by Luanne Rice
“Slightly. But what’s with the AC?” I asked. I knew he couldn’t afford his own electricity bill, much less enough icy air to cool a movie theater.
“My buddy Ralph manages the restaurant, and he let me splice the hose and run an extension in.”
“Really.” Harrison was the least handy person I knew.
“Well, Andy actually did it.”
I nodded. That made sense. Andy could rig or fix anything.
“And the bed and TV?”
“Andy’s remodeling the Harbor Inn.” So he’d snagged some creature comforts for our friend. I smiled—good old Andy.
“And you have cable.”
“That’s on a need-to-know basis,” he said in a stern voice. “Some might call it illegal, but I call it borrowing. Let’s leave it at that.”
“You’re the only person in Edgartown wearing velour, that’s for sure. It’s ninety on Main Street.”
“That’s why I’m not on Main Street, sweetie,” he said, pointing the clicker at the TV, switching from a program about Pearl Harbor to Wheel of Fortune. “What brings you here?”
“Dar’s losing it. Did Andy say anything?”
“You know gentlemen don’t discuss their lady friends.”
“Bullshit. What did he say?”
Harrison’s onyx pipe had gone out, so he relit it with his vintage gold lighter, one of his father’s few remaining heirlooms. He took a long draw, offered it to me, but I wasn’t in the mood.
“Well, he mentioned that she’s in drawing mode and hasn’t come up for air in a few days. And that she seems to be living on scotch.”
“She is! Exactly! She’s doing some bizarre Japanese kind of graphic novel about, I swear to God, a girl who wears a coat of thorns because she couldn’t stop her father from leaving the family, and she can’t see any connection between cartooning that painful shit and wanting to stay loaded all the time.”
“There’s nothing wrong with escape,” he said, taking another hit.
“I’m worried about her,” I said.
“You can’t do anything about it. If she wants to drink, she will.”
I stared at Harrison. What was I doing, bringing this problem to a man who had plugged the chinks in his rough-wood walls with tinfoil to keep the smell of pot smoke from wafting onto the street? Harrison was scared shitless of the real life his family money had once insulated him from, and Dar bore the scars of watching our father sail away forever.
“She seems so sad,” I said.
“Whenever I see her, she’s a happy drunk.”
I hated hearing him call my sister that. But it takes one to know one—Harrison had no illusions about who and what he was. His goal in life was never to rock the boat. That’s why I called him the Buddha—he’d found a way to let the waves of life’s heartache wash over and around him without being upset.
“Maybe I should take you to AA,” he said.
“First, I’m not the one with the problem, and second, I didn’t know you went,” I said, shocked.
“Sure,” he said. “‘I’m Harrison, and I’m an alcoholic.’ I’ve said it plenty of times at the morning meeting. You should come with me.”
“But you’re not even trying to stop. Why do you go?”
“It makes me feel better. All those people with real problems—DUIs, bad livers, divorce. I listen to them and leave feeling great about my life.”
It hurt me to hear this, and at the same time I wished my sister would find her way to “the morning meeting” or anywhere that might help. We were spending the summer at our family house in Chilmark. While my mother, grandmother, Delia, and I spent our days swimming, having beach picnics, working in the garden, laughing, and hanging out, Dar was holed up in her studio, drawing like mad. When she joined us for dinner, she walked and talked like a normal person, but smelled like scotch. And as soon as the dishes were done, she’d fill a bowl with ice and return to her room and close the door, and I’d stand in the hallway listening to the clinking music of ice hitting glass.
“My mother doesn’t say a word to her,” I said.
“Maybe she knows there’s no point.”
“No, she doesn’t even see the trouble. She’s just proud of Dar’s work.” Before Dar had started her graphic novel, she’d become well known for her children’s books about the island.
“Writers drink. Look at Hemingway,” he said.
That made my blood boil, mainly because Dar had played the writer card when I’d confronted her so often.
“That is such bullshit,” I said. “Writing, being Irish, losing our father—it’s all a big excuse, and I’m sick of it.”
