by Paige Toon
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Also by Paige Toon
Lucy in the Sky
Johnny Be Good
Chasing Daisy
Pictures of Lily
Baby Be Mine
One Perfect Summer
Coming Soon
The Longest Holiday
First published in Great Britain in 2012 by Simon & Schuster UK Ltd
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Copyright © 2012 by Paige Toon
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eBook ISBN: 978-1-47112-594-2
This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either a product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual people, living or dead, events or locales, is entirely coincidental.
For Nigel Stoneman
who, with five little words, helped
make my dreams come true
One Perfect Christmas
I have a spring in my step as my boots crunch through the freshly fallen snow. It’s eight o’clock in the morning and I’m almost too excited to breathe. The anticipation of the last few weeks – no, months – has been killing me. How I will sleep tonight… Who am I kidding? I won’t sleep.
But first I have to get through today. The smile grows wider on my face and I actually giggle. Out loud. Like a proper nutcase.
‘Morning!’ I chirp to a lone passer-by.
‘Morning,’ he replies with a slightly wary look in his eye.
The streets are almost deserted at this hour on a freezing Saturday morning in the middle of December.
I practically skip over Magdalene Bridge, glancing fondly at the punts moored down to my right. There’s a thin layer of ice on the river and the buildings and streets are coated with fluffy white icing, all shimmering under a perfect blue winter sky. I don’t think I’ve ever seen Cambridge look this beautiful.
Today is the day that two of my favourite people in the whole world – Jessie and Emily – get married to each other. I met Jessie when I was a student at Anglia Ruskin University, here in Cambridge. He worked as a punter on the River Cam – he taught me how to punt – but that wasn’t the only way he brought joy back into my life. When I met him I was a mess. But enough of that.
Emily was our housemate in my second year. She was as meek as a mouse when we first met, and Jessie and I hardly ever saw her. But eventually she came out of her shell and we became good friends. Then she and Jessie became much more than that. They’ve been together for nine years, and now, today, they’re finally tying the knot.
When Jessie told me he had proposed to Emily I thought they’d get married in Scotland, where she’s from. But they delighted me by deciding on Cambridge. After all, this is where they met, and I’m about to reach the house where Jessie grew up.
Jessie’s parents, Judy and Andrew, live in one of the gothic terraces on Mount Pleasant, at the top of the hill. They spent some time in America when I was at university, permitting Jessie to rent out the two spare rooms to students – namely, Emily and me.
I open the gate, walk up to the heavy, intricately-carved wooden front door and knock. The door swings open almost immediately, and then I’m beaming up at Jessie. His red hair looks wilder than usual, and his face a little paler. I realise with building hysteria that he has a slightly manic look about him.
I burst out laughing. ‘You’re freaking out!’ I exclaim, unable to offer him the calm, sympathetic shoulder that I probably should, given the circumstances.
‘Yeah, yeah, alright,’ he snaps good-naturedly, pulling me into the house and closing the door.
Then I throw my arms around him and he lifts me off my feet, squeezing the air out of me before starting to laugh, too. He puts me down and I look up at him.
‘Today’s the day, Weasley,’ I say gently, using the nickname that I came up for him when we first met a decade ago, because he reminded me of Rupert Grint – AKA Ron Weasley from Harry Potter.
‘Sure is, China,’ he replies with a grin.
My name is Alice, but he calls me China because my grandmother was Chinese. I have her long, dead-straight black hair and a hint of her Oriental eyes, although mine are green, like my mother’s.
We only started using our nicknames again about eight months ago. We hadn’t used them for years. We grew apart when… No. I’m trying not to think too much today.
‘Am I glad to see you,’ Jessie brings me back to the present. ‘How’s Emily?’
‘Cool as a cucumber,’ I reply. I left her in her hotel room on the other side of Cambridge. It’s only a small city, so it didn’t take long to walk.
I’m one of her three bridesmaids, and I arrived at her hotel this morning to find her calmly checking through the contents of her small suitcase before realising that she must have left her tiara at Jessie’s place. I offered to walk here to collect it, seeing as I know Cambridge better than bridesmaids number one and two: Amy from Scotland and Ruth from London. I should do. I’ve lived here for over ten years now.
‘Really?’ Jessie asks with surprise.
‘Yep. So you’d better get yourself together.’ I notice the tiara sitting on the hallway table. ‘Ah, good. You found it.’
‘Yeah.’
I realise with surprise that I can’t smell the pancakes and bacon that I would usually be able to smell on a Saturday morning after a night at The Pickerel Inn, the local pub where we used to hang out. We went there for some drinks last night for old times’ sake with a few of our punter buddies from the past.
‘Have you eaten?’ I ask Jessie with a frown.
‘No, I’m not hungry.’
I gape up at him. ‘What?’
He shrugs. ‘I’m nervous.’
‘You? Too nervous to eat?’ I manage to splutter. ‘Never, never, ever did I think I’d hear that. Where are your parents?’
