He ushered me in, and before I could even flip on the lights, he had my back against the wall while his lips came crashing down on mine.
He swept his tongue into my mouth and took possession, licking at every curve and sliding against my own tongue. He thrust his hips, letting me feel his hardness, so I stroked him through his slacks.
I maneuvered him around, with his back to the wall. After giving him a quick kiss, I dropped to my knees, undid his belt buckle, then the button, and teasingly lowered the zipper.
“Fuck, Aaron.” He stroked my hair with his big hands.
I yanked down his pants along with his boxers, and his dick slapped up against his belly. Before he could say anything, I wrapped my fingers around the base and slid him between my lips.
The taste of him flooded my mouth and I lapped at every inch of his cock. In and out. Then in a little deeper each time. His cock hit my throat and I fought my gag reflex and swallowed, letting the head slide down.
“Baby, oh God, shit that’s good. Your mouth is so hot and wet…” His words became unintelligible as I pulled him out, then went down deeper again. He gripped my head tighter and started thrusting, fucking my throat. He let out a string of expletives as he started coming. I pulled back so his release would land on my tongue and I could savor it before I drank it down.
“Fuck, Aaron. You swallowed it all, didn’t you?”
“Mmm,” I answered, my mouth still full of his cock.
“I almost came on the damn dance floor, you were so sexy. And then this. Shit, Aaron. You’re so damn good at this.” His head fell against the wall as his ragged breathing slowed.
I finally released him from my mouth with a loud pop. He groaned again, his hands stroking my face. Looking up at him, I grinned and licked my lips. “Been wanting to do that all day, I think I’m sort of addicted to the taste of you.”
He pulled me up and kissed me, his hands around my upper arms. “I can taste myself. I think I’m sort of addicted to you, too.”
“Then get naked because we have a full night ahead of us.” I slid off my jacket and flung it to the floor.
Jeff hurried to join me and our clothes flew off in record time, landing in a heap.
And there we stood, alone and naked in a hotel room. The air changed from teasing to serious as he drank me in with his dark gaze. I trembled, but the desire on his face gave me a shot of confidence, so I let my eyes trail down his body.
I took my time and feasted on his broad chest with the dark hair I loved. The happy trail leading to his bellybutton and below, to a fine point above his trimmed bush. His cock had begun to grow again and I loved how it hung above his heavy balls that dangled between muscled thighs.
My mouth went dry. What the hell had I ever seen in Russell Adams, or Jon, or any other guy, I wondered? Jeff was far superior to anyone I’d ever known.
“What are you thinking?” he asked, standing directly in front of me, his hands cupping my cheeks.
Well, I certainly wasn’t going to mention any names. I cleared my throat. “You’re incredibly hot.”
He grinned. “Yeah? You want my body?” he asked as he flexed his pecs.
I laughed and gave him a playful punch on the arm. “Don’t get a big head over it.”
Jeff smirked, pressing his body against mine. “I can’t help it.” He thrust his hips against me. “My head gets big every time I’m with you.”
I would have rolled my eyes at his cheesy play on words, but when our chests pressed together and I felt his heart beating against me, all humor vanished. “I love you.”
Jeff leaned down until his lips almost touched mine. I couldn’t tear my gaze from his as I felt his heated skin against mine, and warmth rolled over me like a wave. “I love you, too, Aaron.” A tingle spread through me just before his lips brushed against mine. “I always have.”
He kissed me again and cupped my ass, yanking me against him. Our kisses turned passionate as his tongue delved deeper into my mouth. His hungry growl flipped my switch like crazy, and I practically tried to climb him. He obliged me by pulling me up so I could wrap my legs around him.
He moved to the bed, dropped me onto my back. Jeff just stood there and stared while my heart beat so fast I thought it would punch a hole in my chest.
I leaned up, bracing my elbows on the mattress. “What?”
“You’re…you’re so beautiful.”
