‘I’m not used to mixing with the nobility,’ Wallander said sombrely when Linda finished speaking.
‘They’re just like everybody else. I think you’ll find you have a lot to talk about.’
‘Such as?’
‘You’ll find out. Don’t be so negative.’
‘I’m not being negative! I just wonder –’
‘We’ll be eating at six o’clock. Don’t be late. And don’t bring Jussi. He’ll just make a nuisance of himself.’
‘Jussi’s a very obedient dog. How old are they, Hans’s parents?’
‘Håkan will be seventy-five shortly; Louise is a year or two younger. And Jussi never takes any notice of what you tell him to do – you should know that, since you’ve failed to train him properly. Thank God you did better with me.’
She left the room before Wallander had time to reply. For a moment or two he tried to get annoyed by the fact that she always had to have the last word, but he couldn’t manage it and returned to his papers.
It was drizzling unseasonably over Skåne on Saturday when he set off from Ystad to meet Hans von Enke’s parents. He had been sitting in his office since early morning, yet again, for who knows how many times, going through the most important parts of the investigation material concerning the death of the arms dealer and the stolen revolvers. They thought they had identified the thieves, but they still had no proof. I’m not looking for a key, he thought. I’m hunting for the slightest sound of a distant tinkling from a bunch of keys. He had worked his way through about half of the voluminous documentation by three o’clock. He decided to go home, sleep for an hour or two, then get dressed for dinner. Linda had said Hans’s parents were sometimes a bit formal for her taste, but given that, she suggested her father wear his best suit.
‘I only have the one I wear at funerals,’ said Wallander. ‘But perhaps I shouldn’t put on a white tie?’
‘You don’t need to come at all if you think it’s going to be so awful.’
‘I was only trying to make a joke.’
‘You failed. You have at least three blue ties. Pick one of those.’
As Wallander sat in a taxi on the way back to Löderup at about midnight, he decided that the evening had turned out to be much more pleasant than he had expected. He had found it easy to talk to both the retired commander and his wife. He was always on his guard when he met people he didn’t know, thinking they would regard the fact that he was a police officer with barely concealed contempt. But he hadn’t detected any such tendency in either of them. On the contrary, they had displayed what he considered to be genuine interest in his work. Moreover, Håkan von Enke had views about how the Swedish police were organised and about various shortcomings in several well-known criminal investigations that Wallander tended to agree with. And he in turn had an opportunity to ask questions about submarines, the Swedish navy, and the current downsizing of the Swedish defence facilities, to which he received knowledgeable and entertaining answers. Louise von Enke hardly spoke but sat there for most of the time with a friendly smile on her face, listening to the others talking.
After he had called a cab, Linda accompanied him as far as the gate. She held on to his arm and leaned her head on his shoulder. She did that only when she was pleased with him.
‘So I did OK?’ asked Wallander.
‘You were better than ever. You can if you make an effort.’
‘I can what?’
‘Behave yourself. You can even ask intelligent questions about things that have nothing to do with police work.’
‘I liked them. But I didn’t get to know her very well.’
‘Louise? That’s the way she is. She doesn’t say much. But she listens better than all the rest of us put together.’
‘She seemed a bit mysterious.’
They had come out onto the road and stood under a tree to avoid the drizzle, which had continued to fall all evening.
‘I don’t know anyone as secretive as you,’ said Linda. ‘For years I thought you had something to hide. But I’ve learned that only a few mysterious people are in fact hiding something.’
‘And I’m not one of them?’
‘I don’t think so. Am I right?’
‘I suppose. But maybe people sometimes hide secrets they don’t even know they have.’
The taxi headlights cut though the darkness. It was one of those bus-like vehicles becoming more and more common with cab companies.
‘I hate those buses,’ said Wallander.
‘Don’t start getting worked up now! I’ll bring your car tomorrow.’
‘I’ll be at the police station from ten o’clock on. Go in now and find out what they thought of me. I’ll expect a report tomorrow.’
