“You’ll like this place. I used to come here all the time.” And it felt so good to be back—good and shudderingly transgressive. She’d left this life and these alleys behind, left the joy of fang in vein. But tonight she had fought pirates, saved a hundred people from misery, polished off a protracted operation. Triumph flushed her. She was done running from herself—time to celebrate how far she’d come from the addled addict of a year before.
Raz stepped over a fishnet-stockinged someone enjoying a chemical sleep in the lee of a metal trash bin. The someone had bandages up and down their arm. “Folks don’t clean up after themselves in this part of town?”
“She’s fine,” Cat said.
“The bandages, I mean. Impolite not to close your people up.”
“They’re a fashion statement.” Bass pounded beyond the unmarked ironbound door. THE RATS! screamed a chalk sign on the wall beside the door, sharp-edged balloon letters flanked by lightning bolts. The chalk bore the same circle-trumpet glyph, which Cat bet belonged to a new artist on the block.
“Ravings of madmen?”
Cat shook her head. “That’s the band. They’re great, actually. We’re in luck.”
The door opened. Bass flooded the alley. The sleeping someone tossed. Two young men staggered out, arms wrapped around each other; the lighter-skinned one had fangs. The bouncer pushed a larger, angrier guy out after them. He recovered his footing and ran back toward the bar, but the bouncer’s gloved fist clipped him on the jaw and he fell, hit the wall, and slid down to join the crumpled someone, who drew away into a fetal position by reflex.
The bouncer filled the door: a broad-shouldered woman with angular muscles and short spiked orange hair. Cat remembered her from the bad old days. “Hi, Candy,” she said, and thumbed left at Raz. “I brought a friend.”
“I don’t think she’s convinced,” Raz said, and flashed the woman a smile with a little tooth.
The bouncer opened for them like a second layer of door. Cat tipped her as they entered the pulsing dark, the dancing strobes, the surging mass of sweat and flesh and black lace where she’d spent too many years of nights.
It felt like coming home, to a home smaller and shabbier than remembered but still homey. Pool tables in front, unoccupied, beside the bar. Stage on the back wall, cage fronted in case of zealotry, dance floor ringed by private booths. The smoke of a hundred cigarettes congregated in the ceiling. “I missed this place,” she said. She’d taught herself to dread Walsh’s bar while getting sober, but here it was, a refuge where she’d passed hard times. She loved it, though she didn’t trust the way she loved it, like an echo of an unheard noise.
“Good music,” Raz said, bobbing his head almost in time with the beat.
“Ms. Elle!” A voice from the bar, round and big. She turned and with unechoed joy saw double-chinned Walsh, a year grayer but his paunch and big arms and pockmarked face unchanged. He raised one arm above a row of patrons bent over their personal drugs. “Come here.”
“Walsh.” She slapped him a high five over the rounded back of a man with a lizard’s head. “How’s the life?”
“Fat and happy. Didn’t expect you to take my advice when you were last here. It’s been a while.”
“And a while again,” she said.
“Haven’t seen you before, sailor.”
Raz’s hands were deep inside his pockets. “Nice place you have here.”
“What’s tonight’s poison?” Walsh asked. “Some choice kids on the floor today, if either of you are looking for a fang.”
“Whiskey for me.” She held up thumb and finger to gauge the amount. “I’m on a diet.”
“Sailor?”
“Same,” Raz said.
“Don’t need to keep up appearances.” Walsh pointed to the dance floor. “The booths are cheap, and the crowd’s willing.”
“Whiskey, thank you.”
Walsh passed the drinks with a skeptical expression; Cat paid before Raz could try. “What have I missed?” Cat asked.
“Same scene: changes and never changes. You remember Brad?”
“Pale kid with the needle teeth, yeah. In from the boondocks.”
“Let himself go a few months back.”
“No shit.”
“Full out with the claws and everything. Candy took him down, with help. Almost had to call the Suits, but everyone’s okay, except for Brad.” He stabbed his sternum with the tip of his middle finger and made a face. “Shanda moved back down to Alt Selene, her grandkids need some help down there. The Strings broke up, got back together, broke up again. It’s life.”
