by Jackson Kane
“Danger pioneers.” Autumn chuckled, pleased with herself at coining the phrase.
“Something like that.” I cracked small smirk, gently working my way up the back of her knee. “Stunt training is... a lot of different things. Body awareness is more of an art than a science. Being strong and fit is necessary, but you can't just lift weights and call it a day. Same thing with practicing high falls, car wrecks or taking up a martial art; those things are all facets of who we are, but they don't make us stuntmen.”
“Is it the nine meals a day?”
“You’re funny.” I massaged a little harder, getting her to squirm and protest for a minute before easing up. “Most of it is mental. It’s important to fully know that you're not only the most qualified person to do the job, but also that you're completely expendable in a way.”
“Do you really think you’re expendable?” Autumn’s eyebrows creased and rose upwards in a hard look of concern and maybe even a little pity.
“Look up,” I said with an easy smile. I told her I’d always be honest with her, but that question wasn’t something I could answer; especially not while staring into her soft pretty eyes.
Autumn hesitated, not wanting me to have such an easy out, but looked up anyways. The look on her face as she took in the stars warmed me more than the hot springs ever could.
“It’s gorgeous. I’ve never seen anything more beautiful in my life.” She marveled at the countless pinpricks of starlight and the wide full moon. With no light pollution of any kind the night sky put all the planetariums to shame.
“I have.” I looked only at her and didn’t bother with the rest of the universe.
She glanced back at me with ever softening eyes.
“The last few weeks have been an exhausting emotional roller coaster ride. It doesn’t help that you’re kind of a dick—” Autumn cracked a wry grin at my raised eyebrows. “But! I know I’m haven’t been the best student either! It’s just…with Mom’s cancer and all the stress from production pushing in on me from every side it’s been really hard to concentrate.”
“It’s a heavy burden.” I knew all too well what it was like to carry the weight the world on my shoulders. Mitch, his training, the old gang and losing sight of the man I wanted to be crept across my brain like a bone-chilling, winter fog.
“It is but that isn’t the point I’m stumbling awkwardly toward.” She placed her hand over mine, snapping my eyes back to hers and whisking away the cold, dark cloud rising inside me. There was only Autumn—the season of my heart. “For a little while I was able to forget all the pressure and expectation and just lose myself. Tonight has been truly incredible. I needed this. Thank you.”
Autumn was the most beautiful girl I’d ever seen and now that I knew her better I felt a much deeper connection. Here’s a woman that could know me. She could see past the things I’d done, the lives I’d ruined, to the man I could be. She could be a second chance, a reason to finally stop running. I could see myself in her dark eyes, and for once I didn’t mind what I saw.
The steam and the darkness obscured how close we’d drifted toward each other. The stars, the terrible liquor, the smooth, suppleness of her body in my hands, and of course the hot water all around us; we were a kettle on a stove and the heat was building whether we wanted it or not. The mistakes were inevitable… It was only a matter of time until one of us boiled.
And this time it was me. I couldn’t help myself, Autumn cut right through me.
With pruned, scalding fingers I wrapped the back of her neck. Any resistance she might’ve had melted at my touch. My knee grazed the inside of her thigh for a fleeting moment as I kneeled forward on unyielding stone entangling myself in her. I pulled her in for a kiss.
Our lips and tongue stole the magic that crackled in the air all around us.
Was this our first actual kiss?
I think it was. Sharing something so intimate on a deeper level made the kiss all the sweeter.
Autumn’s fingers flirted with my ribs before committing and wrapping around my back. Our limbs became magnetized to each other as if they instinctively picked up right where we left off those many weeks ago. Her thigh slid across mine as we stood up into one another.
Standing in the waist high hot spring let the cool evening air send shivers through our bodies. The heat that arced between us pulled us closer. There was a stutter in my breathing when I felt her stomach touch mine for the first time and I caught her natural scent between the steam and the sulfur.
She dug her fingers into my back and I dragged my nails through her scalp. My hard cock strained against the tented fabric and pushed into her hip, yearning for her naked touch. Autumn moaned into my searching, hungry mouth. The more I had her the more I wanted her.
Our tongues teased and toyed. I bit her lip, gently tugging. My hand found her full, sexy ass and squeezed hard, pulling her into me. Why did I fight this for so long? I wanted her so badly that it hurt.
“Yes.” Autumn whispered in my ear.
Remember what happened last time. The sharp warning rang out in my mind like a gunshot followed by the unforgettable sound a woman’s head snapping off the concrete.
“We shouldn’t,” I said, breathing heavily as I broke away from Autumn’s heavenly lips. Gazing out into a night that seemed suddenly darker and inhospitable I rubbed water over my face. “Let’s head back.”
I breathed out feeling shamelessly selfish for the first time since she arrived. For both our sakes I couldn’t do what I wanted. I was her trainer and her stunt coordinator; I had to think about what was best for her.
The long ride back was silent save the footfalls of the horse and the occasional howl of something off in the distance. It gave me a lot of time to think about the man I was, the man I wanted to be, and the man that Autumn needed. The way we were doing things now I couldn’t reconcile all three.