She delivered his car the following day, shortly before eleven.
‘Good,’ she said as she entered his office, as usual without knocking.
‘What do you mean, “Good”?’
‘They liked you. Håkan had a funny way of putting it. He said: “Your dad is an excellent acquisition for the family.”’
‘I don’t even know what that means.’
She put the car keys on his desk. She was in a hurry since she and Hans had planned an outing with his parents. Wallander glanced out the window. The clouds were beginning to open up.
‘Are you going to get married?’ he asked before she disappeared through the door.
‘They very much want us to,’ she said. ‘I’d be grateful if you didn’t start nagging us too. We want to see if we’re compatible.’
‘But you’re going to have a baby?’
‘That will be fine. But being able to put up with each other for the rest of our lives is a different matter.’
She disappeared. Wallander listened to her rapid footsteps, the heels of her boots clicking against the floor. I don’t know my daughter, he thought. There was a time when I thought I did, but now I can see that she’s more and more of a stranger to me.
He stood by the window and gazed out at the old water tower, the pigeons, the trees, the blue sky emerging through the dispersing clouds. He felt deeply uneasy, an aura of desolation all around him. Or maybe it was actually inside him? As if he were turning into an hourglass with the sand silently running out. He continued watching the pigeons and the trees until the feeling drifted away. Then he went back to his desk and continued doggedly reading through the reports piled high in front of him.
Wallander spent Christmas with Linda’s family. He observed his granddaughter, who still hadn’t been given a name, with admiration and restrained joy. Linda insisted that the girl looked like him, especially her eyes, but Wallander couldn’t see any similarities, no matter how hard he tried.
‘The girl should have a name,’ he said as they sat drinking wine on Christmas Eve.
‘All in good time,’ said Linda.
‘We think the name will announce itself one of these days,’ said Hans.
‘Why am I named Linda?’ she asked out of the blue. ‘Where does that come from?’
‘You can blame me,’ said Wallander. ‘Mona wanted to name you something different; I can’t remember what. But as far as I was concerned, you were Linda from the very beginning. Your granddad thought you should be called Venus.’
‘Venus?’
‘As you know, he wasn’t always all there. Don’t you like your name?’
‘I’ve got a good name,’ she said. ‘And you don’t need to worry. If we get married, I’m not going to change my surname. I’ll never be Linda von Enke.’
‘Perhaps I should become a Wallander,’ said Hans. ‘But I don’t think my parents would like that.’
Over the next few days, Wallander spent his time organising all the paperwork that had accumulated during the past year. It was a routine he had instigated years ago – before ringing out the old year, make room for all the junk that would build up during the one to come.
The evening the verdicts in the arms theft trial were made public, Wallander decided to stay at h
ome and watch a film. He had invested in a satellite dish and now had access to lots of film channels. He took his service pistol home with him, intending to clean it. He was behind in his shooting practice and knew he would need to submit to a test by the beginning of February at the latest. His desk wasn’t cleared, but he had no pressing business. I’d better make the most of the opportunity, he thought. I can watch a film tonight; tomorrow might be too late.
But after he got home and took Jussi out for a walk, he started to feel restless. He sometimes felt abandoned in his house out in the wilds, surrounded by empty fields. Like a wrecked ship, he sometimes thought. I’ve run aground in the middle of all these brown muddy fields. This restlessness usually passed quickly, but tonight it persisted. He sat in the kitchen, spread out an old newspaper and cleaned his gun. By the time he’d finished it was still only eight o’clock. He had no idea what inspired him, but he made up his mind, changed his clothes and drove back into Ystad. The town was always more or less deserted, especially on weekday evenings. No more than two or three restaurants or bars would be open. Wallander parked his car and went to a restaurant in the square. It was almost empty. He sat at a corner table, then ordered an appetiser and a bottle of wine. While he was waiting for the food, he gulped down a few glasses. He told himself he was swilling the alcohol in order to put his mind at rest. By the time the food arrived, he was already drunk.
