by Tom Lowe
“Because I hadd been hit with a syringe filled with some drug designed to induce a coma and subsequent death. I’m fortunate that the needle hit a bone in my shoulder and broke before all the chemicals could get into my blood. But later that night, I had a dream or some kind of vision and an old Confederate officer started talking about the connectivity of what we see and what we often don’t see. Not because we can’t, we simple aren’t looking for it.”
“Sounds like a higher level of consciousness. When Jackson was about to rape me, I felt like time was standing still. There was really no concept of time…only of being. I noticed things I’d never notice before. Smells. Pieces of fabric. Rust spots on the ceiling. The putrid green color of the walls.” She touched his hand. “Sean, this trip to the Keys has been so much of what I needed. I’m very grateful. But when we get back, I’m quitting my job.”
“Why?”
“It’s time to, really. My mother needs me. She’s fighting cancer. I’m going back to Michigan to be her caregiver for as long as she has left.”
“Will you be returning to Ponce Inlet?”
“I don’t know. Maybe. Should I come back?”
“Yes. Will you?”
“I don’t know.”
“Do you know if you’re going to accept the knighthood?”
“I’m not sure yet.”
“Well, you’ll always be my knight. Maybe your armor is a little tarnished, but you’re still my knight.” She leaned in and kissed him softly. “Oh, look Sean, a rainbow. It’s beautiful. I’ve never seen one that spectacular. Look at the arch. It’s going from one end of the horizon at sea to the other. It makes an absolute perfect half circle.”
“It really makes a full circle. We can only see half of it.”
“How could you see if a rainbow is full circle?”
“Probably from a plane. From a higher angle.”
“If it’s a complete circle, there’s no end.”
“Maybe it’s the beginning we should look for.”
Max sat next to Kim, and they all looked at the horizon where the Atlantic met the skyline. The wind stopped and the surface of the sea suddenly became calm, flat. The full reflection of the rainbow appeared over the surface, reflecting from the sky to the sea, the massive image forming a full circle.
O’Brien squeezed Kim’s hand, watching as a flock of seven white pelicans fly into the colors of the rainbow, the heart of a flawless ring.
And, for a brief moment in time, heaven connected with earth.
The End
The following is an excerpt from the next novel to be released in the Sean O’Brien series by Tom Lowe. Here’s a preview of
He knew he’d miss his sister. He didn’t want to leave her, but at age fourteen, there wasn’t much he could do. He would return to get her one day—to rescue her. Andy Cope sat in a hard, wooden chair across the counter from the principal’s secretary, a heavy woman with listless eyes and turquoise-framed glasses worn halfway down her nose. Her bottle-blonde hair was pulled back into a tight bun that looked to Andy like a hornet’s nest. She picked up the phone, stuck her thick finger into the rotary dial and made a call that would forever change Andy’s life.
He glanced up at the clock on the wall behind the woman. 11:15. Andy knew the freight train would rumble by the school at 11:30 sharp, always slowing to a crawl at the crossing, sometimes coming to a brief stop in Marianna. Andy hoped that today the train would be making that stop. He could run all the way into Marianna if he had to. He was athletic. Strong for age fourteen. Handsome angular face, his brown hair cut short. Green eyes often guarded, suspicious. A small, white crisscross scar above one of his dark eyebrows. He watched the secondhand move on the clock as the secretary spoke into the phone.
“We have one boy today. His mother and Mr. Gillespie signed the papers. Warden Beck is expecting him by three. Are you coming in a bus or is the truancy officer picking him up?” She paused, listening—looking over her glasses at the boy, her eyes superior. Andy held her stare, unblinking. She said, “That’ll be fine. Thank you. Darlene, how’s Harold? Betty told me he’s fixin’ to get out of the turpentine business.”
The principal, a tall balding man in a cotton seersucker suit, came out of his office, his wingtip shoes hard against the pine-wood floor, the smell of cigarette smoke on his clothes. He looked down at Andy. “Maybe schoolin’ isn’t for you, son. You lack motivation and discipline. They’ll teach it to you at the Florida Home for Boys. You’ll grow up quick down there. It’s for your own good. When you come back here you’ll be changed.”
