by Duncan Pile
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It was a difficult couple of weeks for Gaspi. Every day that passed felt like a day they couldn’t afford to waste, but they passed nonetheless as they waited for the return of the spirits. As his frustration grew, Gaspi started to doubt that postponing their decision about the quest indefinitely had been the right choice. He agreed that a lot hung on the elementals’ wisdom, but he couldn’t help feeling they should be taking action. He’d thought long and hard about what that action ought to be, and had come to the conclusion that they should set off on the quest to Pell. He’d wrestled with uncertainty about leaving Jonn behind, but neither he nor Hephistole had heard from him again since that day at the Rest, and he’d come to accept that this really was something Jonn had to do on his own. It might be months before he saw him again, and they certainly didn’t have the luxury of letting that time pass without taking action against Sestin. As for waiting for the elementals, that argument didn’t hold much water with him anymore. Loreill could sense where he was through the bond, so the elemental would be able to find them even if they had a head start.
He’d also had a re-think about who should go on that quest. They’d been working on the assumption that all the spirit-bonded magicians should stay together, but they didn’t know that for certain. It was an assumption Rimulth had made (and which Hephistole had latched onto), because it had been true when they went to the Measure. Yes, it had been the right thing to do on that occasion, but why was everyone so convinced that it was still the case? In the absence of the spirits’ guidance, they simply didn’t know if that was true anymore, and he wasn’t happy with Emmy, Lydia or Rimulth undertaking such a long and dangerous journey if it wasn’t absolutely necessary. If it was up to him, he and Taurnil would leave with Voltan and the other warriors first thing the next day. The problem was that Hephistole didn’t agree.
Gaspi knew Hephistole had taken Everand’s death very hard. They all had, but while they were all getting on with their lives, Hephistole seemed to be sinking deeper and deeper into a hole of self-recrimination. Maybe if the chancellor could deal with the burden of guilt he was carrying, they could make a decision about the quest. Gaspi decided the best thing to do was to go and talk with him straight away. It was a long shot, but anything was better than waiting around doing nothing.
…
“Good to see you Gaspi,” Hephistole said as Gaspi stepped off the transporter plinth. Gaspi didn’t think he’d ever heard a less sincere greeting. He took one look at the chancellor and realised that things were much worse than he’d thought. Hephistole sat at his desk with bowed shoulders and a heavy expression, and he barely made eye contact with Gaspi as he walked across the room. Deeply concerned to find Hephistole in such a state, Gaspi walked around the desk and took the chancellor by the arm.
“Come on Heppy,” he said, tugging on his elbow. Hephistole looked at him in surprise but didn’t object. He allowed himself to be led across the room to a more comfortable chair. “Take a seat while I make some tea,” Gaspi said.
“Ah Gaspi,” he said, lowering himself into the chair and leaning back with a deep sigh. “I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Your compassion becomes you.”
Gaspi tapped his forefinger on each of Hephistole’s coloured tea jars, trying to decide what would serve the chancellor best. Thinking tea might bring him the clarity he needed, but then again he might have done too much thinking already. He picked up a burnt orange jar and levered off the lid, taking a sniff of the tea that brought out feelings of relaxation and contentment. It was the first magically enhanced tea Hephistole had ever given to him and it seemed to be appropriate in that moment.
Carrying the jar over to the ornate silver tea set, Gaspi poured in some water and threaded power into it to heat it up. Within moments, steam was piping from the spout. Opening the orange jar, he took out a small mesh bag and a teaspoon, and placed some of the leaves into the bag before pulling its drawstring tight and dropping it into the hot water to steep. Placing the tea pot and two sets of cups and saucers on a tray, he carried them over and carefully placed them down in front of Hephistole. He took the chair opposite the chancellor.
Hephistole looked at him with curious eyes. “Thank you Gaspi,” he said. “I can see you’re worried about an old man.”
“You’re not that old!” Gaspi responded. Admittedly, Hephistole was pretty old – maybe fifty five – but he usually carried himself like a much younger man.
