True-Blue Cowboy--Includes a bonus novella

by Sara Richardson

  “You know what?” he finally said. “Don’t answer that.”

  Her mouth fell open. “What if I want to answer?”

  “If you wanted to, you would have. But you don’t because you didn’t. So let’s just take the question off the table.”

  She yanked her feet from his lap and straightened. “Do you think you know what’s best for me?”

  “Whoa,” he said, hands raised in surrender. “I wasn’t—”

  “You were deciding what I needed, just like everyone back in my real life who thinks I need to deal with reality.”

  His jaw tightened. “And you don’t see me as reality.”

  Her hands balled into fists. “I didn’t say—”

  “But you did.”

  Now she groaned through gritted teeth. “Cash Hawkins, you are infuriating.”

  Infuriating? She was going to call him infuriating? “Well, you, Olivia Belle, are one-hundred-and-fifty percent maddening. Guess we’re quite the pair if we’re not talking about the real world.”

  She crossed her arms. “You met me four days ago, and you think you know me well enough to want me for longer?”

  He straightened as well because two could play at this game. “What I know is that you make my blood damn near boil.”

  “With anger,” she interrupted, but her voice had softened.

  He nodded. “And downright irritation.”

  She scoffed.

  “But what I also know,” he added, “is that in four days you’ve made me realize the daily routine that’s worked so damn well for me might not be enough.”

  She sucked in a deep breath, most likely to continue tearing him a new one, but then her shoulders relaxed as she blew it out.

  “I make you want more out of your life?” she asked, the momentary anger in her voice fizzling to nothing.

  “Yes,” he admitted.

  “I also make you smile sometimes.”

  “Yeah,” he said, the corner of his mouth turning up. “You do that, too.” He slid closer to her, then scooped her into his lap. He figured her wrapping her arms around his neck was a good sign. “I know it’s only been a few days, but here’s the thing: San Francisco and Oak Bluff—it’s not as if the two are on opposite sides of the planet.”

  “True,” she said. “But you already know I’m no good at this. It’s not just Michael. I dated three guys when I was an undergrad. Ended it each time one asked me to go home for the weekend to meet his parents or even mentioned the idea of looking at engagement rings. If I can’t make it stick with someone I see every day, what makes you think I’d be any better with you?”

  He pressed his hand above her heart and felt it race against his palm.

  “Can I ask you something?” he said.

  She nodded.

  “Any of those other guys make your heart do this?”

  She shook her head slowly.

  He raised a brow. “I have a theory, Ms. Belle. I think you’ve been so damned scared you’ll end up like your parents that you’ve made sure you never get that far. We’re a lot alike, you know. I’ve kept everyone at arm’s length to protect myself from loss while you’ve surrounded yourself with people you know will keep your heart safe.”

  “And how do these people keep my heart safe?” she asked, though he was pretty sure she knew the answer.

  “Because.” He shrugged. “You never truly give it to anyone. That way it never gets broken.”

  She blew out a breath. “You could break it.”

  “And you could destroy mine. I have no doubt about it.”

  She pulled him closer, resting her forehead on his. “I don’t want to destroy your heart, Sheriff.”

  He laughed softly. “And I sure as hell don’t want to break yours.”

  “So what do we do?” she asked.

  He kissed her once, soft and slow, and she hummed a sweet moan against his lips.

  “We take these next few days to figure it out.”

  She nodded.

  “Stay with me tonight,” he said, deciding to go for broke.

  She squeezed him tight, then kissed the line of his jaw all the way to his ear, her breath against his skin driving him completely mad.

  “Okay, Sheriff,” she said. “You got yourself a deal.”

  He stood with her in his arms and strode to the bedroom in ten easy steps, kicking the door shut behind them before lowering her to her feet.

  Wordlessly she unzipped the back of her dress and let it pool around her ankles so she stood before him in nothing but a pair of black lace panties.

  For a second it was as if all the breath had been sucked from his lungs, and he could barely breathe, let alone speak. Even though Cash was a man of few words, he felt like now would be a good time to say something. To say the right thing. But he wasn’t quite sure what that was.

  “I didn’t realize it until now,” he said, finally recovering his voice.

  “What’s that?” she asked.

  “Maybe it can happen more than once.”

  Her brows drew together.

  “All these years I’ve told myself I had my chance and blew it,” Cash continued. “I convinced myself that Lucinda finding happiness again and again—even after losing it—was an exception to the rule, but I’m not so sure anymore. Maybe I didn’t put my life on hold all these years just to play it safe. Maybe I did it—because I was waiting for you.”

  “That’s a lot of maybes,” she said, and he noted the slight tremble in her voice.

  “Sure is.”

  She stepped toward him then and unbuttoned his shirt, pulling it down his arms and letting it fall to the floor. She unbuckled his belt, helped him out of his jeans. Gone went the boxer briefs, too.

  “Wow,” she said softly.

  He raised a brow, then hooked a finger inside the seam of her panties.

  “May I?” he asked.

  She nodded, and he lowered himself to one knee, carefully sliding the undergarment over her soft skin, the tips of his fingers exploring her as they trailed the length of her perfect legs.

