‘Thank you!’ echoed Mica.
Calwyn accepted a piece of flat-cake, but she didn’t eat it. I can’t even sing up a bucket of water, she thought bitterly. Not even that.
‘Oh, dear, there aren’t any spare blankets,’ fretted Ursca as she stoked the tiny stove.
‘We got our own sleepin-furs,’ said Mica. ‘Don’t you worry bout us.’
‘Shouldn’t you go now?Won’t they miss you?’ said Trout.
‘Yes, I mustn’t stay any longer. I’m glad you’ll be with our Lady Mother, Calwyn dear. Her mind is troubled. I can’t be here as often as I’d like, and I fear the Goddess may take her soon. Now remember, so long as you don’t touch her skin, you’ve nothing to fear, no matter what Tamen says. Your friends can tend to her, they’ll be quite safe.’
Calwyn said, ‘Mica is a chanter.’
‘Oh! But – she’s an Outlander.’
‘I were born in the Isles of Firthana,’ said Mica. ‘My grandma were a windworker, and so am I.’
‘Well, fancy that,’ said Ursca blankly. ‘A windworker.’
‘I’ll take care of her,’ offered Trout.
Ursca looked at him doubtfully. ‘Dear me! Still, I suppose we’ve no choice, and with Calwyn to watch over you…She has a gift for healing, this one! Sleep tight, my dears. Gilly will come to you in the morning. Best pull up the ladder when I’m gone.’
Ursca’s curly grey head disappeared down the ladder, and presently they heard a faint thread of song as Ursca sang a chantment to fill her footprints with snow. Then the only sound was Marna’s laboured breathing, and the rustle of mice in the hay. The three looked at one another, subdued.
‘I’ll see if I can plug that gap.’ Trout clambered up and started wrestling hay bales into position.
‘Cal?’ said Mica in a small voice. ‘I ain’t goin to die, am I?’
‘Don’t be silly, Mica, of course not. Your skin didn’t touch Athala – you were wearing gloves.’
There was a silence.
‘Calwyn?’ askedTrout over his shoulder. ‘Chanters know other chanters, isn’t that what you and Darrow always say? So why can’t Ursca andTamen tell that you’re not a chanter any more?’ Calwyn took a sharp breath, and it was Mica who answered. ‘There’s too many chanters here,Trout – too many!’ she repeated with wonder. ‘Spose you was sittin in the middle of a whole flock of gulls, all squawkin away, and then one goes quiet. You’d never know, would you?’
‘I suppose not,’ said Trout doubtfully as he shoved the last bale into place. ‘There! But it’s still freezing in here.’
‘Want me to give the Clarion a blast, Cal?’
‘All right,’ said Calwyn dully. ‘A small one.We don’t want to set all this hay alight. And Mica – ’
‘Mm?’
‘You saved us tonight, with the Clarion. But I don’t think we should use it as a weapon. It wasn’t made for that.’
‘It were to save Trout!’
‘I know, I know. But you could have burned Lia – ’With a pang of guilt, Calwyn realised that she hadn’t asked Ursca to make sure Lia was all right. How selfish she had become. The disgust in her voice was more for herself than Mica as she said, ‘We should find another way.’
‘There weren’t no other way!’ cried Mica, tears springing to her eyes.
‘All right, never mind,’ said Calwyn sharply. ‘There’s nothing to cry about.’ Suddenly she was unbearably weary; her bones ached with tiredness. She pulled a sleeping-fur from the pack and made herself a nest in the hay, close to Marna.
She could hear Mica and Trout murmuring to each other; perhaps they were grumbling about her, and the fine welcome Antaris had given them. Mica blew gently into the Clarion. The little horn glowed golden, and a soft, clear note filled the cramped hayloft. At once, the room grew warmer; the lingering smell of damp began to disperse. Calwyn sank down into a dark, warm place, and she slept.
three
The Dark Chantments
WHEN CALWYN WOKE, it was still night. The candle-lamp burned low, but Mica had set the Clarion in the middle of the hayloft, where its slow-fading heat could reach every corner. Winds gusted around the barn, shaking the ruined timbers, but they were safe and snug inside. Mica was curled under a fur on the far side of the loft, and Trout snored beside her.
Close by, Marna stirred, muttering in her sleep. Calwyn gazed down at the High Priestess, her features softened in the gentle light. Don’t touch her, Ursca had warned, but Calwyn was safe. Tentatively she rested her hand on Marna’s thin white hair, in the same gesture Marna had so often made.The High Priestess sighed deeply and opened her faded blue eyes.