“Or something like it,” she said, completing their old phrase. “It’s good to see you again, Walsh.”
“Same here, kid. Get out on the floor!”
Raz had taken his whiskey and looked, not tense exactly, but distant.
“I’ll play some pool first,” Cat said.
Walsh kept rein on his surprise. “Get on, then. Take table two.”
They wormed through the crowd to the empty table. “I can’t play with you,” Raz said.
“Don’t be so sure.” She racked the balls, rolled them back and forth on green felt, switched two solids and stripes.
“I’m stronger. My heart doesn’t beat, and I don’t have to breathe. It wouldn’t be fair.”
The cues were still horrible and gnarled. She ground blue chalk against the tip, and inhaled, smelling sweat and blood in a good way. Familiar, long-absent scents of stale beer and cloves tickled up her nose and back down her throat. Her tongue woke wet in her mouth, and she felt an anticipatory thrill, like a man had turned a key in her spine to tighten her nerves like piano wire. Tuning her.
Somewhere in that thrashing crowd was a fang to make her feel the way she used to want.
She leaned her hip into the table, sighted on the cue ball, and sank two solids on the break.
22
From the air, Alt Coulumb made no sense. Taking the city part by part, you could mislead yourself into believing it obeyed a higher logic: the Business District to the north had gridded streets and avenues, but fanning around the clockface that order broke to jags, as if the Sacred Precinct was a rock thrown through a window and the rest of the city the window’s shards. “Cow paths,” she said as they flew south toward the university.
“I don’t understand.”
“We didn’t have many trees back home, but I climbed the ones we did have. This looks like cow paths from overhead.”
“You did not grow up in a city?”
Tara caught her breath as Shale’s wings spread to mount an updraft. “No.”
“Where?”
“You wouldn’t know it.”
He said nothing.
“Edgemont,” she relented at last. “Little place at the eastern edge of the Badlands. Farm country. Lots of corn. Very flat.”
“Near Lark’s Ridge?”
“Twenty miles northeast,” she said automatically, then: “Wait, how do you know Lark’s Ridge?”
“We passed through on the way to the wars. There was not much ridge to speak of.”
“Yeah, well, we didn’t have much mont to edge on either—just enough for the quarry.” The city wheeled below, the Business District clocking around to three and six and nine and back to midnight or noon. “Lark’s Ridge in the God Wars. Weird. What was it like back then?” That would have been forty years ago, around the time Tara’s mom’s folks fled the siege of Alt Selene west to Edgemont.
“Small.” His deep voice cut through the buffeting wind. Stars hung overhead—more stars the farther they rose, but still too few for Tara’s comfort. Cities of the Craft were more careful about light pollution. “Wooden. We were not comfortable there. They had a high temple to their earth goddess, with a clock tower. Aev tried to perch on the tower, but its wood was weak, and she broke through.” He chuffed a laugh.
“I know that church! They rebuilt the roof. They said it was God Wars damage but not—that was you?”
 
; Shale leveled out to glide over the university. Postage-stamp quadrangles lined by fake battlements interrupted the crumpled streets. “If you ever tell Aev I told that story, I will deny it.”
“Your secret’s safe with me. Do we really have to be this high to see your poems?”
“The oldest ones,” he said. “Can you read our glyphs?”
“Almost. I’ve only had a year to work on Stone, and human vocal cords aren’t shaped right for the phonemes. I might need your help.”
“It is difficult to translate poetry.”
“I just need the meaning.”
“Just the meaning?” He turned to look at her over his shoulder, which made them tangle into a roll. She screamed a little—understandable given the circumstances, dammit—and clutched his sides with her knees like he was a horse in full gallop. Her grip on his neck tightened enough to crush a human trachea. Good thing Shale didn’t have one.
“Don’t do that!”
