Gabriel's Rapture

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by Reynard, Sylvain


  He plugged his iPhone into the sound system so they could continue enjoying his Loving Julianne playlist. Then he took her into his arms as they sat on the floor, finishing their wine, while the sounds of medieval chant swirled around their heads. They were naked, wrapped in blankets, and unashamed.

  “The music is beautiful. What is it?” She closed her eyes as she focused on the female voices, which were singing a cappella.

  “‘Gaudete’ by The Mediaeval Baebes. It’s a Christmas song.”

  “That’s quite the name for a music group.”

  “They’re very talented. I saw them live the last time they came to Toronto.”

  “Oh, really?”

  Gabriel smirked at her. “Are you jealous Miss Mitchell?”

  “Should I be?”

  “No. My arms are full. Completely.”

  Their talking ceased against the backdrop of celestial voices as their kisses began. Soon their bodies were tangling naked next to the fire.

  In the glow of the orange flames, Julia pushed Gabriel down on his back and straddled his hips. He grinned as he let her lead, welcoming her newfound confidence. “It isn’t so scary, being on top, is it?”

  “No. But I’m more comfortable with you now. I think the wall sex back at the hotel shook loose my inhibitions.”

  He wondered silently what other inhibitions he could shake loose with various kinds of sex—shower sex, for example. Or perhaps, the holy grail of domestic coupling—kitchen table sex.

  Her voice interrupted his thoughts. “I want to please you.”

  “You do. So much.”

  She reached a hand behind her and lightly touched the top of his groin. “With my mouth. I feel badly that I haven’t been able to reciprocate. You’ve been so generous.”

  His body reacted to her low whisper and hesitant hand. “Julianne, there’s no quid pro quo here. I do things with you because I want to.” His lips curled up into a half-smile. “But since you’re offering…”

  “I know men prefer it.”

  He shrugged. “Great sex will always be better. In comparison, everything else could only be an amuse bouche.” He winked at her wickedly, squeezing her hip for emphasis.

  “Is this position okay? With you lying down or…?”

  “It’s fine,” he whispered, his eyes suddenly alight.

  “I suppose it’s better than me on my knees.” She watched his reaction from the corner of her eye.

  “That’s right. I, on the other hand, am happy to kneel before my Princess in order to pleasure her. As I have already demonstrated.”

  Julia laughed softly. Then her smile disappeared. “I need to tell you something.”

  He gazed up at her expectantly.

  “I have a gag reflex.”

  A furrow appeared between his eyebrows. “I’d be worried if you didn’t.”

  Julianne avoided his probing expression as her hand slipped lower. “Mine is kind of strong.”

  His hand closed over hers.

  “It won’t be an issue, darling. I promise.” He squeezed her hand.

  She moved farther down, and he began to weave her hair around his fingers, tugging playfully.

  Julia froze.

  For an oblivious moment, he toyed with her long, silken hair. Then he realized that she wasn’t moving. “What’s wrong?”

  “Please don’t hold my head down.”

  “I wasn’t going to.” He sounded perturbed.

  She remained perfectly still, waiting. For what, he didn’t know. He let go of her hair so he could lift her chin. “Sweetheart?”

  “Um, it’s only because Idon’twanttothrowuponyou.”

  “What was that?”

  She ducked her head. “I’ve—thrown up—before.”

  He stared at her incredulously. “What…after?”

  “Um, no.”

  Gabriel was silent for some time, then his eyes narrowed. “Were you sick because of a gag reflex, or because that bastard held you down?”

  She cringed, her head moving in the slightest of nods.

  Gabriel swore, his anger burning blue. He sat up swiftly, rubbing his face with his hands.

  In the past, he hadn’t been tender with his sexual conquests, although he’d prided himself on maintaining some vestige of good manners. Less so when he was doing cocaine. Despite the Bacchanalia that he’d participated in, parties that had approximated the decadence of Rome on occasion, he’d never, ever held a girl’s head down until she vomited. Nobody did that. Not even the drug dealers and addicts he used to hang around with did that, and they had no boundaries or moral compunctions at all. Only an incredibly sick, twisted, misogynistic motherfucker would get his kicks from humiliating a woman that way.