‘Marna, Lady Mother!’ whispered Calwyn.
The old woman smiled at her with love, and laid her trembling hand on Calwyn’s bowed head. ‘Little daughter,’ she murmured. ‘You’ve come back at last. Calida, my daughter, welcome home.’
‘Lady Mother, it’s Calwyn! Calida died long ago.’
The old woman’s eyes were closed, almost hidden in a web of wrinkles. Her white hair, which had once shone like a silver crown, hung in damp wisps around her pale, sunken face. ‘Calwyn, my little daughter,’ she murmured, and tears seeped from beneath her eyelids. ‘The Merithuran stole her from me.’
‘No, no, Lady Mother! I’m here, I’ve come home. Please, don’t cry!’
‘Old eyes water,’ said Marna distinctly. Suddenly her eyes opened. She stared directly at Calwyn, half-humorous, half-sorrowful, and Calwyn knew that she recognised her. Marna struggled to lift her head. ‘Help me…to sit up. Careful. Give me your sleeve.’
Calwyn eased her upright, and propped the pillows behind her. The High Priestess was light and fragile in her grasp.
‘Calwyn, my child, why did you wait so long? So much…to tell you.’ Marna had to pause after every few words, fighting for breath, and her voice was so faint that Calwyn had to lean close to hear her. ‘The secrets of the Goddess…must not be lost. I should have taught them to Tamen, but…’ Marna grimaced, leaving the words unsaid. ‘I waited for you, child.’
Calwyn hesitated. She couldn’t tell Marna that she had lost her gift of chantment, not now, as she was dying. The knowledge would break her Lady Mother’s heart. But was it right for the High Priestess to pass the secret lore to someone who could never use it? Cravenly, Calwyn seized on another way out. ‘Have you forgotten, Lady Mother? I’ve never been initiated, I have no right to hear the Goddess’s secrets.’
Marna smiled. ‘I have not forgotten. Yes, in strictness, this lore is…forbidden to novices. But in dark times, some rules must be broken, so that more important ones may be kept. You have survived the Outlands…come back to us. That is initiation enough.’
Calwyn swallowed. ‘I’m not worthy, Lady Mother,’ she whispered. ‘Please, don’t tell me anything.’
Marna’s faded blue eyes flashed with their old fire. ‘There is no one else to tell, child! You must not shirk your duty to the Goddess, to your sisters, to Antaris…and the world beyond.’ The old woman fell back on the pillows and smiled faintly. ‘There, little daughter. I didn’t mean…to scold you.’
Calwyn whispered, ‘I would rather be scolded by you than praised by anyone else, Lady Mother.’
‘No time for flattery,’ murmured Marna, but Calwyn thought she seemed pleased. The High Priestess shifted against the pillows. ‘There is a sickness in the fabric of the world, little daughter…Broken, but it can be mended…The Wheel, you must find the Wheel. The Wheel holds the answer. But you will need the Tenth Power to unlock it.’
‘TheTenth Power?’ Calwyn stared at her in alarm.There were only Nine Powers of chantment. Marna must be delirious. Almost in tears, Calwyn clasped the High Priestess’s hand.
‘Secret,’ whispered Marna. ‘Secret lore…TheWheel…’ ‘The Wheel? Is it – is that an object of power? Like the Clarion?’
‘Object of power … the Tenth Power, yes.’ Marna’s voice faded; she seemed to be losing her strength. ‘TheWheel is safe …with
your friends.’ She let out her breath in a soft hiss between her teeth. Her eyes closed, and her head lolled back.
‘Lady Mother? Lady Mother!’
But the High Priestess was deep in sleep, and Calwyn was reluctant to rouse her. She lowered Marna, and tucked the quilts around her. Then, stiff with cramp, she crept back to her corner. Trout and Mica had not woken, and it was the steady rhythm of their breathing that lulled Calwyn into a troubled sleep.
URSCA WAS RIGHT to say that Gilly had changed. If Calwyn hadn’t been expecting her, she would not have recognised the girl who appeared at the top of the ladder soon after sunrise. She was older, her face was gaunt, and dark shadows ringed her eyes. The Gilly she had known was always giggling behind her hand; this Gilly looked as if she hadn’t smiled for a year. But she embraced Calwyn with the same generous warmth. ‘It’s good to see you!We were so worried about what might have happened to you in the Outlands!’
‘Surely you had enough to worry about here, without thinking about me,’ said Calwyn, and Gilly’s face grew sober.
