by Nina Lane
One afternoon, in need of a friend, I find Kelsey in the garage of Archer’s shop, crouching on top of a huge, custom-built, storm-chasing truck armored with sixteen-gauge steel plates and a Kevlar coating.
A circular radar device and large antenna sits on top of the vehicle, along with a bunch of little tubes that Kelsey is working at with a wrench. Her hair is covered with a ratty baseball cap, and her tank top and cargo pants are streaked with dirt and grease.
“What are those?” I ask, gesturing to the tubes.
“Cannons.” She peers down, flashing me a smile of greeting and pride. “They shoot instrument probes into the tornado to measure and collect wind speed, pressure, and temperature data. This is the first season we’re taking Dorothy out, so we’ll see how she does.”
“Dorothy, huh?” I can’t help smiling.
“You and Allie are a bad influence on me. So is the movie Twister, which Archer has the poor taste to actually like.” She pats the roof of the vehicle affectionately before hopping off and approaching me. “Speaking of Allie, she called me and said something about a birthday party gone wrong?”
I sigh and sit down on a nearby bench. As a silent partner in the café, Kelsey stays out of the daily operations, but Allie and I have always involved her in big decisions and kept her informed when something changes.
I suppose the birthday disaster qualifies.
“It was my fault,” I admit. “I’m taking a leave of absence from the café until the festival is over. And speaking of the festival, please tell me you’re still going to be in town for it.”
“Sure. Archer and I are working at the kids’ stage, right?”
I nod. “Did you check the forecast for me?”
“Everything looks great. Nothing on the radar, but I’ll check the day before too.”
I can see the festival plan in my head. Everything will be situated in Wizard’s Park—the carnival rides and game booths, the food trucks, stages, and Chair Fair tent.
And, if I let myself, I can see the townspeople wandering around with their excited children, taking them to the ball-toss game and on the merry-go-round. I hear their squeals of laughter, their pleas for ice cream, their voices accompanying a sing-along.
I don’t see Dean anywhere.
“Hey.” Kelsey takes off her cap and wipes her forehead with the back of her hand as she sits beside me. “What happened?”
The confession sticks in my throat. I look at the storm-chasing truck and try for the hundredth time to understand why anyone would see a black storm on the horizon and choose to drive right toward it. To go into it.
I push to my feet and approach the truck, running my hand over the steel plates. “Why do you do it?”
“Chase?” Kelsey shrugs. “It’s hard to explain. It’s a rush like no other. Dangerous, exhilarating, thrilling. The realization that you can face down a force of nature is pretty damned powerful.”
“And scary.”
“Scary is part of the appeal,” Kelsey says. “I struggled for a long time with my attraction to danger. I thought it was the reason my father died. I tried to hide in academia and to control everything about my life.
“But then I met Archer, and I discovered that sometimes being in control can suck. That sometimes I want to let everything go, to give up control and drive into a storm without knowing what will happen.”
I turn to look at her. “But you won’t marry Archer because you don’t want anything to change.”
She averts her gaze. “I don’t want anything to change about us. And I know it’s stupid because my parents had a great marriage. They loved each other completely. But then my father died and… well, my mother was alone. Then I lost my mother right when I found Archer. And it’s been so good that I feel like I’d be tempting the fates if I married him. What if I lost him too?”
She holds up her hand when I start to speak.
“Don’t tell me it makes no sense,” she says. “I know that already. But I can’t love Archer more than I already do. And I’m not going to marry him just because some bullshit custom says we should or because people think marriage is the only way you can be with someone for life. Because it’s not.”
“True,” I agree. “Swans mate for life, but they don’t get married. They just wing it.”
A grin tugs at Kelsey’s mouth as she climbs back onto the roof of the vehicle.
“You hear anything from Professor Marvel?” she asks, apparently having done enough baring of her soul.
“Yes, he’s heading for the UN Assembly meeting as we speak. Being an international diplomat.”
Kelsey shoots me a glance. “You don’t sound thrilled about that.”
