“Sweet Adi.” He moaned as he thumbed my nipple and grabbed my ass with his other hand.
I closed my eyes as I began rocking up and down on top of him.
“That’s it, baby.” He grabbed my ass harder, pulling me harder down on top of his cock.
I could feel him pulsing inside me every time I slowed down. His hot bare skin felt too good inside me to stop. His finger rested over the opening of my ass each time I went down on his cock. I’ve never had a man touch me there before, and it was different, but a good different. I tilted my head back as he rubbed the opening. My orgasm was growing, and I was panting harder.
“Ryder, don’t stop.” I think my words almost sent him over the edge because he grabbed my ass harder and pulled me deeper on top of him. We were both breathing heavy against each other. The tip of his finger pushed harder at the opening of my ass. He massaged hard as the tip went inside me.
“Oh, my God, Ryder. Fuck me harder.” I rocked against him faster.
I felt tight around him, and his finger on the opening of my ass was driving me wild. My orgasm came on so fast that my body shook on top of him. I screamed and moaned into his neck.
“Mmmm...Ryder,” I whispered as he let out a loud moan.
“Adi, I’m going to come. Where do you want it?” he said through panted breaths.
I felt like an animal. He had me filled with so much lust. Without saying a word, I hopped off him and bent down to take the tip of his cock in my mouth. With only one stroke of my mouth, he exploded on my tongue. He tasted so good, and I wasn’t normally into that at all. He still had his eyes squeezed shut, and he was breathing hard. I studied him at the moment. We were both so exposed to each other. His hand was still tangled up in my wet hair.
“Adi, you’re fucking wild.” He laughed between breaths. I was far from it, but I smiled anyway.
“I want you to tell me what you like and want,” I whispered to him.
“You’ve already given me both,” he said as he kissed my hand.
I sat up against him with the warm water surrounding us. We were quiet. I’ve never felt more perfect than I did with him.
CHAPTER TEN
The sun peeked through Ryder’s bedroom curtains. The view of the city from his bedroom was so magical that I couldn’t pull my eyes from it. At night, the lights from the surrounding buildings were like twinkling stars. My dreams. It’s all I thought about as a little girl. I was finally here and enjoying it.
After we had ordered food, we had two more rounds of fun in his bedroom until he had fucked me to exhaustion again. That was becoming a thing. We would fuck like animals until we drifted off to sleep. It’s hard to imagine things before him because I was always the type to need space from someone, especially to sleep. However, with Ryder, it was like my mind shut off, and I had no worries with him. Not to mention I didn’t want to leave his side. My mind was all over this place. Would it ever get boring with him? I can’t imagine ever getting to that point. It’s hard not to think about wanting more with him. He was so intense, even though we hadn’t been seeing each other long.
The thought of a future with Ryder sparked my memory of last night. We didn’t use a condom. As much as I was already invested in this man, having a family right now was something that could not happen. I needed to set my alarm on my phone to take my birth control pill after I ate. Thank God I kept it in my bag so I could take it after breakfast every day at work. As I sat up in bed, I looked at the sheets next to me. They were pulled up neatly to his pillow because he wasn’t there. I searched around the room, but he was gone. The smell of coffee and maple syrup filled the void, and my stomach began to growl. My phone had several missed texts again, and it hit me that I forgot to let Mariella know I was staying over with Ryder again. I grabbed my chest as reality hit me that it was still bare. After my necklace went missing, I just got so lost with Ryder. He made me forget things. But really, that can’t be healthy. He was distracting me from my life—the bad and the good.
“Ella,” I whispered.
I should probably take a break from him this weekend because this was getting serious quick. I’d never spent the night at a guy’s house within the first week. Maybe I needed to slow things down some. The thought of him naked in the bath with me last night crashed through my thoughts, and I didn’t know how I could go without seeing him. Shaking my head, I laughed off the thought quickly.
“Get your shit together, Adi,” I told myself.