“I’m never comin’ back here.”
The principal rocked slightly on his brown, polished shoes. “I suspect you’re right about that. Boys like you are born bad. Wicked seeds are planted amongst the moral seeds in the garden of good and evil.” The principal’s mouth turned down. He adjusted papers atop a clipboard, two fingers on his right hand yellowed from cigarettes. He tucked the clipboard under his arm and walked out into the hallway, the school bell ringing as the door closed.
Andy looked at the clock, felt his stomach churning. 11:25.
He heard the train whistle in the distance. Soon the train would roll by the old high school, shaking the bedrock of the building. Andy knew he had to be by the tracks when the train slowed. Had to hop a freight to escape. He wouldn’t be sent to reform school. Hell no. He’d heard rumors of the place. Horrible rumors. Some boys went in and never came out. Those that did were forever spooked. Distrustful. Fidgety. Actin’ like they’d been in some kind of war. Maybe they had been.
The door to the office flew open. A large-breasted teenage girl with shoulder-length red hair stepped into the room, her face shiny and flushed. “Miss Belle…I need to go home.”
The secretary looked up from her paperwork, her head rising just above the reception counter. “You sick, again, Linda Sue?”
The girl glanced over to Andy Cope. She swallowed dryly, licked her lips and approached the counter. She lowered her voice, clearing her throat. The secretary stood, waddling to the desk. The girl looked back over her shoulder for s second at Andy and then whispered something to the woman.
Andy saw blood trickle down the inside of the girl’s left leg, the back of her dress red and stained. He looked away.
11:29. The train whistle blowing. Coming closer.
The secretary exhaled an exasperated sigh. “Let’s get you to the bathroom.” She opened a hinged, wooden half-door in the center of the counter desk, the girl stepping through, two spots of blood the size of pennies on the floor where she had stood. The secretary looked over to Andy, pointed her short index finger at him. “Andy Cope, you sit still. I’ll be back in a minute. Mr. Gillespie is out in hall. Stay put, you hear?” She turned, the girl following her to a faculty bathroom.
Andy stood, peering through the glass window, through a bent blind, the principal in the hall talking with a teacher. Andy knew the hall beyond the principal’s door led to a series of back rooms and an exit on the west side of the building, the side facing the railroad tracks.
He ran. Ran hard down the hall, three offices vacant during the lunch hour, the rumble of the train engine muffled through the building. At the end of the hall was the exit door. The door to freedom. Andy turned the handle. Locked. His heart sank. There was a noise. Metal and wood. Something scraping on the floor. A black man in his sixties, salt and pepper hair, came out of the janitor’s closet, a mop in one hand, bucket in the other. He looked at Andy, the man’s prudent eyes assessing a scared kid. He knew the boy. Always a polite kid—a boy with a soul older than his time on God’s earth.
Andy stood straight. His jawline hard. “Can you let me out?”
“Andy Cope, what’s your hurry, son? This school’s got a big ol’ front door, too.”
“Solomon, they’re trying to send me to reform school. I done nothin’ wrong. Just been late to school a few times. It’s on account…” Andy held back his words, his eyes watering.
Th
e old man shook his head. “I ‘spect I know why.” He reached for the key ring on his belt, opening the door, the sunlight pouring inside.
Andy nodded. “Thank you.”
“Don’t get caught. If you do, they cain’t know it was me who hepped you. Understand?”
“Yes. Much obliged.” Andy ran down the slopping school yard, jumping a drainage ditch filled with black water, running toward the tracks. The freight train was slowing, the engine closer to the crossing, the caboose tailing around the bend. Andy looked for a boxcar with side doors open. He ran adjacent to the rolling train, his mouth dry, heart pounding, and sunlight flickering through the open spaces between boxcars.
The janitor stood in the shadows of the school door. He whispered. “Come on, Andy. Run faster.”