  To do such a thing to Julianne—with her gentle eyes and beautiful soul. A shy creature who was ashamed of having a gag reflex. The senator’s son was lucky he was hiding in his parents’ house in Georgetown under a suspended sentence and a restraining order, or Gabriel would have appeared on his doorstep in order to continue their previous altercation. And he would have ended their conversation with more than a few punches.

  He shook the murderous thoughts from his head, lifting Julia to her feet and wrapping her in a blanket. “Let’s go upstairs.”

  “Why?”

  “Because I can’t sit here after what you just told me.”

  Julia’s cheeks reddened with shame, and her large eyes filled with tears.

  “Hey.” Gabriel pressed his lips to her forehead. “It isn’t your fault. Do you understand? You didn’t do anything wrong.”

  She smiled thinly, but it was clear that she didn’t believe him.

  He led her upstairs and through the bedroom to the en-suite, ushering her in before closing the door behind them.

  “What are you doing?”

  “Hopefully, something nice.” He traced the curve of her cheek with his thumb.

  Gabriel turned on the shower, testing the temperature of the water until he was satisfied. He adjusted the flow until it was gently falling from the tropical rain showerhead. He slowly removed the blanket from her body and held the shower door open, waiting for her to step inside before he followed her.

  She looked confused.

  “I want to show you that I love you,” he whispered. “Without taking you to bed.”

  “Take me to bed,” she pleaded. “Then our evening won’t be ruined.”

  “Our evening isn’t ruined,” he said fiercely. “But I’ll be damned if anyone hurts you again.” He used both hands to caress her hair, parting and moving it so every strand grew wet.

  “You think I’m dirty.”

  “Far from it.” He took her hand and pressed it over the tattoo on his chest. “You’re the closest thing to an angel I’ll ever touch.” His eyes held hers without blinking. “But I think we both need to wash away the past.”

  He moved her hair to one side, pressing a kiss to her neck. Stepping back, he poured some of her vanilla-scented shampoo into his palm. His fingers worked the liquid into her scalp, rubbing slowly, and eventually sliding down the locks to the ends. He was careful in his movements. If he ever had one moment, one act, to demonstrate that his love for her was much deeper than a sexual infatuation, now was that moment.

  As Julia began to relax, she thought back to one of the few happy memories she had of her mother. She was a little girl and her mother washed her hair in the bathtub. She remembered the two of them laughing. She remembered her mother smiling.

  Having Gabriel wash her hair was far better. It was a deeply affectionate, deeply intimate experience. She was naked before him, as he washed away her shame.

  He was naked too, but was careful not to crowd her, or to allow his slightly embarrassed arousal to brush up against her. This was not about sex. This was about making her feel loved.

  “I’m sorry I’ve been so emotional.” Her voice was quiet.

  “Sex is supposed to be emotional. You don’t have to hide your feelings from me.” He wrapped
his arms around her waist, hugging her. “I feel very deeply about us as well. These past few days have been the happiest of my life.”

  He rested his chin on her shoulder. “You were shy when you were seventeen, but I don’t remember you being so wounded.”

  “I should have dumped him the first time he was cruel.” Her voice shook. “But I didn’t. I didn’t stand up for myself and things got worse.”

  “It wasn’t your fault.”

  She shrugged. “I stayed with him. I held onto the times when he was charming or thoughtful, hoping the bad times would disappear. I know that what I told you made you sick, but believe me, Gabriel, no one could be as disgusted with me as I am with myself.”

  “Julia,” he groaned, turning her to face him. “I’m not disgusted with you. I don’t care what you did; no one deserves to be treated that way. Do you hear me?” His eyes flamed a brilliant, dangerous blue.

  She covered her face with her hands. “I wanted to do something for you. But I couldn’t even get that right.”

  He pulled at her wrists, lowering her hands. “Listen to me. Because we love each other, everything between us, including sex, is a gift. Not a right, or an entitlement or an exaction—a gift. You have me now. Let him go.”

