La Plus Heureuse, it said in a thousand delicate stitches. “The most happy.”
Anne burst into tears.
Henry was at his prayers when she arrived at Hampton Court. He had gone there upon learning of Wolsey’s death. Wolsey had built Hampton Court for himself. Every sign of submission to Henry’s throne came across as an afterthought, a thin scrape of plaster over the heart of stone and wood.
The chapel was a fortress of oiled wood and strong sunshine. The stained-glass windows running on each side cast a rainbow of light across the dark pews, and above the altar were angels. It was the only chapel she had been in that had these angels, fat children reaching to each other above the repentant. These angels seemed no more than God’s children, and He could not get them to sit still during church either.
She sighed and waited for some sign that Henry would be through soon. He was bent over, alone, kneeling in prayer before an empty altar.
Anne wanted to pray, too, but all her prayers were memorized as a girl, and none worked for this moment. She considered the Lord’s Prayer and decided it was close enough. She bowed her head and repeated it to herself. “Thine is the kingdom,” she whispered at the end, “and the glory, and the power, forever and ever. Amen.” The final words were like bread in her mouth. There was a sweet, satisfying taste of peace, an easement of fear, and she let the words sink deeper, nourishing her weak heart. Yes, she repeated the prayer, wanting more strength, wanting the peace to linger, afraid that if she moved it would fly away again.
Henry’s shoulders heaved up and back. He was crying. Anne made her way to him and knelt at his side.
Then Anne saw he was laughing. He had trails of tears on his face. Rising, he took her by the hand and kissed her full on the mouth. With the brush of his lips and the tickle of his beard, she felt the warmth of his body and for a moment—just a fleeting, shy moment—she liked the warmth. Confused, she cursed herself under her breath.
Henry led her from the room, past guards who would not meet her eye, men whose rumours and insinuations would work their way through the court until they ruined her name even as she slept alone night after night. There was no one to comfort her, no one to see her long, lonely vigil. She was the faithful virgin, waiting with a full lamp of oil for the bridegroom to invite her into the feast, but the nights had grown so long with no stirring at her door. She held out in obedience, and honour still fled from her. She saw the stone angels overhead, closing her eyes as she took the step from their world into the court of bitter tongues. She had waited for God to save her, as a sign of His favour for her faithful deeds. She stepped out into the world of the court and opened her eyes.
Anne could hear the low rush of breath, in and out, like small waves breaking on a shore far away. Her servants were asleep. They had plaited her hair into a long braid to keep it out of her face as she slept and set a new piece of fur on her pillow. The lice she had collected at court would find her smooth skin unpalatable and seek this fur out while she slept. The servants would discard it in the morning, and so had fallen asleep, their work done.
She swung her legs off the bed, landing them gently on the floor, holding her shift bunched up in both fists so it wouldn’t swing out and tickle anyone in their sleep on their trundles on the floor. She raised one hand, still trying to grasp her shift, and pulled open the door.
Her Yeoman was there, wide awake, standing and staring. She let out a cry as he turned to her, his face changing in the shadows, a rippling as he came into the light. Her stomach knotted up in fear. No one stirred inside her chamber. He moved to block her path. She saw he had been staring at the tapestry of Sarah and Abraham, and a tear wet his cheek.
He had always had a gentle way about him, escorting her as though his position was not a way of earning bread but of saving her. She had walked behind him all her days since that early May morning when she had been thrust into this new world, watching his broad muscular back, seeing courtiers step aside as he moved confidently through the dimly lit passages, escorting her past every petty dowager, every seducing virgin intent on winning Henry away. He never left her side, never accused, never grasped.
Perhaps she had imagined his goodness. She did not deserve it. Not when she was about to destroy everything precious to her. If God had made His plan clear to her, perhaps she would not be doing this. Time was so short. She could wait no more.
