His hands stayed at his side, and he was balling them now into fists. I stared into his ice blue eyes, waiting for his answer, but I couldn’t tell what he was thinking. My hands dropped from his face and rested on his broad shoulders. After a few moments that seemed to drag on forever, he finally spoke. “Lilly, I am trying to give you an out here. You need to walk away from me now, because honestly, the closer you stand to me, the harder it is for me to fight you. Feeling your hands on me right now, and you saying the things you’re saying, I just…I don’t know if I will be able to let you go.”
I swallowed hard, and said, “Then don’t let me go. Don’t push me away.” His face softened, and I heard him start to breath faster as I said the words it had taken me eleven years to say. “I love you Luke.”
He exhaled sharply, and he reached up and took my face in his hands, and his mouth found mine. And, in that moment, I completely melted. He felt like home. I immediately slid my hands from his shoulders to his biceps. I pulled him tighter against me, wanting to hold him as close as I could against my body. I didn’t think I could ever let go. Every time his tongue would touch mine, I felt a current racing through me and my heart started to beat faster. My hands instinctively moved from his arms down to the waistline of his jeans, and I began to pull at the bottom of his shirt. He momentarily broke our kiss and whispered, “I want you so bad, baby.”
I looked right into his eyes. “Luke I love you, let me show you how much. I want to be with you tonight. Take me to bed, please,” I purred. Right then he picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. I could feel his erection against me, and it turned me on. I grinded my hips against him and he groaned. He carried me up the stairs wrapped around him with ease. Once we reached the top of the stairs, thankfully it was a short walk to his bedroom. I began to tug on his shirt as we moved over toward his bed. He began kissing my neck, and my eyes rolled back in my head. When I could focus, my eyes scanned the room. There was a four poster king size bed now where his full size bed used to be. The blankets were a warm beige color, with several pillows decorating the head of the bed. The walls were a deep cream color, and the fireplace was still there, already crackling and warm.
He moved his mouth back to mine, his fist tangling in my hair. His kisses alone could make me forget my own name. My blood was racing, and I was desperate to feel his skin on mine. I started to wriggle against him and he set me on my feet. He looked down at me, his eyes smoldering. My skin felt like it was on fire just from his gaze. I grabbed the bottom of my shirt and lifted it over my head. His eyes widened, a smile slowly creeping over his lips. His hands slid around my bare waist to my back, and he pulled me close to him. His lips crushed against mine, and he parted them with his tongue, devouring my mouth. He let out a low moan when my teeth gently nipped his bottom lip. While our kiss got deeper and deeper, I slowly began to lift his shirt up. He was driving me insane with his mouth alone, and I had to get him naked. He stopped the kiss and we both pulled his shirt over his head. Once it was off, I looked at him and my breath caught in my throat. I placed a shaking hand on his chest. He felt so hard and strong that I almost wanted to cry…he was so beautiful. His perfect chest gleamed in the moonlight, making him look more like angel than man. I traced the curves of his perfectly sculpted chest with my fingertips, feeling the fine hair between my fingers. I ached to have him close to me.
He lifted his hand to my cheek, and ran the back of his fingers down the side of my face and gently lifted my chin and pulled my lips back to his. He had one hand on the small of my back, and the one that caressed my cheek had moved to my shoulder. He slid the strap of my bra off one shoulder and moved his mouth to kiss the place where my bra strap just was. I threw my head back, moaning at the feel of his lips on my bare skin. This gave my libido a big nudge, and I boldly slid my fingers down to the buttons on his jeans. He suddenly stopped me, and with a gentle shove I fell onto the bed. His eyes hungrily roamed my body, and he looked at me like I was a gift that he couldn’t wait to unwrap. Slowly he leaned down, his hands finding the waistband of my pants. He started to slide them down and I lifted my hips so he could get them off. Once they were in a pile on the floor he looked at me up and down again, and whispered, “So beautiful,” before raising my leg. He held my foot for a moment, and his eyes fell on the new tattoo on the top of my foot. He grinned, and whispered, “That’s sexy as hell.” He lightly kissed my foot and my fists tangled and twisted the blanket on his bed. I was amazed at how sensual a kiss on the bottom of your foot can be. He began to move his mouth up my leg to my thigh. I almost exploded when he kissed me over the black lace of my underwear.