“Well I feel old,” the chancellor muttered, looking down at the floor. Gaspi’s concern escalated to full blown anxiety. It was a real blow to see Hephistole reduced to this. He had always seemed so indomitable, but here he was, acting for all the world as if he needed Gaspi more than Gaspi needed him. Gaspi didn’t know what to say, so he sat in silence, waiting for the tea to steep. When it was ready, he poured the amber liquid into both cups and passed one of them over by the saucer.
Hephistole took the tea and held it beneath his nose, breathing in the fragrance while waiting for it to cool down. A few moments later, he lifted the cup and took the tiniest sip, before leaning back against the back of his chair and letting out another long sigh.
“Heppy,” Gaspi said. “What’s going on with you?” He spoke gently, trying to tease a confidence out of him.
Hephistole looked up and met his gaze with a look of infinite weariness. “It must be hard for you to see me like this,” he said.
“Not really,” Gaspi lied. “When I was little, I’d sometimes wake up at night to find Jonn unconscious from drink. It didn’t happen often, but I used to look after him when it did. Everybody needs help sometimes.” For a moment Gaspi thought he could see moisture in Hephistole’s eyes, but if it was there, it didn’t form into tears.
“Thank you Gaspi,” he said quietly. “Your kindness means a lot, but you cannot help me.”
“Why not?” Gaspi asked.
“Because this is exactly how I should be feeling,” Hephistole responded, and his expression crumpled. “I am first and foremost a teacher, and have failed in the worst possible way. Two of the students in my care have been lost – the first seduced by evil and the second murdered by the first.”
“But you couldn’t have…” Gaspi began.
“I could and I should!” Hephistole snapped, interrupting him. Gaspi clamped his mouth shut in shock. Heppy never spoke to him like that! Hephistole took a deep breath, calming himself. “I had plenty of time to intervene with Ferast, but I put it off until it was too late. None of you had to go to the Measure, but I sent you anyway, and when Voltan expressed his concerns, I failed to pull you out.”
Gaspi didn’t know what to say. All of that was true, but he didn’t think it came close to explaining what had happened. From the moment he’d met Ferast the boy had been disturbed, and everything he’d done was an expression of that. He’d never shown any respect for authority figures, and there was no reason to think that Hephistole could have made any difference. The boy had gone off to seek the most infamous magician in the land and had become a murderer along the way. He was twisted – it was as simple as that. And as for the Measure, their reasons for going were sound, and they had all chosen to take part. They’d even had a quick escape plan in case things went wrong! No, Hephistole wasn’t being fair to himself at all. They lived in dark and dangerous times, and tragic as it was, they were going to lose some people along the way. He opened his mouth to say so, but Hephistole forestalled him with a raised hand.
“I know what you’re going to say, but there’s just no point. I appreciate you trying to help me Gaspi, but it’s what I think that matters here, and I think I am responsible. I hope you will forgive my rudeness, but I’d prefer it if you would leave.”
“But what about the quest?” Gaspi said. “The Darkman could be on its way right now!”
“I won’t act without the spirits’ guidance,” the chancellor said sternly. “I cannot in all conscience send a group of young people into danger without absolute certain
ty it is the right thing to do. The matter is closed.”
“Voltan says you were sure of this a few weeks ago,” Gaspi said.
“Well I’m not anymore, and Gaspi, it is time for you to go.”
Frustrated, Gaspi thrust himself out of the chair and walked to the transporter. He stepped onto the plinth, wracking his brains to think of some last persuasive comment he could make.
“Atrium,” Hephistole said from his chair, and Gaspi was transported out of the Observatory. When he arrived in the Atrium, he banged his fist against his leg in anger. He had no idea you could activate the transporter when you weren’t actually on it! There was no way Hephistole was going to let him back up again, and even if he did, he was clearly not in the mood to listen to reason. Gaspi stepped off the plinth, and as he stood there trying to decide what to do, an unthinkable idea started to form in his mind. It was madness, and yet the more he dwelt on it, the more it seemed like the right thing to do. He needed to speak to Taurnil right away. Spinning around, he paced out of the Atrium and set off through the campus.
