“What?”
I was confused and kind of amused. I never would have imagined Konner ever wanting me to hit him, but I looked up at him with a perplexed expression.
“I want you to hit me. I’m big and strong, you won’t hurt me, love, I promise. Just hearing you talk about it, I know makes you angry, deep inside where it’s been sitting there, festerin’. Hit me. Take out your anger with me. I want to help you, anamchara. Just one hit, tell me if it doesn’t make you feel better.”
Konner took a step away from me, splayed his arms wide and waited.
I couldn’t believe he saw the anger that hid deep inside of me. I went to therapy but that didn’t really help much. I still had felt powerless. So I ended up taking self-defense classes after Mikhail and I could protect myself now. Mikhail couldn’t get within a hundred yards of me anyway, so I couldn’t give him pay back. I didn’t even know if I could face him either way. At least now, I had the tools to take care of myself.
“Konner?”
“Don’t hesitate. HIT ME!”
He yelled the last part, and I knew he was trying to provoke me.
It shocked me and I grunted out a noise and I made a fist at my side, drew it back quickly and punched him in the face.
“I’m so sorry. That felt great! Sorry.”
Laughing with this silly expression on my face, a little part of me that I didn’t know, opened up. I felt a swift relief rush over me. His face barely flinched where I connected with it and I knew I might have only bruised him, but I felt…satisfied. My hand hurt a little and when I put it to my chest to cradle it, Konner gently cajoled me to give it to him and he kissed each of my knuckles.
He took my wrist gently, and walked me to his kitchen to get an ice pack.
“I know it feels sore, álainn, and my face has taken a lot worse, trust me. That was a love tap compared to what I’ve had before. Banphrionsa, I know coming from a male, might not be believable at this moment, but I want you to remember this. I know the word no. I will never put you in a position where you have to fight me. You always tell me if anything I do scares you, in any way.”
Konner gave me an ice pack for my hand. Somehow, hitting him made the pain I was feeling in my soul lessen and I told him the rest.
“Thanks, Kon. When I came to, I saw that he put me in my bed with rose petals surrounding me. Trust me when I say, the creep factor went up to the scale of ten when I saw nothing but blood and blood red roses. And to this day I hate roses. Absolutely hate them. It was a struggle sitting up and I didn’t want to make any sounds. Just in case he was still close by. My stomach was burning, and that’s when I noticed the blood. I was soaked in it. I was ready to freak and scream, but I just couldn’t. Nothing came out.
I did the best I could to quietly get to the end of the hall, and down the stairs when I heard him talking in his office on the phone. I heard him talking to someone about me. He didn’t think I was going to make it. I grabbed my purse. It was really the only personal possession I had, and I kept my eyes on the office door. When I got to the front door, I opened it and I didn’t bother to close it. I ran, my stomach burned, my head throbbed and I felt too weak and helpless, but I didn’t stop running until I almost ran into a car. The driver freaked but got out of the car anyway to help me. I told him the doctor and hospital to take me to and on the way I passed out from bleeding so much.”
There was more to say, but I just didn’t have it in me. I felt truly exhausted. Wiped out by the tsunami that was my past. Konner seemed slightly calmer, but I felt sure after hearing all this, would probably make him feel disgusted with me but that’s okay. This was better than any therapy session. And there had been many sessions.
♥
..::Konner::..
Looking at her, I knew she wouldn’t go on. Coming to her side, I looked into her eyes, and seen such a strong, sexy woman whose strength lied deep within. I brought my face mere inches from hers until she looked up and stared at my mouth. There was a blatant hunger in her eyes that made my dick stiffen instantly, again.
Yep, she was the only girl to ever make me harden so quickly. Maybe the years and maturity did something to us both, because I couldn’t wait to get her underneath me.
I knew she’d be hesitant, and I wanted to take things slow and on her pace. She was staring and licking her upper lip. Then bit down on her bottom one and I almost felt like coming in my pants.
Jesus, this woman will be the death of me. Thank you!