“You taste so sweet,” he mumbled against me, kissing my heat through the thin cotton and lace. He continued his sensual torture and trailed his tongue from my sex up my stomach and then stopped at my breasts. He kissed my right breast through the fabric of my bra and his left hand was caressing the other. Then, he gently pulled down the lace covering me, and moved his kisses to my exposed skin. I started moaning loudly as I felt his tongue gently roll around my nipple. This foreplay was almost too much to handle. I wanted to feel him deep inside me so badly. Luckily, my bra unhooked in the front, and when he undid the clasp, my breasts sprang free. He let out a soft moan as his eyes took me in, and his mouth eagerly kissed each breast while his hands even more eagerly explored my body. I could hear myself calling out his name, and then when I couldn’t take it anymore I decided to take control. I gently pushed him from on top of me, and rolled him onto his back. I crawled off the bed and stood before him and he leaned up on his elbows so he could watch me. I let my open bra fall off my shoulders, and slowly slid down my panties and let them fall to the floor. He softly gasped, and I could see his manhood stiffen even more in response. Walking back to the bed I crawled up next to him. I leaned down while on my hands and knees and began to lightly kiss his stomach and I trailed my tongue along his happy trail. His abs tightened in response and he grabbed and twisted the blanket, which turned me on more. I leaned back up and started to undo the button on his jeans. I moved both hands to his waist, and he lifted himself up just enough for me to pull his pants and boxers down. When his erection sprang free, I felt faint. The length ran all the way up to his belly button. I had momentarily forgotten it was that vast. My body began to quiver in anticipation.
He wiggled his legs slightly so his pants fell the rest of the way to the floor. I trailed my fingers up his leg, and not being able to resist, I took his manhood in my hands. He moaned in pleasure as I stroked him up and down with both hands. Before I stop myself, I leaned down and took him in my mouth, rolling my tongue around the tip of his arousal. I looked up at him, and his eyes were wide with shock and desire all in one. “Oh shit,” he moaned loudly, rolling his head back onto the pillow. He let go of the blanket and moved his hands to the back of my head and was gently guiding me. I gently moved him in and out of my mouth, and I was getting more and more turned on. I had never done anything this bold in my life, and seeing him come apart because of me was mind blowing. “Lilly, baby, that feels so good,” he moaned. “Baby, you gotta stop, I don’t think I can hold it much longer, and I don’t want to go right now,” he breathed. All of a sudden he sat up and gently pushed me on my back, my head resting on the pillow. “Oh God Lilly, I want you so much, I can’t wait to be inside you,” he moaned. I pulled him on top of me, and I clutched him tight to my naked body, feeling his beautiful skin against mine. He moved his hand down my side and started to touch and tease me between my legs. Then, without warning, I felt his fingers slip inside me, and I gasped loudly.
“Ah, Luke, yes,” I whimpered, feeling hot desire shooting through me. He moved his fingers in and around me so fast it was almost too much to take. I didn’t want to find release yet either, so I moved my shaky hand down his torso and grabbed his erection. Stroking him, I shifted my hips to position him right at my entrance. Knowing that I couldn’t wait anymore, he withdrew his hand, and I wrapped my legs around him,
waiting for him to take me.
“Luke, I want you now, please don’t stop,” I moaned, and he reached over my head to grab a foil packet from the night stand. I stopped him, and whispered, “I get the shot, you don’t have to. It’s okay.”
“Lilly, I want you to be safe,” he whispered.
“I am safe…with you. I trust you.”
“Are you sure?”
