by Joan Wolf
Mr. Stevens asked her to dance. The party had become very gay by now and there was a great deal of laughter. Isabel did her best to join in, but it was all pretense until she felt Leo’s presence behind her. A second later he put his hand on her arm.
“You’ve got my girl,” he said humorously to Larry Selneck, with whom she was speaking.
“Sorry, Senator,” the young congressman returned a little stiffly. Isabel had gathered from their conversation at dinner that he was rather in awe of Leo.
Leo smiled genially and said a few more words. Isabel watched as the congressman began to relax and finally to joke a little. She looked at Leo. It wasn’t a deliberate thing, she thought, that potent charm of his. It was simply a matter of native grace radiating effortlessly upon all who came within his orbit.
“Shall we dance?” Leo asked her, and as she turned into his arms, she saw a smiling Larry Selneck go off to find his wife.
The party broke up at eleven-thirty. “I still can’t get over how everyone runs home so promptly,” Isabel said to Leo in the car. “One minute there is mirth and music, and the next—poof—everyone is getting into their coats.”
“Getting home to read those reports,” he murmured.
Isabel yawned. “Actually, I like the early hours. By eleven-thirty I’m tired.”
“Frankly, so am I. Six o’clock comes awfully quickly the next morning.” He grinned. “I remember a party once which didn’t break up until well after two. It was at the Wisharts’ out in Chevy Chase and the guest of honor was Jerry Roget, and Jerry likes a party. Now, the rule for departures is quite rigid: no one leaves before the guest of honor. Jerry was having a grand time and by midnight still showed no signs of wanting to leave. The British and the French ambassadors were asleep on their feet but refused to break protocol and leave before the guest of honor.”
Isabel chuckled. “Talk about being a martyr to one’s convictions.”
“Frank Wishart suggested that they leave, said everyone would perfectly understand. They wouldn’t budge.”
“Rule Britannia,” said Isabel. “Vive la France.”
“Wishart wound up telling Jerry to get into his car and drive around for a little so the poor souls could escape. Which Jerry did. He returned in good form and the party went on well into the morning.”
Isabel threw back her head and laughed. “What a marvelous story. And what a crazy city!”
“Isn’t it?”
Silence fell and Isabel wondered if Leo had been at that party with Lady Pamela. She decided she didn’t want to know. She wondered what the people tonight thought about her and Leo and decided she didn’t want to know that either.
Lady Pamela had asked her a question that had been gnawing away at the back of her brain all evening. What would she do when Leo’s portrait was finished and his mother’s party was over? She frowned ahead of her into the night and admitted to herself she did not want to go back to New York. But her excuse for staying with Leo would be gone.
“You look almost grim, honey,” came his voice, and involuntarily she glanced his way.
“Just tired, I guess.”
“Mmm?”
“Actually, I was thinking about what Lady Pamela said.”
“Ah.” He knew instantly what she meant. They pulled into the drive and he shut the engine off and turned to look at her. “I don’t want you to go back to New York,” he said flatly.
Isabel’s eyes closed very briefly. Until this moment she had not let herself know how afraid she had been that he would simply wish her good luck and kiss her good-bye.
“I don’t want to go either,” she said softly. “You kissed me for the first time in this car. Remember?”
“I remember.” He caught her hand in his and turned it. His warm mouth found her wrist and then followed her arm to the inside of her elbow. Isabel gazed at his bent head and felt suddenly dizzy with a rush of intense emotion. He dropped her hand and opened his car door. Isabel waited until he came around to open her door before she got out. He put an arm around her, and holding her close to his side, he slowly walked her to the door and then up the stairs to bed.
Chapter Eleven
On Saturday morning Isabel finished the portrait. In the afternoon they took a long leisurely drive through the Virginia countryside, stopping at an old inn for dinner. It rained Sunday, so they spent the afternoon in the sitting room with a fire blazing and the papers spread all over.