‘Mum’s in the shower, Dad’s still in bed.’
I check my watch. I have time – Emily won’t mind if I don’t rush back. ‘Right,’ I say with determination. ‘I’m making you breakfast.’
He follows me reluctantly down the hallway to the kitchen. I pull out a chair for him, and then set about getting the contents for Scotch pancakes out of the fridge and larder.
‘What time
are Chris, Jacob and Tom arriving?’ They’re his groomsmen. Chris is one of our old punter pals, and Jacob and Tom are friends of Jessie’s from London, where he and Emily now live. Emily is a social worker, and Jessie is a manager at a gastro-pub.
‘Nine-ish.’
Good. They can take his mind off things, but for now that responsibility falls to me.
‘How’s the house?’ Jessie asks.
My smile threatens to break my face. I only moved in a week ago.
‘That good, huh?’ He gives me a weak smile. He must be feeling faint.
‘When are we going to be allowed to see it?’
‘Any chance you’ll have time on Monday before you set off?’ I ask hopefully. They leave for their honeymoon on Monday afternoon.
He frowns. ‘Aren’t you at work?’
‘Oh yeah.’ Trust me to forget about that.
He smirks.‘Bet you wish you weren’t. What time does he arrive?’
I catch my breath. ‘Tomorrow night.’
‘Excited?’ he asks with a wry grin.
I nod quickly and can’t stop my feet from jumping with delight on the kitchen floor.
Jessie laughs affectionately. ‘I love seeing you this happy.’
I smile and decant some flour into a measuring cup. ‘What about you, Weasley? How are you feeling? This is supposed to be the happiest day of your life.’
‘I feel like I’m going to throw up.’
We hear quick footsteps on the wooden floorboards overhead and both glance upwards. His mum must be out of the shower. She sounds like she’s racing around like a rocket, and then we hear her squawking at Jessie’s dad to wake up.
‘She sounds even more stressed than you,’ I comment. Jessie is an only child, so this, effectively, is her big day.
‘That’d be right.’ He rolls his eyes and I turn back to the job at hand. ‘What are you doing?’ he suddenly snaps.
‘I’m spooning sugar into a bowl,’ I reply slowly, as though he’s a bit thick.
‘You haven’t sifted the flour!’ He sounds outraged. ‘Budge over,’ he says as he gets up from the table. He pushes me down into his empty chair and I grin. Weasley making breakfast – order has been restored to the world. And, I think with amusement, I’ve managed to take his mind off things. Double result.
By the time his groomsmen arrive, his mum and dad are downstairs, the former fussing about, while the latter reads the paper as though this is an ordinary day.
Jessie sees me to the front door. ‘Don’t forget to give her these,’ he says, handing me a paper bag containing three Scotch pancakes wrapped in aluminium foil.
I didn’t have the heart to tell him that Emily was ordering a Champagne continental breakfast as I was leaving.
‘Oh, and I’d better remember this!’ I grab the tiara from the hall table.
‘Give her my love,’ he says, touching me on the arm.
‘I will.’ I smile warmly up at him. ‘Good luck.’
‘Thanks.’
‘See you on the other side,’ I add. He snorts with derision and shoves me out of the house.
The morning passes by in a blur of hair, make-up and beautiful dresses, and when we finally go downstairs where the cars are waiting to take us to St Mary’s Church in the city centre, Emily looks absolutely gorgeous. She’s wearing a long, cream-coloured velvet gown with a matching coat to protect her against the winter weather. We wouldn’t normally expect snow this early, but no one is complaining – it’s magical. Her dark hair has been piled up on top of her head, underneath the glittering tiara. A few loose tendrils hang down. Her make-up is pretty and neutral – she looks very, very different from the goth chick who moved into Jessie’s house all those years ago, with her heavy make-up, black clothes and nose ring. She stopped dressing that way when she got her job in London.
As for us bridesmaids, we’re wearing floor-length smoky-grey velvet gowns and high heels. But even with our matching jackets, it’s hard to keep our teeth from chattering as we pose for a few photographs. And then the show is on the road.
I’m nervous as the doors to the church are opened, so I can’t imagine how Emily feels. Jessie is standing up at the altar with his friends and we exchange shaky smiles. As Emily’s third bridesmaid, I have to lead the way in. Ruth is behind me, Amy, the Maid of Honour, follows her, and then it’s Emily and her dad. The music starts up and my feet take me on autopilot up the long aisle. Concentrating on walking slowly and not rushing, I reach the altar and stand off to the left. Breathing a small sigh of relief, I turn around to watch Emily. The church is quite full, and it’s hardly surprising – Jessie has always been enormously popular, and Emily is a far cry from the shy girl she used to be at university. Jessie is standing sombrely as he watches his wife-to-be approach. It’s the look on his face that does it. My eyes well up and with blurry vision I see Emily smile back at Jessie as she reaches him. Mercifully, a tissue appears out of nowhere. I smile gratefully at Ruth as the priest starts his address, and then we’re instructed to sit down. I turn to take my seat in the front pew, but do a double take as my gaze falls to the rear, far left corner of the church. My heart skips a beat as his dark eyes meet mine. He has a beard, a bushy black beard, but it’s definitely him. He smiles a playful smile and then gives me a look, nodding his head meaningfully. He’s trying to convey that everyone else is sitting down so I quickly do the same, but his stare burns into the back of my head as my heart beats wildly. And then happiness floods me and I can barely contain myself. He’s here. He’s here. He’s here.