  “I still hear his voice in my head.” She brushed away a stray tear.

  Gabriel shook his head, shifting them so they stood in the center of the downpour, the hot water spilling over them. “Do you remember what I said in my lecture about Botticelli’s Primavera?”

  She nodded.

  “Some people think that Primavera is about sexual awakening—that part of the painting is an allegory for an arranged marriage. At first, Flora is a virgin and she’s afraid. When she’s pregnant, she appears serene.”

  “I thought Zephyr raped her.”

  Gabriel clenched his jaw. “He did. He fell in love with her afterward and married her, transforming her into the goddess of flowers.”

  “Not a very good allegory for marriage.”

  “No, it isn’t.” He swallowed noisily. “Julia, even though some of your sexual experiences were traumatic, you can still have a fulfilling sexual life. I want you to know that you’re safe when you’re in my arms. I don’t want you to do anything you don’t enjoy, and that includes oral sex.”

  Gabriel wrapped an arm around her waist, watching the hot water as it traveled over their naked bodies before splashing to the tile at their feet. “We’ve only been sleeping together for a week. We have our whole lives to love each other, in multiple ways.”

  He silently and lovingly soaped the nape of her neck and across her shoulders with a sponge. Then he traced the lines of her shoulders and the individual bumps of her spine, pausing regularly to place his lips where the soap had been rinsed away.

  He washed her lower back and the two little dimples that marked the transition to her backside. Without hesitation, he soaped each cheek and massaged the backs of her legs. He even washed her feet, grasping her hand and placing it on his shoulder to steady her as he soaped between her toes.

  Julia had never felt more cared for in her life.

  He attended the front of her neck and the slope of her shoulders. He washed and caressed her breasts with his hands, putting the sponge to one side as he kissed them. Then he was gently touching between her legs, not sexually but reverently, rinsing the suds that accumulated among her dark curls and finally pressing his mouth there as well.

  When he was finished, he took her into his arms and kissed her like a shy teenager, chastely and simply. “You are teaching me to love, and I suppose I’m teaching you to love too, in a way. We aren’t perfect, but we can have happiness. Can’t we?” He pulled back so he could read her eyes.

  “Yes,” she murmured, her eyes filled with tears.

  Gabriel clutched her to his heart and buried his face in her neck as the water rained down on them.

  * * *

  Emotionally exhausted, Julianne slept until noon the following day. Gabriel had been so kind, so loving. He’d foregone what Julia had always thought was a man’s basic need—oral sex—and given her what could only be described as a cleansing of shame. Gabriel’s love and acceptance had its intended, transformative effect.

  As she opened her eyes, she felt lighter, stronger, happier. Carrying the secrets of how he humiliated her had proved to be a very heavy burden. With the weight of guilt lifted, she felt like a new person.

  She thought it was probably blasphemous to compare her experience with that of Christian in The Pilgrim’s Progress, but she saw an important resemblance between their respective deliverances. Truth sets one free, but love casts out fear.

  In her twenty-three years, Julia hadn’t realized how pervasive grace was and how Gabriel, who considered himself to be a very great sinner, could be a conduit of that grace. This was part of the divine comedy—God’s sense of humor undergirding the inner workings of the universe. Sinners participated in the redemption of other sinners; faith, hope, and charity triumphed over disbelief, despair, and hatred, while the One who called all creatures to Himself watched and smiled.

  Chapter 6

  Gabriel awoke in the middle of their last night in Umbria to an empty bed. Dazed, in a semi-dreamlike state, he extended his arm to Julianne’s side. The sheets held no warmth.

  He swung his legs to the floor, wincing as his bare feet touched the cold stone. He pulled on a pair of boxer shorts and made his way downstairs, scratching at his bed-mussed hair. The light was on in the kitchen, but no Julianne. A half-drunk glass of cranberry juice sat on the counter next to a remnant of cheese and a crust of bread. It looked as if a mouse had been there for a nocturnal feeding but had been surprised and scurried off.