“I’m proud of him,” I reply, deliberately avoiding her remark. “I’m just sorry he’s missing the festival. And I’m worried they’re going to offer him the job, which was clearly made for him.”
“So why does that worry you?”
“Because I can’t stand the thought of moving to different countries, not knowing where we’d go next or how long we’d stay. Hell, Kelsey, I lost Nicholas once in the Butterfly House. What if I lost him in Malaysia?”
I return to the bench and pick up my satchel.
“Liv.”
I turn to face Kelsey again. She’s standing on the roof, her hands on her hips, looking so strong and confident that just the sight of her underscores my recent failures.
“Do you remember when I first hooked up with Archer, and I wasn’t at all sure I was making the right decision?” she asks.
I nod.
“You were the one who told me that nothing ever changes if you don’t trust your instincts and take risks,” Kelsey continues. “And that was exactly what I did with Archer. Turned out it was the best decision I’ve ever made. Maybe you should take your own advice this time.”
“But I don’t like what my instincts are telling me,” I admit. “I’m worried Dean would be giving up an incredible opportunity because of me. I don’t want to live with that for the rest of my life. I don’t want him to either.”
“Instinct and worry aren’t the same thing,” Kelsey reminds me. “I still have an instinctive pull toward danger, but I’m not scared of it anymore. And I’m not scared of giving up control because I know I have Archer. He’s my rock. He takes my fear away. When you have that, you can do anything.”
“Would you get down from there so I can hug you?” I ask.
“Okay.” Kelsey rolls her eyes. “But only for, like, ten seconds.”
She jumps down from the vehicle. We exchange a hug before I walk back to my car. As much as I wish I could “take my own advice,” I know Kelsey and I are very different people.
Kelsey still controls the entire Spiral Project. She built a vehicle to protect herself from tornados. Archer will never leave her, no matter how many times she turns down his marriage proposal. She’ll never leave him either. She chooses to drive into storms. Even when she’s not in control, she’s still in control.
And I am too—at least, for now. Without the Edison sponsorship, I call an emergency planning meeting and ask the festival volunteers to try and secure more funding to make up for Edison’s refusal. But after several days of trying, it becomes clear that so many businesses have already donated packages to the Chair Fair they can’t take on the added financial commitment of a sponsorship.
After a slew of refusals one afternoon, I bring Nicholas to a park on the west side of the lake where The Moms have arranged to meet for the weekly playgroup. They greet us warmly, though when the children run off to the playground, their mothers turn to me with barely contained curiosity.
“Liv, we heard about the disaster at the café over the weekend,” Joan announces, her eyes widening as she leans closer. “What on earth happened?”
I was fucking my husband and forgot about everything else, I think bitterly.
“Just a bunch of mistakes,” I say. “All of it was my fault, but we’re making amends as best we can.”
The Moms blink almost in unison, as if they hadn’t expected to hear me admit to blame.
“I heard the kids had a big food fight,” Susan remarks.
“There was some cake thrown.”
“I heard Slice of Pie almost caused a riot,” Joan says.
“They got a late start.” I wonder how I can change the subject. “The kids were just eager to hear them play.”
“Are they still providing backstage passes for the festival?” Joan asks.
“Uh, I doubt it,” I say, suddenly realizing the deeper implications of not having a high-level sponsor. “Honestly, I don’t know if they’ll even perform at the festival anymore. I don’t think we can afford it.”
Their mouths drop open in shock.
“Not perform?” Susan repeats. “How can Slice of Pie not perform? I’ve already told Bailey about it, and she’s beyond excited. She told all the kids in her class.”
“So did Noah,” Carol adds. “He’s been insisting I call him the Pieman for the past two weeks now. He won’t stop singing ‘Mustard Pie.’”
They swing their gazes to me. My stomach hurts.
“Well, their performance was contingent on me securing a big sponsor so we could afford to pay them,” I admit. “So I’d been trying to get Edison Power on board as our one and only diamond-level sponsor. But the man at Edison who’s in charge of making sponsorship decisions turned us down.”