“Siddaleigh? If you dinna want this, tell me now. I want you like I’ve never wanted anythin’ in this life. Keep looking at me mouth like that an’ I’m likely to take what your eyes are beggin’ me for, when I told you I would be patient.”
♥
..::Siddaleigh::..
I just couldn’t stop staring at his lips. I was mesmerized at their fullness. Do I really want to do this? Oh, yeah. I peeked back up to his eyes and the barefaced yearning matched my own.
“Yes.”
Konner gripped the nape of my neck and his mouth came crashing on mine. He coaxed me to open to let his tongue swirl and mate with mine. It felt so salaciously delicious. His breath was warm from the wine and it was like I couldn’t get enough.
He was so beautifully tall and broad chested, and when I reached up to his shoulders, he lifted me easily and set me on the bar top near where we were sitting. He stood in the V of my legs. Feeling his turgid sex against my soft center made me tense and I crashed back into reality.
I tried pushing Konner away, but he crooned my hesitancy away by telling me to let go, I won’t hurt ye, never, never, let me in. So sweet, banphrionsa. So sweet and warm, anamchara.
But he did back away when he seen the fear flash in my eyes. He kept his lower half a good foot away from mine and kissed my temple, down my cheek to the hollow of my throat and whispered in my ear.
“Siddaleigh, however you need, mo féin. Take whatever you need.”
I wanted to segue this feeling of passion, so I did. I let go and when I felt him kiss down my throat to the tops of my breasts, I felt tingles running through my body, straight to my center. I felt my vagina growing damp with need. A need only this one man could give me. Always, only with Konner. I broke away from him and slid off the counter. Looking up into his face, I didn’t care if tomorrow there was regret. I needed this void filled. I forgot all about my previous fear of intimacy and wanted this one time with a man I knew would take me away from the dark thoughts and into sweet bliss.
“Konner, make love to me.”
♥
..::Konner::..
As soon as the words came out of Siddaleigh’s lips, I bent down slightly, she was so sexily short. I scooped her up and wrapped her legs around my waist. She protested, saying she was too big to be carried. I knew then, that that fucker told her she was fat or something as asinine. Well, fuck that. She was so perfect the way she was.
“Mo chroí, you’re just a slip of a girl. Perfect in my arms. Right where you belong.”
I practically ran with her in my arms away to my bedroom, stealing passionate kisses on the way, and dropped her like a sack of potatoes on my four poster king sized bed. Climbing in next to her, laying half-way on top of her, I coupled our mouths together.
At this advantage, I was able to roam a free hand to pet her mass of curly hair, down her neck to the top swells of her perfect size breasts. I did not want her to even think about taking her answer back so I softened my kisses just a bit, and ran a knuckle over her blouse and felt her nipple harden. Knowing by her quick intake of breath, she was just as into this as I was. Thank God.
The way she was rubbing her thigh against my hip was driving me insane. I loved it.
♥
..::Siddaleigh::..
Feeling Konner’s finger glide across my nipple, I felt it go right through me to the aching part of me that wanted his possession. My center went gooey a bit more and I couldn’t wait to take my clothes off. And kissing him? O-M-G. Perfect, just
magnificently perfect. Just as I knew it would be. And that scared me, but didn’t stop me.
He released my lips and looked into my eyes. I saw such raw emotion and passion in his eyes that seemed to go a shade darker, just like before. I told him so and he told me, “It’s my Irish eyes, mo féin. It’s been said that in my family, our eyes change when our emotions are great. Trust me now, I’m feeling so much lust and passion right now I am amazed they aren’t almost black.”
I didn’t know what he was calling me, but coming from his lips, made me melt. Whenever Konner talked to me in Gaelic, it sounded so lyrical. So beautiful. Konner slid his hand down my breast to the edge of my blouse and lifted it up and over my head. He did the same with his and when I saw the comparisons of our skin; his so dark, speckled with a few scars and a few tattoos that looked masculine and looked so good on him. He must have got them in the service, scars too. Tanned from the sun. While mine was creamy white, soft and fleshy, was something to behold.
“You are so beautiful, Kon.”