I took the foil packet from his hands and tossed it to the floor. I pulled at his back with my hands, desperate to feel him inside me. “Luke, I want to feel you, all of you. We’ve been apart so long…I don’t want anything else between us. Please,” I begged. He leaned his mouth to mine again, and then with slow and sweet agony eased himself into me. I almost screamed in ecstasy. He stilled for a moment and growled out a few curse words. He was so huge, and he was going in and out slowly so he wouldn’t hurt me. In many ways, it was like our first time all over again. Finally, when I was just about to faint from anticipation, he thrust himself all the way in, and I felt so full. He literally filled me so deeply I could feel him to the core of me. After a few sweet slow moments of getting comfortable in each other, he started to move faster and harder, making my body come alive. It was so heavenly, being with him like this. I didn’t know how long I was going to be able to last before surrendering to him. He was so amazing. We fit together so completely, so perfectly. My whole body was nothing but sensation as he continued on. I was lightly clawing at his back, and he groaned in pleasure. My body was starting to quicken, and I knew I wasn’t going to be able to hold on anymore. I began screaming his name almost like a prayer. He knew I was getting close, so he touched me in a way that was going send me over the edge, and I instantly climaxed, my body clenching around his. “Oh my god, Luke, yes,” I screamed out, shaking. As a small triumphant smile touched his lips, he began to slow down again but I kept grinding against him. This was earth shattering. I didn’t want him to stop. Panting, I begged him to keep going.
He continued on, still keeping pace. He still felt so incredible inside me even after I had orgasmed. As he kept going on and on, never stopping, I felt the fire building inside me again. I could tell it would be even more intense the second time, but I didn’t want it to happen yet because I was enjoying his gentle rhythm too much to stop. After what seemed like forever, but still too soon, Luke started moaning loudly. “Lilly…Lilly, oh god…” he cried out, his release building. Hearing him moaning almost made me explode, and then when he cried my name again, we both found our release together. It was magic.
We were still panting, trying to slow our breathing. Luke softly whispered, “I love you so much.”
I looked deeply into his eyes and said, “I love you too.”
He leaned his lips to mine and softly kissed them. I roamed my hands up his bare back and my hands rested in his hair. I had noticed during our lovemaking that he also had a tattoo that took up most of his back. It was of a beautiful cross with a banner draped around it, and his parents names were written in the banner in beautiful script. I instinctively traced my fingers around the tattoo, and he smiled and laid his head on my chest. He inhaled deeply, and then let out a big sigh. “You know, with the moonlight glowing through the window, your skin is even more beautiful. Like untouched snow,” he whispered, tracing his fingers along my collarbone.
I kept raking my fingers through his hair, and said, “I think that’s the sweetest thing anyone’s said to me.”
“Well, it’s true. Do you even know how beautiful you are?”
“Um, well, no. I guess not,” I admitted.
He raised his head up from my naked chest, and his ice blue eyes locked with mine. “Well, it’s true. Your eyes alone…I have never seen eyes so green before. How someone hasn’t swept you away is beyond me,” he said.
“It’s because no one has come close to you,” I whispered. He smiled at me, and we looked into each other’s eyes for a split second before his mouth was on mine. Electricity shot through me again. His tongue invaded my mouth so quickly that I had to struggle to catch my breath. After a few moments of teeth and tongue he abruptly stopped our kiss and moved his mouth to my breast. I felt another familiar tug in my belly, and we picked up right where we left off…
Chapter 15
Waking up in Heaven
Luke and I laid in each other arms all night, not wanting to move. By the time the sun came up, we had made love five times. We weren’t trying to go for any kind of record. We just could not get enough of each other. I woke up lying next to him, my head on his chest and one leg wrapped around one of his. I could feel his fingers in my hair, gently stroking my locks like a brush. It felt amazing waking up next to him. I stretched my fingers out over his magnificent chest, and he quietly said, “Good morning, gorgeous.”
I lifted my head and looked into his ice blue eyes. He was smiling, and he looked so relaxed. “Good morning to you,” I said, snuggling into him.
“How did you sleep?” he asked, kissing my forehead.