‘It’s been a terrible time.’ She moved to Marna’s side and began to change the bedding. She wore gloves of white cotton and touched Marna gingerly. ‘Stay back, Calwyn. You don’t have gloves.’
Trout supported the sleeping woman with one arm. ‘It’s all right, I’ll help.’
‘Thank you.’ Gilly smiled at Trout, and Calwyn saw a flash of the merry, flirtatious girl she used to be. Gilly bent over the lantern, and replaced the burnt-out candle. ‘I’ve brought you porridge, and a little meat. There isn’t much food for anyone, I couldn’t take more than this.’
‘Don’t you worry,’ said Mica stoutly. ‘We ain’t big eaters.’ She grinned at Gilly, and after a moment Gilly smiled back.
‘If Marna is in pain there’s bitterthorn brew here,’ she said. ‘Not too much – a sip or two is enough.’
‘She woke in the night,’ said Calwyn. ‘She didn’t know me at first.’
‘Her wits are wandering,’ said Gilly sadly. ‘And the bitterthorn makes it worse.’
Calwyn’s heart sank. She had not told Mica and Trout about her conversation in the night. The Tenth Power, the Wheel, whatever that was – perhaps it was only delirium after all.
She asked, ‘Gilly, how is Lia? Last night, in the kitchens, there was a fire – ’ ‘Everyone’s talking of your firestorm. Durtha was furious, but I haven’t seen Lia today.’ Gilly rubbed her arm across her eyes in a weary gesture. ‘I can’t stay. I’m supposed to be fetching hay for the goats.’
The day passed slowly. Calwyn longed to ask Marna more about the secret lore, but the High Priestess slept without stirring.
Not long after sunset, they heard voices in the shell of the ruined barn below, and a lantern flickered, sending shadows swooping across the snow. At once Mica pinched out the candle-lamp and held the Clarion close. ‘Lucky we pulled up the ladder,’ breathed Trout, and Calwyn frowned at him to keep quiet. At last the voices and the lantern-light went away.
Calwyn stood up. ‘I’m going to find Lia. I want to make sure she’s all right.’
‘I’ll come,’ offered Mica instantly. ‘I ain’t stayin cooped up here one breath longer!’
‘No, Mica. It’s safer if I go by myself.’
‘Calwyn’s right,’ saidTrout. ‘Remember what Gilly said.You don’t want to end up in theWall, do you – or worse?’
Mica opened her mouth, then closed it again. Something in her face told Calwyn what she’d been about to say: that if she went with Calwyn, she could protect her with chantment.
‘I don’t need you,’ said Calwyn, more brutally than she’d intended. ‘I know the Dwellings, I know places to hide. You’d only be in the way.’
This was true, but Calwyn had another reason for wanting to see Lia alone: as one of the senior priestesses, she might know something about Marna’s mysteriousWheel.
A hurt look crossed Mica’s face, but all she said was, ‘Be careful, Cal. And take Trout’s cloak. It’s bitter cold out there.’
CALWYN CREPT THROUGH the Dwellings, clutching Trout’s cloak around her. The moons were hidden behind cloud, and Antaris was shrouded in shadow. All was quiet; the Daughters of Taris slept.
As Calwyn crossed the yard outside the bath-house, she caught sight of another cloaked figure: it was too short to be Tamen. ‘Good night, sister,’ murmured the priestess. It was Janyr, who tended the goats. Calwyn bowed her head and hurried past in silence, her heart thumping. Janyr might think it strange that she hadn’t returned the greeting, but she couldn’t risk having her voice recognised. Like most chanters, the Daughters of Taris had sharp ears. Calwyn glanced over her shoulder. Janyr had vanished into the Middle House.
Calwyn had decided to look for Lia in the House of Elders. It was near the centre of the Dwellings, close to the kitchens, the bath-house and the old infirmary, so that the old women could be carried easily from one place to another. It made sense that Lia, too, would have a room there.
She skirted cautiously around to the rear of the House. No lights showed in the windows. Someone coughed fretfully. Calwyn pushed at the heavy back door and it swung open onto a deserted corridor. Again that restless cough sounded, and a rustle of bedclothes as someone turned over.
Calwyn crept forward. There was a faint edge of light under the last door in the corridor. Calwyn quickened her pace, tiptoeing on the stone flags. The door was ajar. Calwyn could just see a shadowy figure sitting up in bed with a shawl around her shoulders. ‘Lia?’ whispered Calwyn, as loudly as she dared.
‘Come in quickly, and close the door.’
