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by Jess Bentley


  “It’s practically a public service,” Didi nods.

  “It’s practically malpractice,” I observe into the top of my glass. I meant to say it quietly, or maybe in my head, but when I hear Didi’s intake of breath I know I said it out loud.

  “Well, some of us beg to differ. And nobody’s complaining,” Didi shrugs.

  “Yeah, is that legal?” Hannah asks.

  “Who even knows?” I reply. “It’s just going to disappear in the next generation anyway. Just one of those small-town things that everybody learns how to live without.”

  “Some of us live without it all the time,” Didi adds sarcastically. “Some of us could actually think about using those services. Maybe work out some of that blockage, don’t you think?”

  I narrow my eyes and shoot her a warning look. “Some of us are just fine.”

  “Seriously, you guys,” Desi drawls, “what is going on here? What are you even talking about?”

  Didi turns away so she doesn’t see me silently begging her to shut up.

  “Joe just doesn’t like anything about where we came from,” she answers, skating over the thing that she is threatening to say. I breathe a sigh of relief, acknowledging that she just let me off the hook.

  “I just like Manhattan,” I explain. “If I wanted to stay in Florida, I would’ve. But I like it here.”

  “You can’t outrun your roots, Joe,” she lectures me. “You’re still the same country control freak you always were, even if you like to pretend you aren’t. Look at you… You even dress like a country girl. You just pretend that it’s some kind of vintage pinup ideal.”

  Automatically my fingers drift up toward my hair as if to push it back into place.

  “I love the way you dress, Joe,” Hannah says, rushing to my defense.

  “This isn’t a control-freak thing or a country thing,” I pout. “I just like to dress like this. Is that so wrong?”

  “There’s nothing wrong with it, is what I’m saying,” she replies. “You should just stop pretending that you’re something you’re not. Loosen up.”

  “I’m fine!” I insist, finally starting to lose my patience. “Why are you even picking on me? Just leave me alone, Didi.”

  “Yeah, you are a little bit of a control freak, though,” Desi sighs, her nose wrinkled. “But I do love the outfits.”

  “Maybe you should just come with me back home?” Didi suggests. “Get Dr. Warner to give you a lady treatment. Loosen you right up!”

  “You know what... it actually is getting really late,” I shrug, grinding my teeth and pushing my drink away from me. “I have to get to the gallery in the morning—”

  “Because did you guys know that Joe has never had an orgasm? That’s probably it.”

  Silence falls across the table. Somehow my heart seems to both stop and speed up at the same time.

  “Like, that’s why you’re such a control freak. Or maybe being a control freak keeps you from being able to come? I don’t know. Kind of a chicken and egg thing.”

  “Didi, I think you’re drunk,” Hannah mutters, her eyes downcast.

  Great, even Hannah is humiliated for me, I think to myself. Wow. Just wow.

  “What… You guys didn’t know that?” Didi says innocently. “It’s no big deal… Lots of people don’t know how to come. I’m just saying that maybe Dr. Warner—”

  Desi grimaces and blows me a pantomime kiss as I force myself to get up from the table and put my heavy oilskin trench back on. Suddenly it feels very conspicuous, and not like something I would even want to wear.

  “I’ll see you at the gallery tomorrow afternoon,” Desi says in a low, sympathetic voice.

  “Hey, you can’t leave!” Didi announces, too loudly. “You promised me that we would hang out and drink. You promised!”

  I don’t even know what to say to her. I just back away and leave her sitting there with her mouth hanging open, too awkward to even respond. As I stomp toward the exit, I ignore the pain of the blisters that have definitely formed in my shoe, and head back out into the rain.

  Chapter 3

  Joe

  The loading dock is flooded with morning sun as the delivery guys haul the giant wooden crate on skids. I just stand off to the side with my arms folded, supposedly supervising but really just trying to stay out of the way. My main function is to witness anything that might go wrong, so I can make statements to the insurance company.