“Meaning,” he said, righting their course, “comes from rhyme and rhythm and form. You can’t just fill a page with words that have the same definition as the original. True translation requires understanding the associations and contexts of the source language, then shifting all that into the target tongue. The greater the poet, the harder the translation. And Stone’s not even—how would you render a second-voice bass tonal shift rhyme in Kathic?”
“Come again?”
He demonstrated: two syllables with the same tenor voicing, but the first she felt as a steady rumble in Shale’s skin, while in the second the rumble started faster but slowed. “The first word renders in Kathic as turtle. The second is a second-person-plural pronoun addressing a subgroup of a collective.”
“This is awfully technical.”
“Poetry is glory to the Goddess.”
“That doesn’t explain the jargon.”
“We had,” Shale said after a long, silent swoop, “a lot of time in exile. I thought perhaps if we could, ah, publish our songs, maybe we could draw others toward the Lady. I subscribed to journals by mail. Submitted poems. Received rejection letters. There are advantages to being able to pass for human. Did you just giggle?”
“No.” She pushed from her mind the image of Shale, dressed in stitched-together rabbit furs or whatever he wore for clothing in human form out in the countryside—hells, had he even worn clothing?—arriving at some log-cabin town’s post office with a subscription card for Poetry Fancier’s Quarterly. “So, these poems you’ve recorded in Stone—they describe the Goddess. They’re an authoritative representation of her.”
“Strange phrasing.”
“I’m translating,” she said. “From my language to yours.”
Miles west, at the airport, a great glittering beast ascended into the night, tail sweeping a swath through clouds. Its blackness blended with the space between the stars.
“Yes,” he replied.
“Which returns us to my question: Do we have to be this high to see the poems? I’ve seen them before, in alleys, from street level.”
“Codas,” he said. “Fragmentary midcentury additions of the minimalist school. Many of what you thought complete works were cantos of longer poems designed to be read overhead in moonlight at a particular angle.”
“If we’re meant to be viewing works in alleys from overhead,” Tara said, “we’re still too high. I can’t see any building walls from here.”
“You see nothing for which you are not prepared to look.”
Below her, the city turned silver all at once.
An instant before, they’d flown above an Alt Coulumb dark and jeweled as ever. Then, as if they crossed an invisible threshold, the streets transformed to rivers of silver-blue light. From ground level the effect would be too subtle to notice, since light would never strike the right angle for more than a thumb-size piece of pavement. A drunk might see a patch of glory in an alley shadow and mistake it for a streetlight reflection. This was more. The city was built around luminous words.
“Cow paths,” she said.
“Some,” Shale acknowledged. “But how do the cows know which paths to walk? They followed tracks we carved.”
“It’s beautiful.”
“Yes.”
“What does it mean?”
“That,” he replied, “is harder.”
* * *
Cat won three games and Raz two. “Superior strength. Hah.” She sank another ball, missed her third follow-up shot, passed to him; he dropped three, then scratched. “What’s with the whiskey, anyway?”
“I’m in the man’s bar. Passengers on my boat pay for the privilege. Shouldn’t I pay him for his floor space?”
She knocked back her own, and tasted fire and smoke. Then she bent to the table and lined up angles in her head. “We’re paying for the table. And you’re in demand here. Plenty of people would be happy to give you a drink. Not on the dance floor—that’s the only rule. Don’t want the place to get slippery.”
“That’s how you think I work? Canvassing a room of people I don’t know for a taste—”
“I don’t judge. You do what you need to live.”
“I don’t need that.”
“You have to drink sometime.”
“It’s personal.”
“You can tell me.”
“I don’t like to talk about it.”
The angles settled in the green felt’s reflection behind her eyes. Her heart did beat, so she slowed it, and she did breathe, so she waited for the pause after exhalation. The crack of the balls reminded her pleasantly of breaking someone else’s bone.