“Like heaven,” I said. “I had the most beautiful dreams.”
“Oh? What were they about?”
“Well, I would tell you that I can’t tell you, because they wouldn’t come true, but the truth is, they already have.”
“They have?” he asked, smiling.
“I am waking up next to you, and we’re both completely naked. Dream come true,” I said, and his smile widened. “How did you sleep?”
Luke looked into my eyes and sighed. “I got to make love to you all night, and finally got to wake up with you in my arms. I’m good,” he said, and I could feel his arousal against my thigh. I moved up and kissed him. He shifted beneath me and rolled so he was lying on top of me. I grinned at him, and again pulled his face to mine and kissed him. He moaned into my mouth, and pulled back from the kiss to stare at my face. “I like your new hair, by the way. I didn’t know it was possible for you to look even hotter.” I giggled, and the motion of it caused an instantaneous reaction in his anatomy. Smiling, he said, “God, I don’t know how we are going to get out of this bed today. I think we have opened the floodgates,” he whispered, and I laughed.
“You know, I think you are right,” I said, my fingers playing in his hair. At that moment, Luke’s pager beeped. He groaned, and looked at me apologetically. “It’s okay,” I answered his unspoken apology. “Go be a doctor.” He smiled, kissed me quickly, and got out of the bed. He pulled on his boxers, grabbed his cell phone, and dialed the number he needed to call. As I was lying there, I decided that I should probably check my phone as well. I wrapped the sheet around me and stood up, stretching my arms out. I walked over to the floor and found my jeans, and then I pulled out my cell phone from the back pocket. There were three text messages, and two missed calls. Of course, there was a seemingly shitty one from Tara. I sighed and read,
Really? A whole day, no calls or messages? And you said you wouldn’t forget about me in three weeks….you were right. Seems like it took less time.
I rolled my eyes, and typed a quick message, apologizing for being absent, but again reminding her that I was busy with family obligations (and with Luke, but I didn’t mention that). I wished her a Merry Christmas, and then sent it. She was really starting to piss me off. I then moved onto my next message; it was from Violet. She was just checking on me and reminding me about the rehearsal dinner and our girl’s night sleepover tonight, and I sent her a message back telling her that I was fine and I couldn’t wait. In all honesty, I really dreaded the evening because I wouldn’t be spending it with Luke, but a promise is a promise. The last one was from Daisy. It read,
Hey Lil, hope you’re feeling better. On my way to talk to Jack, once and for all. Wish me luck. Talk to you soon.
I sighed, and typed back, “Good luck,” and hit send. I was glad that she was ready to make a decision about Jack, once and for all. I just hoped that she was making the right one. Right then, I heard Luke saying his goodbyes, and he hung up the phone. I put my phone down on the nights
tand and sat back down on the bed. “Everything okay?” I asked.
“Yeah, it’s all right. It was a new mom with a question about her baby’s temperature. She’s okay,” he said, lying back down next to me. “I saw you had your phone out too. How many messages did you have from people wondering where you were?”
“Oh, no one was asking that. Violet was reminding me about the rehearsal dinner tonight and then the sleepover afterward,” I said. “I can’t believe she’s getting married tomorrow.”
“So…” he trailed off, “that means we can’t stay together tonight. Damn,” he said. “I wonder what I will do with all that free time.”
I smiled. “Oh, I’m sure you will think of something.”
“Yes, of you. All night long,” he said, his eyes smoldering, and sending shivers down my back. “So no one asked where you were all night? I figured your mom would have called or something.”
“Well, I’m sure she’ll want to talk to me about it when I get home. It’s probably all out in the open now,” I admitted.
“So, you think she’ll freak out?” he asked, concern in his eyes.
“Not at all. After you left in a hurry the other night, I was so confused,” I said. “Mama came home and saw me. She knew immediately that I was in love with you and encouraged me to, and I quote, ‘Get my head out of my ass’ and fight for you,” I said, and we both laughed. “And here I am.”
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