The train whistle blew a long blast, the boxcars picking up a notch of speed. Andy ran as hard as he could, his leather shoes hitting gravel and wooden cross-ties, the smell of diesel in the air. He jumped, reaching for the iron ladder. He caught it. His body swinging like a flag in the wind for a few seconds.
A man in a pickup truck idling at the crossing watched the boy clinging to the ladder, watched him fighting to get a footing on the moving train. The man spit a stream of tobacco out the truck’s open window. He thought he recognized the boy. He’d know for sure when the train came closer, if the kid didn’t fall to his death.
Andy pulled hard, lifting his body higher from the ground. He tried to sling his legs up to the boxcar platform. His right leg slipped. He tried again, reaching deep inside for more strength. He pulled his body further up, grabbing the side of the open door and crawling into the cavernous mouth of the open car.
The janitor nodded, watching the train gain speed. “Good luck, boy. You’re gonna be needin’ it.” He closed the door.
The man in the truck watched the train roll down the tracks. He watched the boy crawl into the shadows of the boxcar. He was sure he recognized him. The man stared into the open boxcar when it passed in front of his truck. A shaft of sunlight broke through the side door, the flash illuminating the scared face of Andy Cope.
The man spit the finished wad of tobacco out of his mouth. When the caboose rolled by and the crossing lights stopped flashing, the man put his truck in gear and mumbled, “Andy Cope. Bet your daddy would like to know where you’re at, boy. You just jumped a freight train bound for nowhere.”
Andy sat in the shadows, watching the countryside roll by, the warm summer wind drying the sweat on his face, the song of the rail playing through his free soul.
The letter came to a place where letters were never delivered. At least not to me. I was paying my boat slip rent at Ponce Marina when the dock master, a wiry man sporting a salt and pepper stubble and wearing a sweat-stained Hatteras ball cap said, “Oh, Sean, I almost forgot.”
“Forgot what?”
“The letter.”
“Letter?”
“Yeah. Arrived last week. I walked down to your boat. Jupiter was buttoned up tight. Nick Cronus said he hadn’t seen you in a few days. Said you were probably at your river cabin. I don’t have a forwarding address. So, I figured you’d stop by sooner or later. I’ll get it.” He shuffled across the small office, a large cork board on one wall filled with fliers advertising boats for sale. Half a pot of burnt black coffee smoldered on a burner. The dock master hummed the song, 99 Bottles of Beer, while leafing through a wire-mesh basket filled with mail. “Found it. Some damn neat handwriting. Maybe it’s an old girlfriend. Maybe not. I hear that’s what Facebook’s for. That’s why you sure as hell won’t find my face on Facebook.”
He handed the letter to me. “Thanks, Al. Come on, Max.” I left the office, Max my ten-pound dachshund romping a few feet ahead of me as we opened the gate to L dock. She paused, watching a brown pelican perched on a creosote-stained piling, the bird shifting its weight from one webbed foot to the other, its head tilted, a big yellow eye watching Max. “Come on, Kiddo, leave the neighbors alone.” Max snorted and we continued our hike down to my old boat docked at the very end of L dock.
A gentle wind from the east, toward the Atlantic Ocean, blew across the marina, the scent of blackened grouper and garlic crab coming from the Tiki Bar, a rustic wharf bar that could imitate restaurant status. A day-charter fishing boat chugged from Ponce Inlet and the Halifax River into the marina and around the long piers moored with dozens of yachts and sailboats. The fishing boat, Lucky Strike, was filled with tourists and the days’ catch. Screeching sea gulls followed the boat’s wake across the water.
I looked at the envelope. Letter-perfect penmanship. It was addressed to Mr. Sean O’Brien, care of Ponce Marina. On the top left side of the envelope was the return address. Just an address. No name of the sender. The return address was to Tallahassee, a city in the Florida panhandle where I knew no one. If it was something ominous, and if the sender licked the envelope before sealing it, he or she might have sealed DNA with the glue and paper.