  Perfect because the legs belonged to her.

  “I’m on the pill,” she blurted with a slight wince. “In case you were wondering.”

  He grinned. “I was prepared if things were otherwise.”

  He pulled her to him, her soft breasts against his torso, and she let out a sweet sigh.

  “I forget to breathe around you, sometimes.” She kissed his neck.

  “I guess that makes two of us. Because you take my damned breath away.”

  He backed her toward the bed, which he’d actually made to impress her. He realized now there wouldn’t be much looking at it, though. And he was perfectly okay with that.

  He laid her down on her back and just stared at her for a long moment. Then he dipped his head, kissing her soft lips, then her neck and her collarbone until he came to the swell of her breast. Her stomach contracted, and he could tell she was holding her breath. He grinned as he flicked his tongue out, tasting her hardened peak.

  She gasped and dug her fingers into his hair, which was all the encouragement he needed to continue kissing, licking, nipping.

  “More,” she pleaded.

  God, he loved that sound in her breathless voice, a sound that echoed everything he couldn’t quite put into words.

  Need.

  Hell yes, he craved her touch, hungered for the taste of her skin on his tongue. But something more than physical was happening here, wasn’t it? Did she feel it, too?

  “Cash,” she said, and he heard it again. That something more. “Please.”

  “Whatever you want, Ms. Belle.” He crawled over her, kissed her, then entered her as her legs fell open, inviting him in.

  Every dip and swell of her curves was brand new, unexplored territory. Yet at the same time it was as if he’d known her all his life. They moved to a rhythm that was solely their own. When she kissed him, he didn’t taste the bottle of wine they’d polished off with dinner. He tasted ho
me. Because hell, that was what this woman was for him.

  He brushed his lips against hers, teased them with his tongue, and she gripped him tighter, pulled him closer. Deeper.

  “Cash,” she said, a breathless plea, and he knew she was close.

  “It would be worth it,” he said, slowly sliding out and then entering her again.

  She gasped and opened her eyes. “What would?”

  He rolled to his side, pulling her with him, hooking her leg over his hip.

  “You—destroying my heart. It’d be worth it.”

  Her breathing hitched, and he wasn’t sure if it was because he’d just snuck his hand between the place where they joined or if she felt it, too—the falling.

  Because it wasn’t that he could fall for this woman.

  He was falling. Had possibly already hit the ground with deadly, destructive force. But he didn’t care. All that mattered was this moment, showing her how well they actually fit.

  Like Cinderella’s glass slipper.

  He chuckled, but she was too close to the edge to notice, and soon he would be, too.

  He fell onto his back, pulling her on top of him and letting her take the wheel for the final moments.

  “God, you’re gorgeous,” he said, staring up at her, her wild curls spilling over her shoulders and a look in her eyes that made it feel like all she could see was him.

  She leaned down—he thought to kiss him—but instead nipped at his ear.

  “And you,” she whispered, her breath warm against his already heated skin, “are the most beautiful, wonderful, genuine man I’ve ever met. If I knew how to give someone my heart, Cash Hawkins, it’d be yours.”

  And before he could speak the words that were on the tip of his tongue, she kissed him and took them both the rest of the way home.

  Hours later, when she was still naked and asleep in the crook of his arm, he realized all the work he’d done protecting himself—convincing himself he’d already had his one shot at love—was complete and utter horseshit.

  It didn’t matter if she was unable to give her heart away. She had his, now, and with it the power to crush it into a million irreparable pieces.

  What the hell had he gone and done?

  Chapter Eleven

  It had been two nights since Olivia had slept in Cash’s arms and two whole days since she’d seen him. She’d shopped, hiked, and cuddled in the B and B sitting room with a romance novel she’d found on the bookshelf. Her days had been both pure bliss and pure agony as she ached to see him again, which made no sense. Olivia Belle had never ached for anyone before. Except now she did.

  She hoped Cash slept during those forty-eight hours on duty. Maybe that was why he lived above the station. What a solitary existence that seemed to be—just him and Dixie behind a desk or in that small apartment.

  Where he’d cooked her dinner and made love to her.

  She checked her texts as she swung her feet beneath the sidewalk bench where she waited for Cash’s Tahoe to pull up. First she reread the one he’d sent her late last night.

  Sheriff: Wish your head was tucked against my shoulder right now.

  It was the only text he’d sent during their separation. She hadn’t seen it until she woke up this morning, which had both relieved and confused her. She’d left the ball in his court after her texts during their last time apart, and it had been radio silence. She knew he was the strong and silent type, but the other night had been—Wow. But where in the world did they go from here? Where could they go? So she decided not to respond, especially since Adams or Walters could be around. She knew Cash would hit the office even though he had the day off because that was just what Sheriff Cash Hawkins did. He took care of things even when he didn’t have to.

  Michael: The co-op would like an answer. Have you reconsidered?

  She groaned. She was more than a name to add to a deed.

  Mom: Where the hell are you? Your father thinks it’s my fault you ran away. Says you’re just like your mother.

  Dad: I blame your mother.

  Gran: Am I doing this right? I’ve never texted on this new pHone. Oh darn. How do I get rid of that capital h? Sweetheart, are you where I think you are?