We stopped talking for a while, just lay on the bed watching Wheel of Fortune with the sound muted. Vanna White flipped the letters, spelling out THE IDES OF MARCH. Pat Sajak congratulated the winner, who grinned and jumped for joy. The industrial air-conditioning hummed and made me so cold I started shivering.
Harrison climbed off the bed, reached onto a shelf holding barnacle-encrusted lobster pots, and brought down a brightly striped Hudson Bay wool blanket. He tucked it around me, and I closed my eyes. The blanket had come from his big white house, just up the street from here. The Thaxters had owned it for generations, and it had been filled with beautiful things. I wondered where all the antiques and paintings and sculpture had gone after the lawyers finished sorting out Harrison’s father’s estate.
When Harrison got back onto the bed, it creaked and bounced, as if a walrus had just climbed on. Opening my eyes, I gazed around. Above us, drying on the splintery rafters, were a pair of jeans, a blue polo the size of a tent, and a pair of huge and holey BVDs. I pictured him washing his clothes in the stealth of night using the yacht club hose.
“Why don’t I?” I heard myself ask.
“Why don’t you what?”
“Drink?”
“You like a nice Bordeaux now and then, and I’ve never heard you to say no to a beer on a hot summer night.”
“I mean drink like Dar. Or you for that matter.”
Harrison turned to me. He was stretched out on the bed, and suddenly his smoking-jacket velour robe seemed incredibly touching, not at all funny and ironic. It had belonged to his father, who had committed suicide after the bankers told him his investments had failed and he’d lost all the money. Harrison was wearing it because he loved his father so much, but also because the only clothes that still fit him were damp. His beautiful pale eyes beseeched me.
What did he want to know? Our faces were close together. He smelled as if he could use a bath. He reached for my hand, and we clasped fingers. At one time we would have kissed, but I wore Jeremiah’s ring, and Harrison was a gentleman. He wouldn’t cross that line.
“Why?” I asked again. Dar and Harrison experienced life and the loss of our fathers, and they took refuge where they found it. Delia and I were the “normal” ones, and I felt as if something was missing in me.
“Because you’re Miss Martha’s Vineyard,” he said, caressing my cheek.
Oh, the years fell away.
It was the eleventh of July, the summer Harrison and I were ten. I’d had chicken pox and missed the Fourth of July parade and fireworks in Edgartown. My sisters and mother had gone to meet up with Harrison and his parents; Andy and even Jeremiah had gathered in the Thaxters’ yard on Water Street, just down from Walter Cronkite’s house, watching the festivities while I stayed home with my grandmother.
She gave me a bath in cornstarch, to make the itching more bearable, and she held me in her lap on the rocking chair singing “Jumbo Said to Alice,” my favorite song, about English elephants who’d been separated when Jumbo was shipped to America to join the circus. I knew she felt homesick for England the way my father had felt so homesick for Ireland he’d had to return there, and being so itchy and sick and missing the fireworks and thinking about my father leaving us behind made me sink into Granny’s big bosom and weep while she sang and rocked me.
I was covered from head to toe
with ugly red scabs. During the worst of the itchiness, Granny had told me that if I scratched them I’d have scars forever, so I’d done my best. But I managed to dig at one that left a tiny crater beneath my left eye that’s still there today.
“The parade was the best this year!” Delia said. “There were pirates and everything!” Her little voice reminded us of a mouse, and usually it drove Dar and me crazy with love, but hearing her talk about the parade made me feel mean and bitter.
“Good for the parade,” I said in a high, mocking voice.
“It wasn’t that great,” Dar said, eyes on me.
“Yeah, it was,” Harrison said.
The four of us were sitting on our porch. It was pouring rain, and Harrison’s parents had dropped him off in Chilmark for the day. We’d already draped sheets over the wicker furniture, making tents to make believe we were explorers at the South Pole. Then we tipped the trestle table upside down, opened the extensions, and pretended it was a plane. Dar was the pilot, and we flew to the Yukon.