In an industry that thought of her as disposable, all Autumn had was a sick mother and hope. It felt wrong to take advantage of her, and I didn’t mean that just physically. I thought about my own mother and what she’d want me to do.
After I dropped Autumn off at the house I made a call to Lionhouse CEO Jonathan’s private cell phone.
“How did you get this number?” He asked, groggy from still waking up.
“Autumn will not be ready for your deadline.” I ignored his question. For as much of a bastard as he was Mitch taught me a lot of useful skills. One of which was to always know the people you go into business with, and get yourself some insurance if things go bad. Old habits died hard. “You’re going to have to push back her scenes.”
“What!” Jonathan was fully awake now. “That wasn’t our deal.”
“I decided that your deal wasn’t in the best interest of my client. Autumn needs about another month. You’ll get your girl when she’s ready, not a second before that.” I didn’t care how much longer it delayed Lionhouse I refused to let them take Autumn like they took Ashley, the last actress I trained.
Especially because this time I might not be on set to keep Autumn safe.
“Listen to me you little shit!” Jonathan growled into the phone. “She’s our goddamn property and we’ll take her when we damn well feel like it.”
“If any Lionhouse employees step foot on my property before Autumn is ready they’re going to be leaving in body bags.”
“We’ll expose you!” He roared. “We’ll have cops crawling all over you like bees on—”
I interrupted him by reading him his street address, and the alarm code for his back door. Then I described the contents in the drawer of his bedside end table.
Old habits.
“You—you can’t do this. Jane is going to be furious!” Jonathan was frustrated and terrified. “And you owe me a favor!”
“Every day I don’t visit you after how you blackmailed me is favor.” I growled back. “Think about that while you’re lying in bed late at night, safely nestled in that gaudy gold comforter with the blue f
lower pattern.” I hung up before he could respond.
I just guaranteed that they’d burn me the first chance they got, but we both knew they couldn’t yet. It wasn’t like they could go public with my past while I was still training Autumn. At best, it’d make them look like idiots, at worst the police might want to hear any secrets I might have about Lionhouse.
I was done with all this soon anyways, but I needed a back up plan if everything went sideways in between. There was one number I had memorized after the incident with the security guard. It was the nuclear option for when things got too out of control.
I just hoped I could get through all of this without having to use it.
If things worked out then when Autumn was ready, I’d give the keys to Frost and disappear. It didn’t make up for all the horrible things I’d done, but I could at least help Autumn.
Knowing she’d be safe made me feel good in a way nothing else had in a long time.
Chapter 18
Autumn
In my soft bed, I startled awake, heart racing and fingers lying heavy on my pussy. It had been days since our time together in the desert, but the dreams of Dante and the hot springs were still so fresh and vivid in my mind. I exhaled and bit my lip. It was just dark enough in my room to fight against waking up.
In that purgatory between awake and asleep I got flashes of our intertwined bodies soaked, steaming in the moonlight and his thick cock throbbing against my inner thigh daring me to succumb to my wildest fantasies.
And that kiss—our first kiss!
I drifted in and out of sleep, wanting nothing more than to fully be absorbed in the dream. It was all so vibrant. In the fantasy Dante took me over and over in the middle of the desert, but—like every morning lately—it all vanished far too soon.
“Fuck.”
The next best thing then.
I closed my eyes and rubbed tight, little circles into my eager clit, remembering how the ride back to the house that night was torture. I clung so tightly to him, and the vibrations of the horse, and the hard leather of the saddle pushed against my pussy… His scent, the heat and pressure of his touch were all still so fresh in my mind. They carried me to climax with a violent shudder.
Breathing heavily, I clasped a hand over my face. I had to get this fantasy of him under control. The last thing either of us needed was unnecessary complications. It was a harmless crush, that’s all. I’d had tons of them over the year.
What was one more?
Sliding my hand out of my underwear, I read the ungodly time on the alarm clock. Five-thirty in the morning. I’d been getting up earlier since our day off together last week. It recharged me more than I thought it would’ve, and although nothing happened between us that night in the hot springs, training with him had changed considerably.
We stopped jumping around so much and spent large blocks of time on specific skills. He took the time to make me understand the how and why of what I was learning. It felt more like exercising with a friend than being trained by a drill sergeant.
The distant sounds of chopping on a cutting board and oil sizzling drifted through my bedroom door when I opened it. I smiled when I passed the small vase in the hallway. It now held two Desert Five-spot flowers.
I sighed. The longer I lingered in the world of actors and stuntmen the more conflicted I was finding myself. Everything was rapidly becoming more complicated. I didn't know how comfortable I was with that. It made me long for my old, simple, little life. When it was just me and a webcam I didn't even need to wear pants!
Things had gotten so much better professionally between Dante and me, but in a way that made everything worse. I was having a harder and harder time convincing myself that I wasn’t falling for Dante. I tried to let that go and focus on what I had to do to get the full advance for Mom, but I died a little every time he looked at me.
That night in the desert when he could’ve taken me he didn’t. He made his choice, why couldn’t I accept that and do the same?
What I saw when I crept into the kitchen stopped me in my tracks and had me drooling for something other than just food.