The warm and quiet sitting room was an island of peace for Isabel. Outside, the rain beat on the pavement and the roof, but in here she was safe. The fire light glowed on Leo’s shoulder and arm. Isabel bent her head as she watched him contentedly. Without realizing it, she was storing up memories for the future, the bleak and empty future. But for now, she was happy. A log dropped on the fire and his hair reflected a brighter gold. He read something to her from the paper and she smiled faintly, loving the soft cadences of his voice. He raised his head and his eyes rested for a moment on her face. So blue, she thought, his eyes are so very blue. He held an arm out invitingly, and she went to sit beside him, resting her head in the hollow of his shoulder, her body soft and relaxed against the solid strength of his. Leo murmured in her ear and she smiled a little in reply and then closed her eyes.
Here was peace. Here was security. Here was happiness. The outside world could not intrude. She was safe.
* * * *
On Wednesday afternoon Leo’s mother arrived and Isabel drove to the airport to meet her. Isabel had liked Charlotte Sinclair very much but she wished Leo’s mother was not coming to Washington. She wished she was not going to be staying at the house in Georgetown. She wished the portrait was still not finished, and she had weeks and weeks ahead of her to work on it.
None of these feelings appeared on her face, however, as she greeted Leo’s mother at the airport.
“Isabel. How lovely of you to come and meet me, my dear.” Isabel had forgotten how warm Charlotte Sinclair’s smile was, how persuasive her charm could be.
“How was your flight, Mrs. Sinclair?” she asked as they got into Isabel’s rented station wagon.
“The flight was fine.” Charlotte’s face looked briefly strained. “I’m afraid I just don’t like to fly,” she confessed.
Isabel abruptly remembered how her husband had died. “Of course you don’t,” she said with brisk sympathy. “It would be a miracle if you did.”
“Ben is getting his flying license. I bite my tongue and shiver in abject fear every time he goes up.” She sighed. “He’s so like his father. He loves planes and he’s absolutely fearless.”
“Did your husband pilot himself?”
“Yes. He was very good, too. He wasn’t at the controls the night they crashed and I’ve often thought.... Oh, well. I don’t want to bore you with my problems, dear. Tell me, how are you enjoying Washington?”
“Very much, thank you. The dresses we bought have been perfect.”
“I’m so glad. Now tell me, who has Leo invited for Friday night?”
They spent the rest of the drive discussing the upcoming party. Not a word was said about the portrait until they arrived at the house. Then Isabel took Leo’s mother into the library, where the portrait still rested on her easel.
Mrs. Sinclair gazed at it a long time in silence. When she finally turned to Isabel, her eyes were suspiciously bright. “Oh, my dear,” she said softly. “Oh, my dear.”
Isabel looked at her gravely. “You are satisfied?”
“Satisfied—yes. I am satisfied.” Mrs. Sinclair turned back to the picture. “I was afraid it was going to be merely pretty,” she said. “But it isn’t. You’ve caught it, that special radiance that makes Leo Leo. You’ve caught it.” She turned back to give Isabel a shrewd look. “You’ve caught something else, too; it shows around the mouth. It’s not there on Leo’s face very often; he hides it well. But you caught it.”
The gravity of Isabel’s expression did not alter. “How bad are his knees?”
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“So he ended up nearly crippling himself.”
“Yes. Stupid, wasn’t it? Unforgivable, really, in a man of Leo’s intelligence. But there it is. He simply will not admit to pain, not until, quite literally, he can’t get to his feet. Which is what happened to him at last.”
“What a terrible sport football is!” Isabel was passionately angry. “Why the hell do they do it?”
Mrs. Sinclair sighed. “You’re asking the wrong person, my dear. I’m not a male.”
“Male,” said Isabel scornfully. “It isn’t male. It’s barbaric!”
“My husband and my sons absolutely adored it. I can’t tell you why, but they did. Ben, fortunately, did not have Leo’s aptitude.” Mrs. Sinclair made a wry face. “So now he’s taken up flying instead.”
The two women looked at each other for a moment in the silence of perfect accord. Then Isabel looked back to the portrait. “From the way he moves, you’d never be able to tell he had been injured.”