  Mom: Your grandmother thinks she knows where you are. Can you just answer one of us? Actually, no. Answer me before your father.

  She answered none of them. But then she felt bad about Gran. Gran was the reason she was here. She at least owed her the truth.

  Me: Yeah, Gran. I’m here. I’m gonna find the letters. Just don’t tell Mom and Dad. Please? Luv u.

  And because he had impeccable timing, that was exactly when Cash pulled up, effectively rescuing her from the life she still wasn’t ready to return to.

  He hopped out of the truck and she stood, holding up the cup carrier with two coffees from Baker’s Bluff.

  “Hey,” she said, not sure how she was supposed to greet him after two days.

  “Hey yourself,” he said, then dipped his head to kiss her—like, really kiss her—and yeah, that was exactly how they should greet each other after two days.

  “What’s with the uniform, Sheriff? Thought you were off until traffic duty tonight.”

  She looked him up and down, from what she assumed were steel-toed boots all the way to his sheriff’s badge and crisp collar.

  “Scratch that,” she said. “The uniform is hot as hell. You can wear it whenever you want.”

  He smiled, but his eyes didn’t crinkle like they did when he laughed, and she could feel there was something he was holding back. But he’d kissed her like he meant it, and boy, had she meant her part in it, too, so she wouldn’t pester him about a smile.

  “Wasn’t sure if I’d make it back home before it was time for official business, so I figured I’d look—official for the whole day. But it seems to me that you don’t mind it much.”

  She shook her head. “I don’t mind it at all. Is Dixie not riding along later tonight? If you need someone to keep you company…”

  Ugh. What was she doing? He was being nice and taking her to the farmers market, but he didn’t need her with him at work. He’d already told her he’d stop by the B and B when his shift was up so they could spend whatever was left of the night together. Because she’d be heading back to San Francisco tomorrow. She had to. There was a job, and a life to deal with even if she wished she could avoid it for one more day. Or week. Or maybe even the rest of her life.

  “Dixie’s in the back. She’d never forgive me if I went to the market without her. There’s this vendor—Felix—makes the best damned dog treats from scratch. She goes nuts for them.”

  Olivia laughed. “And you can’t just bring some home for her? Man, does she have you wrapped around her paw.”

  This, at least, elicited a genuine chuckle.

  “Yeah,” Cash said. “She sure as hell does. You’re welcome to join us, though. Tonight, I mean. Traffic duty’s usually pretty quiet on a Saturday night.”

  She raised her chin. “I was in a hurry,” she said haughtily.

  He took the drink carrier from her and opened the passenger side door. “You ready to go find what sent you to Oak Bluff in such a hurry? The answers to true love?” he asked.

  “I guess.” She wasn’t sure what made her more nervous, not finding the letters or finding them and realizing that what her grandparents had was something impossible to replicate. She used to think that if she could just see how they fell in love, she’d understand what was missing from her own romantic DNA and would be able to fix it.

  But what if Cash was right? What if she kept choosing guys she knew wouldn’t be forever guys because that was what kept her safe from having to commit and get hurt?

  Despite how amazing the other night was—how being with him was unlike being with any other man she’d been with before—wasn’t she still doing the same thing by choosing a man she couldn’t commit to because he lived over two hundred miles away?

  She climbed into the truck, her heart suddenl
y heavy. Here she thought she was finally doing something different, but despite how she felt about Cash—and oh, there were feelings—his life was here, and hers was not.

  As soon as she settled in her seat, Dixie gave her a wet kiss on the back of her palm. Olivia laughed hard, and with it some of that weight on her chest dissipated.

  “She give you a proper welcome?” Cash asked when he settled into the driver’s seat.

  Olivia nodded. “I’ve been properly welcomed by both of you this morning, so thank you very much.”

  He leaned over and kissed her again. “I plan on welcoming you a few more times today, if that’s okay with you.”

  “Mmm-hmm,” she said, sneaking one more sweet kiss. “It’s very okay with me.”

  The ride to the farmers market was long enough to warrant turning on the radio, which made Olivia thankful she didn’t have to fill the silence with all her talking. For once, she just wanted to be. So she let country music take up the space between them as they got closer and closer to finding the letters.

  “You wanna grab lunch first?” he asked.

  “Yes!” she answered with a little too much vigor. The truth was, now that they were here, she was terrified of finding what she’d come for—and terrified of the letters being lost for good. Lunch was the perfect distraction.

  “Good,” he said. “I know the perfect place.”

  The three of them—Olivia, Cash, and Dixie, strolled through the rows of market stalls. Finally Cash pointed up ahead.

  “There it is,” he said, and she followed his gaze to what was no more than a food cart. A one-type-of-food cart.

  “Corn dogs?” she asked. Not that she had anything against the popular carnival delicacy. But they were at a farmers market. It seemed—wrong.

  “Corn dogs,” he confirmed. “The best you ever had, made with cornmeal sourced from a local farm and most likely some sort of illegal secret ingredient that keeps patrons coming back week after week.”

  She eyed him in his sexy uniform, then narrowed her gaze. “Does a woman work the corn dog cart?” she asked.