They finished the game in silence, relating through force and spheres that disappeared into velvet pockets. The band rocked. Four of the booth curtains had been drawn when she came in, and seven were now. She’d seen the seventh curtain close as Raz lined up a shot on the eight ball: two women, one older than Cat, the other younger and rounder, both hungry, and she couldn’t tell which had the teeth. She hadn’t expected to be so aware of the curtains. She liked this place. She liked Walsh. She liked the music. She liked the damn booths and the damn red leather upholstery in them and the stupid paintings of naked women who didn’t look how naked women looked and were all twined round with rose vines and thorns. He missed the eight. She didn’t.
“We saved lives tonight,” she said. “We fought and won. Dance with me.”
“Fine,” he said, though it hadn’t been a question.
He offered her his whiskey, and she took it, swallowed it, set down the glass. Grabbed his hand, smoother than any sailors’ she’d felt. No hemp rope could burn his skin. He followed her with a look on his face like she was a chess problem or a tricky knot he wanted to untie. The whiskey felt good. Girls to the left of them, boys to the right of them, and she pulled him into the valley of the dance.
Music was a way to lose yourself, music good and loud with a pulse you could follow, a double beat that vined through your ears and mouth into veins and spread shoots, leaves, flowers. Drink-sweat and too much perfume and leather and slick vinyl and hair pressed close to her. She smoothed her skirt against her hips and danced. Somewhere a singer sang. There were flowers in her arms and her stomach and deeper. She raised her arms like wings.
And he danced with her. It happened unsteady and slow as new spring, but he did dance. His eyes, which he’d held half-closed since entering the bar, opened, and she saw the whites around his ruby-stained brown irises. By the second song he forgot himself and smiled.
She forgot herself and moved toward him.
There was bass and there was guitar and there were drums and a piano only it wasn’t a piano exactly but some strange machine that worked with spinning cylinders of glass crackling Craft, and bodies pressed them close, and she danced with the crowd and they with her and he with them and then they were together, and the crowd held fangs and blood that called for them and the fangs were white and dark blood flushed faces red and there was so much wanting in this room, wanting to vanish, to be draw
n under another’s power into a mouth—
She danced with him, and he with her, wound tight as clocks were wound in Iskar, so tight his skin might sing. She touched him. She pulled him toward her. He followed. She kissed him. He kissed her back. Her lip slid between his teeth, and the teeth touched her, and she pressed her lip against them and her skin parted and there was a sharp sharp stab of joy—
that all went wrong at once.
He pulled back.
She stumbled into him. Beauty raged in her vein. There was nothing she could not be, there was no mold into which she could not be poured, the draw had been so strong and rich, and at its withdrawal she clutched for him, seeing too late his sudden horror at herhimself, at what they were—at what they were about to—at what they, at what she, had—
He staggered into the moshing crowd, knocked into a blond-dreadlocked man, who shoulder-checked Raz back, and Raz, eyes wide and wet like marble library lions’ eyes in rain, moshed the blond-dreadlocked man harder than he’d ever been moshed before, sent him tumbling airborne into a pair of shirtless bodybuilders who fell like pool balls run from a single shot, two left side four right far corner six right side thunk thunk thunk, until only blond dreads was left standing, spinning, laughing a wild woo with hands raised in horn-sign as the fallen rose and piled on him in turn.
Raz looked uncomprehending at them, at her, and left.
She ran after him.
He snaked through the crowd. She never could have caught him but for Candy at the door, who blocked him in while she admitted two new customers—so Cat, ignoring Walsh’s waved good-bye, reached the alley before Raz left it.
“Raz!”
He didn’t turn.
“Don’t run from me.”
He stopped. “Then what? Do you want me to stay?”
“Did it look like I was pushing you away?”
“It looked.” He moved toward her so fast he didn’t seem to cross the intervening space. So damn quick with blood in him—how long did he go, anyway, without feeding? How long could he? And how would the hunger of a single taste after deprivation feel? She knew. She was all need, a single exposed nerve. Her clothes rasped her skin. Her skirt’s hem was tight as a knife. He was close, though not close like he’d been when they danced, not close enough she could touch him without his letting her. “It looked,” he said, softer now, “like you were out of control.”
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