“He worked at physical therapy. My, did he work. No, you can’t tell. But the cartilage in his knees is irrevocably damaged. The doctors repaired what they could, but it had gone too far.” Isabel had seen the scars on Leo’s knees but refrained from mentioning this interesting fact to his mother.
“How have people reacted to your painting Leo?” Mrs. Sinclair asked curiously.
“I’m famous,” Isabel replied. “Everywhere I go I’m pointed out as ‘the girl whose doing Leo’s portrait.’ It’s going to be my epitaph.”
“Nonsense,” Mrs. Sinclair said with a smile. “It will merely be your beginning.” She looked back to the portrait. “You do very impressive work, Isabel. Very impressive.”
“I’m glad you are pleased, Mrs. Sinclair.” Isabel smiled. “I like it too,” she confessed.
“And so you should. Now I am going upstairs to unpack and perhaps lie down for a little.”
“Of course. Leo said to tell you he’d try to get home a little early tonight.”
“Good.”
Mrs. Sinclair went upstairs and Isabel wandered out to the kitchen and checked the dinner. She then went to the sitting room, where she stared into the empty grate for a very long time.
* * * *
In fact, Isabel was still sitting on the couch when Leo returned home. He had arrived home early, and the three of them enjoyed a relaxed dinner served by Mrs. Edwards. After dinner they went back into the sitting room. Isabel did not curl up next to Leo on the sofa, but she sat instead in a graceful old wing chair. Mrs. Sinclair was at a small secretary in the corner. She perched her glasses on her nose and took out paper and pen.
“Now, then,” she said to Leo, “you engaged the caterer?”
“Yes, Mama.”
“The menu?”
“I thought we’d have veal.”
“Good idea. Let’s see: a clear soup, salad and brie, and dessert?”
“Fine. I’ll take care of the wine.”
“Good. I’ll order the flowers. What florist shall I use?”
“Aster’s.”
“All right. Now for the difficult part: the seating arrangement.”
Leo grinned. “Ah, yes.”
Isabel listened with fascination as they went over the entire guest list. Isabel, as guest of honor, would be at Leo’s right. She was gratified to notice that Lady Pamela Ashley was put at least halfway down the table. Some of the guests, however, posed distinct problems.
“No, Mama, you can’t put Ron next to Mrs. Herries.”
“Why not?” Mrs. Sinclair asked.
“She’s his daughter’s lover’s wife.”
“Oh. I see.” Mrs. Sinclair frowned at her list and came up with another name that was more acceptable.
“I don’t believe I heard that properly,” Isabel murmured.
Leo chuckled. “I’m sure they’d both behave themselves, but it would be awkward for them. And I wouldn’t put Arthur Stevens next to Mrs. Vandergrift. He’s been rather brutal lately about fiscal policy at the Federal Reserve.”
Mrs. Sinclair’s frown tightened. “All right. How is the British ambassador for Mrs. Vandergrift?”
“Fine. Lord Ashley is a grand fellow. You could give him anyone and he’d be right at home.”
Mrs. Sinclair smiled. “I’m glad some of your guests are adaptable, Leo.”
The seating chart done, they chatted comfortably for another hour. Mrs. Sinclair and Leo did most of the talking. Isabel noticed, with admiration and amusement, that without seeming to press him at all, Mrs. Sinclair found out a great deal about her son’s activities.
At ten-thirty Mrs. Sinclair excused herself and went up to bed. As the sound of her footsteps disappeared up the stairs, Leo turned to Isabel with a smile in his eyes. “You can come sit on the sofa now,” he said softly.
Isabel didn’t move but looked at him, her face serious. “I can’t stay here after this weekend,” she said. “You must see that, Leo.”
“Why not?”
Isabel made a restless movement with her hands. “United States senators do not have live-in girlfriends. If it became known—and, of course, it would—it would damage you very badly back home.”
He didn’t deny it. “And if I say I don’t care?”