“He turned down Mirror Lake’s Bicentennial Festival?” Carol shakes her head in disbelief. “Aren’t they supposed to be all into community support?”
“Yes, but it was his daughter’s birthday that was ruined,” I say. “Needless to say, Edison no longer trusts me to pull off a town festival. And if we don’t have their sponsorship, we can’t afford to pay Slice of Pie.”
The Moms fall silent. A strange weight seems to lift off my shoulders. We spend so much time trying to prove ourselves and our children to each other, to make it seem like we’re totally in control, that we know exactly what we’re doing, that all our decisions are the right ones—that it is an unexpected relief to stand in front of a group of mothers and admit to failure.
“Well, Bailey is going to be devastated,” Susan mutters.
“I’m sure Bailey will survive the disappointment,” Carol replies, eyeing her pointedly before turning back to me. “Do you have other sponsors, Liv?”
“Yes, but not at the diamond level. That’s fifteen thousand and over. It was also going to help pay for extra tents and food trucks, plus the carnival rides.”
Crap. I need to call the carnival manager now and ask about scaling things back. I’m really running out of time.
“Frank works with the community outreach manager over at SciTech,” Carol says, reaching for a cookie from the snacks on the picnic table. “I can ask him to put in a good word for the festival.”
“Brian runs the marketing department at Horville Foods,” Joan puts in. “I’m sure he’ll approve some level of sponsorship. And Kathleen still works over at the Blue Shoe Company. They just opened another franchise in Forest Grove, so they’d probably be into some community outreach.”
“Sam and I can make a personal donation,” Susan says.
They all look at me expectantly again. A faint hope flickers to life.
“In the corporate packages, I mention VIP seating and passes as one of the benefits to sponsorship,” I say. “I can give them to you to pass along, if you think people might be interested.”
“With Slice of Pie at risk, Liv,” Joan remarks, shaking her head, “we’re all interested.”
Something begins to lift inside me, as if rainclouds are parting to reveal a clear sky. I look at the other women with a dawning realization that for all the hot topics and controversy about advanced schools, organic foods, vaccinations, et cetera, The Moms know how to get stuff done. Not only for their children and families, but for their friends.
“Don’t worry, Liv,” Susan says. “We’ve got this.”
CHAPTER NINETEEN
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OLIVIA
Over the next week, The Moms collect close to eleven thousand dollars in sponsorships from various companies. Slice of Pie agrees to perform, and as word spreads of the festival troubles, Mirror Lake rallies to the cause with more volunteers and donations. Allie, Brent, and the planning committee scramble to secure the rest of the entertainment and food trucks.
Florence Wickham tells me her new friend Mr. Jenkins of the Historic Railroad Association will be delighted to serve as the Chair Fair auctioneer. The carnival company sets up rides in a corner of Wizard’s Park, while volunteers hang signs and posters in shop windows.
On Saturday morning, the day of the festival, the sun rises into a cloudless blue sky. The grassy expanse of Wizard’s Park is dotted with tents where people are selling artwork and various foods. Balloons float from the children’s stage, which is surrounded by a bouncy-house and game booths. Folk music drifts from a band at the main stage, and the air is filled with the smells of popcorn, barbeque, and cotton candy.
Armed with a walkie-talkie and my cell phone, I walk around the festival grounds, making sure everything is running smoothly. The volunteers are wearing their purple Mirror Lake Festival Staff T-shirts as they help with crowd control, entertainment, and safety.
Earlier that morning, we moved the auction chairs to a cordoned-off area outside the auction tent. The colorful, painted chairs are arranged in perfect rows, like a flower garden drenched in sunlight.
In addition to being thrilled by how everything worked out, I’m incredibly proud of what the townspeople have contributed to the Chair Fair—beautiful, detailed, whimsical, and artistic creations of whatever inspired them. There are chairs painted with teddy bears, rainbows, ocean landscapes, Impressionist artworks, Dr. Seuss characters, and jungle animals.
