Edwina felt the blush rise up her cheeks.
“I told him you were pretty for a widow,” John said. “I think he came to see for himself.” He tugged open one of the huge doors, which creaked in protest, and went inside.
How embarrassing. She hadn’t thought about this aspect of her presence. People might see it as improper—a young, attractive widow being too much of a temptation for a virile man. Richard had probably advertised for a widow to avoid the possibility of compromising an unmarried lady, expecting an older woman who wouldn’t be seen as a prospect for dalliance.
As if there wasn’t already enough to worry about, now she must fear being thought Richard’s mistress. She stormed into the house.
“Let them think what they like,” Richard said indifferently.
“I don’t have much choice, do I?” she snapped. “Why did you have to get rid of your gamekeeper?”
“Because he took bribes in return for access to the house while it was empty,” Richard said. “That’s how so many of the treasure seekers got into the cellars. If he’d driven them off in the first place, we mightn’t have had this problem, but now the villagers don’t discourage it because it brings them some income. Ordinarily, I would have many of them in my employ, but the ghost has frightened them away. I can’t blame them for making a little extra any way they can.”
“You’re very forgiving,” Edwina said.
“They’re my villagers,” he said. “My responsibility. If I can’t take care of them, what choice do they have but to shift for themselves?”
Edwina found plenty to occupy her for the rest of the day, what with mending torn clothing and continuing the children’s lessons—blissfully nothing to do with curses or ghosts, although John’s predicament weighed heavily on her mind. Meanwhile, Richard went through every nook and cranny of three rooms on the first floor of the sinister wing, searching for secret spaces. He found only one—a priest’s hole that had been added in the seventeen hundreds, about which he already knew. “Tomorrow we’ll do another three,” he said at dinner. “John, you can help me. Perhaps Lizzie and Mrs. White can try the attics. We’ve been through them once, but another search wouldn’t hurt.”
“The attics are full of old things. We can bring down costumes for dressing up,” Lizzie said. “Oh! May we dance this evening, Papa?”
After a gasp of a silence, Richard said, “Why not, if Mrs. White will be so kind as to play for us?”
“I should be happy to,” Edwina said, which wasn’t entirely true. While she stayed in close proximity to Richard Ballister, unwelcome memories were bound to intrude, but she mustn’t let them get in her way.
In due course she found herself seated at the pianoforte in the portrait gallery. Richard had lit several branches of candles, a contrast to the utter blackness outside the leaded windows. A posturing gentleman with a beard and a vast lace collar glared at her from a huge painting high on the wall.
“That’s Sir Joshua,” John said. “Don’t you think he looks the murderous sort?”
“No, he just looks conceited,” Edwina said. “Is the lady in the next portrait his wife?”
“His second wife,” Richard said. “If there was a portrait of his first wife, he destroyed it.”
The second wife’s collar was lacier than Sir Joshua’s and decorated with pearls. She gazed calmly into the distance, the perfect, elegant wife—much like what Edwina had been to Harold White. How had she felt, Edwina wondered, knowing that her husband might be a murderer? Harold hadn’t killed anyone, as far as Edwina knew, but he’d been a selfish, unscrupulous man. She’d learned soon enough how to manipulate him, but she’d hated the need to do so.
Perhaps that was why Richard’s plan to deceive John, even if necessary, bothered her so much. He cared for his children and his dependents, and yet here was proof that he wasn’t completely honest. She already knew that, so why did she want to trust him? She should have more sense.
She set melancholy thoughts aside and found some music for a country dance, while John perused a book about mathematics. She was trying hard not to show her anxiety for him and thankful that playing the music would occupy her mind.
Richard patiently took his daughter through the steps of two country dances, over and over again—although he pretended not to know what he was doing and let her do most of the leading. “It would be better with four people, of course,” Lizzie said, out of breath at the end. “But John refuses to dance, and someone must play for us. Do you waltz, Mrs. White?”
The sudden change of subject caught Edwina off guard. “I have done so, but not lately.”