I needed a knife. “Come on, Max. I bet Nick has a filet knife on his boat. If Nick’s not out fishing, we’ll pay him a visit.” Max walked faster, almost prancing, head held high, parading down the dock. She knew Nick’s boat, St. Michael, but more importantly, she knew Nick was an excellent cook.
A trail of white smoke puffed from under the hood on a small barbecue grill near the center of St. Michael’s cockpit. The double doors to the salon were wide open, Greek music coming from inside the fishing trawler, a boat with the lines and lineage from those that sailed the Mediterranean for centuries.
“Hot dog!” bellowed Nick Cronus, stepping from the salon to the cockpit, a Corona in one hand, a spatula in the other. Max sprinted across the auxiliary dock that ran parallel to St. Michael, bounding down the three wooden steps leading to the transom. Nick set his beer on a small table and picked up Max. “Where you been, hot dog? Sean kept you away from your marina family for too long.” Max licked Nick’s chin. He held her to his wide chest, picked up his bottle of Corona and danced in a circle to the music, Max almost smiling.
“Nick, do you have a filet knife?”
“Do the fishes swim in the deep blue sea? Of course I have a filet knife, I have three of ‘em. I used one a half hour ago to filet some red fish I caught. I put some on the coals for you and hot dog.” Nick set Max down, sipped from the bottle and opened the grill to turn over a large piece of fish. He sang something in Greek, closing one eye to avoid the smoke. Years of working as a fisherman gave him a body thick with muscle. His bushy dark hair was a mop of wavy locks, skin the shade of light tea. A full moustache covered his upper lip. His eyes were bright, playful, matching his steady grin. He was loyal, fearless, and after I pulled two bikers off him a few years ago, he said we were brothers for life.
I stepped down onto the cockpit, Nick reaching under the grill for a filet knife. He handed it to me, and I sliced the bottom portion of the envelope. He said, “I just rip open my mail. You do it the fancy way.”
I handed the knife back to Nick, unfolded the letter from inside and read. It was written in hand. Probably from an expensive fountain pen.
Dear Mr. O'Brien,
By the time you get this letter I will be dead.
One of the true highlights of my life was the day I chartered your boat for a fishing trip. It was a great trip and a fine experience. It had been a very long time since I felt good about life and my place in this life. As much as I enjoyed my time with you and Nick Cronus fishing, I thoroughly enjoyed hearing you tell me about some of the cases you worked on as a former Miami homicide detective. I can understand how the death of your wife could make you seek a career change. As a young boy, I witnessed a death that forever changed me…and not in a positive way. The reason I say this is because I lived and he didn't. His name was Andy Cope. We were in a reform school together. I saw what they did to him and never spoke up. Even after I was released, I never said anything. I've lived with that guilt all my life. And now, on the eve of my death, I want to try to right a horrible
wrong. In this envelope, you'll find the key to a safe-deposit box. On a separate paper, I've included the location. In the box, there should be enough money for expenses and your fee. I'm hoping you might take a look at this case because Andy wasn't the only one to die. It was like a death camp for boys. Maybe you can do what I should have done years ago. Some of the people responsible are still alive. They buried Andy one rainy night down there. There is a reason I can't tell local police. The information in the safety box will point you to his grave. I'm hoping and praying it can point you in the direction of those who killed him.
Sincerely,
Curtis Matthews
I reach in the envelope and lifted out a single key. I held it on the palm of my hand for a few seconds, thinking about what I’d just read. Nick sipped his beer and asked, “Sean, what the hell did you just read. Looks like you saw a ghost.”
“Do you remember a charter customer we had a few months ago—his name was Curtis Matthews?”
“Since you, or we, only had a few, I remember them all. Wasn’t Curtis Mathews the tall guy who wore the Florida Seminoles cap?”
“Yes.”
“Nice guy. What about him?”
“He’s apparently dead.”
“Dead? Damn, man. I’m sorry to hear that.” Nick made the sign of the cross. “How’d it happen?”
“I’ve read a lot of suicide notes…but I’ve never read one addressed to me.”
“Oh shit.”
“And this key is to a safety deposit box that might explain what drove Curtis Matthews to take his own life.”