‘The place is dead,’ said Wallander. ‘Where is everybody?’
The waiter shrugged.
‘Not here, that’s for sure,’ he said. ‘Enjoy your meal.’
Wallander only picked at the food. He dug out his mobile phone and scrolled through the numbers in his address book. He wanted to talk to someone. But who? He put the phone down since he didn’t want anyone to know that he was drunk. The wine bottle was empty, and he had already had more than enough. But even so, he ordered a cup of coffee and a glass of cognac when the waiter came to tell him the place was about to close. He stumbled when he got to his feet. The waiter gave him a tired look.
‘Taxi,’ said Wallander.
The waiter called from the telephone attached to the wall next to the bar. Wallander could feel himself swaying from side to side. The waiter replaced the receiver, and nodded.
The wind was icy cold when Wallander came out into the street. He sat in the back seat of the taxi and was almost asleep by the time it turned into his driveway. He left his clothes in a pile on the floor, and passed out the moment he lay down.
*
Half an hour after Wallander fell asleep, a man hurried into the police station. He was agitated, and asked to speak to the night duty officer. It happened to be Martinsson.
The man explained that he was a waiter. Then he put a plastic bag on the table in front of Martinsson. In it was a gun, similar to the one Martinsson had.
The waiter even knew the name of the customer, since Wallander was well known in town.
Martinsson filled out a criminal offence form, then sat there for a long time staring at the revolver.
How on earth could Wallander have forgotten his service weapon? And why had he taken it to the restaurant?
Martinsson checked the clock: just after midnight. He really should have called Wallander, but he didn’t.
That conversation could wait until tomorrow. He wasn’t looking forward to it.
3
When Wallander arrived at the police station the following day, there was a message waiting for him at the front desk, from Martinsson. Wallander swore under his breath. He was hung-over and felt awful. If Martinsson wanted to speak to him the moment he arrived, it could mean only that something had happened that required Wallander’s immediate presence. If only it could have waited for a couple of days, he thought. Or at least a few hours. Right now all he wanted to do was to close the door to his office, unplug his phone, and try to get some sleep with his feet on his desk. He took off his jacket, emptied an open bottle of mineral water, then went to see Martinsson, who now had the office that used to be Wallander’s.
He knocked on the door and went in. The moment he saw Martinsson’s face he realised it was serious. Wallander could always read his mood, which was important since Martinsson swung constantly between energetic exhilaration and glum dejection.
Wallander sat down in the guest chair.
‘What happened? You only write me notes like that if something important has come up.’
Martinsson stared at him in surprise.
‘You mean you have no idea what I want to talk to you about?’
‘No. Should I?’
Martinsson didn’t reply. He merely continued looking at Wallander, who began to feel even worse than he had before.
‘I’m not going to sit here guessing,’ he said in the end. ‘What is it you want?’
‘You still have no idea why I want to talk to you?’
‘No.’
‘That makes things harder.’
Martinsson opened a drawer, took out Wallander’s service pistol and put it on the desk in front of him.
‘I take it you know what I’m talking about now?’
Wallander stared at the revolver. A shudder ran down his spine, and almost succeeded in banishing his hangover. He recalled having cleaned his gun the previous evening – but then what happened? He groped around in his memory. The gun had migrated from his kitchen table to Martinsson’s desk. But how it had got there, what had happened in between, he had no idea. He had no explanations, no excuses.
‘You went to a restaurant last night,’ said Martinsson. ‘Why did you take your gun with you?’
Wallander shook his head incredulously. He still couldn’t remember. Had he put it in his jacket pocket when he drove into Ystad? No matter how unlikely that seemed, apparently he must have.
‘I don’t know,’ Wallander admitted. ‘My mind’s a blank. Tell me.’
‘A waiter came here around midnight,’ said Martinsson. ‘He was agitated because he had found the gun on the bench you had been sitting on.’
Vague fragments of memory were racing around in Wallander’s mind. Maybe he had taken the gun out of his jacket when he’d used his mobile phone? But how could he possibly have forgotten it?