He stood in her path and did not move. Anne looked back at her chamber, the peaceful quiet calling her to return. Her Yeoman shifted his weight on his feet, and the torchlight sent a reflection into the room. She caught sight of the book on her bedside table.
“I will wait for His blessing no more,” she said, gritting her teeth and pushing past her Yeoman.
The hallways were quiet, the flickering yellow torches against the stone walls giving only enough light but no heat. The floors were so cold under her feet that she wished she had slipped on her shoes, but her servants had taken those after they put her to bed. Her skin raised in little gooseflesh bumps, the cold air biting her through the thin shift, drafts of winter finding her again and again. She paused before the great twin doors, the carving of the Tudor rose on them. His guards bristled and shook themselves awake, though both were standing, not expecting to receive a visitor at this hour. Anne thought she saw a smirk on one’s face as he peered at her before settling back into the darkness against the wall. She turned and looked at her Yeoman. He had walked behind her. He did not lead, not down this path.
“Do not wait for me,” she whispered, and with one last breath for strength, pushed against the doors.
There was a flickering candle on a little stand near the doors, and then the great ocean of night. She could hear no one stirring, indeed no one breathing, so her entrance had not disturbed the chamber as she feared. She reached for the candle and held it before her with both hands. It was slick and heavy, and she walked slowly to keep the flame high. She saw a wooden leg of the bed and searched to find the other one. It was a distance away, at least ten or eleven feet, and Anne did not know which end she had found first. She could see bed linens, and she strained to see beyond the shadow into the bed, but could see nothing. She reached out with one hand, touching the edge, and followed it round the leg to the other side. The other leg was just as far away, a good ten feet and some. She crept along the edge, disoriented, her heart beating faster, not expecting to be confused by such a simple thing.
She had waited for this moment since she was a girl, but never had she imagined she’d be groping blindly in the dark for her bridegroom. Never had she imagined she would have neither Church nor husband when it came.
She saw him sleeping. She set the candle on a stand next to him, and he stirred, blinking in the new light. His eyes met hers, and he watched without speaking as she untied the ribbon at her neck, loosening her shift, letting it fall at her feet. His face was impassive. He did not move as she lifted the linens and lay at his side, her hands shaking so hard that the linens made little waves around him.
“Why now?” he asked.
A servant built the fire up in the room. Anne gagged at the pinching smoke of burning wood, her stomach swimming as she woke up. Jane had brought some dry bread, salted twice to settle her stomach, and set it on the table next to the bed. She sat quietly while Anne tried to wake up without getting sick again.
“What must I do today?” Anne asked.
“The cook wants you to approve the menu for Christmas. There are two parties before the day, besides. He’s getting impatient with your delays. Says there won’t be any good meats to choose from.”
Anne groaned. “I can’t.”
She retched over the side of the bed. Jane caught her, patting her back, whispering to another servant. “Bring me some lemons for Anne.”
Anne sat back up, tears in her eyes. “I can’t do this.”
“Shh, shh. Of course ye can. You’ve already made two months. Not much longer till you’re past it. With your permission, I’ll look over
the cook’s menu and make recommendations, in your name, of course.”
Anne nodded.
“And we should get ye dressed, for Henry is awake and about, asking for you. You must tell him.”
Anne stood, grasping the table to help steady herself as she rose from the bed. She tried not to breathe as Jane lifted her shift and lowered in its place a new shift, and on top of this, a dress. Every night, the dress she wore would be aired out, and in the morning, it would be perfumed to mask any odours that remained. The result was a dress with thick, violent layers of perfume. Anne had never noticed it before, but it made her stomach churn.
Jane, seeing her gasping like a fish, trying to breathe in fresh air, fetched a new pomander and ran it around her waist. It was a silver ball that snapped open in the center and could be filled with dry herbs and perfumed linens. Anne’s usual infusion of roses did not set well with her lately, so Jane had poured in cloves and orange peels. It was a moderate success, Anne thought. It did nothing for her sickness, but it did not provoke it either.