Taking a break from checking my spreadsheets, I join Archer, Kelsey, and Nicholas for some fun. We have gooey slices of pizza, play beanbag toss, and ride the carousel. I text Dean that the festival is going well, and include a picture of Nicholas eating a cone of cotton candy bigger than his head.
“Forty-five minutes until the auction, Liv.” Allie hurries up to me, her ponytail swinging and her glasses askew. “Where’s Patrick?”
“He had to cancel.” I peer toward the auction tent. “Mr. Jenkins is going to substitute as the auctioneer.”
“Mr. Jenkins?” Allie repeats, her expression both surprised and doubtful. “Isn’t he, like, eighty?”
“Well, yes, but he’s still very agile and spry.” I smile to hide my own uncertainty. “It’ll be fine.”
Just fine, I repeat to myself firmly. I leave Nicholas with Archer and head toward the auction tent, which is starting to fill with patrons. Several people wander around outside looking at the chairs, and their conversations are tinged with admiration and delight.
“Hello, Olivia, dear.” Florence Wickham, dainty and pretty in a peach-colored suit and hat, approaches me with a smile. “What a wonderful success this is!”
“So far,” I allow, though I won’t be entirely relaxed until the festival is over and done with.
“I’m so sorry Dean couldn’t be here,” Florence remarks wistfully. “But Ronald is delighted to help out. Oh, Ronald! Over here!”
A wizened older man waves and approaches us, leaning on a cane. A fringe of white hair encircles his bald head, and he’s wearing a rumpled brown suit and polka-dotted tie. He extends a shaky hand to greet me, and I lead him over to the podium to explain the lot numbers and how the auction will run.
I leave him looking through an auctioneer booklet while I get the volunteers organized handing out paddles and catalogs. As the start time nears, the seats begin to fill up, and before long I realize it’s going to be standing room only.
Nervousness twines through me. I’ve worked hard on the entire festival, but the Chair Fair is especially critical, not only for the Historical Society but for the town itself. If we don’t raise enough money to save
the railroad depot, there’s no telling what developer might grab up the land and possibly ruin the picturesque beauty of Wizard’s Park with a strip mall or condos.
I glance at my watch. Five minutes. Mr. Jenkins is standing by the podium with Florence, whispering something in her ear as he pats her rear end. She giggles.
With a smile, I go out to the chair display to ensure they’re all lined up in the same order they are in the catalog. A cloud passes over the sun, throwing the chairs into shadow. I do a quick check and return to the tent to get the auction underway.
The crowd quiets down as I introduce myself, thank everyone who has supported us, explain how the auction will run, and then turn the microphone over to Mr. Jenkins.
He puts on a pair of bifocals and clears his throat, peering at the list of chairs.
“Uh, first item…” he glances at the stage, where a volunteer brings up a chair painted with a rainbow theme “…is a chair.”
The crowd smiles indulgently. I move closer to Mr. Jenkins and point to the list.
“Lot number one,” I remind him quietly.
“Lot one,” he says into the mic. “A really nice chair painted with rainbows. Let’s start the bidding at… say, fifty dollars!”
Several paddles wave in the air. I see Archer standing by the edge of the tent, Nicholas perched on his shoulders.
“Fifty dollars, anyone for sixty?” Mr. Jenkins’s voice grows louder, excitement appearing on his weathered face. “Sixty dollars for this beautiful, hand-painted chair!”
My tension eases a little. He just needed some time to warm up. I glance at Florence, who is watching from the sidelines and gazing at Mr. Jenkins adoringly.
After the rainbow chair sells for over a hundred dollars, Mr. Jenkins waves to the next, teddy-bear themed chair.
“And who wants to own this adorable chair, perfect for a nursery or children’s room?” he shouts into the mic.
A loud squeal penetrates the tent from the feedback of his yell. I wince and gesture to the sound guy to turn it down.