As the rain started letting up, we’d worn out our imaginations. Mom and Granny had served us lemonade and were in the kitchen shucking corn and talking about dinner. Delia kept describing the parade and fireworks, with Harrison going on about some teenage girls dressed like mermaids with fake green tails and everything.
“You really didn’t miss that much,” Dar said. “They were fake mermaids. We know the real ones live in the waves off Squibnocket.”
“But they were so pretty!” Delia said.
“Rory’s prettier,” Harrison said.
“Yeah, sure,” I said.
“You are!” he said.
“It’s true,” Dar said. “Let’s have a parade just for Rory!”
The rain had stopped. My sisters and Harrison ran around, getting things together. I still felt weak from the chicken pox, and I have to admit, I was sulking. Who cared about a pretend parade when I’d missed the real one? The feeling of being on Granny’s lap, thinking of Dad, had stayed with me, the deep melancholy of losing more than one summer’s fireworks and the chance to see some phony mermaids.
Now sitting on the porch, I heard tin cans banging and wheels creaking. Around the corner of my grandmother’s big old summerhouse came the parade: Dar wearing Granny’s old-fashioned skirted black bathing costume, Delia draped in kelp and green seaweed freshly gathered from the beach out front, and Harrison wearing a tinfoil crown carrying a pitchfork in homage to Poseidon.
My sisters beat wooden spoons on upside-down coffee cans, and they’d harnessed Harrison’s big waist with old rope, with which he pulled our small boat trailer across the yard.
“Mermaid girl, mermaid girl, Rory is the ocean’s pearl,” Dar chanted.
“Rory, Rory, morning glory,” Delia said, running over to hand me a bouquet of Granny’s flowers.
“Climb on,” Harrison said, thumping his pitchfork against the trailer. “The parade is starting.”
I felt myself starting to smile. That rusty old trailer was heavy. We used it twice a year to launch our twelve-foot sailboat in the salt pond, and one of the tires was flat, but Harrison was massive, and he pulled it behind him as if it weighed nothing.
My sisters adorned me with more seaweed, and Dar put Granny’s apple-green silk robe around my shoulders. It shimmered in the clearing light, the way I thought a mermaid’s tail might. They helped me onto the boat trailer, and I gripped the metal frame.
“Princess of the ocean, dutchess of the sea,” Dar cried, as she and Delia began banging the coffee cans again.
“Here she comes,” Harrison bellowed. “Miss Martha’s Vineyard!”
Called by the commotion, my mother and grandmother came to stand on the porch, watching our little parade. I sat tall on that rickety old trailer as Harrison hauled me around the yard, feeling as graceful as a mermaid, as beautiful as a chicken-pox-ridden ten-year-old could feel.
My sisters beat their drums, our olds—our mother, grandmother, and, I had to believe, the spirit of our missing father—cheered us on, and no one that day was sad, and no one that day was drunk, and I wasn’t engaged to the wrong man, and I was Miss Martha’s Vineyard.
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Read on for the first chapter of Luanne Rice’s twenty-ninth novel, The Silver Boat, coming in June 2012 from Penguin Books.
Chapter One
Dar McCarthy sat on the granite step of her mother’s rambling, gray-shingled house, listening to surf break beyond the pond. There had been a gale last night, driving in wild ocean waves, and through the salt pond’s wide bight she could see gray-green seawater tower and crash, the foam bright white in the first morning light.
Last night’s high wind had blown out all the clouds, and the dawn sky was turning what Delia used to call “happy blue.” The sun hadn’t yet melted the frost, which glimmered on the old stone walls and spiky brown grass, the lilac branches and the stone Buddha in the herb garden. Her mother’s ancient cats skulked home from a night of hiding under the barn, looking tufty and tiny and old.
“What did you catch?” she asked. They ignored her as usual, rubbing at the screen door to be let in, leaving snags of gray fur in the wire mesh. Dar obliged them, reaching up to twist the brass knob behind her head. As the five cats ran in, Scup, her mother’s black Lab, ambled out. He made a quick round of the yard, padding paw prints in the frost, then came to sit beside her on the step. They leaned into each other.