“Dance with Mrs. White, Papa, and I shall play for you,” Lizzie said. “Waltzes are easy to play.”
“I don’t think…” Edwina began.
Richard raised a sardonic brow, making her want to hit him. “Surely you haven’t forgotten how?”
No, and she hadn’t forgotten what had happened next, either.
“Please, Mrs. White! I love watching people waltz.” Lizzie ran over to the pianoforte and rummaged through the sheets of music. “My grandmother and grandfather held a ball in America, and John and I peeked at all the people through the balusters. Papa and Mama waltzed together, twirling and whirling around the room. That was before Mama grew ill and died.” She paused, a stricken look on her face. Was she thinking of her dead mother or the prospect of losing her brother?
Her lower lip trembled, but she took a deep breath and chose a sheet of music. “Oh, here’s the one I know best.” She sat on the bench, practically forcing Edwina out of the way.
After that extraordinary display of fortitude in one so much younger, what could Edwina do but comply?
Richard put out his hand. “Come, let us twirl and whirl.”
Doubly uncomfortable now, Edwina took his hand. She wasn’t a replacement for his wife, nor did she wish to recreate in the slightest way her own brief experience as his lover years before, yet she couldn’t bear to disappoint Lizzie. Her ungloved hand felt hot and heavy in Richard’s while Lizzie got herself settled and pounded the first few chords. Then he took her by the waist and they were off.
~ * ~
Why bother fighting it? Richard didn’t trust her, and she was too prickly to deal with, too bitter about something he didn’t understand, but he wanted her anyway. Wanted her to burn for him now the way she had burned so many years ago.
That she didn’t feel the same way was entirely clear. She followed his lead, but with stiffness in her posture and a lag in her step. She gazed sternly over his shoulder, refusing to meet his eyes.
“You used to dance better than this,” he said.
That brought her head around, but only to glare at him and turn away again, nose in the air.
“I thought we were to let bygones be bygones,” he said.
“That was your idea, not mine,” she muttered, “and it is impossible when you force me to waltz with you.”
That annoyed him enough that he whispered, “You needn’t worry, Edwina. There is no terrace to sweep you away to. There are no nearby bushes to hide in or a wall to―”
“How dare you!” she hissed, but she was trapped, and her furious face and flaming cheeks said she knew it. She would look a fool if she broke from his arms and ran away. Not only that, she would upset the children—something he knew without a doubt that she would do her utmost to avoid. How odd; in some ways he did trust her after all.
“Sorry, my dear, but I can’t help but have fond memories of that night.” He gazed down at her averted face. “I thought you would feel the same way.”
She shrugged.
“We enjoyed ourselves, and luckily there was no harm done.” Except to my heart.
“None at all,” she replied a little too fiercely. “You went your way and I went mine.”
“And now fate has brought us together again,” he said softly. “Everything has changed, but can’t we enjoy a waltz?”
~ * ~
Oh, God, yes—but she
mustn’t let him know how much she wanted to do just as she’d done before. She wanted the music to inflame her passions. She wanted to follow his lead, to twirl and fly with the music, to go anywhere he took her, to succumb to him behind a bush, against a wall, in a bed…
There were plenty of beds nearby. How dare he say she needn’t worry? Again, a ghastly thought stirred her—had he paid her in advance not for educating his children, but for gracing his bed?
Very well, she would ask him. “Is that why you gave me fifty pounds? So I would feel obliged to—to give in to your advances?”
His face darkened, and his hand tightened on hers. “You deserve to be slapped, Edwina. Fortunately for you, I never use violence against a woman.”
“I shall take that as a no,” she said, refusing to quail under that scowl. “You’re hurting my hand.”
Immediately, he loosened his grasp. “I beg your pardon. As for your question, a decent employer does not tup the governess. Now that we have settled that small matter, may we please enjoy this dance?” He paused. “For Lizzie’s sake?”