“I care. I won’t do it to you.”
“You could marry me instead,” he said.
Isabel stared for a minute at his face. It looked set, strained almost. She looked down at her own clasped hands. The knuckles were white with pressure. Panic gripped her stomach muscles. “It wouldn’t work,” she mumbled. “I’m not the Washington-hostess type “
“You’re my type,” he said.
She refused to look at him. “No. It wouldn’t work.”
There was a tense silence. “I see,” he said. His voice was quiet. Too quiet. “Well, if you won’t be my wife and you won’t be my mistress, then I reckon we’ve come to the end of it.”
Isabel’s head bent even farther forward so that her long black hair swung in a curtain around her face. “I might get a commission here in Washington.” Her voice was almost inaudible.
He rose from the sofa and went to stand in front of the fireplace, his back toward her. “You might,” he said flatly. “In fact, my mother is going to some trouble to ensure that you do.”
“Mrs. Messenger mentioned something to me the other night.” Isabel raised her head and looked at his back. “If I were to paint Mr. Messenger, I’d have to go live with them out in McLean. We could still see each other, couldn’t we?”
Leo kept his back to her. There was something very rigid about his body, the legs braced apart a little, head forward.
“You mean you could come by here for visits?”
Isabel felt the hot color come into her face. “Wouldn’t you like that?”
“Oh, yes, I’d like that fine.” At last he turned and looked at her. His eyes were filled with a cold blue light.
“I can’t make a permanent commitment, Leo,” she said miserably. She had not known he could look so hard. “I just can’t.”
An odd expression flitted across his face, softening it, making him look more like the Leo she knew.
“All right, honey.” He sounded a little weary. “Have it your way.”
She got out of her chair, took two running steps, and then was in his arms. “I love you,” she said into his shoulder. “I do. But I’m not the marrying kind, Leo.”
He buried one hand in her long hair. “I know,” he said. “I understand. The hell of it is, I do understand.”
After a long minute she took her face out of his shoulder and looked up. She put her palms on either side of his face. “I don’t want to leave you,” she said. “You know that, don’t you?”
His eyes narrowed and his hands held her shoulders. “Isabel,” he said, and bending his head he began to kiss her.
There was an urgency to this kiss that was new, a hunger. Isabel could feel the whole hard length of his body pushing against her. Her mouth opened under his lips. His hands slid down her shoulders to her waist and rested on the curve of her hips. She responded, taking fire from his touch, sliding her hands under his jacket to get closer.
His lips were on her throat, her ear. “Let’s go upstairs,” he muttered.
“Yes.” Neither of them gave a thought to Mrs. Sinclair as they walked, Isabel first, Leo behind, up the stairs to Isabel’s bedroom. They were not being circumspect in case Leo’s mother came out into the hall. Simply, they couldn’t bear to touch each other until they knew they would not have to stop.
The door closed behind them. Isabel turned, standing on tiptoe, and slid her arms around his neck. She felt him pull her sweater out of her skirt and then his hand came up, inside her bra, to caress her breast. She moved a little with the sheer sensual pleasure of it. He raised his head and she gazed up at him.
“Leo.” she said, her voice slow and husky. “Leo the lion.” She touched his mouth with the tips of her fingers. “How I do love you.”
“Show me,” he murmured. His eyes were very dark. “Show me how much you love me.”
In answer Isabel reached up and began to unbutton his shirt. In less than a minute they were both lying naked on the bed.
He was rougher than he had ever been before as the urgency of his kiss in the sitting room carried over into his lovemaking now. The Isabel of a week ago would have been frightened by such hungriness, but not tonight. Tonight, with the shadow of separation in both their minds, she gave in to the force within him. Blindly, she surrendered her body to him, letting herself remain helpless before him. He overpowered her, overmastered her, and at the starkest limits of surrender she discovered a blazing shuddering fulfillment all her own. Afterward, as she held him in her arms and listened to the wild hammering of his heart, she knew she had possessed him as surely as he had possessed her.