Scup nosed her hand with his white muzzle. He was thin; she could feel the ridge of his spine. She petted him for a while, and then he barked. She had promised him a car ride. Standing, she patted the pockets of her down vest to make sure she had her car keys.
They never locked this house, called Daggett’s Way centuries before Dar was born, and she never locked the Hideaway, her tiny yellow beach cottage at the west end of her family’s fifteen-acre property on the Atlantic Ocean in Chilmark, Massachusetts.
Opening the hatchback of her teal blue Subaru, she let Scup in and smelled the fresh air. Daffodils were ready to bloom in clumps around the yard and by the corner of the weathered shingle house; tiny buds had formed on tips of the lilac bushes. After a long, cold Martha’s Vineyard winter, April was here. Dar’s hands felt icy, so she closed the hatch and jammed them in her pockets. She was shivering not only from the morning chill.
She knew this feeling so well, from when she was twelve; everything that mattered in life was about to give way. Back then she’d had no real preparation, but now small warnings were everywhere: bills, deadlines, contracts, constant and unwanted calls and e-mails from Island Properties.
Climbing into the car, she discovered that Scup had jumped into the passenger seat. She looked into his deep brown eyes and wondered if he sensed impending change. He had seen the boxes she had been collecting from Alley’s and the Chilmark Store.
Pulling out the driveway onto South Road, she knew she was early to meet the ferry. She turned right, passing the cemetery, driving along the oak-and stone-wall-lined road, seeing the sun rise over the trees. One car came toward her, heading west—another year-rounder. They both waved. She turned into the parking lot at Alley’s Store, scanned the trucks for Andy Mayhew’s. There it was, dirty white with a hoist in back and his logo painted on the door.
She climbed the porch steps, looked for Andy but didn’t see him, said hi to everyone standing around drinking coffee. Stopping at the bulletin board, she riffled through all the business cards and notices until she found a note written on a thick card embossed with Harrison Thaxter’s family crest; this was how they communicated.
When are the girls arriving? he’d scrawled in fountain pen. Reaching for the pencil dangling from the board by a string, she wrote back, Today! Then, not knowing whether he’d be by any time soon, she added, (Friday, April 9th).
“When’s he going to get a phone?” Andy asked, handing her a large steaming black coffee.
“When’s he going to get a house?” she asked.
They both chuckled. Andy, Harrison, the McCarthy sisters, and a tight group of friends had grown up here—first summering on the island, then some of them digging in and becoming year-rounders.
“You okay?” Andy asked, standing close, their arms touching.
“Yes,” she said. “Going to pick up my sisters. I can’t wait.”
“You sure about that?” he asked. He was tall, and the top of her head just grazed his chin.
“Pretty sure,” she said, giving him a big smile, as if they hadn’t talked about this last night, as if her sheets might not still be warm from where they’d slept. “It’s going to be hard, getting ready to leave all this.”
“You don’t have to—” he began.
“Thanks, Andy,” she said, putting her finger to his lips.
“You want me to come with you?” he asked.
She shook her head. “You have a stone wall to repair.”
“I found some pretty granite, covered with lichens,” he said. “Will you come see later?”
“I’ll try,” she said. “It’s going to be sister time for the foreseeable future.”
He started to say something else but stopped himself.
“What?” she asked, but he shook his head.
“See you tonight,” he said.
They pressed each other’s hands, and she made her way back to the car. Backing out of the parking lot, she rolled down the window to wave. Sipping coffee, she let the chilly air in.
Dar arrived in Vineyard Haven just in time to see the nine o’clock boat rounding West Chop and slicing through the harbor. Gulls cried, circling the upper deck. No matter what time of year, she always felt delight and expectancy, seeing the ferry pull in. Anyone at all might be aboard, but this time she knew for sure—Rory and Delia.
She and Scup jumped out of the car, stood aside the car lane. The MV Island Home screeched and squeaked, thumping back and forth between the huge barnacled, creosoted pilings. Chains rattled as the ferry’s metal ramp was lowered, and Dar peered into the dark hold, her heart beating fast.