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by Philip Larkin




  The Whitsun Weddings

  PHILIP LARKIN

  Contents

  Title Page

  Here

  Mr Bleaney

  Nothing to be Said

  Love Songs in Age

  Naturally the Foundation will Bear your Expenses

  Broadcast

  Faith Healing

  For Sidney Bechet

  Home is so Sad

  Toads Revisited

  Water

  The Whitsun Weddings

  Self’s the Man

  Take One Home for the Kiddies

  Days

  MCMXIV

  Talking in Bed

  The Large Cool Store

  A Study of Reading Habits

  As Bad as a Mile

  Ambulances

  The Importance of Elsewhere

  Sunny Prestatyn

  First Sight

  Dockery and Son

  Ignorance

  Reference Back

  Wild Oats

  Essential Beauty

  Send No Money

  Afternoons

  An Arundel Tomb

  About the Author

  By the Same Author

  Copyright

  THE WHITSUN WEDDINGS

  Here

  Swerving east, from rich industrial shadows

  And traffic all night north; swerving through fields

  Too thin and thistled to be called meadows,

  And now and then a harsh-named halt, that shields

  Workmen at dawn; swerving to solitude

  Of skies and scarecrows, haystacks, hares and pheasants,

  And the widening river’s slow presence,

  The piled gold clouds, the shining gull-marked mud,

  Gathers to the surprise of a large town:

  Here domes and statues, spires and cranes cluster

  Beside grain-scattered streets, barge-crowded water,

  And residents from raw estates, brought down

  The dead straight miles by stealing flat-faced trolleys,

  Push through plate-glass swing doors to their desires –

  Cheap suits, red kitchen-ware, sharp shoes, iced lollies,

  Electric mixers, toasters, washers, driers –

  A cut-price crowd, urban yet simple, dwelling

  Where only salesmen and relations come

  Within a terminate and fishy-smelling

  Pastoral of ships up streets, the slave museum,

  Tattoo-shops, consulates, grim head-scarfed wives;

  And out beyond its mortgaged half-built edges

  Fast-shadowed wheat-fields, running high as hedges,

  Isolate villages, where removed lives

  Loneliness clarifies. Here silence stands

  Like heat. Here leaves unnoticed thicken,

  Hidden weeds flower, neglected waters quicken,

  Luminously-peopled air ascends;

  And past the poppies bluish neutral distance

  Ends the land suddenly beyond a beach

  Of shapes and shingle. Here is unfenced existence:

  Facing the sun, untalkative, out of reach.

  Mr Bleaney

  ‘This was Mr Bleaney’s room. He stayed

  The whole time he was at the Bodies, till

  They moved him.’ Flowered curtains, thin and frayed,

  Fall to within five inches of the sill,

  Whose window shows a strip of building land,

  Tussocky, littered. ‘Mr Bleaney took

  My bit of garden properly in hand.’

  Bed, upright chair, sixty-watt bulb, no hook

  Behind the door, no room for books or bags –

  ‘I’ll take it.’ So it happens that I lie

  Where Mr Bleaney lay, and stub my fags

  On the same saucer-souvenir, and try

  Stuffing my ears with cotton-wool, to drown

  The jabbering set he egged her on to buy.

  I know his habits – what time he came down,

  His preference for sauce to gravy, why

  He kept on plugging at the four aways –

  Likewise their yearly frame: the Frinton folk

  Who put him up for summer holidays,

  And Christmas at his sister’s house in Stoke.

  But if he stood and watched the frigid wind

  Tousling the clouds, lay on the fusty bed

  Telling himself that this was home, and grinned,

  And shivered, without shaking off the dread

  That how we live measures our own nature,

  And at his age having no more to show

  Than one hired box should make him pretty sure

  He warranted no better, I don’t know.

  Nothing To Be Said

  For nations vague as weed,

  For nomads among stones,

  Small-statured cross-faced tribes

  And cobble-close families

  In mill-towns on dark mornings

  Life is slow dying.

  So are their separate ways

  Of building, benediction,

  Measuring love and money

  Ways of slow dying.

  The day spent hunting pig

  Or holding a garden-party,

  Hours giving evidence

  Or birth, advance

  On death equally slowly.

  And saying so to some

  Means nothing; others it leaves

  Nothing to be said.

