke, Parker’s arm was draped over her chest and Jaxon’s leg over her legs. Like they were both trying to claim her for their own. She carefully moved them and slid out the bed, finding her clothes in the dim light of the moon. She had no idea what time it was, but she had to get home to clear her m
ind. She shut the door quietly behind her and went outside to her car.
She drove home, feeling the soreness of far too much sex in two days’ time. Her mind raced. Every second of being with them both had felt so good. Everything physical with both of them was so easy. So, why did she feel so bad emotionally? She felt guilty and sad, and somehow, lonely. As if by being with them both, she’d lost them both. And maybe she had.
One thing was clear, though. She couldn’t be with either of them again, and certainly not with both of them again. She had to decide, and she had to do it away from them. She needed some time.
When she woke in her own bed, she knew what she had to do. She picked her phone and texted them both the same thing. “Last night was absolutely incredible. I’ll need a day or two to recover, I think. Gonna have a girl’s night out! :)”
She didn’t really want them to know that she was going to try to decide in a day which of them to be with. By the time she got to work, she had responses from them both.
Jaxon said, “Glad to know I have that effect on you ;) have fun hot stuff!”
Parker said, “Are you okay? I hope it wasn’t too much. Be safe!”
That seemed to be a good picture of what things were like with each of them. Jaxon excited her, but Parker made her feel cared for. Which was more important? A thrilling relationship, full of hot sex and adventure, or a caring relationship with just as hot sex, but maybe a little less raw excitement?
She wished she could mash them together into one. But then, hadn’t she kind of done that last night? And that hadn’t felt great, either. Well, physically it had. It’d been the best sex she’d ever had by far. But emotionally, it was a messy tangled bunch of anxiety and confusion and sadness all mixed together. And she really needed a girl’s night.
She decided there was only one thing left to do. She texted Ava. “Hey, this is stupid. Can we please talk?”
It took a while, but Ava texted back, “Wanna come over tonight?”
“Yes!”
She felt so relieved about possibly making up with Ava that she almost didn’t hear the snide remark one of the paralegals made as she walked back to the reception desk after dropping off some copies.
“Wonder if she screws all animals or only ones who turn into people.”
Her face went hot and she spun around. She marched back to the cube where Ryan sat with Michelle, both of them looking at her with amusement.
“Are you talking about me?” she demanded.
“What do you mean?” Michelle asked sweetly. “Why would we talk about you?”
“I heard what you said.”
“About the game last night?” Ryan asked. “I said it was a real beast.”
He held back his laughter and Michelle kicked him.
“Just remember,” Destiny said, “shifters are much more deadly than any human.”
She turned to walk away. She heard Michelle say, “I’m sure Caleb and Joshua wouldn’t be happy to know she’s threatening to send her bear boyfriends after us.”
She ignored her and sat down hard at her desk. What was she going to do about this? Would it just settle down eventually?
She made it through the rest of the day, then stopped on her way to Ava’s to get a bottle of wine. She walked to the register, then thought better of it and went back for a second bottle. One might not be enough for tonight.
Ava was ready with the wine glasses when she arrived. They had a long hug and apologized to each other.
“I hate fighting with you,” Destiny said.
“Me too. Let’s not.” Ava poured them wine and they toasted to no more fights.
“What have you been up to?” Destiny asked.
“Not much. Trying not to piss off my loser boss.”
“Pfft. I hear that.” Destiny told her what had happened at work that day and with her boss when they found out she was dating shifters.
“Wait, so you’re still dating them?” Ava asked.
“Yeah.”
“Both of them.”
“Yup.” For now at least. “I need to decide, though.”
“Des. You should end it with both of them. This isn’t worth it. Now your job is in danger because of them?”
“It’s a crap job anyway and I hate it. They’re both exactly what I want.”
Ava raised an eyebrow and drank more wine. “It might be a crap job, but it pays. Do not go throwing your life away for some bear boys.”
“You really think that’s what I’m doing?”
“Sounds like it.”
“I’m not.”
“Okay,” Ava said. “Think whatever you want, but those boys are nothing but trouble and you need to move on.”
“I need you to help me pick one, though.”
“I did. Neither. Moving on.”
“Ava!”
“I’m serious. I don’t want to talk about them anymore. You’re nuts for wanting to be with shifters and put up with all that hate.”
