Softly, I opened the door. All within were asleep. Only the firelight played upon the simple, homely things about the room, and I felt a pang to know that soon I would be leaving all this, this place I was coming to love.
Adding fuel, I carefully banked the fire against the cold of the night and the morning's rising.
For a moment then I sat alone beside the fire, remembering the clear, lovely tones of Ninon's voice singing the words of Home, Sweet Home. I had never heard the words before, but they were to ride with me for many a mile. I knew it then.
I tiptoed in my sock feet, carrying my boots, and climbed to my bed under the eaves.
Hands clasped behind my head, I lay awake long, watching the flicker of the firelight on the roof beams until sleep came.
Drake Morrell's telling of the love of Ninon's parents remained in my thoughts. It was a fine thing, that. To find a girl who loved you and to go on together. Had it been that way with Ruth Macken and her husband? And what of Cain and Helen?
What of Cain and Helen?
Chapter 11
It was Neely Stuart who found gold. He found it on Rock Creek about six or eight miles from our town, and he brought the news like the Indians were coming.
Cain and I were hoisting a timber into place on the mill when fwe heard a horse running like mad. We put that timber down quickly, and both of us grabbed our rifles and dropped down behind the low stone wall we had already put together.
We saw Sampson break and run for his house, and John was past the years for running. Webb ducked into the door of his cabin, pushing Foss aside, and emerged with a rifle in his hand.
It was Neely, running the legs off his horse, and nothing behind him that we could see.
Gold! he yelled. I found gold!
It'll keep, Cain said. Where did you find it?
Neely thrust out his hand dramatically, and truth to tell, there was a nugget in his palm. It was about as big as a bean, but a nice piece. Webb came over, and then Croft.
It worried me, us bunching like that, so excited though I was, I pulled off a few yards to keep a lookout. The way they were talking I could have heard them fifty yards off, and Neely was so excited he was yelling.
On Rock Creek, he was saying. He had decided to go over and run a few pans now that the ice was gone, temporarily, and he had come up with a show of color right off. The first pan netted him four or five colors and then the nugget.
Webb led out his horse and saddled up, leaving Foss to do the chores. Tom Croft went along, and I couldn't hold off. If I could find a little gold I could buy cattle, a lot of cattle.
Yet to tell the truth I wasn't happy at the discovery of gold, for it would bring in folks who had no desire to stay. I was young, and I wanted to hunt for gold, but I didn't want it to happen to our town. When getting rich became the only incentive, folks didn't care much about a place and left as soon as the chance was gone.
There were signs of mining. I left them panning and walked my horse along the creek. The first gold had been found there about 1842, and several times since men had tried mining only to be driven off by Indians.
I paused to take samples from the creek bottom, for all of us had gold pans. Young though I was and accustomed to looking on the bright side, I remembered folks who had come back to my home country full of big stories but with no gold to show for it. Standing in cold mountain streams or struggling over mountain passes from one strike to another is a quick way to get old.
The only man I personally knew who came back from the gold fields rich was one who had opened a store out there.
There would be gold hunters coming when the news got out, but I intended to be selling them beef. Whatever game there was would escape to the high country with increased hunting, but if we had cattle to sell we could get along fine.
Our town site had been well chosen, for it lay back under the Beaver Rim, free from much of the wind that blew along the levels or along the slopes of the mountains. From a high place I looked back. I'd climbed so high so quickly my friends looked no more than ants. The air was fresh and cool, so much so it was like drinking water from a spring just to breathe it.
A good place from which to look, I thought, but rode on toward the high, lonely places.
Yet the sun was leaning toward the west and I was an hour from my friends, nearly as much from our town. I was high on a shoulder of Limestone Mountain. I wanted to ride on, but had no blanket with me, and no food.
The shortest way home was along the rim of the mountain. Moreover, I might come upon an elk, and we were always in need of fresh meat. I turned southeast and skirted the edge of the trees, then started back.