  Love Songs in Age

  She kept her songs, they took so little space,

  The covers pleased her:

  One bleached from lying in a sunny place,

  One marked in circles by a vase of water,

  One mended, when a tidy fit had seized her,

  And coloured, by her daughter –

  So they had waited, till in widowhood

  She found them, looking for something else, and stood

  Relearning how each frank submissive chord

  Had ushered in

  Word after sprawling hyphenated word,

  And the unfailing sense of being young

  Spread out like a spring-woken tree, wherein

  That hidden freshness, sung,

  That certainty of time laid up in store

  As when she played them first. But, even more,

  The glare of that much-mentioned brilliance, love,

  Broke out, to show

  Its bright incipience sailing above,

  Still promising to solve, and satisfy,

  And set unchangeably in order. So

  To pile them back, to cry,

  Was hard, without lamely admitting how

  It had not done so then, and could not now.

  Naturally the Foundation will Bear Your Expenses

  Hurrying to catch my Comet

  One dark November day,

  Which soon would snatch me from it

  To the sunshine of Bombay,

  I pondered pages Berkeley

  Not three weeks since had heard,

  Perceiving Chatto darkly

  Through the mirror of the Third.

  Crowds, colourless and careworn,

  Had made my taxi late,

  Yet not till I was airborne

  Did I recall the date –

  That day when Queen and Minister

  And Band of Guards and all

  Still act their solemn-sinister

  Wreath-rubbish in Whitehall.

  It used to make me throw up,

  These mawkish nursery games:

  O when will England grow up?

  – But I outsoar the Thames,

  And dwindle off down Auster

  To greet Professor Lal

  (He once met Morgan Forster),

  My contact
and my pal.

  Broadcast

  Giant whispering and coughing from

  Vast Sunday-full and organ-frowned-on spaces

  Precede a sudden scuttle on the drum,

  ‘The Queen’, and huge resettling. Then begins

  A snivel on the violins:

  I think of your face among all those faces,

  Beautiful and devout before

  Cascades of monumental slithering,

  One of your gloves unnoticed on the floor

  Beside those new, slightly-outmoded shoes.

  Here it goes quickly dark. I lose

  All but the outline of the still and withering

  Leaves on half-emptied trees. Behind

  The glowing wavebands, rabid storms of chording

  By being distant overpower my mind

  All the more shamelessly, their cut-off shout

  Leaving me desperate to pick out

  Your hands, tiny in all that air, applauding.

  Faith Healing

  Slowly the women file to where he stands

  Upright in rimless glasses, silver hair,

  Dark suit, white collar. Stewards tirelessly

  Persuade them onwards to his voice and hands,

  Within whose warm spring rain of loving care

  Each dwells some twenty seconds. Now, dear child,

  What’s wrong, the deep American voice demands,

  And, scarcely pausing, goes into a prayer

  Directing God about this eye, that knee.

  Their heads are clasped abruptly; then, exiled

  Like losing thoughts, they go in silence; some

  Sheepishly stray, not back into their lives

  Just yet; but some stay stiff, twitching and loud

  With deep hoarse tears, as if a kind of dumb

  And idiot child within them still survives

  To re-awake at kindness, thinking a voice

  At last calls them alone, that hands have come

  To lift and lighten; and such joy arrives

  Their thick tongues blort, their eyes squeeze grief, a crowd

  Of huge unheard answers jam and rejoice –

  What’s wrong! Moustached in flowered frocks they shake:

  By now, all’s wrong. In everyone there sleeps

  A sense of life lived according to love.

  To some it means the difference they could make

  By loving others, but across most it sweeps

  As all they might have done had they been loved.

  That nothing cures. An immense slackening ache,

  As when, thawing, the rigid landscape weeps,

  Spreads slowly through them – that, and the voice above

  Saying Dear child, and all time has disproved.

  For Sidney Bechet

  That note you hold, narrowing and rising, shakes

  Like New Orleans reflected on the water,

  And in all ears appropriate falsehood wakes,

  Building for some a legendary Quarter

  Of balconies, flower-baskets and quadrilles,

  Everyone making love and going shares –

  Oh, play that thing! Mute glorious Storyvilles

  Others may license, grouping round their chairs

  Sporting-house girls like circus tigers (priced

  Far above rubies) to pretend their fads,

  While scholars manqués nod around unnoticed

  Wrapped up in personnels like old plaids.

  On me your voice falls as they say love should,

  Like an enormous yes. My Crescent City

  Is where your speech alone is understood,

  And greeted as the natural noise of good,

  Scattering long-haired grief and scored pity.