By the end of the night, Destiny felt worse than she had before going. Her phone rang as she was driving home.
“Hey Jax,” she said.
“Hey, hotness, you with your girls?”
“No. Not anymore. Just left.”
“You don’t sound too happy about it.”
“I’m not,” she said.
“What happened?”
“Ava is just being stupid. She thinks being with a shifter isn’t worth it.”
“Oh.” He was quiet for a long while. “Is it?”
“I think so.”
“I know it can’t be easy.”
“You don’t know the half of it,” she said. “Work is getting worse.” She recounted the story yet again of what she overheard Ryan and Michelle saying.
“There’s an easy way to fix this.”
“How? Don’t date shifters?”
“Don’t be friends with people who hate shifters and quit, then sue your bosses for specism.”
“I wish.”
“No really,” he said. “If you’re going to be with one of us, it’ll get worse. But there are plenty of people who are supportive. You can’t be around those who aren’t. It’ll stress you out.”
“Well, it certainly is doing that.”
Chapter Ten
Every time Destiny thought she’d made up her mind, something changed. She was sure it was Jaxon, then she’d talk to Parker and was sure it was him. But then she’d see Jaxon again and change her mind all over. She was sitting at work, reviewing texts and messages she’d exchanged with them both, trying to see if that helped her settle on any feeling. She looked up when the door opened and saw Parker standing there, holding flowers.
She exclaimed and dashed around the desk to hug him. “You brought me flowers!”
“I thought it might cheer up your workspace.”
She grinned and reached over the desk to set them by her computer. When she looked up, she saw Michelle peeking around the corner. When Destiny saw her, she vanished.
She turned back to Parker with a sad face. “Michelle just saw us.”
“Is that going to be a problem? I can wait in the car.”
“No, I’m almost done. Let me just finish up one thing.” She kissed him, then returned to her seat to close the projects she was working on, including the tab of the Wild Hearts messages she had been rereading.
“Are you being helped, sir?”
Destiny spun at the sound of Caleb’s voice behind her. The lawyers never came out to help clients in the reception area. They were always called, then came up to meet them. She glanced at Parker, then turned to Caleb.
“He’s just waiting for me to finish up,” she said.
“You know we don’t allow special visitors during working hours,” Caleb said.
“Special?” Parker asked. He stood up straight and fell into a slightly defensive stance.
Uh oh. This could be bad.
“Boyfriends, I mean.” Caleb gave him a patronizing smile.
“I
thought for a second you meant shifters. You wouldn’t have a problem with that now, would you?”
“Well, we don’t allow animals in the building.”
Destiny tried to breathe slow to keep herself calm. But the rage was already trying to break free. She shut down her computer, grabbed her purse and stood.
“We were just leaving anyway,” she said.
Then Joshua came out from the back office and stood beside his brother. “What’s the problem, here?”
“No problem,” Destiny said, then, with a challenging look at Caleb. “Right?”
“This is Destiny’s bear friend—I mean, boyfriend,” Caleb said.
She went to Parker’s side and set her feet. They better let this go fast or someone was going to get hurt.
Joshua nodded. “Guess we’ll have to call the game control to get the wild animals out of the office.”
“You think that’s cute?” Parker asked. “Do you know anything about shifters or even bears in general?”
“I know they taste good when you cook them right,” Joshua said, narrowing his eyes.
“I would think lawyers would have more knowledge on the prejudice laws. You know, the ones that say you can’t discriminate against other races or species or it’s a hate crime.”
“People eat bear meat all the time,” Caleb said. “Didn’t you know?”
“Like that’s what you meant,” Destiny said.
“What else could I have possibly meant?” Joshua asked.
“What exactly is your problem with shifters?” Parker asked. “I genuinely want to know. Are you afraid? Curious? Think we’re strange or dangerous somehow?”
Caleb huffed. “You’re all a danger to society and should be kept in cages. All you hear about is shifter attacks.”
“You must watch a different news than I do then,” Parker said. “Because all I see is humans attacking each other and shifters. With guns, knives, fists, words.”
Caleb shifted his weight but said nothing.
“We’re in complete control when we shift. I might be stronger and faster as a bear, but I’m not going to hurt anyone I wouldn’t hurt in human form.”