…
It turned out that Taurnil was doing rounds, so Gaspi went looking for Drillmaster Trask and found him at the gatehouse.
“Drillmaster!” he called, getting the grizzled soldier’s attention.
“Gaspi?” Trask answered, raising a bushy eyebrow quizzically. “What are you doing here?”
“There’s something I need to speak to Taurnil about,” he said in a rush. “It’s really important, and I was wondering if you would let him off rounds?”
“What’s this all about?” Trask asked, folding his arms across his chest. He didn’t exactly look unfriendly, but it wasn’t the reception Gaspi had hoped for either.
“I can’t tell you,” Gaspi said, wincing inwardly even as he said it.
“Then I can’t let Taurnil off rounds,” Trask said. “If I take him off, someone else has to go on, and that’s hardly fair is it?”
“Sorry drillmaster, you’re right,” Gaspi said, realising he was being pushy. He was so used to being listened to in the college - particularly by Hephistole - that he sometimes forgot it didn’t work that way with other people. “I’ll wait.”
“Good lad,” Trask responded. “The watch changes in an hour. I’ll let him know you’re waiting.”
“I’ll be over there,” Gaspi said, indicating a tavern across the street.
“Right you are,” Trask responded.
Gaspi walked across the street and took a seat outside. The serving girl came out and took his order, and within a couple of minutes he was sipping on a cup of tea, waiting for his friend. He dwelt on his unthinkable idea while Taurnil was finishing up his rounds, considering it from every angle. He was so absorbed by it in fact, that he let the tea go cold on the table in front of him, and didn’t even hear Taurnil’s footsteps as he approached.
“What’s going on Gasp?”
“Taurn! Sit down mate. I need to talk to you.”
“Sure,” Taurnil said, pulling another chair across and sitting down opposite his friend. “What’s got you so worked up?”
Gaspi looked at his friend intently. “We need to go to Pell.”
“Is that all?” Taurnil responded, clearly confused. “I thought we already knew that.”
“No, I mean we need to go now!” Gaspi said.
Taurnil leant back against the seat. “What makes you say that?”
“We’re just waiting around doing nothing!” Gaspi said. “We don’t know when the spirits will return, and you can bet your life that Sestin isn’t sitting on his hands letting the time pass! For all we know, the Darkman could already be loose!”
“I know what you’re saying,” Taurnil said. “You know I’d prefer to act, but we’re waiting for the spirits. Hephistole didn’t want to send the girls into danger unless it was absolutely certain it was the right thing. Besides, Lydia isn’t in any state to travel.”
“That’s exactly what I’m saying,” Gaspi responded, leaning forward. “There’s no real reason to think the Emmy and Lydia should come on the mission. Waiting for the spirits was Rimulth’s idea, but Hephistole has latched onto it. I reckon he’s using it as an excuse not to act. I went to see him earlier and he’s a wreck.
“A wreck? Hephistole?” Taurnil asked.
“He’s blaming himself for Everand’s death, and for Ferast’s choices too.”
“You what? Ferast too?” Taurnil responded incredulously.
“I know. It’s mental, but Hephistole is totally broken by it.”
“So what are you saying?” Taurnil asked.
“I’m saying we can’t rely on Hephistole, and we can’t wait for the spirits. It’s down to us Taurn. The quest is the most important thing right now, so I say we get on with it. We leave the girls behind. Rimulth isn’t a battle mage so I reckon he should stay too. We just take the warriors and Voltan, and leave without telling the others.”
“They’ll be furious,” Taurnil said.
“Yes they will.”
“I guess there’s no helping that,” Taurnil said slowly, weighing it up in his mind. “And it would mean they won’t be in danger. Lydia can have more time to get better, and Emmy will be here to look after her.” Gaspi could see his best friend was talking himself into it. “We’d have to get Voltan on board,” Taurnil continued. “There’s no way the warriors would follow us unless he’s leading the quest.”
“So you’re in?” Gaspi asked.
Taurnil hesitated one more moment. “I can’t believe I’m saying this, but yes I’m in.”
“Then let’s go see Voltan.”