This wasn’t good at all, but all too good at the same time. Feeling guilty, I sent Mariella a quick text.
“Hey, sweets, I spent the night with Ryder. I can’t wait to see you later,” I replied.
At least we had Chase’s dinner tonight where we could catch up. Dinner. Oh, my God, it’s today. The day I’ve been dreading. May sixteenth. The day I hate. How did I forget? I grabbed my neck and rocked on the edge of the bed. Fear set in and my body locked up. I can do this. It’s just a date, and it doesn’t have to paralyze or define me. Her face flashed in my mind. My mom was smiling with tears of joy just a week before her death. We were at my graduation, and she was so proud of me. Why did God do this to me? My body began shaking as I heard a loud crash and screams.
“Please, stop... No!” Covering my ears, I pleaded.
I grabbed my neck to find my comfort, but it was gone. She’s gone. Everything is gone.
“Are you Adilyn Archer?” I heard the officer’s voice that came to my door that night. He haunts me.
“Adi, we have each other, we have us... We need to be strong for Mom and Dad,” Chase’s voice echoed through my head.
We needed to be strong for dad. That conference room in the hospital was four blank walls that will stand out to me forever. It’s where my old life ended.
“Please bring her back. This isn’t real!” I screamed.
My hands were shaking fast as I laid my face in them. My heart was racing, and I could feel my air closing off. This feeling was familiar, and I knew I was ready to pass out. My body will fall to this floor, and I won’t be able to stop it. I’m cold. Just make it stop.
“Please, Mom, I need you right now.” I shook.
Could she hear my cries? My eyes were shut tight. I couldn’t face the reality that she was gone. I’m giving up, and my body is giving out. At that moment, when all seems lost, you’re sometimes lucky enough to have a light, a compass, and direction that helps you find your way out. Warmth quickly took over my body, and I could feel my breathing becoming steady again. Ryder. He wrapped his entire body around me and held me until I stopped crying. He laid me back down on the bed and didn’t ask me anything. His eyes never left mine because he already knew. Words couldn’t fix me right now.
My eyes popped open in fear I was alone again. But Ryder was fast asleep right next to me with his hand resting on my hip. I was still naked from last night, but he was in a loose t-shirt and jersey shorts. My muscles were sore like I was just working out for five hours straight. But I quickly remembered I had a panic attack. I closed my eyes.
“Seriously,” I silently mouthed.
Embarrassment set in. He saw me fragile and weak just moments ago. I must have looked like a panicking maniac. Holding my hands over my face for a few seconds, I knew I needed to be stronger for the rest of the day. My mother wouldn’t want me to suffer like this. She was so full of life. She would want me to remember the happy times and not to be completely ruined by one day of the year every year. Ryder started to shift next to me. I turned to him as he opened his eyes.
“Come here.” He stretched his arms out to pull me in closer.
“Thank you,” I whispered.
“You need to eat something.” He frowned at me and kissed my forehead. I remembered my stomach was growling with hunger pains right before I had the attack.
“I am hungry.” I stretched, and my breasts popped out from the sheet as he growled and leaned over and took my nipple in his mouth.
“If your stomach wasn’t just screami
ng at me while you slept, I would make you stay in my bed forever like this.” He patted my ass.
“Come on, get up. Let’s go eat something.” He jumped up from the bed.
“Can’t the food wait?” I stuck my lip out to pout.
“No, but hurry up so I can have you again after breakfast.” He winked.
I grinned and stood up. Slipping my blue sundress on from yesterday, I decided just to go bare underneath since I was confident this dress wasn’t going to stay on for too long after I ate. I reached for my phone that I’d dropped to the floor after texting Mariella. It was ten o’clock, and I had a few more texts on my phone than I did earlier. A few were from distant friends telling me they were thinking about me today. Kindly, I replied with a simple thank you. One number I didn’t recognize, but I opened it anyway.
“I think you left something behind at the pub last night.” I read in confusion.
“Who is this?” I immediately replied.
“Trent,” he returned.