His expression was suddenly so rueful that she gave in, whether for Lizzie’s sake, for his or for her own, she didn’t know. She let herself go, let herself feel the delightful rhythm of the waltz, which Lizzie played with great gusto.
“That’s better,” he said.
Yes, but it allowed the rhythm of the dance to thrum in her blood, which coursed through her veins and set every limb on fire with pleasure and desire. It’s not only better, it’s dangerous. She kept her gaze firmly on his waistcoat, for her eyes would all too clearly reveal the arousal that beat within her, just as it had back then. She dare not smile, she dare not enjoy herself too much, and yet her lips curled of their own accord, and her body’s demands refused to abate.
He was smiling slightly too, his lips parted, and longing and desire roared through her again at the memory of his kisses. She stifled a groan as they whirled up the room toward the pianoforte. She got hold of herself and sent a smile at Lizzie, who grinned back. Then they whirled away again for more pleasurable torment.
At last the waltz came to an end. Richard let her go and bowed. “Thank you for the delightful dance, Mrs. White.”
She curtsied, but no words came to her lips that wouldn’t reveal how shaken she was. She nodded and smiled again at Lizzie. “You play the waltz very well.”
“I adore waltzes,” she said. “Will you please play so Papa can dance with me?”
It was long before Edwina slept that night. How could she stay at the Grange, when her attraction to Richard had surfaced in such a powerful way? He’d said he wouldn’t tup the governess—such a rude way to put it, although she’d probably deserved it. She wanted to believe him, to trust him, but he had lied to her before.
More to the point, why had the desire resurfaced so strongly?
She thought she knew the answer—sheer loneliness. If she weren’t so bereft of loved ones, she would have more control over her emotions. But she didn’t have any loved ones and probably never would, so she would just have to control herself without them.
Doubtless the approach of Christmas, her favorite season, played a part in her lack of self-control…
Mortification washed over her. What was wrong with her, maundering on about her own troubles while poor John feared imminent death? Her loneliness was nothing compared to John’s predicament.
Heaven help them all, it was only two weeks to Christmas. Two weeks to find the necklace. To the devil with her own problems. All her concentration must be on solving John’s.
CHAPTER SIX
Someone was muttering to Edwina, urging her to do something, but she couldn’t quite make out what the voice was saying. What? she asked. What do you want? She strained her ears, but the voice, strangely disembodied, sounded muffled as if at a distance. Was that a hand shaking her? Last chance, she thought the voice said. Not much time. She struggled, pushing the hand away.
A shriek shattered the dream. Must I do everything myself? the voice cried, clearly now. Edwina sat up in bed, heart hammering as it had the night before. She shoved open the bed curtains and glanced about the dark room, then went to the casement and parted the curtains. Moonlight poured through the windows, giving enough light to show that she was alone. Just to be sure, she lit a taper and checked under her bed. Needless to say, there was no one.
She left the curtains open and got back into bed, furious with herself. She was letting her imagination rule her, which was probably what had happened to the other governesses, too. Well, she would not allow herself to be bullied by her own mind.
Somewhere below, the dog Felix howled.
Raaasp! Clank, rasp!
The hairs on the back of her neck stood up. What was that dreadful noise? Into the ensuing silence came a terrified shout—from outdoors?
She got out of bed again. She would not act like a hysterical fool. That rasping was not made by a ghost—of that Edwina was one hundred per cent sure. The voice from outdoors was no apparition either. She crept to her window once more and peered out.
Seeing nothing, she eased the casement open. In the moonlight, the knot garden was utterly still. From below came the sound of bolts being shot back and the creak of the front doors opening.
“Samuel Teas, if you’re out there, show yourself,” Richard said. “I don’t want to shoot you by mistake.”
The innkeeper sidled out from the shadow of one of the holly hedges surrounding the knot garden and doffed his hat to Richard.
Joseph followed, pulling his forelock. “Oh, my God, sir, did you hear them chains?”
“There she is, the ghost of the Grange.” His voice hushed and awestricken, Mr. Teas gazed up at the windows of the picture gallery.