Dressed, with a bite of bread to coat her stomach and a bite of a lemon to keep it down, Anne was led down the hall towards the garden nearest the Thames. She prayed the cold currents would have swept all the trash well away overnight, and the air would be clean.
Henry was sitting on a swing that hung down from a heavy beech tree. He had a blanket with him, which he spread around her shoulders as she lowered herself to his side. The swing’s motion upset her stomach and she asked him to stop it. He did, before wrapping his arms around her and holding her. He did not speak, and she used the time to beg her stomach to keep its peace too.
Greenwich had always been his favourite residence, and his preferred home for Christmas. She did today too. The Thames, a most perfect courtier, swept all the rubbish away. She listened for the birds; a few still sang in the trees above them, especially the song thrushes. They were small and timid but sang louder than any bird she had ever heard, their song never the same, always changing through seasons and moods. A few were singing this morning, and Anne knew they would sing loudest tonight, just before darkness was complete and they fled to a deep, hidden life within the trees. The blackbirds were out this morning too, those rude, oafish creatures, pecking at the ground, searching for any crumbs from the court kitchens.
Henry waved them away with a wave and a hiss, and Anne was glad.
He bent his face down, nuzzling her neck, kissing it once. “I missed you last night.”
“I fell asleep quite early. Jane did not want to wake me. She said you returned from hunting late.”
Henry sat up and cleared his throat. “Yes.”
Anne placed her hand on his thigh, and he turned to her, relaxing.
“I’m with child.”
He was still, the muscles in his face losing their taut play, his expression going soft and loose. Stunned, he couldn’t coordinate a smile, let alone a verbal reply. He burst from the swing, lifting her off it with him in one motion, holding her too roughly so that she was gasping for breath, crushed between his robes and her stiff bodice. Her skirt billowed out so far he had to hold her all the more tightly to crush it flat.
Laughing, he was kissing her over and over on the mouth, and she had to push against him with all her strength to get a breath. He tilted his head back and shouted, pointing at the sky.
He looked like a maniac when he turned to her, his finger still shaking at the clouds above. “I am vindicated! A son will be born to me. My dynasty will be greater than any king England has ever known. All generations will know my name.”
He was doing a little dance, which Anne could scarcely believe. Knowing he was to be a father had turned him into a child.
“Henry, do you love me?”
He stepped to her and bowed. “There was never a queen loved like you. How may I prove it to you? Haven’t I already broken the Church, rearranged the governing of England, and generally set the world’s course around pleasing you?” He was grinning. “What more should be done, my good queen? Speak it and it will be done!”
“Call off Sir Thomas. Do not let him persecute those who want to read the Scriptures, for these people, in their way, are only trying to get closer to the God who blesses you. They should not die for this crime. And bring Hutchins back to England safely. Do not provoke this war of words.”
Anne remembered the words of her brother: “Only two people dare speak for God: the optimist and the fool.” Anne looked at Henry’s joy, his face radiant as he extended his hand and took hers, gentle as a lamb, leading her back into the palace. Servants and courtiers alike parted without speaking, staring at the king who was still grinning wildly. He led Anne to his chamber, where he spent the day stroking her hair and turning her smallest whispered request into a loud barked command. Anne was every inch the queen. Marriage was a formality they could attend to later, Henry said. After all, God’s will had been done, evident in her womb.
The force of life in this man was so great, his own will roaring above the others around him, that Anne had no more troubling humours. Henry was her strong tower, and she turned to him in the quiet of the chamber, thankful at last to be forever free of the storm. Christmas was fast approaching.
Chapter Twenty-two
“I would like time to read this well, my friends. It is a large document, as you have said yourselves. The best minds in England have produced it; how could I, then, understand it in one brief glance?”
“No. Henry requests your assent. Today.”