What was he talking about? I’m guessing he got my number from Janie, which kind of annoyed me since she knew I was keeping my distance from him.
“Oh, okay. What did I leave behind?” I waited a minute for his reply.
The word, “This,” was accompanied by a picture of my necklace. I covered my mouth in shock. I couldn’t believe he found it. My smile couldn’t get any bigger. Clutching to my bare neck, I called him. He picked up on the first ring.
“Trent!” I screamed, and he screamed my name back at me.
“I can’t believe you found it!” I shouted in excitement, and we laughed.
“It was lying on the floor around where you were sitting. I had seen it before you ran out of the pub, but you were running away so fast, I couldn’t get to you in time.” I was relieved, but I thought it sounded a little weird that he couldn’t catch up to me in time. Was I really running that fast? I pushed the weird thoughts out of my head because I was just so happy he had found it.
“I can’t thank you enough, seriously, Trent. This just made my shitty day better,” I said.
“Well, I’m happy I could help. Do you need to meet up for it today or do you want me to bring it to school?” he asked.
Truthfully, I wanted my necklace now because it was my comfort, but I didn’t want to meet him outside of work because he got really weird with me before, and I wasn’t confident he wouldn’t do it again.
“School is fine. I’ll be in a little later since the kids won’t be in, but I’ll get it from you then...thank you so much, Trent.” I paused. “I just can’t tell you how happy this made me. Sorry for all the confusion of last week and the tension between us.” I laughed nervously into the phone.
“Adi, you’re very welcome, and yes, I’ll keep it safe until Monday,” he reassured me.
I ended the call and sat on the bed for a minute looking at the picture of my necklace. I was so relieved it was found. Janie. I forgot to text her too, so I sent a quick text to her asking how last night went and that I was fine. I needed my friend card revoked from everyone right now. I felt terrible I was forgetting everything. Well, everything but Ryder. I had just sent the message when I heard Ryder cough behind me. Turning around, I saw he was standing in the doorway. His look had changed, and he was just staring at me with no emotion. I wondered if he had heard my conversation with Trent. I was so excited that I didn’t think about what I had said. Ryder’s face was enough to confirm that he had heard my conversation with Trent.
“I have great news.” I walked over to Ryder and wrapped my arms around him. “I just heard from Trent, and he found my necklace at the pub.” I smiled.
He didn’t look into my eyes as he removed my hands from around his neck.
“The food is ready if you’re still hungry?” He walked toward the kitchen, so I followed him.
“Ryder, what’s wrong?” I sat down at the island and watched him.
Everything smelled so good. He had waffles covered in bananas, strawberries, and bacon on the side. My mouth was watering, and my stomach growled louder. He handed me a plate as he sat down next to me and started eating. Not saying a word. I didn’t want to eat until I knew if we were okay. The sudden shift in his attitude made me feel uncomfortable that he would shut me out again, which is the last thing I needed today.
“Ryder, did I do something wrong?” I asked.
“I don’t know Adi. You tell me. Did you do something?” He shook his head and took another bite.
I took a bite and chewed slowly. If he wasn’t going to tell me, then I wasn’t going to ask anymore. He dropped his fork down on his plate with a loud ting sound.
“Are you fucking him?” he asked, and I almost choked.
“What?” I said through thick coughs. I was almost certain that I just inhaled a piece of bacon into my lung.
“Take a drink.” He patted my back.
Rolling my eyes, I took a sip of orange juice. Wincing as it burned my throat.
“Are you serious, Ryder?” I paused to catch my breath.
“You honestly think I’m fucking him?” I said as my voice rose.
“I don’t know, Adi. I just met you...you could be.” His eyes dropped to his plate.
“No, I’m not fucking him!” I yelled as I set my fork down on my plate and stood up.
I walked toward Ryder’s bedroom to get my bag. I didn’t need this today. Ryder’s footsteps behind me made me speed up. I needed space before I said something terrible to him.
“Adi, wait!” he pleaded.