…
“So let me get this right,” Voltan said, his gaze switching back and forth between Gaspi and Taurnil. “You think Hephistole isn’t in a fit state to make this decision, and you think we should sneak out of the city without his permission?”
“Yes,” Gaspi answered. There was no point beating around the bush. “What do you think about Hephistole?” he asked. Surely Voltan was aware of how the chancellor was behaving.
The warrior mage stared above Gaspi’s head for a moment, a far-off look in his dark eyes. “He is a great man,” he said after a while. “I never thought to see him like this.”
“No-one’s perfect,” Gaspi said, sensing agreement. “Heppy’s like family to me, but no-one is more important than the fight against Sestin, and if the Darkman is loose then we are putting the whole city in danger by staying here.”
Voltan sat back, frowning so fiercely it looked like his eyebrows were wrestling each other. He was silent for a good while, absorbing what Gaspi had said. Gaspi sweated it out, wondering if he’d crossed a line, and if he had, how far over it he was. Suddenly Voltan leant forwards, meeting Gaspi’s gaze once more.
“I have never done anything behind Hephistole’s back before, but you may have the right of it.” Gaspi let out a sigh of relief. “The chancellor cannot be held responsible for his actions at the moment, and there is much more at stake than his feelings. I commend you on your clear sight Gaspi, but I want another chance to speak with him before we make such a drastic decision.” Gaspi opened his mouth to speak, but Voltan interrupted him. “Don’t worry, I will not give away what we’ve discussed.”
“Okay Sir,” Gaspi responded.
“But Gaspi,” Voltan continued. “If we do this, we’re not taking your girlfriends.”
“Our thoughts exactly,” Gaspi said, and Taurnil grunted in agreement. “Rimulth should stay behind too.”
“Agreed,” Voltan said. “Battle mages only, and we’ll need all the warriors.”
“Absolutely,” Gaspi said.
“What about the enchanted weaponry?” Taurnil asked. “Can we take some of it with us?”
“I feel bad enough planning to go behind Hephistole’s back!” Voltan said. “I won’t add theft to the list of offenses.”
“Sorry,” Taurnil mumbled.
“No need to be sorry,” Voltan said. “You’re just thinking of the quest.
Even if I was willing to take something, Hephistole has surrounded the rack with a sensitive magical trigger. If anyone tried to take anything from it, he’d know straight away.” Taurnil grunted. “It’s time for you to go,” Voltan said, standing up snappily. Gaspi and Taurnil quickly joined him. “I will speak with Hephistole, but if nothing changes, we will leave tonight, at the turning of fourth watch. Pack light, and wait for me in Gaspi’s room. If we’re doing this, I will come and find you. We will need to leave quickly, so be ready.”
“Yes Sir,” Gaspi responded, turning to leave.
“Be careful,” Voltan said as Gaspi opened the door to the office. “No sorrowful goodbyes, however well-hidden you think they might be. Emea and Lydia will see through it.”
“Okay,” Gaspi said, echoed by Taurnil, and the two of them stepped out into the corridor. Taurnil shut the door behind them and they walked to the transporter.
“Atrium,” Gaspi said, so focussed on what they were planning on doing that he didn’t even notice the unpleasant effects of transportation.
…
Taurnil sat on Gaspi’s bed, fully packed and ready to go. He was wearing a chain mail vest beneath his cloak, belted at the waist and extending down to his knees. He wore a heavy knife at his waist, a baldric of throwing knives across his chest, and of course, he carried his staff. Along with all of that, he had a longbow harnessed to his back, and a thick cluster of arrows protruding from a separate compartment in that same harness. With the exception of the bow and arrows - a recent addition to his deadly armoury - it was the same gear he’d worn for the Measure. Gaspi had tested the magical strength of each piece, and was pleased to discover his enchantments had held well.
Voltan wasn’t due to collect them for another hour, and although Gaspi had his equipment ready, it was still laid out on his bed. Late spring was turning into early summer, so he’d managed to get his enchanted cloak back from Emmy without any complaints, as she only used it in cold weather. It lay on his bed next to a set of sturdy travelling clothes, and the baldric of throwing knives he would also strap across his torso.