Sir Thomas sighed and stood. Rose and Margaret were watching from the hallway, peering into the family room where several officials from court were circling around Sir Thomas, including a man they had only just seen, Cranmer. Oh, but he was a sour-looking man, the line of his mouth always drawing down, the heavy flesh above his eyes hooding them so that he looked to be always squinting. He had a tremendous shadow along his jowls and above his lips, where coarse hairs defied the morning’s razor and sprang up. Sir Thomas had often spoken of him with disdain. He was the worst sort of cleric, More said: an ordained priest who was secretly married and carried his wife about in a trunk so they would not be discovered. They compared the disdain More had for him with the very man himself standing before them and judged More to be right.
“He’s a greasy weasel,” Margaret whispered.
“A pock-faced bit of trash,” Rose replied. They tried not to giggle. Margaret held her hand, and Rose patted it, grateful for the assurance. Sir Thomas had disagreed with men before, even men of the court. He would shake these men off.
Cranmer folded his hands across his ample stomach. He wore a billowing white shift, with black robes over it, and a long black sash around his neck. The effect was that he looked like a great white sausage bursting out from its narrow black casings.
“Sir Thomas,” he said, “it is my belief that the marriage between Henry and Catherine was unlawful, by God’s law and the laws of this land. Will you join me in correcting this grievance?”
More smiled and raised his eyebrows. “Tell me what you know of God’s laws, my friend. Do kings dispense with barren wives and clerics marry big-breasted girls who come to confession?”
Cranmer lunged at More, but a low table blocked his way, which he did not see because of his stomach and the robes. He stumbled and caught himself, smoothing down his black vestments, clearing his throat. “I will make my report to the king.”
“You say that as if it were a threat,” More replied. “All I have done is request time to read the document.”
“Time is not on your side, More,” Cranmer replied. “And neither is Henry. You haven’t been at court since the sweats broke out, but Henry has been busy.” Cranmer started laughing. “Oh, he’s been busy! What news!”
More stared at him, not asking for details. This sent Cranmer into more rage, and he ground his teeth as he exited, pushing past Margaret and Rose roughly, the other men following behind him without a word.
Sir Thomas saw the girls w
hen the doors swung open. He sighed and sat on the couch.
“How much of that did you hear?” he asked.
Margaret rushed to sit with him, and Rose stood.
“Are you going to sign it, Father?” Margaret asked.
Sir Thomas picked up the stack of papers left by Cranmer, the letter requiring his signature laying on top. He walked to the fireplace and threw them in. The flames fed upon the papers with lust, snapping and growling. Rose saw the ashes collecting. A few flew up the chimney. It was strange to her mind that some would do that. All she understood was that none of them could be pieced together again.
“But what was he saying about news from court?” Margaret asked. “If the sickness has passed, let me go to the Christmas revelry there. I can find out what is going on.”
“I’ll not have you involved!” More shouted at her. “You have done too much already!”
Margaret looked at Rose and back at her father, her eyes wide in alarm. Rose saw her biting her lip to keep composure. Tears were pooling in her eyes, but she spoke sternly to her father.
“You are not safe. Cranmer said that himself,” she said.
Sir Thomas smiled, a serene look washing over his countenance. “I am not safe. Perhaps. But you, my daughter, you are safe. I am willing to sacrifice everything so that you may live.”
He was looking at Margaret as he spoke, and Rose wondered why there was mixed in his expression such tenderness, with such cold recognition of something ahead she could not see.
The household came alive with activities; the darkening afternoons and stinging winds told Rose that Christmas was almost upon them, and Dame Alice would return with packages and complaints. The rushes on the floors were freshened, and the kitchen was a combustion of servants stirring, basting, and kneading. Freshly dressed birds hung from the rafters, a continual fire burned for the preparation of different savouries and breads, and Rose heard much familiar foul language as the servants prepared to celebrate the birth of their Saviour. Sir Thomas pushed everyone to matins each week, but he had yet to tame their tongues, especially when they knew he was absent.
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