My alarm showed me a place near my portal's entrance (or exit): a large kitchen done in white tile and stainless steel. Someone I knew too well was approaching from the adjoining hallway, his ruthless monologue preceding him in compacted commands, as if by Doppler effect. He entered the kitchen. Juan followed at his heels.
I'd always feared that it would end like this.
"Also," said my father to Juan, "phone Martinez about the meeting with Bill next week. Tell him it's on Thursday, and if he says that I said Wednesday, claim that I didn't."
My father rifled through the kitchen cupboards. Juan followed after him, taking notes on a legal pad. "Also, reschedule my fitting|up or television— with Richard for next Monday. Imply that he's an arrogant shit for wrongly assuming that I'd gain weight, but be subtle about it. Work in an ambiguous comment about how some people, like his wife and daughter, do in fact pork up and spill out as they get older."
Juan scribbled. My father opened a cabinet, disregarded the eighteenth-century Plymouth porcelain within, and moved on to another. "Also, talk to the Bentley people about Alan's car. Make sure they use the dead oak from the side yard when they do the finishing in the interior. Ask if they can work in the part where he carved his initials. If they say they can't, tell them that I am not paying two hundred thousand dollars for a goddamn car that won't be paneled with my firstborn's favorite goddamn climbing tree."
My father finally pulled a meal-replacement bar from one of the cupboards and slipped it into a pocket of his Givenchy suit. "Oh. And call a landscaping company about the hedge maze out back. I want it ripped out tomorrow morning."
There.
My hands clenched the spirit water and the image dissolved.
Somewhere behind me, I heard Yuri's distinctive, loping gait. Of course. He'd seen my boiling vial, and he'd be heading to Perihana'ii's hut to alert her. But I knew she'd just curl her tail helplessly and say there was nothing they could do, that my world was still too foreign. Ram of Earth was on his own.
So be it. Gripping my bags, I edged around the crescent's horn, to where the vegetation breathed and liquefied into itself.
I turned side.
This time, my way back to Earth was via a narrow winding road, wreathed in vines, blood in their veins in lieu of sap. Somewhere, children sang. The road forked and slithered, as all roads here do, and I coalesced The Maze's split-up cycles by feeling which fork was more interesting—and taking the opposite.
The bloody leaves around me gradually turned green. The distant singing faded. The tunnels retracted into the rectilinear walls of a hedge maze, first shaking, then pulsing, then almost still, save for the wind. The path turned from dust to grass, and a colored sky emerged above me. Blue. The smears of light overhead contracted into a single star.
I took another cold turn, and I was out.
I stood at the southernmost edge of a monstrous, hilly lawn, which sprawled up and away under the warm California sun. The slopes of it went on and on: orchards, gardens, fields, and flowerbeds; winding paths and statuary; benches, gazebos, secluded guest houses, and tennis courts; pools and granite fountains; artistic vistas and sculpted trees; plants from around the world.
The hike up took twenty minutes.
At the top, a mansion lords over it all. I picked an entrance and stepped inside, into a scripted life where I am called Ramshead Jones, my father's net worth is $48 billion, and I am required to add glamor to the family name by being the hedonistic party boy.
And Jesus, do I hate it.
I ENTERED MY ROOMS and grasped the first idea that came to me. I rummaged in my bags for a phone, and when I found one, I rang the direct line to my brother's secretary.
"Patty Cheng."
"Patty—thank God. It's Ramshead."
"Good morning, Ramshead! How are you?"
"Where's Alan?"
"He's in a meeting right now."
"I hate to ask you this, but I need you to take him out of it. Tell him to come home. Immediately."
Her voice cooled into seriousness. "I'll go get him right away—hold, please?"
"Yes."
She put me on hold. I began to pace. The other people at that table would frown at each other when Alan left, and within a few hours, NASDAQ would probably quiver.
Whatever.
The line clicked to life. "Jesus, Ramshead, what is it?" asked Alan, out of breath.
"I can't talk about it over the phone. Please."
"Dad."
"No."
"Hanna."
"No."
"Jesus, Ramshead!"
"I can't. Just please—come home."
|up or television—"What—you?"
"Please!"
He paused. "You? Ramshead Jones?"
"Alan—"
"What could you possibly need from me ?"
"Don't do this to me now! I need you!"
"Is that so. This wouldn't happen to have anything to do with your latest fall from the planet, would it?"
"Alan, damnit, I cannot talk about it here!"
"You've been gone over two months this time, Ramshead. Doing what? Just what is it that you do, when you're away?"
"Come home, you hateful son of a bitch!"
Icy silence from the other end.
"I will come," Alan finally said. His pitch was even and calm. "And you will get down on your knees and thank God that I'm even bothering to deal with a parasite like you."
He hung up.
Well—at least he was coming.
I ran downstairs and outside, to await him on the mansion's main steps. I had to move the portal. I had to move the portal. In less than twenty-four hours? I took my copy of Trail Crew Emergency Screws from a pocket and thumbed through the pages. At least I found it quickly.