  Home is so Sad

  Home is so sad. It stays as it was left,

  Shaped to the comfort of the last to go

  As if to win them back. Instead, bereft

  Of anyone to please, it withers so,

  Having no heart to put aside the theft

  And turn again to what it started as,

  A joyous shot at how things ought to be,

  Long fallen wide. You can see how it was:

  Look at the pictures and the cutlery.

  The music in the piano stool. That vase.

  Toads Revisited

  Walking around in the park

  Should feel better than work:

  The lake, the sunshine,

  The grass to lie on,

  Blurred playground noises

  Beyond black-stockinged nurses –

  Not a bad place to be.

  Yet it doesn’t suit me,

  Being one of the men

  You meet of an afternoon:

  Palsied old step-takers,

  Hare-eyed clerks with the jitters,

  Waxed-fleshed out-patients

  Still vague from accidents,

  And characters in long coats

  Deep in the litter-baskets –

  All dodging the toad work

  By being stupid or weak.

  Think of being them!

  Hearing the hours chime,

  Watching the bread delivered,

  The sun by clouds covered,

  The children going home;

  Think of being them,

  Turning over their failures

  By some bed of lobelias,

  Nowhere to go but indoors,

  No friends but empty chairs –

  No, give me my in-tray,

  My loaf-haired secretary,

  My shall-I-keep-the-call-in-Sir:

  What else can I answer,

  When the lights come on at four

  At the end of another year?

  Give me your arm, old toad;

  Help me down Cemetery Road.

  Water

  If I were called in

  To construct a religion

  I should make use of water.

  Going to church

  Would entail a fording

  To dry, different clothes;

  My liturgy would employ

  Images of sousing,

  A furious devout drench,

  And I should raise in the east

  A glass of water

  Where any-angled light

  Would congregate endlessly.

  The Whitsun Weddings

  That Whitsun, I was late getting away:

  Not till about

  One-twenty on the sunlit Saturday

  Did my three-quarters-empty train pull out,

  All windows down, all cushions hot, all sense

  Of being in a hurry gone. We ran

  Behind the backs of houses, crossed a street

  Of blinding windscreens, smelt the fish-dock; thence

  The river’s level drifting breadth began,

  Where sky and Lincolnshire and water meet.

  All afternoon, through the tall heat that slept

  For miles inland,

  A slow and stopping curve southwards we kept.

  Wide farms went by, short-shadowed cattle, and

  Canals with floatings of industrial froth;

  A hothouse flashed uniquely: hedges dipped

  And rose: and now and then a smell of grass

  Displaced the reek of buttoned carriage-cloth

  Until the next town, new and nondescript,

  Approached with acres of dismantled cars.

  At first, I didn’t notice what a noise

  The weddings made

  Each station that we stopped at: sun destroys

  The interest of what’s happening in the shade,

  And down the long cool platforms whoops and skirls

  I took for porters larking with the mails,

  And went on reading. Once we started, though,

  We passed them, grinning and pomaded, girls

  In parodies of fashion, heels and veils,

  All posed irresolutely, watching us go,

  As if out on the end of an event

&nbs
p; Waving goodbye

  To something that survived it. Struck, I leant

  More promptly out next time, more curiously,

  And saw it all again in different terms:

  The fathers with broad belts under their suits

  And seamy foreheads; mothers loud and fat;

  An uncle shouting smut; and then the perms,

  The nylon gloves and jewellery-substitutes,

  the lemons, mauves, and olive-ochres that

  Marked off the girls unreally from the rest.

  Yes, from cafés

  And banquet-halls up yards, and bunting-dressed

  Coach-party annexes, the wedding-days

  Were coming to an end. All down the line

  Fresh couples climbed aboard: the rest stood round;

  The last confetti and advice were thrown,

  And, as we moved, each face seemed to define

  Just what it saw departing: children frowned

  At something dull; fathers had never known

  Success so huge and wholly farcical;

  The women shared

  The secret like a happy funeral;

  While girls, gripping their handbags tighter, stared

  At a religious wounding. Free at last,

  And loaded with the sum of all they saw,

  We hurried towards London, shuffling gouts of steam.

  Now fields were building-plots, and poplars cast

  Long shadows over major roads, and for

  Some fifty minutes, that in time would seem

  Just long enough to settle hats and say

  I nearly died,

  A dozen marriages got under way.

  They watched the landscape, sitting side by side

 

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