“Ryder, I could be asking you the same thing... especially with you sneaking away to a business trip.” I grabbed my bag from his bedroom floor and turned to face him.
“That’s different, Adi. You know that... I had to go, and it was just business.” He shook his head.
“I never doubted you or felt the need to question you. So why would you think that about me?” I asked throwing my arms in the air.
“I just don’t like that guy. He looks at you... different.” He rubbed his jawline as he paced.
“What do you mean different?” I asked even though I knew what he meant.
“I don’t know. He looks at you like I look at you.” His face softened.
“Well, I don’t look at him like I look at you.” My shoulders relaxed because I realized he was jealous. “Ugh.” I huffed and rubbed my forehead. This was too much for today, and I was feeling overwhelmed. He walked over to me and played with my hair, pushing it behind my ears.
“I heard you tell him something about tension between the two of you?” He waited patiently for my response.
I felt my cheeks flush with red. The almost kiss and confessions of love. I didn’t tell Ryder because I didn’t want him to feel weird about me seeing him at work, but now it just got more complicated because I didn’t tell him.
“Yes, he tried to kiss me this past week, but I didn’t let him.” I shook my head as he put his hands up in the air.
“I knew it, Adi.” He continued his pacing. “Fuck, I knew he wanted more than just being your coworker, buddy, friend, whatever the fuck he secretly wishes he was.” He paced faster. “Did he touch you or do anything to you?” His eyes were filled with rage.
“No, Ryder. I told you, I didn’t let him... I’m not as helpless as you think I am, and I can handle my shit.” I shook my head.
“I don’t think you’re helpless. I just don’t want him thinking he can just push himself on you. Men can be monsters.” He stopped, and his eyes locked hard on mine.
I nodded and wanted to take back my comment immediately when the thoughts of his sister pierced through me. It was more than that to him, and I started to understand him more. I put my bag down on the floor and walked over to him.
“Ryder, I wouldn’t do that to you, okay?” I sighed as I rubbed his back.
“You have to trust me and know that he’s just a coworker, and I put space between us after that happened.” I kissed his shoulder.
“I believe you.
I just hate guys like him.” He nodded.
“I know, but I think he just had bad judgment that one time, and he’ll be fine from here out.” I continued rubbing his back to give him ease that Trent wasn’t as bad as he seemed.
“Okay, but you have to tell me if he tries something again because I’ll handle it next time.” He kissed my lips, but he still looked mad.
“I will, I promise.” I gave him a weak smile. “So he has my necklace. It must have fallen off at the pub because he found it on the floor. I told him I would just get it from him on Monday.” I shrugged.
“I thought the school was closed on Monday?” He scratched his head.
“It is to the students, but teachers have to go to work a few hours.” I shook my head and laughed. “A teacher’s job is never done contrary to what most people think,” I added.
“Well, you can teach me anything, anytime.” He pulled me tight against his chest and smacked my ass.
“Damn, was that too corny?” He grinned.
“A little bit, but I’d be happy to teach you a thing or two.” I laughed harder as I gave him a wink. “But right now, I have to go because I have dinner at my brother’s house this afternoon.” I took my pill pack out and swallowed one before I forgot.
“Yeah, I have to go to my parent’s for dinner too, but can I see you later?” He watched me.
I couldn’t help but smile. He was not like the younger guys I had dated. They would never ask to see me so soon after just spending the night with me. I blushed.
“I’ll let you know how late I’ll be.” I wondered when I would be introduced to his family or when I would feel comfortable to bring him around mine. I’m not sure if Chase would recognize him or not. He probably would. He has a great photographic memory. I couldn’t wait to see Chase and the girls later, though. I felt guilty leaving Mariella alone at the apartment again so maybe I should just stay at home tonight with her after dinner.
“Okay, I’ll be waiting...” He smiled and ran his fingers down my shoulder.
I kissed him—he was an amazing kisser. We could make out for hours, and I’d never get bored.
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