Screw 8: Moving a Portal from Without
Required blocks:
1: A tongue unknown
2: A tongue rare
3: A life unknown
4: A life rare
"Seriously?" I yelled at the book. An endangered animal, the sacrifice of a life that never was, and a language nobody can speak. With the screw itself to be spoken in a language almost nobody can speak. Christ, how could I do this?
I looked up at the sound of an engine, watching from across our green and empty front lawn: a Mercedes-Benz S550, powerful and purring. It moved with skillful violence. It swung over the long curve of the driveway and right up to me, at the bottom of the main staircase, where it whispered into silence.
I slid the book into a pocket. My brother climbed out of the car.
Alan strode up the steps, a flame of hunger and hate smoldering from within Armani Privé. He is too short, too broad-shouldered, to look much like our father, but he moves like him: hard, fast, relentless. He is not attractive. He wishes he were.
Alan crucified me with his eyes. "And?"
I opened my mouth.
" And ?"
I said, "The backyard," and turned and ran into the house.
Alan followed me, saying something, but I ignored it and kept moving. In one minute I was through and out on the back lawn, waiting. I listened to him stomp through the hall behind me.
"There better be a fucking flying saucer in the middle of the fucking carp pond!" He banged out of the house and bent over, huffing, hands on his knees, hairline glistening with sweat. The scent of Calvin Klein's Obsession rose. "What the hell, Ramshead?"
I pointed south.
"What!"
I ran down the backyard. Alan cursed and followed, all the way down, until the house receded onto lofty hills. Below us, the wind pulled through the hedge maze, stretching east and west into hissing green infinity.
Behind me, Alan stopped.
I turned. "Come on," I demanded.
"Talk to me, goddamnit! What is it!"
"Come here."
"Talk to me!"
I felt my hands coil into fists. Around us, plum trees drank in the sun and couldn't care less. "Alan. I have to—" My ton
gue was sandpaper. "I have to show you something."
"You haven't showed me shit. You've dragged me all the way across the property, when we could've just taken the service road down here. Do you have any idea what you pulled me out of?"
I started to shout, but he shouted me down. "Do you even care what it is the rest of us do, day after day, every day? Or can you not get past your own pampered little bubble?"
Alan paused for a gulp of air, and I felt my long-cultivated magnetism rise. The portal was too close. Around me, its exuded zap began to spin. Not like this. subsequentbor television—
"I swear to Christ, if you ever do this to me again, I will tell Patty that you have died." He drew a cell phone from a jacket pocket. "Now if you're done with your shitty little cry for attention, I have a lot of explaining to do."
"You haven't even looked at it yet!"
He raised the phone to his ear and spoke to me, coldly, as it rang. "Looked at what? There's nothing to see here."
I clenched my right fist and turned a screw. The zap spun into the first degree of visible, crackling over my fist and forearm like blue lighting.
Alan froze.
I raised my crackling fist. The sudden, humiliated fear in his eyes made me feel large and ashamed. I was ready to say, "Alan—I beg you—don't make me force you."
But Alan's wide eyes settled on the zap, and he blurted, "It's about the hedge maze."
My fist dropped like a dead bird. "It's what ?"
Alan shut his phone and put it away, all the while staring at my hand. The zap fizzled into invisibility but I could still feel it circling. "The hedge maze. Isn't it."
I stared at him. I did not know where to start.
Alan took a step back. The humiliated fear had not gone away. "Don't make me get any closer to it."
"I... I won't."
"What have you seen?"
"Huh?"
"No. Don't tell me." He stepped back again. "What do you know about it?"
I stared at him again. The sweat around his hairline had thickened into beads. "What do you know about it?"
"Ramshead—don't." His voice was nearly pleading. "Let's not."
"When we were kids," I said quietly, "you told me it was haunted. It took me years to even work up the courage to get close to it. Did you actually see something, Alan?"
One of his hands fluttered out, looking for something supportive to grip. It brushed useless, reedy branches. "No."
I took a step toward him. " I've seen something. And I've been inside."
Alan swayed, as if he were about to faint; then sat down hard on a nearby rock as the color drained from his face.
"Look—I won't say any more. But I really need your help. And you don't want to know what'll happen if you decide not to give it. Please. I'm begging you, Al."
He shivered and said nothing.
I sat down on the grass. The zap still circled me, as if it could find refuge in my skin, but I ignored it.
Alan finally swallowed. "And?" he whispered.
I brushed off some invisible zap. "And?"
Alan asked, "What do I do?"
I let out a breath. "Thank—"
"Just tell me."
"Really. If you want to know what's going on—"
"I don't."
"Well, in case you're ever curious what—"
"I won't be."
Self-consciously, I looked down. I fiddled with the cuffs of my shirt. I wanted him to be curious—to demand that I explain everything, because all those years of secrets, my secrets, still loomed between us.
But I couldn't say that.
Instead, I looked up. "All right. I need you to find two things for me."
Alan reached a trembling hand into his jacket and pulled out his leather-bound, paper appointment book. He removed a pencil from the spine. "Go ahead."
I watched him transcribe as I spoke. "I need you to find me a text, either original or copied, in a language nobody has been able to translate. And I also need you to find someone who speaks a very rare language. Once you find someone, have them call me. Can you do this?"