Calwyn obeyed. The room was very cold, and their breath made clouds in the icy air. Calwyn’s cloak was draped over the end of Lia’s bed; she seized it gratefully. She could just make out the pale oval of Lia’s face and her blazing dark eyes. ‘Were you burned last night?’
Lia’s face twisted. ‘A little. But I can’t feel it. Ursca has put honey on the burns. I’m more concerned about you. Did you touch Athala’s body?’
Calwyn looked down. ‘Don’t worry,’ she said awkwardly. ‘I haven’t caught the snow-sickness.’
Lia let out a deep, fierce breath. ‘Thanks be to the Goddess!’ She reached out and clutched Calwyn’s hand. ‘The one who can set us free from this terrible evil must be someone with special gifts. Gifts like yours, Calwyn.We have prayed toTaris to send you back. Ursca and I, Gilly and Janyr, and Rina, too…’ Her voice caught, and she gave a bitter laugh. ‘Old women, and young girls, and a cripple. None of us is strong enough to defy Tamen. All too tired, and too hungry, to fight.’
‘But you are strong, you have defied her!’ whispered Calwyn fiercely. ‘In the kitchens, you argued with her. And Ursca and Gilly are defying her every day that Marna lives.’
‘Marna, yes. She has kept herself alive. Waiting for you!’ Lia’s face was lit with a sudden, savage hope. ‘Marna believes you were born for a wonderful destiny. She has great faith in you.’
Stricken, Calwyn stared at Lia. How could she tell her that she had no gifts any more, that she was as broken and helpless as Lia herself ?
‘Marna told me something – some hidden lore?’
Lia held up a hand to silence her. ‘I know nothing of those matters. That is dangerous knowledge, revealed to only one priestess in each generation. You mustn’t speak of it to me.’
‘So it is true – not Marna rambling? But what if she dies before she can tell me the secrets? All the knowledge will be lost!’
Lia shrugged. ‘If everything had gone as it should, the hidden lore would have passed to your mother, and then to you.’ Her expression softened. ‘Calida was not the most gifted chanter among us, but she had a light about her – when we were young, we would have followed her anywhere. Maybe even across theWall, if she’d asked it. She was born to be a leader.’
‘So were you!’ said Calwyn impulsively. ‘The novices, all of us looked up to you!’
Lia made an impatient gesture. ‘What’s done is
done. When Calida died, Tamen became the Guardian of theWall. Marna made a mistake there; she knows it.That’s why she has waited for you. You must learn it all, before it’s too late.’
Close by a hinge creaked. Calwyn shot upright.The light of an approaching lantern showed under the door. Calwyn bolted to the window, pushed it open, and swung herself up and over the sill.When she’d dropped to the snow outside, she reached back cautiously and pushed the window closed. She caught a glimpse of yellow light, and Tamen’s forbidding figure looming over Lia’s bed; she could just hear their conversation.
‘Still awake, Lia?’
‘You know I find it hard to sleep, Lady Mother.’ Lia’s voice was taut with suppressed dislike.
‘You should ask Ursca for a sleeping draught.’
‘Yes, Lady Mother. I will do so tomorrow.’
The circle of light swung around the room as Tamen peered into every cranny. Calwyn ducked beneath the sill, heart pounding. Lia asked, ‘Have you found the girl?’
‘Not yet.’ Tamen moved closer to the bed and laid her hand on Lia’s. ‘Why, your hands are so cold, sister. Are your feet cold, too?’
‘Lady Mother, you know I cannot feel my feet.’
‘Yes, Lia. I know. Just think, if you were to catch the snow-sickness, you wouldn’t know until it was too late.’ Tamen’s voice was very soft, but her words were as menacing as if she held poison to Lia’s lips.
Calwyn didn’t wait to hear any more. Keeping to the darkest corners, she darted around the House of Elders, behind the bath-house and away. Snowflakes drifted down, filling in the marks that her feet left behind.
WHEN SHE RETURNED to the loft, she found Gilly, Trout and Mica all seated on hay bales, talking. Famished, Calwyn fell on the food that Gilly had brought. The peppery herbs in the spiced mash helped to disguise the dull, dusty flavour of vegetables that had been stored too long. She wondered why Trout and Mica had stopped eating, and why Trout’s face was so grey. Then she began to listen to Gilly, and her own appetite faded away.
‘ – and Rina was another,’ Gilly was saying. ‘She wasn’t even ill. But she’d said things against Tamen. So Tamen poured bitterthorn down her throat and put her into theWall.’
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