My cheeks felt hot and pleasure rippled through me. I wasn’t sure why, but when he called me beautiful, it put me over the edge. I cocked my head and spread my legs. “You like what you see?” I asked, my voice thick with emotion.
He ran his tongue along his lips. “You’re beautiful, Aaron. I love to see you like this. On display only for me.”
I patted the bed. “Join me?”
Without another word, he crawled to me and straddled my waist, pinning me with his stare. I leaned back until my head hit the pillow and stroked my hard nipples.
“See what you do to me?”
He nodded, but stayed silent, as if working something out in his head. I waited while I trailed my fingers along my chest, enjoying putting on a show for him.
Jeff twisted his lips and brought down his hands to my breastbone. “Do you think…I mean, do you want to…?”
Heat surged through my body. I wanted him inside me with every fiber of my being. Every cell vibrated with anticipation. “Do I want you to fuck me??”
“Yes. If you’re not ready, I get it. I just…shit, Aaron. I want to be inside you. I need to be inside you so bad. But I can wait until it’s right for you. I never want to hurt you.” He thrust his hand through his silky locks that I loved to touch. “I just want to make you mine.”
“I am yours, Jeff. And yes, I’m ready.” Hell, I was more than ready. We’d been getting more and more into anal play where he’d slide at least two fingers into my ass while he sucked me. Even when he stroked me off, I wanted his fingers in my hole.
He reached for the duffel bag he’d laid on the bed earlier. “I brought some supplies. Just in case.” He pulled out the tube of lubrication we’d hidden in his room and a box of condoms. My eyes widened.
“You brought a whole box?”
He chuckled. “I didn’t want to forget them, so I stuffed the box in the duffel bag.”
I scrunched up my face. “Do we need condoms?”
Jeff paused. “Don’t we?”
“I mean, I’ve never been with anyone.”
His cheeks flushed. “Me either,” he admitted, but still held the box.
“Anything you want to tell me?”
Jeff finally sighed and his shoulders slouched. “Truth?”
“That would be nice.”
He blushed as he glanced at the blanket, pulling at a tiny thread with his free hand. “I heard that without a condom, when you fuck for the first time, it’s so intense that you can come too fast and hard. A condom puts a barrier there and it’s not so overwhelming. I don’t want to come as soon as I…enter you.”
Hmm. I guess that made sense. I bit back a smile. He didn’t want to embarrass himself. “Condoms it is, then.”
He opened the box, laying one near my thigh, along with the lube. Then he began kissing me. I reveled in the feeling of his skin pressed against mine. Legs twined and our chests pressed against each other, while my hands roamed the planes of his backside.
I trailed my fingers down his spine while he placed hot, wet kisses along my neck and down to my chest. I slid my hand into his hair and arched up into him as his tongue licked my nipple, which he bit a little. My dick pressed against him, and I thrust again.
He gave me a wicked smile. “Not yet, baby.”
I moaned. “Please. I’m so close.” And I was. One more slide and I could have painted his chest. God I wanted to.
He moved lower and gripped the base of my cock. His tongue swirled around the head. Soon, he settled between my thighs, gently nudging them apart so he could lay between them, his face level with my c
ock. He cupped my balls as I instinctively grabbed the back of my thighs, bringing my legs almost to my chest.
“Fucking beautiful. You’re splayed out in front of me, welcoming me in. It’s the hottest thing I’ve ever seen.”
I gasped as he sucked one of my balls into his mouth and tongued it all over. He groaned, and the vibrations travelled through my balls, through my body.
Jeff moved eagerly, yet extraordinarily slow, lighting a match inside me. A small burn that turned into a roaring fire. I wanted him to fuck me before I lost my mind, but he clearly had a plan of seduction. By the time he’d sucked my cock into his throat a couple of times, suckled my balls, and licked a hot stripe along the juncture at my thigh and hip, I was shaking. Hard.
And then he licked my hole and I nearly flew off the bed. “Jeff!”
He answered by licking me again, and he must have lubed his fingers because I felt the cold gel on my hole. As he pushed, I opened and let him slide in.