I couldn’t help myself, just looking at his rippling muscles, I ran my fingers up and over his biceps and down his hairless chest. That has always been my preference. A naturally un-hairy chest. I marveled at the sight and when I glanced back up to his face, it seemed like he was in pain. I asked him if he was.
“God, no, Sidda. The only thing I’m risking is a short outcome if I don’t get you out of your clothes. This might be over before we even begin. And you are more beautiful than I ever hoped you’d be, muirnín. Perfect. So beautifully perfect.”
Konner helped me unclasp my bra and he placed in on top of my discarded blouse, and the fire I saw in his eyes when he took a look at my rigid nipples, I wanted his mouth on them.
Stat!
That’s when he got fully on top of me and dipped in for a taste on the left one. He licked at it softly around the areola. When he latched on, I whimpered in such pleasure, it was like seeing white sparks flash in front of my eyes.
This was something I never expected to feel. I wanted him to suck at them harder. I gripped the short locks of his hair as much as I could and pulled. It felt so amazing how the suction of his mouth made my body lift in desire.
“That’s so good, Konner, oh yes.”
“Do you want more, leannán milis? You like when I nip and suck on these beautiful nipples? They taste so sweet. I bet the rest of you tastes even better, my sweet fiery witch.”
Just hearing him talk to me like that, made me giggle and squirm in anticipation. Especially when he said nipples like ‘nepples’, or ‘napples’. His ‘you’ still sounded like ‘ye’. I loved it. I don’t know why, but his accent turned me on like nothing else ever had. No one has talked to me like that with so much passion and it was exciting and so very arousing. I was feeling more out of control with each word and movement he made.
Mikhail tried talking to me like that but from his lips it had sounded nasty and degrading. Konner must have noticed me tense just then, because he stopped and looked up into my eyes.
“Everything okay, Siddaleigh?”
I didn’t want to tell him Mikhail was in my head, but he seemed to read my mind.
“Don’t. Don’t think about him. Whatever he said and did to you, it’s not here in this room with us. That issue will be taken care of, I promise. Stay right here in this bed with me. Feel how good I’m loving on you and this beautiful body. Don’t think. Just feel.”
He bent back down and switched his mouth to my other breast and feasted. Konner ran his fingers over the concave of my belly to open my belt. He loosened my jeans until he expertly slipped his hand underneath my panties to rest over my bare mound. He looked at me in awe as he noticed I was bare down there.
He looked in my eyes with appreciation and he felt my juices coat his fingers when he circled a finger over that sensitive part and I almost came.
“Mo féin, you’re bare? I can’t take it anymore. I need you, now.”
He lifted up just enough to apply both his hands to withdraw my jeans and panties over my hips, and down my legs. He slipped off my boots, and put the rest of my clothes with the others.
When he finally looked at my body, it made me slightly nervous. No one besides Mikhail had ever seen my naked body, and back then it really wasn’t in admiration.
Konner looked almost savage with his eyes darkened and all those powerful pectorals rippling and lean six pack flexing. His nostrils flared and he slowly undid his own jeans. That’s when I noticed they were all buttons. Damn, that was hot. He took the rest of his clothes off to release his rigid erection. My mouth dropped in awe as I saw how lengthy and thick he was, and thought how he might not fit.
He seemed to read my mind because he told me, “Yes, leannán, it’ll be a perfect fit for you. And seeing as how looking at me pecker is making you more wet, you willna have to worry much. When I fill that sweet pussy with my cock, you’ll be begging me for release. I promise, you’ll like it verra much.”
His accent seemed to get thicker as he continued talking. He ran his hands up my calves and under my thighs as he began to widen them to align his hips with mine. I felt his penis prodding my vagina. It was like ecstasy, and before he pushed in, he took himself in his hands and rubbed the tip of his member up and down my clitoris and over my entrance. Making me beg and plead for him to enter. It was so erotic.
“You want me inside you, Siddaleigh? You want me to fill you with my hard cock till you moan and whimper with pleasure, mo féin? I am gonna give you so much sweet torture and pleasure you’ll beg for more, love.”
18
First Time for Everything
..::Konner::..