  Walking into the living room, he saw a dark head resting on the arm of an overstuffed chair next to the fireplace. In sleep, Julianne looked younger and very peaceful. Her skin was pale, but her cheeks and lips had a rosy hue. Gabriel would have loved to compose a poem about her mouth and resolved to do so. In fact, her appearance reminded him of Frederick Leighton’s Flaming June. She was clad only in an elegant ivory silk nightgown. One of the thin straps had fallen off her right shoulder, leaving the beautiful curve bare.

  Gabriel couldn’t help himself as the pale, smooth skin called out to him. He kissed her shoulder and crouched near her head, floating a hand over her hair and petting her softly.

  She stirred and opened her eyes, blinking twice before smiling at him.

  Her slow, sweet smile set his heart aflame. He actually felt his breathing speed. He’d never felt this way about anyone before, and the depth of feeling she drew from him consistently surprised him.

  “Hi,” he whispered, smoothing her hair away from her face. “Are you all right?”

  “Of course.”

  “I was worried when I reached for you and you weren’t there.”

  “I came down to get a snack.”

  Gabriel’s eyebrows knit together, and he rested his hand lightly on the top of her head. “Are you still hungry?”

  “Not for food.”

  “I haven’t seen this before.” He traced a finger across the neckline of her nightgown, skimming the tops of her breasts.

  “I bought it for our first night together.”

  “It’s beautiful. Why haven’t you worn it?”

  “I’ve been wearing all those things you bought me in Florence. What did the clerk call them? Basques and body suits? Your taste in women’s lingerie is surprisingly old-fashioned, Professor Emerson. Next you’ll be buying me a corset.”

  He chuckled and kissed her. “I’ll remember to look for one. You’re right, I tend to favor items that leave more to the imagination. It makes the unwrapping so much more enjoyable. But you’re equally lovely in everything and nothing.”

  Julia reached over to touch his face and pulled him close for a deeper kiss. She dragged her lips across his jaw line until she was whispering in his ear. “Come to bed.”

  She took his hand and led him past
the kitchen table, exchanging a saucy smirk with him before walking upstairs. She moved him to sit on the edge of the canopied bed while she stood before him, pausing.

  She pushed the straps of her nightgown over her shoulders. It pooled at her ankles, leaving her naked.

  In the semi-darkness of the room, he drank in her tempting curves. “You are an argument for God’s existence,” he murmured.

  “What?”

  “Your face, your breasts, your beautiful back. St. Thomas Aquinas would have had to add you as his Sixth Way if he’d ever been blessed enough to see you. You must have been designed and not merely made.”

  Julia lowered her eyes and blushed.

  He smiled at her pink cheeks. “Am I making you shy?”

  As if in answer, she took a step closer and pulled one of his hands so it cupped her breast.

  He squeezed her softly. “Lie beside me and I’ll hold you.”

  “I want you to love me.”

  He divested himself of his boxer shorts and moved so she could join him. Still cupping her breast, he began to kiss her, gently tangling his tongue with hers.

  “I breathe you,” he whispered. “You’re everything. You’re the air.” He teased her breasts with his fingers and planted gentle kisses down her neck, feathering up and down while she urged him on with confident fingers.

  Julia pushed him to recline on his back and straddled his hips. He kissed between her breasts and took one of her nipples in his mouth as his hand glided across the surface of her skin, moving down to test her.

  He released her breast in order to shake his head. “You aren’t ready.”

  “But I want you.”

  “I want you too. But I want to set your body on fire, first.”

  Julia’s desire was countered by Gabriel’s commitment to see that each of their sexual encounters was pleasurable for both of them. He’d rather delay entrance and satisfaction until she was mad with want, rather than speed along before her body was sufficiently aroused.

  When they finally came together, she looked down into open blue eyes, their noses only a whisper apart. She moved atop him painstakingly slowly, her eyes closing as she focused on the pleasurable sensation, before opening again. It was an intense connection. Dark blue, heavy with emotion, gazed up unblinkingly into wide chestnut. Every movement, every yearning was reflected between the couple’s eyes.

 

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