Dante stood over the oven, stripped to the waist, wearing only a pair of black mesh shorts and sneakers. Early-morning light filtered in through the window and bathed his broad, muscular shoulders. His skin glistened with a light sheen from a recent work out's sweat; it was enough to send tingles surging through me.
I was genuinely surprised at how easily Dante moved in the kitchen. Fire licked up the sides of three separate pans that he expertly seasoned, stirred and flipped brightly colored meat and vegetables in.
Look at him. With a lean, sculpted body like his I guessed it was no surprise that he moved with a chef’s perfect practiced precision. He must’ve had to cook all his own meals to get into that ridiculously good shape.
It struck me that he was the one who’d been cooking my breakfasts! He didn’t have to do that. I knew that other people prepared the rest of my meals. Why couldn’t they do this one as well? Unless… Did he insist on doing this one himself?
Was there anything he couldn’t do?
I bit the corner of my lip as I leaned quietly against the wall. There was something so incredibly sexy about a man who could cook. Maybe it was the cool kitchen light, but I’d never fully seen how many scars he had.
My God, they were everywhere!
They gave his tattoos a patchy, almost digital quality in certain spots where the ink was removed or healed-over scar tissue. Most of them were cuts and scratches, and one even looked like an animal bite, but the whitish discoloration of the burns were the hardest to look at; probably because I was there for those. Looking at the aftermath of that day he saved me written so plainly across Dante's back made my skin itch with empathy pangs.
Sometimes I could still taste the sulfur from the explosions and the copper of his blood in the air.
“You’re up early,” he said, without turning. “Don’t be nervous. You can come in.”
“What? No. I’m not…” I started, but was stopped by his abrupt glance over at me. The creeping California sunrise may have lightened the dark shade of brown in his eyes, but not their sharp intensity. When his gaze shifted over to my ear I realized that my thumb and forefinger were rubbing my rubbing my stud. I immediately lowered my hand.
Damn, he was right. That was such an obvious tell. I had to work on that.
“Just in time for breakfast,” he said, plating a heaping portion of food and walking it over to the informal dining room just outside the open kitchen. “Coffee’s in the pot and tea and hot water are on the counter. Help yourself.”
“Thanks. Are you going to eat with me?” I took my first few steps into the kitchen. We’d never eaten together on a training day before. He’d always be gone by the time I came downstairs and my food would be waiting for me on the counter.
“I’ve already eaten.” Dante thought it over. “But I’ll have some coffee with you.”
“That’d be nice.” I brushed the hair out of my face, tying it up into a ponytail. I grabbed a coffee and wandered over to the heaping mound of food he’d made me. Taking a sip, I watched Dante’s bulging arms heft the cast iron pans off the now calm burners and clean them. The flexed striations in his shoulders and chest quickened my pulse more than all the caffeine in the world. I felt like I was living in some fantasy.
Isn’t this what men dreamed of; a super hot, almost naked cook to make their meals?
His shoulder was still raw from the horse kick, but was healing nicely. The stitches weren’t ready to come out just yet, but I doubted he’d keep them in much longer. Dante was the toughest person I’d ever met. Not much seemed to slow him down.
We talked while I shoveled forkfuls into my mouth. The sautéed veggies were crisp and exploded with flavor, and the eggs were a perfect combination of fluffy and creamy. I loved my mom’s Sunday frittatas, but this blew them out of the kitchen.
“Oh,” I said finishing it all. It was a tes
tament to his work that I’d eaten more in my life these past few weeks but never been in better shape. “Oh, man. This is really good!”
“I know.” He spared a glance back at me before continuing to oil and wipe down the clean cast iron skillet. “Most of it came from my garden.”
A cook and a gardener too?
“Which trees do these grow on?” I held up my last strip of crunchy bacon. It was cooked so perfectly that it crumbled under its own weight. I had to unceremoniously smash it in my mouth to keep bits of it from falling onto the counter. Dante walked over and sat down next to me. Sipping from his porcelain Ninja Turtles mug did little to hide his amused smirk as he watched me finish up eating.
We talked over coffee for nearly an hour before he decided we needed to get to work. Neither of us wanted to go, but despite the great conversation we really didn’t have a choice. As I put my mug away and cleaned up I realized just how nice a small slice of normalcy was. Him and I; it felt natural now, comfortable even.
I closed the patio door behind me and followed him down to the gym. I wish this didn’t have to end.
“It’s time,” Dante said, opening the glass gym doors. We walked over to a covered, dining room-length, wooden table that was set up in the weight lifting area. “Today you’re going to become a killer.”
I looked on with anxious excitement as he grabbing the edge of the black cloth that covered table and pulled it back, revealing what we were doing today. The trapped scents of oil, metal and gunpowder were stronger than I was prepared for. Guns and ammunition of every kind covered the table.
“Wow.” My throat went dry immediately as I took in the varied arsenal. On that table was every kind of pistol, assault rifle and shotgun imaginable, some were naked while others had all sorts of attachments like flashlights, scopes and additional ammo slots. Everything was in the open, unloaded position, but that didn’t make it any less intimidating. There were even a few bolt-action hunting riffles and a— “Holy crap. Is that a bazooka?”