“Yess,” I hissed.
Jeff stretched me, sliding another finger inside and scissoring them. He hit that magic button and I cried out.
“Now, Jeff! Fuck me now,” I begged, so on edge, I was close to tears. I’d never wanted him like I wanted him at that moment.
He pulled out his fingers and I hated the empty feeling. He rolled on a condom, then sat on his heels between my thighs and looked up at me. “Ready?”
“Mmm, hmm.” More than ready. Ready to go crazy and beg him, if need be.
He lined himself up and pushed. “I don’t want to hurt you.”
“It’s going to hurt some, I know.”
He took a deep breath, I bore down some, and suddenly the swollen head slid inside. I gasped at the immediate burn and held my breath.
“Breathe, Aaron. Do you want me to stop?”
I let out my breath. The burn was ebbing some. “Push again.”
Jeff leaned over me, bracing his hands on the bed near my shoulders. “I love you.” His next push had him sliding deep. He moaned and closed his eyes as he filled me, his balls slapping against my ass.
“Wait,” I said as another burn spread through me. “Don’t move. Let me adjust.”
Jeff didn’t say a word, but his arms shook. Luckily, the burn soon faded.
“Now,” I told him.
He kissed me as I let go of my legs and wrapped them around his hips. He pulled out some, then thrust back in. “Fuck, this is the best feeling in the world. God, baby.”
By the time he’d slid in and out a few more times, I was right there with him. Somehow the burn had become part of the sensations coursing through me. His cock hit me in the right spot and the only thing I could do was moan and grab his shoulders.
“Fuck!” Jeff cried out. “I’m already close, baby.”
Baby. God, I loved that. “Say it again.”
“You really like when I call you that?”
“Yes,” I said even though he knew the answer. He thrust into me harder.
“You like it because you know you’re my baby. I’ll always love you, Aaron.”
Tears sprang to my eyes as my love for him crashed into the love he gave me. Emotions flooded my head and I arched upward as he thrust deep.
“Yes, Jeff. Yes!” I cried as my balls tightened.
“Come for me, Aaron.” He reached between us and grabbed my cock. One stroke. Two. Three. I shot, covering our chests with ribbons of cream.
Seconds later, he moaned, pushing deep, then holding still. Waves of pleasure rippled through me, while the condom captured his release deep inside of me.
Sweat dripped from his hair onto my shoulder. His body relaxed as he came down from his orgasm, and I brushed my fingers through his damp hair. God, even his sweat smelled good.
He kissed me. “I don’t want to pull out yet. That was incredible. I’ve never…you feel so…amazing. I never knew it would be like that.”
I smiled and tightened my legs around his hips. “It was pretty fucking fantastic.”
We kissed for a while until he pulled away. “I need to take this off.” He gestured between us and slid out of me.
Immediately, I felt empty again. I frowned.
“What?” He sat up and removed the condom, which he tossed into the trash can with a wad of Kleenex.
“Nothing,” I lied.
He entered the bathroom and ran the faucet for a moment. When he returned, he had a wet washcloth. He cleaned me off before using it on his chest. He also wiped away all the extra lube on my ass, then tossed the washcloth toward our discarded clothes.
He lay next to me and pulled me into his arms. “Tell me why you frowned.”
“You’ll think I’m weird.”
“I already know you’re weird.”
I tried glaring at him, but couldn’t. He knew everything about me, so he might as well know this. “It’s embarrassing, but when you pulled out”—my face heated—”I missed having you inside. I felt empty.” I said into his chest.
He squeezed me and kissed the top of my head. “I don’t think that’s weird.”
I peeked up at him. “You don’t?”
Jeff gave me a sincere smile. “Not at all.”
His words comforted me. “When you’re inside me, it’s like you’re a part of me. You filled me up and it felt…right.”
Jeff placed a kiss on my lips. “It was right.”
We pulled back the blankets and snuggled under the covers. We were exhausted, but happy, and spent at least another hour cuddling. We kissed and talked about nothing and everything. Our plans for the future. Our goals. No matter what, we knew we wanted to be together.