  Last night’s rain floats up from the alley in clouds, catching the sunlight and turning to golden mist. If it weren’t for the fact this is a filthy alley in midtown Manhattan, it could easily be mistaken for a setting in a painting. Fairies or heroes could step out from these brick doorways. Maybe a cherub should float by on one of these clouds.

  “Just sign here,” one of the guys says to me, holding out a clipboard and a pen.

  I gesture toward the gallery door with my elbow, not even bothering to uncross my arms.

  “I can’t sign for that until it’s on the floor, sorry,” I shrug.

  He raises his eyebrows briefly, then sort of tips his head to one side as though trying to catch my eye. I’m not in the mood. I’m sure he’s handsome enough—I caught sight of him under one of those glorious shafts of sunlight just a couple of minutes ago—but I seriously cannot even consider forcing myself to return eye contact with him right now. It’s probably not safe… for either of us.

  “Yeah… Okay,” he finally mutters. “Hank! We gotta drag this into the gallery!”

  I shuffle behind them, taking slow steps on my feet which still ache from last night. Today I’ve got on a pair of soft ballet flats, but it’s still pretty tough to walk around the blisters I gave myself in the rain. Normally I would think those peep-toe heels were totally worth it, but today…

  And again, I’m flooded with that sick feeling of shame and humiliation. Didi was totally out of line. I can’t believe she would turn on me like that, but I should’ve seen it coming. I should’ve known that she was tipsy when I got there, and I should’ve seen that evil glint in her eye.

  Her mom used to get that same glint when she would start on the Jack Daniels before we got home from school. More than once we came in the front door, still laughing or griping about something from our school day, when Didi’s mom would show up in the hallway. She’d be leaning heavily against the doorjamb with that glint in her eye, ready to call us out on what we were wearing, how we were talking, pretty much anything about us.

  So I should’ve seen it coming, but I didn’t. I did promise her that we would go out, and stupidly, I promised to get drunk. But I assumed that was just sort of a joke. I didn’t realize she was going to hold it over my head all night.

  And I certainly didn’t realize what was coming.

  No, I’ve never had an orgasm. It’s not something I generally tell people, although it’s not something I’m particularly ashamed about either. I’ve had sex before. I’ve had pretty decent sex, I think. And I suspect that this earth-shattering experience she tends to go on and on about is exaggerated just to make me feel bad.

  Maybe I’m just not made that way. I’ve read studies that say that a full third of women don’t have orgasms. Walking down the street, it doesn’t look like a third of women are hobbling around like unsatisfied zombies or anything. Somehow they manage to run corporations and families. Maybe Didi is just kind of a jerk.

  I love her, but man, she really goes for the throat sometimes.

  “I’m an asshole,” comes a quiet voice behind me.

  My stomach instantly tightens, filling with acid. I hesitate for a moment and coach myself to just be nice, don’t say anything I will regret because she’s leaving, and we will figure out a way to sort this all out when she comes back.

  But when I finally force myself to turn around, I am taken aback. She smiles sheepishly at me and shrugs her shoulders over the padded supports of a pair of crutches. Looking down, I see the cast that extends from just over her knee to her red-painted toenails.r />
  “My leg,” she explains.

  “You broke your leg? As in, your actual leg?”

  “Yeah…” she winces. “Sort of had an incident with a very tall curb and a very drunk Didi.”

  “Jesus… That sucks,” I reply, trying to assemble this new information alongside my perfectly justifiable anger.

  Somehow, every time I start out angry at her I always end up feeling sorry for her.

  “It does suck… But I’ll be okay. Are we still okay?”

  She looks up at me, practically batting her eyelashes. Her expression is sincere and full of remorse, but it’s not like I’ve never seen that before.

  “Whatever,” I sigh. “You were just drunk.”

  “Yeah, but what I said… I mean I should never—”

  I hold up a hand to silence her. I don’t want to hear the words again.

  “Okay, fine,” she mumbles, defeated. “Just know that I really am sorry.”

  “Didi?” comes a voice from the gallery door.