‘I have no idea what happened,’ he said. ‘But I suppose I must have put the gun in my pocket when I went out.’
Martinsson stood up and opened the door.
‘Would you like a coffee?’
Wallander shook his head. Martinsson disappeared into the hall. Wallander reached for the gun and saw that it was loaded. He broke into a sweat. The thought of shooting himself flashed through his mind. He moved the gun so that the barrel was pointing at the window. Martinsson came back.
‘Can you help me?’ Wallander asked.
‘I’m afraid not this time. The waiter recognised you. You’ll have to go from here straight to the boss.’
‘Have you already spoken to him?’
‘It would have been dereliction of duty if I hadn’t.’
Wallander had nothing more to say. They sat there in silence. Wallander tried to find an escape route that he knew didn’t exist.
‘What will happen now?’ he asked eventually.
‘I’ve been trying to read up on it in the rule book. There will be an internal investigation, of course. There’s also a risk that the waiter – Ture Saage is his name, incidentally, if you didn’t know that already – might leak information to the press. Nowadays you can earn a few kronor if you have the right kind of information to sell. Careless, drunken policemen could well sell a few extra copies.’
‘I hope you told him to keep his mouth shut?’
‘Of course I did! I even told him he could be arrested if he leaked any details of a police investigation. But I think he saw through me.’
‘Should I talk to him?’
Martinsson leaned over his desk. Wallander could see that he was both tired and depressed. That made him feel sad.
‘How many years have we been working toget
her? Twenty? More? At first you were the one who told me what to do. You told me off, but you also gave credit when it was due. Now it’s my turn to tell you what to do. Nothing. You could only make things worse. Don’t speak to the waiter; don’t speak to anyone. Except for Lennart. And you need to see him now. He’s expecting you.’
Wallander nodded and stood up.
‘We’ll try to make the best of this,’ said Martinsson.
Wallander could tell from his tone of voice that he was not particularly hopeful.
Wallander reached out for his gun, but Martinsson shook his head.
‘That had better stay here,’ he said.
Wallander went out into the hallway. Kristina Magnusson was passing, a mug of coffee between her hands. She nodded to him. Wallander could tell that she knew. He didn’t turn round to check her out as he usually did. Instead he went into a toilet and locked the door. The mirror over the sink was cracked. Just like me, Wallander thought. He rinsed his face, dried it, and contemplated his bloodshot eyes. The crack divided his face in two.
Wallander sat down on the toilet seat. There was another feeling nagging at him, not just the shame and the fear following what he had done. Nothing like this had ever happened before. He couldn’t recall ever having handled his service-issue pistol in a way that broke the rules. Whenever he took it home he always locked it away in the cabinet where he kept a licensed shotgun that he used on the very infrequent occasions he hunted hares with his neighbours. But there was something affecting him much more deeply than having been drunk. Another sort of forgetfulness that he didn’t recognise. A darkness in which he could find no lamps to light.
When he finally stood up and went to see the chief of police, he had been sitting in the toilet for over twenty minutes. If Martinsson called to say I was on my way, they probably think I’ve run off, he thought. But it’s not quite as bad as that.
Following two female police chiefs, Lennart Mattson had taken up his post in Ystad the previous year. He was young, barely forty, and had risen surprisingly quickly through the police bureaucracy, which is where most senior officers came from nowadays. Like most active police officers, Wallander regarded this type of recruitment as ominous for the ability of the police force to carry out its duties properly. The worst part was that Mattson came from Stockholm and complained often that he had difficulty understanding the Skåne dialect. Wallander was aware that some of his colleagues made an effort to speak as broadly as possible whenever they had to talk to Mattson, but Wallander refrained from such malevolent demonstrations. He had decided to keep to himself and not get involved in anything Mattson was doing, as long as he didn’t interfere too much in real police work. Since Mattson also seemed to respect him, Wallander had not had any problems with his new boss so far.
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