The night seemed almost magical for us and we never wanted it to end. Sleep started to overtake us and we spent the night as we always did, spooned together with his arms around me. I had a feeling that was how we’d always sleep.
Chapter 12
The final week of school was busier than we’d thought, so Jeff and I couldn’t spend much time alone, but each night we still found our way into each other’s arms. I looked forward to it the most every day. Sometimes it felt surreal, but when I woke up in his embrace, reality always hit me. It was so much better than any dream I could conjure up. Finding the love of my life in my best friend was something I’d never planned, but fate certainly knew what it was doing.
I still hadn’t heard from the district attorney, making me think my father was being difficult, which wouldn’t surprise me. He was so full of hate, there was no way he’d do something to purposely make things easier on his kids. No, we’d be the very last on his list. If something he did actually made things better for us, it would only be secondary. I’d spent most of my life hoping for some kind of love from his scraps and it never came, so I certainly wasn’t hoping for any sort of miracle.
The Friday before graduation, my grandparents called Laura Morgan’s office to see if she had news, but they hadn’t heard anything by the next day and I was too busy running around getting ready for the evening’s event to think about it.
Jeff and I had the weekend off from the movie theater, but had put in for full-time hours for the summer. We both wanted as much money as possible when we headed out to college in August.
My grandparents and Pamela would stay the night at the Hampton Inn so we could go to my old house together the next day and discuss matters. I wasn’t looking forward to that, so I tried not dwelling on it as I got ready for graduation.
Russell Adams was throwing a huge party at his house—sans parents, apparently—and had sent an all-inclusive invite to every senior, so we planned to attend.
Meanwhile, life moved along. I had future plans. I had a boyfriend. A really hot boyfriend who couldn’t keep his hands off me, not that I complained. Life no longer scared me. I had no more secrets to keep from Jeff or anyone. My father could no longer control me with his hatred, either. No matter if he decided to take the deal or go to trial, he’d be behind bars for a long time, if not the rest of his life.
I miss
ed my mom like crazy, though. She’d been the one person in my life who knew everything about me. She’d done her best to shield me from my father. I held on tightly to the memory of that last visit at the hospital. Learning that she’d known about my sexuality and had still loved me remained a huge comfort.
I’d been seeing Dr. Ottinger regularly and I had begun opening up to him. It had taken some time for me to trust him, even though he seemed a genuinely nice guy. He was helping me work through a lot of emotions and teaching me tools to help with the panic attacks. I’d had one just a couple days earlier, and it shocked me when his focusing technique helped. But so far, I had no breakthrough that cured me of my anxiety and panic, but he explained I should take one day at a time. I liked that he didn’t try to sugarcoat things. He was older, but seemed to get me. I planned to see him every week through the summer until I left for school in August.
My graduation gown hung on a hanger from the top of my closet door. I ran my finger down the silky black material. It wasn’t anything fancy, just a simple gown. I grabbed the square black hat with the red and white tassel and placed it on my head. I couldn’t wait to walk across the stage to accept my diploma.
“You ready?” Jeff called, his voice a little muffled.
“Yeah. Come in.”
He opened the door, his gown and hat in one hand. He grinned when he saw the mortarboard on my head. “Looks like you’re ready.”
I pulled off the cap. “Just trying it on.”
Jeff put his free hand on my shoulder. “You looked really cute.” He gave me a peck on the cheek.
Cute. I wanted to be hot. But I still felt the familiar warmth spread through my chest whenever Jeff complimented me. Sometimes it made me feel like an emotional thirteen-year-old girl, but I couldn’t deny it made me feel good.
I slid my arms around his waist. “You smell nice,” I murmured against his chest. “New cologne?”
He chuckled. “My mom gave it to me this morning. Said I needed something mature for graduation. You like it?”
I definitely enjoyed it. The musky scent mixed with a spice I couldn’t place. “Yeah. It’s masculine.”
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