Who would have known that the urge to resist is something much more defiant than it seems? It’s like an addiction to a drug that you just can’t kick. You want to get rid of it, make it go away. You want it to leave from your life, but the resistance will only last for so long. Unless you trap yourself in a white room that you know you can’t escape from, then there is no way of getting out of it, especially when you’re in too deep.
When you’re in so deep that you can’t breathe, can’t speak, can’t move without feeling like you may screw things up, you know there’s no escaping it. When you were once lost, but that addiction found you. You thought that the word “happiness” was pointless and that your heart would remain shattered in pieces, but that addiction came around and put the pieces back together, day-by-day. When that addiction looks you in the eye and gives you their word, how can you resist? How can you just let it go? Perhaps that resistance turned into abundance and you needed it every day. Maybe the void started to die down, started to loosen and transformed into need—into desire and a fulfilling, enigmatic passion.
You can’t fight the feeling. You can’t replace it because trying to hold off and trying to kick it to the curb will only cause you to regret it. And you know you will because that resistance is what had willingly put you back together and took you in, regardless of the way that you were, in the first place.
Studying my words again, I smile. Not only because I’ve come a long way, but because it feels amazing to let it all out. It may not be a poem but it truly expresses how I feel and what Nolan and I have been through. It feels amazing to breathe now that my chest no longer hurts from the pressure of a broken heart. I can finally inhale and exhale without choking. He’s provided that feeling for me.
But I’m doing just what he told me to do. Writing. And I will continue to express myself until we’re heart to heart again.
Hard to Hold On (the sequel to Hard to Resist) will be released in November, 2013.
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GIVING IN
A poem dedicated to Hard to Resist
By: Stina Rubio
I dream of your touch
Sliding down my thighs, it’s rough,
Stealing my breath away,
Making my whole body sway,
Singing out in ecstasy,
All the while your kisses lingering,
Sliding in and out, its slick,
Your name escaping my moaning lips,
Grasping my hips so tight,
You lift me up and slide me on just right,
Fitting perfect like a glove,
You and me making endless love,
Hardly able to hold it in,
This feeling is nothing short of sin,
Kissing my breast and licking your lips,
Stroking my ass with soft finger tips,
Not wanting to stop, not giving in,
The feeling building, to explode within,
As I shatter, as I shriek,
Wanting to scream out but I’m too weak,
Falling forward onto your chest,
Sated and satisfied and also blessed,
Your kisses teasing at my neck,
All the hopes and promises that you kept,
Hard to resist, but I’m giving in,
You and I were meant to begin again.
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The Forgotten Princess
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