It’s hard to concentrate on the service. The next time we have to stand up, I look around to catch his eye, just to check it’s really him. It is, he’s unmistakeable, even with his new facial hair. Joe. My Joe.
Of course he isn’t just my Joe. He’s Joseph Strike, A-list actor and Hollywood’s hottest rising star, and millions of women around the world feel like they own a little piece of him too. But they don’t. Not really. He’s mine, all mine. My heart is so full it feels like it could burst.
How did he get here without being recognised? It must be the beard. I suddenly have an uncontrollable urge to guffaw and I seriously consider stuffing Ruth’s tissue into my mouth to stop myself, but luckily it’s time to sing so we all stand up again. This time he grins back at me – he knows I’m close to losing it. I really need to concentrate, but I see him begin to sing with such animated, over-the-top gusto to make me laugh, and it works. Amy flashes me a look so I quickly turn to face the front of the church, but I glance back at him to see him mouth an apologetic ‘sorry’ for getting me into trouble with Bridesmaid Number One. I purse my lips and try as hard as I can to sing the words on the order of service in my hands. What if he leaves because he knows he’s distracting me? Panicked, I look back, but he’s still there, singing more calmly and watching me. He gives me another meaningful nod, and after that I force myself to concentrate.
The service is beautiful and when Jessie finally kisses his bride I have a valid excuse to clap so hard my hands sting. It’s also blissfully quick, with two short readings and hymns that are uplifting and only a few verses in length.
The congregation follows the wedding party out of the church, and I know that Joe will wait until the end to leave, so I have time to congratulate my friends. Jessie sweeps me up in a big bear hug, and I whisper in his ear: ‘He’s here.’
He puts me down, a stunned look on his face as he scans the crowd.
‘Inside,’ I add quietly with a grin.
‘What’s this?’ Emily asks, sensing something is going on. The three of us put our heads together.
‘Joe is here,’ I whisper.
Her eyes widen. ‘Is he? Is he coming to the reception?’
‘Oh. I don’t know.’ I hadn’t thought about that. ‘There won’t be room, will there?’
‘It’s a buffet!’ Jessie exclaims. ‘Of course there’s room.’
‘He might worry about being seen,’ I quickly add.
‘He’ll b
e alright,’ Jessie tries to convince me. I know he’s dying to meet Joe.
‘Definitely!’ Emily urges. She can’t wait to meet him, either. I suspect she’s a bit of a Strike Stalker at heart, not that she’d ever admit that to Jessie.
‘Come on, you three,’ Jessie’s mum, Judy, interrupts in a chiding tone. ‘Let’s get these photos over with. Everybody’s freezing.’
Thankfully the snowy roads have been mostly cleared, so it’s not too hard for us bridesmaids to make our way in high heels through the narrow medieval streets to Garret Hostel Bridge. I wish Joe were next to me to keep me warm, but I know he’ll be staying out of sight for now. The bridge has a very steep incline, but it has been well gritted, so we make it to the top without slipping over. The female photographer shoots some quick shots of the wedding party while we grin and bear the cold.
We all cheer as Jessie and Emily climb into their waiting punt beside the bridge, which Jessie’s groomsmen decorated earlier with silver tinsel and shimmering garlands made out of tinfoil. We shower the couple with rose petal confetti as Jessie punts his laughing bride away to the reception venue further down the river. The rest of the congregation sets off, but I pause for a moment as my eyes fall on Trinity Bridge. I can’t help but feel melancholic as I remember Lukas sitting there many summers ago, reading his book. Lukas. My tall, blond, good-looking, former husband. I try to close my mind off to him, because I don’t want to feel unhappy, not today. I shiver and turn away, coming face to face with Joe. I throw my arms around him and he hugs the breath out of me, warmth radiating from his body and engulfing me.
‘I can’t believe you’re here.’ My voice is muffled against his chest. He pulls away and I look up at him.
‘I wanted to surprise you.’
‘You did.’
His smile fades as his gaze falls to my lips, and then he’s kissing me. The world around us shrinks as shivers travel up and down my entire body. I can’t believe he still has this effect on me. He holds me tighter and I press my body against his, sliding my hands inside his suit jacket to get close to him. He feels broader and more muscled than the last time I saw him, which was an unbearable three months ago. I suddenly, desperately, want to get him undressed. And then I remember myself and pull away, gasping for breath.