As always I rode with caution. My senses were alive to what the wilderness could tell me; it never ceases to send out messages to those who will listen. Two hundred yards ahead of me a bird swooped in toward a bush, veered suddenly upward and away, and instantly, I swung my horse into the deeper shelter of the trees.
That bird had planned to land in the bush ... what had changed its mind? Chasing an insect? Or fright at something hiding in the brush overlooking our town?
Had I been seen? I had no way of knowing. My left was sheltered by a thick growth of aspen, the right by a steep declivity on the mountain's face. Easing myself from the saddle, I spoke warningly to my horse. The buckskin was as alert to danger as any wild thing. My rifle was in my hand, and on this day I wore moccasins.
Nothing about my horse was obvious. The buckskin and his gear faded easily into the aspen trunks and leaves. If he remained still, he would be invisible at only a few paces.
Creeping forward and lowering myself to one knee, I examined the approaches to the place from which the bird had flown. The position was well chosen, if it was occupied.
For several minutes I studied the place, seeing no sign of movement. I moved forward, hesitated in a hollow from which at some time a boulder had rolled, and almost at once moved to three low-growing trees. There I waited.
A glance at the sun told me my time was short. Soon the man I sought would be leaving his position, and might even have left already.
Then I glimpsed a game trail, a narrow, low tunnel among the leaves of brush and trunks of aspen, not three-feet high but almost that wide. I went into it, gained thirty yards or more, then worked my way along the slope.
I saw the place: a neat hollow where a split boulder offered a natural, easy view of our town. Around it were trees, some of them leaning above it, offering both shade and shelter.
Whoever had been there was gone. Yet the way the grass and leaves were pressed down indicated my quarry was human.
Right cur'ous, ain't you?
My muscles stiffened, then slowly relaxed. The voice came from behind me, and if I turned quickly I would surely be killed.
For a moment I lay still, and then I said, Wouldn't you be curious?
There was a dry chuckle. I reckon. You're a purty good Injun for a younker.
Slowly, I turned around, keeping my grip on my rifle. The man who sat on the edge of the trees behind me was not disturbed. His rifle was centered on my chest, and there was no way he could miss, no way I could bring a gun to bear before a .56 caliber Spencer bullet had torn a hole in me big enough to put a fist through.
I take it you've some reason for not coming down to the town, I suggested. Gently I released my grip on the rifle. My pistol was inside my buckskin hunting shirt and thrust behind my waistband. Did he know that? Had he noticed that my hunting shirt was not the pull over kind, but laced halfway up the front?
You make it right. Man down there I'm fixin' to kill.
Well, I said dryly, if what they tell me about this country is true, you wait until spring and the Indians will do it for you.
He chuckled again. Cool one, ain't you? Now mebbe I just better shoot you before you try somethin'.
The fact that he had slipped up on me was irritating, and I'll not deny I was itching to even the score. Besides, had he not said he intended to kill one of u
s?
You shoot me, and everybody down there will know something is wrong. I am the only one out of the village, and you'd never get away with it. I've a friend down there who would track you down.
In that bunch of pilgrims? Ain't one of you down there could find me on an alkali flat at high sun!
Ethan Sackett could.
He gave me a sharp look from those foxy old eyes. He was a narrow, high-shouldered man, rail-thin yet wiry, and he wore a dirty buckskin hunting shirt and leggings with a bedraggled coonskin cap.
Ethan down there? That do count. It surely do count. I never reckoned on him.
You know him?
I should reckon. We done trapped beaver on the Yellowstone together, an' fit Diggers on the Humboldt. So old Ethan is down there, is he?
He took out a plug of tobacco and bit off a healthy thumb of it. What you folks fixin' to do? Dig for gold?
We've started a town. We plan to stay, raise some cattle, plant crops, trade with the wagons.
You ain't got long. Rich folks will be travelin' by the steam cars, or so I hear.