“It seems the ghost is as annoyed as I,” Richard said.
“I tried to tell them not to come here, Sir Richard, but they wouldn’t listen,” said Mr. Teas.
Richard raised his voice. “You others have thirty seconds to leave, or I shall unleash the dog on you. If you return, I shall shoot you, unless the ghost gets you first.”
Several seconds ticked by in silence, and then two men stood up slowly from behind the bench in the knot garden, each gripping a spade. “That’s no ghost,” muttered one of them, scowling up at the windows. “It’s a female parading in her nightdress, mark my words.”
The other one laughed uneasily. “Maybe, maybe not.” He put his spade over his shoulder and joined Joseph and Mr. Teas on the other side of the hedge.
“And what about them chains?” Samuel Teas said. “You heard them. What have you got to say to that, eh?”
“Anyone can make a noise at night,” said the first treasure seeker. He cursed and swung his shovel, hitting the bench with a clang.
A ghastly shriek, far louder than what had woken Edwina, echoed through the house. She leapt back from the window, heart thudding against her breast. Felix howled and Mr. Teas cried out, “That’s her!”
“I’m leaving, I’m leaving!” The first treasure seeker’s voice shook.
“Let that be a warning to you,” Richard said. “She won’t let you near her treasure.”
When Edwina peeked out the window again, the two intruders were running full-tilt toward the village, while Mr. Teas and Joseph took up the rear at a more decorous pace.
She heard Richard call the hound indoors and bolt the front doors. Good heavens, she had never imagined such lawlessness could exist in England. Softly, she shut the window again.
What had they seen in the windows—the same windows where Lizzie had walked the night before? Certainly not a ghost. Fuming now, she crossed the room to her door and opened it the tiniest crack. Soon Richard remounted the stairs, with John beside him—John who had gone to bed hours earlier. “Well done,” he said softly.
“I had help,” John said, grinning.
She didn’t hear Richard’s reply as they both tiptoed to the picture gallery, and a second later Lizzie appeared, also wide awake. “
Back to bed with you both—and quietly so you don’t wake Mrs. White.”
The children disappeared into their respective bedchambers. Edwina clenched and unclenched her fists, more enraged by the second.
What a fool she was. She’d almost trusted Richard Ballister―again.
~ * ~
Richard put out the candles in all the sconces and went to his chilly bedchamber. He removed his boots. What a bloody nuisance, but he didn’t blame Teas for accommodating the treasure seekers. It brought custom to the inn, enabling him to hire a maid or two who would ordinarily have worked at the Grange.
At this time of year in particular, people wanted cheer and feasting and good will—a difficult feat in a village which all too often had been overshadowed with a threat of death. If he did find the damned necklace, he would make it a memorable Christmas for everyone on his estate.
He took off his stockings and shucked his shirt. Once the ghost was gone, he could hire servants. And with enough servants, he could hold a feast to surpass all feasts, celebrating the end of the curse.
Footsteps sounded in the corridor, followed by a sharp rap on his bedchamber door. Before he could respond, Edwina White stormed in.
He should have known it was too good to hope that she’d slept through the disturbance. She shut the door behind herself. “How dare you?” she cried.
~ * ~
For a long moment, those were the only words she could get out. She hadn’t expected to find him half-undressed. She wasn’t used to being confronted by such a powerful, manly chest.
She’d seen no manly chest at all for years, as a matter of fact, and Harold’s hadn’t been much to look at in any event.
She closed her eyes to shut out the sight and gathered her rage about her. “I don’t know why I’m surprised. Ghosts, indeed! It’s been a hoax all along, hasn’t it?”
“Er…”
“You needn’t bother. I already know the answer. As if it wasn’t despicable enough to cozen me with your stupid tales of ghosts and curses, you drag your poor children out of bed to participate in the charade. Lizzie doesn’t sleepwalk, and if John lacks his customary vigor, it’s because you wake him to drag chains all over the place.”
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