"Yes."
"As soon as possible."
"Yes."
"Alan, I'm not kidding."
"I know." Alan replaced the pencil, shut the date book, and slid it back inside his jacket. "If I thought you were, I wouldn't've bothered to write it down in there. "
I reached for something to say but came up empty.
Alan stood and climbed through the plum orchard, back toward the house. I watched him go. I could've walked back with him, but I still didn't know what to say.
I headed back to the ho shouldor television—use on a different path, so we wouldn't run into each other.
ALAN WENT BACK to work. I went up to my rooms and locked the door, to concentrate on how to deal with the other two blocks I'd need for my portal-moving screw.
The "life unknown" was actually not an issue. I am male and healthy, and have plenty of homunculi to spare.
The "life rare" was the problem. I started with some research online, looking for places to call that offered private endangered-animal encounters. But every place's breathless, "Yes! Good morning! Mr. Ramshead Jones—an absolute pleasure—what can we do for you, sir!?" rapidly turned into an, "Ah... I'm afraid we can't allow animal encounters on private property... unsupervised... sir."
An hour later I was out of places to call. I went back online, digging for people who would sell "exotic" animals to private buyers outright. But the red tape here was even worse: you must be licensed, we must process your application, we must meet with you to see if you will be kind to our animals.
No time.
Was there such a thing as buying an animal on the black market?
Hanna would know.
I grabbed a set of car keys—Jaguar, XKR Portfolio, 2004—and headed toward the garage.
I drove around L.A. in loops and spirals, making more calls. Hanna has a cell phone, but the number always changes. She also has a house, but she does not like it. She much prefers the endless string of dangerous men that loops around her, so where she lays her head each night is never certain.
I finally got a lead. An ex-boyfriend of an acquaintance I'd met at a party some years ago told me that she was sleeping with a certain vocalist these days whose band was beginning the slide into bloated overexposure. I got an address and drove to his house. They buzzed the gate open for me, not because I knew him personally, but because when I go anywhere, gates always open.
The front door had been left ajar, so I entered unannounced. The interior was a frat-house wreck: broken furniture, shattered lamps, the stench of weed and beer. I heard someone clattering around in the kitchen, swearing in a masculine voice: "Where the hell does he keep the plates?"
I ventured upstairs, peeking in bedrooms. The remains of the house party reached into every corner: bongs, panties, pornography, designer jeans, condoms, dustings of cocaine, the occasional bass or guitar. One nude, bug-eyed woman with hard, globular breasts, smoking a cigarette in a bathroom doorway, demanding of me, "What the fuck are you looking at, asshole?"
I found Hanna in the master bedroom. She was standing barefoot at the floor-to-ceiling window, the tips of her fingers in the pockets of her tiny shorts, pulling down the low-rise waistband and revealing her tattoos, one fat red star on each hip. She had her weight on her right leg, and was watching the distant street with her head cocked, a strand of dark hair hanging loose from one of her high ponytails.
I cleared my throat. "Hanna."
She started. "Rammy! I didn't see you last night. Were you with the girls in the pool?"
Before I could answer, she grinned and strolled toward me, rolling her hips, making those red stars wink with each rise and fall of her waistband. "Daddy will love it that you're finally partying like you're supposed to, and keeping up the fashionable family image or whatever. Haven't seen you in ages, kiddo. How've you been?"
"I'm fine. Hanna—"
She reached me and curled her arms around my neck. She kissed me on the cheek. "Missed you bunches." She lowered one hand and rubbed it over my stomach. "Did you lose weight?"
I set a hand on hers and pulled it away. "Yeah. I've been really busy. Hanna, I've got something to ask you."
Hanna grinned up at me. I couldn't tell if she wore dark eye makeup or if she were exhausted. "Rammy, relax. We got all day."
"No, we don't." I stepped away from her. "Look, I'm really sorry, but I can't visit an unusual number of shouldor television— this time. I just have to ask you. Do you know where I could buy an exotic animal? In a hurry? I need it by tonight."
Hanna put her fingers back in her pockets and looked down at the carpet. "You mean you don't have time to hang out?"
"No. Tomorrow, maybe."
"I never see you anymore."
"I know—I said, I've been really busy."
"When am I supposed to see you?" She looked up at me, her frown quivering. "You're never at your house. And you know Daddy won't let me go back there. "
I bit my tongue. Hanna misinterpreted my silence. She looked out the window again and said, "Forget it. You came to the party, and you didn't even talk to me last night. You don't have to say anything."
"I wasn't here last night. I just got here."
"To ask me something, instead of see me. Yeah. I get it." She turned her body away from mine, to face the street again.
I took a breath. "Hanna, you know I care about you—"
"I know you spend all day at his house," she said flatly, "instead of ever hanging out with me."
"I never know where you are!"
"You found me now, didn't you?"
"I didn't come here for this. Look." I took out my wallet and pulled out all the cash I had on me, $600. "If you need to pay someone for the information, then here. I'm really serious about this. You're the only one who can help me."
She turned her head and eyed the money. "Why do you need an exotic animal?"
"I just need it, okay?"
"It's a weird thing to ask. What's it for?"
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