My pistol was under my shirt, my shirt bagged, my hand was close, yet the man I faced had no gamble in him. He would shoot. Who are you after? We've good folks down yonder, never made trouble for any man. All we're wishful to do is build a church, a school, and raise our families.
Well now, ain't that nice? He grinned at me, then spat a stream of tobacco juice near my feet. I never cottoned much to towns or town-folk. Gimme a squaw an' a buffalo-hide teepee.
Fine, I said, why don't you go get it right now and leave us be? You've wasted time scouting folks who've done you no harm and aren't likely to. Unless you're one of that bunch of renegades from over east.
Them? He spat. A pack o' murderin' blackguards, that's what they are. He chuckled. You gave 'em what-for. I liked to smiled.
Have you been here that long?
Here an' about. He gave me a foxy look from those sharp little eyes. You taken on any comp'ny lately? I mean any new folks?
We're just a lot who turned off from a wagon train, I said carelessly, for now I thought I knew at whom he was pointing. We didn't figure we could make it over the passes before winter.
You think right. You was keerect. What I mean is somebody lately. A man and a couple of younkers, maybe?
We found a man alongside the trail some time back. He lived long enough to tell us where the children were. One of them died, I added, the boy.
A shame. I got nothing against the younkers. You say he lived long enough, but that don't say he ain't still livin', does it? And I reckon he is. Drake Morrell ain't the kind o' man to die that easy.
Is it Morrell you're hunting?
You're darned tootin'. I'm fixin' to kill him.
I've heard he's handy with a gun.
He is. And might beat me if I face up to him, which I'm of no mind to do. He fights his way, I mine. And mine's Injun. No man in his right mind risks losin' his hair just to stand up to a man. I don't care if he knows who kills him just so he dies. An' he'll die.
It was nigh to sundown, and I was still a good way from home. My stomach was growling from hunger, and I was of no mind to sit here talking about shooting when what I needed was a meal.
If you aren't going to shoot, I said, I'm going home.
With that I moved to rise, and when I did I slid my gun into my fist. Now as I've said, I handle a pistol almighty fast. I can't claim credit for it, it just comes natural, but there it was and him looking into it, but I didn't shoot.
We just stood there, a Mexican standoff, each of us with the drop on the other. He had the most power in that .56, but I was sure I'd shoot as fast as he could.
Well, now. Right foxy, ain't you? He grinned at me, in no way disturbed, yet I watched him like a cat, my finger easy on the trigger, for this man would kill.
I don't like to have anybody slipping up on me, I said, I don't like it at all.
You could have waited. You might git a shot at me off guard.
You? That would be a mighty long wait. And I wouldn't shoot a man in the back.
You're a fool. You should live Injun for a while. You'd see the thing is to win, no matter how.
I wasn't aware that was an Indian idea, I said. Most of them take pride in their victories and would rather count coups on a live, dangerous enemy than a dead one.
Some o' them, he admitted grudgingly. They ain't smart.
I'm going to leave. I'm not anxious to kill you or be killed. I'd as soon leave you for Morrell. Keeping the drop on him, I stepped back toward the brush, but curiosity overcame me. Why do you want to kill him? It takes a good man to risk his life to protect those youngsters as he did.
Mebbe he just used them for shelter, he suggested. Mebbe he figured I wouldn't kill him with them dependin' on him. An' he was right, he admitted, surprisingly, I wouldn't. Not any child, let alone hers.
You knew their mother? Now I was surprised.
Knew her? How'd the likes o' me know her? No, sir. I didn't know her but by sight, only that voice of hers. She sang like an angel. You know what that means to a man lonely for women-folks? I mean decent women-folks?
I heard a feller say she couldn't sing for sour apples, but after he picked the teeth out of his face, he apologized.
She was the on'y woman I'd heard sing in fifteen year, and she sang songs my ma used to sing. It was a sound from Heaven, believe me.