  We both stand up a little straighter as Martha Adler enters the loading dock. Sharp as a dart in a form-fitting, matte-black dress, she sweeps her gaze over Didi from top to bottom with one eyebrow arched almost to her hairline.

  “I’m totally fine!” Didi chirps unconvincingly. “I just needed to grab my other portfolio from the office.”

  Martha’s lips disappear into a straight line. “You are not totally fine. You are broken.”

  “It’s just a fracture,” Didi explains.

  I can see the light blue veins around her eyes and wonder if she got to sleep at all last night.

  “I suppose I could find some office work for you to do here,” Martha continues, not really addressing Didi directly at all. “In the back, of course. One of the offices.”

  “Wait, what?” Didi asks, confused. “I have a flight to catch, Martha. I’ve got an Uber in like ten minutes.”

  Martha swings her gaze to me, pinning me in place like a butterfly on a specimen board.

  “You’ll need to go,” she announces.

  My mouth goes dry. “Go?” I repeat pointlessly.

  “Didi will have your tickets ready at the airport,” Martha says, pressing her lips and blinking several times with her long, magnetic eyelashes casting just a slight breeze. “All the renovation should be done… Shipments are all scheduled. Just finish what Didi already started.”

  “Wait! I’m ready!” Didi objects. “I can go! It’s fine!”

  But Martha’s already gone, back into the gallery with her stiletto heels clacking on the concrete floor like abbreviated gunfire reports.

  “Jesus Christ,” Didi whimpers, looking around frantically.

  I can feel how upset she is, but I can’t seem to bring myself to focus my attention on her. Martha just announced that I’m going to the exact place I just said I didn’t want to go. Willowdale, Florida. My hometown.

  Didi sniffles dramatically.

  “Okay, so… Just tell the Uber driver to go by your place and pick up your clothes. Just pack fast. The flight leaves at noon, so I suppose you technically have plenty of time. You can do it, but hurry.”

  I grind my teeth, trying to keep all the words safely inside my mouth. I can’t say anything right now. Not anything at all.

  “It’s the old hat shop, you remember it? All you have to do is get the paintings hung and hold the opening, okay? Maybe… a couple other things. A few. I’ll email you details about the budget and stuff. You should have a company credit card already, right?”

  My head is swirling. I can’t believe this is happening.

  “Joe?” she repeats, but her voice seems to be getting farther away. “Are you listening to me? You have a company card and everything? Do you understand what I’m saying?”

  Yes, I understand what she’s saying. I can’t believe it, but every word is understood.

  I’m going home, and there’s nothing I can do about it.

  Chapter 4

  Sturgill

  As soon as I wake up, my cell phone starts buzzing at me. I set it up this way on purpose so I could get everything I need in the most efficient way: awake, coffee, schedule downloading as I blast out a quick sun salutation and a couple hundred sit-ups. In minutes I’m upright and heading downstairs, ready for another day.

  Harriet flutters around the kitchen like a mayfly, muttering to herself and sweeping up as she goes. After forty years working for my family, she knows every millimeter of this house better than anyone. She leaves a steaming cup of extra-strong black coffee in the middle of the white marble countertop and flutters away, her skirt barely visible as she hurries through the back doorway just as I’m coming in.

  “Thank you, Harriet!” I call out just like five thousand times before. I’m not sure she can hear me. She never responds, but it would be bad manners not to acknowledge her efforts.

  Scrolling through the schedule that the appointment service sent to my phone, I gulp down half the coffee while getting in a few more standing stomach crunches for good measure. Nothing really unusual on the schedule for today. A few vaccinations that my nurse can handle. Prenatal checkup with Mrs. Cooper. Diabetes check on Mr. Rollins.

  Great. Perfect day for a run.