I knew I was torturing himself with rubbing my cockhead over her juicy wet slit. I just about exploded with the warm feeling of her cream. Taking my hand off my dick, I braced my hands beside her head.
Looking into her light green eyes, I knew she was mine. She would forever belong to me. So I told her. Just not in the language she would understand. I knew how she would react if I said it in English. Not pleasant.
“Is é an mianach. Tá tú mianach. Go deo mianach.” This is mine. You are mine. Forever mine.
I noticed how easily I could speak Gaelic to her when I’ve never given anyone outside my family that privilege. I’ve never felt so much emotion before. I just knew if she understood what I was telling her, she might withdraw from the possessiveness I could hear in my own voice.
Her body flushed pink with her arousal and I pushed inside her snug, wet opening. I tucked her knees inside my elbows, opening her wider. Without preamble, I rocked all the way inside her. It felt like coming home. Damn, so tight. I’m not gonna last. Jesus, this is gonna be fast.
♥
..::Siddaleigh::..
When Konner slid all the way inside me, it was almost too much. He felt so thick and big inside me and with just a few long slow strokes, I could feel him against my most sensitive spot that no one has reached and he kept hitting it just right. Over and over until I felt my breath shorten, and I heard something like a whimper. Then I noticed it was me.
He did this to me. Made me yearn for so much more. A few short and quick strokes after that, I felt myself coming. I felt my release slide over him and unto my thighs, and one stroke more, he was coming along with me. Releasing my legs, Konner toppled onto me with his face buried in my throat. Sucking on the salty, sweaty groove of my neck, I thought, never have I ever had such an intense orgasm in my life. His weight on top of mine was actually a welcoming weight on mine.
“So, speed racer, is there more where that came from?” I laughed and stroked my fingers down his back when I heard him chuckle.
“Sorry, Siddaleigh. I knew I wouldn’t last long after I felt your snug sweet pussy surrounding my dick. I lost it. You’re so tight, and hot around m’cock. I told ya, you would fit me like a glove, so perfectly. Mianach. I promise next time, you won’t be sayin’ nothin’ ‘bout no speed racer.”
♥
; ..::Konner::..
She took me going off full force like a rocket with grace. I didn’t want to squish her too much but feeling all her sweet soft flesh against me was such rapture. I didn’t want to get up. After just a moment and a breath, I braced myself on my elbows and looked down to take in all the splendor of her face.
“You’re so beautiful, Siddaleigh. So flush and lush underneath me. Give me a minute to regain my strength and I’ll take care of you so good.”
I slid carefully from her body as she sighed in contentment and dozed off to sleep. I laid next to her and just admired the way she looked comfortable in her own skin. With her steady breathing, I felt content just watching her take each breath.
God, how did I get so fucking lucky?
Never would I have imagined feeling so at peace in my whole life’s existence. In some ways, I didn’t want to be ready for this. Telling myself I didn’t want to settle down, was a waste of time with this woman. I didn’t have to think about it with this slip of a girl who changed my life eight years ago. She stormed into my life as if she owned me. And she so did. Every part of my being belonged to only her.
Maybe I’d have to have that talk with Da and see what he thinks. He always gave me sound advice, and I know my mam would be there as well, making sure he gave me better advice. Thinking about it made me laugh. I couldn’t wait. They both knew about the girl who ‘got away’. Back then, I didn’t think I’d ever find her.
Siddaleigh turned into a beautiful young woman. Despite what happened to her, and I knew as soon as she left for work or anything else she had to do, I’d get one the boys to check out this Mikhail guy.
No one messed with my woman. Even after the ambush of the encampment almost eight years ago, I knew deep down she would always be mine. I tried looking for her in the beginning. And learned her family moved into another city but the current owners didn’t know where. When my C.O. said the insurgents had hacked some of the information before it was wiped out of the system, I stopped trying to find her. Finding that out, I knew it was unsafe. I couldn’t and wouldn’t let harm reach her. She was my one weakness as well as strength. Come to find out, some things are destiny or fate or whatever the hell you want to call it. Siddaleigh had everything of mine. Heart, soul and body.
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