It was a sorry thing when she died. If the thought'll pleasure you, he said, I done put flowers on her grave after he buried her.
But still, you want to kill him?
That's the switch of another tail. Yes, sir. I'll fetch him to Hell with my Spencer. He notched his gun for two of my brothers.
Maybe they took in after him?
Surely they did, and that was their affair, but when he notched them he opened the war. I'll see him buried or left for buzzards.
You'd better think about it, friend, I said. I didn't know your brothers, but Drake Morrell is a good man, a damned good man, and that girl depends on him. Do you want her left to get along by herself in this country? In a couple of years she'll be a woman ... what kind of woman?
He glared at me, but I'd finished talking. I picked up my rifle and backed off into the brush, and he did the same. I went to my horse and rode back to town. It had started out to be a quiet day, but a man never knows.
Anyway, I had words for Drake Morrell, and I feared for him.
Ethan was gathering stove wood when I rode up to town, so I pulled in and told him the story. After I described the man, he chuckled without much humor.
Stacy Follett... yeah, I know him. Morrel's treed himself an old he-coon, that's what he's done. An old he-coon.
Chapter 12
By lantern light I fed my horse, rubbed him down with a handful of hay, and while doing so I thought of this place we were building, this island in the wilderness, and the dangers that lay about us. So it must have been with the first settlers building their first towns, surrounded by hatred of their strange ways.
For as no man stands alone, neither does a town, nor can a change be made in the terrain without ripples moving out from it. Our coming had caused the game to move back into the hills, had shortened its supply, and when spring came our plows would bite deep in the soil. It was not a rich soil, but it was the soil with which we must make do. With our hands, our strength, and the cunning learned from farmers of all times, we would enrich the soil, grow our crops, and our harvest would come, for better or worse.
Stacy Follett lurked in the mountains outside our town, a threat to one of us, indirectly to us all. Each man among us was necessary to us, and none could be lost without weakening the whole, and so exposing us to danger. Stacy Follett was not my enemy, yet I thought him so, for his rifle could remove part of our wall of strength against the Indians.
We did not wish trouble with the red man. He had his way and we ours, yet he fought for pleasure, for loot, and because he was faced by a nameles
s threat he could not grasp, yet feared.
He did not know his way of life was doomed, not by the guns of the white man, nor by his countless thousands, but by his goods.
The death of the red man's way came when the first white trader came among them to trade what the Indian could not himself make. From that day on his desire was aroused, and he must by trade or capture acquire those things he desired.
The needle, the steel knife blade, the gun and gunpowder, the whiskey, and the various ornaments. These were the seeds of his destruction, and what he warred against was the desire in his own heart. There were those who protested against using the white man's things, but their voices spoke into the hollow air, and no ear listened.
I could have lived the Indian way and loved it. I could feel his spirits move upon the air, hear them in the still forest and in the chuckling water of the mountain streams, but other voices were calling me, too, the voices of my own people and their ways.
For it was our way to go onward, to go forward and to try to shape our world into something that would make our lives easier, even if more complicated. Our struggle was for time. Our leisure was bought from hardship, and we needed leisure to think, to dream, to create.
Drake Morrell was in his cabin when I came to the door. He invited me in and listened while I told him of Follett.
I have been expecting him, he said. He is the best of a poor lot. They gambled with me, and were very clumsy about it, and when they lost they accused me of cheating. I invited a soldier who was waiting for the stage to step over and feel under the table, and as I knew he would, he found four hidden cards on their side.
They had been trying to cheat, but so clumsily any fool could have seen what they were doing. I told them so, and what I thought of them, and they left.
They waited for me outside, and when I came out I left by the rear door and came around the building. I saw them there, guns held upon the door, and I called them.
Those Spencers are a terrible weapon, but heavy to handle swiftly. Only one got off a shot, and it went into the dirt. I killed them both, left and right like a brace of quail.
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