  The sun is glorious, shooting down through the banyan tree branches and landing on the wide lawn. I can already hear Hector’s tractor starting up, temporarily drowning out the noises of crickets and cicadas. He keeps the grounds absolutely spotless, the perfect counterpoint to Harriet and her work on the house. I’ve always marveled at the effortless symmetry of the relationship: inside and outside, interlocking efforts like puzzle pieces. Both utterly dedicated, both unsurpassed in their excellence.

  The sound of my heels on the concrete drive immediately centers me. I begin my run at an easy pace, happy to enjoy the surging sense of wellness that immediately floods my body. I enjoy all kinds of activities, but running is the pinnacle in my mind. It’s the time where I feel everything working together with almost mechanical smoothness. I don’t even wear headphones because I want to hear my breath.

  I run down the drive and along the tree-covered path to the street, trying not to grin like an idiot. It’s almost criminal how fun this is. No one can see me, but it still wouldn’t be something I’d want my patients to witness. A lot of them like to think of me the way they thought of my father: serious, steadfast, committed, reliable. A big goofy grin on my face doesn’t necessarily go along with that image.

  Since I’ve got time, I take the long way. The office actually isn’t very far away and I’d like to hit at least two miles. I swing around the Jensen farm, noting the new mailbox they just had installed. And it looks like Mrs. Cooper is having some trouble keeping the lawn up. I’ll have to ask her later if she needs help. In late pregnancy, it wouldn’t be right for her to be out in this heat trying to mow the lawn anyway, and I know her husband is in San Francisco for business until early next month.

  Our small downtown comes up way too fast and I almost want to loop out to the ocean highway, but I don’t want to be late to the office either. Waving to the mayor and the new florist, I continue up Main Street, suppressing disappointment that my run is almost over.

  I swear, she comes out of nowhere. First I see the rolling suitcase and dodge to avoid that, but then find myself in a slow-motion collision with a small redhead in a cape.

  That’s what I’m thinking about: is this a cape?

  Twisting in midair, I attempt to leap around her. Her hands go up like a comic book character and I reach out instinctually to support the small of her back since it looks like she’s going down.

  Somehow we both hit the ground at the same time, still on our feet but crouching, as though we just completed an acrobatic trick together.

  Smiling, I push gently against the tiny diamond of muscles that coil around the base of her spine to help her back to standing. She is supple and responsive, elegantly finding her feet and her dignity at the same time.

  “Well, hello t
here,” I smile.

  The fiery waves that frame her face jostle back into position. Her sea glass-green eyes finally focus on me, then immediately narrow.

  “Why don’t you watch where you’re going?” she snaps.

  I flinch automatically. I’m not sure anybody’s ever talked to me like that.

  “Why don’t you watch where you’re going?” I snap back, confused.

  Her nostrils flare as she inhales sharply, and I can’t help but notice how pristine they are. Perfectly smooth skin. Perfectly placed freckles the color of sweet tea.

  “Do you think you own the sidewalk?” she growls, snatching the handle of her suitcase and rolling it stubbornly to the other side of the sidewalk.

  Apparently she didn’t have far to go, so her flamboyant exit feels like a little bit of a flop. A smile twists the corners of my mouth and I push my hair back, wondering why I feel the urge to chase her.

  Keys jingle in her hand as she tries several on the ring in the old lock.

  “Do you need some help there?”

  I can see the tension in her shoulders as she hunches over, muttering to herself. She’s got on a cotton dress that looks like something my aunt would’ve worn. It’s tied at the waist and flared around the knees, old-fashioned and supremely feminine. I love the way that it both highlights her figure as well as her strength, giving her the room to move and manage things, or room to swish her hips as she walks away. Her choice.

  “Sometimes these old doors swell with the heat,” I explain, trying to keep my voice friendly.

  I’m not sure why she is so skittish, but I don’t want to scare her off just yet. It’s been kind of a while since I’ve seen a new face in town. While Jupiter and Naples have been growing like crazy, the boom hasn’t quite reached our little hamlet just yet. I hear it’s just a matter of time, but I sort of hope that I am old and mostly dead by then. I like things here just the way they are.

  “Look, if you’ll just let me—”

 

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