More Praise for Abandon Me
“Anyone who has read Febos … knows that her work explores boundaries as deftly as it defies categorization. In this new collection of essays, she once again obliterates convention with her erotically charged and intellectually astute recollections of family, relationships and the search for identity.” —Esquire, “The Best Books of 2017”
“No subject is off-limits to Febos. She authorizes her reader to be braver, to dig deeper into their own secrets and to research those secrets in history … In her close reading and recording of her own life, Febos universalizes the pain of waiting … With each new piece Febos bends time.” —The Rumpus
“The sheer fearlessness of the narrative is captivating.” —The New Yorker
“The beautiful and bleak are shown with glistening coherence … The interwoven essays of Abandon Me emphasize the necessarily constructed nature of life narratives. Misery, as Philip Larkin has it, ‘deepens like a coastal shelf.’ Yet Melissa Febos’s essays, while testifying to the truth of that process, also highlight the possibility of redemption, of something else that’s deepening: our understanding.” —The Times Literary Supplement
“[Abandon Me] is both intensely intimate and wide-ranging, as she pulls together insights from sources as disparate as psychoanalyst Carl Jung, jazz singer Billie Holiday and an ancient alchemical text. Febos is voracious in her emotional cravings, but none is stronger than her desire to know and own herself. The hard-won ending (truly, a beginning) is exhilarating.” —Dawn Raffel for O Magazine
“Abandon Me is a beautifully written journey through Febos’ world.” —BuzzFeed
“From heroin addiction to romantic infatuation, [Abandon Me] considers forces powerful enough to inspire utter devotion, and the way that posture can both destroy and redeem.” —The Atlantic
“Febos’s gifts as a writer seemingly increase with the types of subjects and themes that typically falter in the hands of many memoirists … Febos transports, but her lyricism is always grounded in the now, in the sweet music of loss.” —The Millions
“Abandon Me doesn’t have graphic, shocking scenes like Febos’s first, instead she goes further into the messy vulnerable, human parts of herself … I devoured these pages. Curled up on my coral-colored couch, I sometimes looked up as if someone might catch me in the act of crawling into her mind and living there for a while. It felt like I was being folded into her prose.” —Natassja Schiel for The Millions
“I’ve heard it said that memoir asks not what happened, but rather, what the f*^%* happened, and throughout Abandon Me, Febos returns again and again, in lush prose, to this question. It isn’t the answer that’s most compelling (answers seldom are). Rather, it’s the invitation Abandon Me offers the reader: to board her own ship, to hold her breath, and to leap into a dark and lyrical sea.” —Cameron Dezen Hammon for Hunger Mountain
“[Febos] has emerged as one of our most creative and most unflinching memoirists, essayists, and teachers.” —Los Angeles Review of Books
“Searing and eye-opening at every turn … A must-read.” —The Huffington Post, “27 Nonfiction Books By Women Everyone Should Read This Year”
“With ruthless honesty, Febos follows the ebbs and flows of the loves in her life, from father figures to lovers.” —Marie Claire
“Her mastery over metaphor is astonishing … What might be mere navel-gazing for a less brilliant author is made powerfully universal here. Though the particulars are hers, just about anyone can relate to the feeling of a chasm opening up inside. Febos’s awakening to her full identity, even its ugliness, is a powerful and redemptive epic.” —Publishers Weekly (starred review)
“Abandon Me examines the many loves of her life—lovers as well as family—with her distinctive blend of lush language and relentless intelligence.” —Jackie Thomas-Kennedy for Publishers Weekly
“It’s easy to fall in love with Melissa Febos’ gorgeous new memoir of short essays … Febos brings a relentless curiosity and startling intimacy to the page … With her careful observations and introspection, she transcends isolation and captures the boundless nature of human emotion. Abandon Me is a fierce exploration of love and obsession, but it is something else as well—the story of a woman who is unafraid to explore the harsh truths and choices that shape our lives.” —Lambda Literary
“Erotic and dark, the book is a courageous exploration of love as the ultimate form of plenitude and annihilation. A lyrically visceral memoir of love and loss.” —Kirkus Reviews
“Abandon Me is a sonorous collection of concentric essays … Febos’ lyrical musings are intercut with astronomy, antiquity, and pop culture analyses—from Ferdinand the Bull to the musical fantasy film Labyrinth … Febos engages a process of self-discovery that confirms an exceptional skill at illuminating universal truths.” —Megan Labrise for Kirkus Reviews
“[A] raw, brave work about truly knowing oneself.” —Library Journal
“[In this] collection of self-aware, stylish, autobiographical essays on love, addiction, and inheritance … Febos harnesses language, moods, actions, and settings with precision. A professor of creative writing, she stuns with sentences that are a credit to her craft and will no doubt inspire her readers.” —Booklist
“Riveting … Emotionally raw and stirring in a way that will have you aching for more.” —Newsweek, “Best New Books of the Week”
“Febos is a talented writer with a colorful personal history.” —The Washington Post
“Intimate and mesmerizingly vulnerable … Gets at the heart of who we love, how we love—and why.” —Refinery29, “Our Favorite Books Of 2017”
“[Abandon Me] circles back around different stories, weaving together an exploration of her origins with moments taken from [Febos’s] childhood, addiction, recovery and her work as a dominatrix.” —The New York Times Book Review
“A frequently stunning book, dealing with questions of family, identity, and intimacy.” —Vol. 1 Brooklyn
“Febos has established herself as a gifted writer with deep reserves of empathy and a bottomless hunger for personal truth … Her prose is exciting and inviting because it feels both raw and lived in.” —Guernica
“[A] gorgeous writer … [with] stunning gifts for metaphor and raw emotional truths.” —Minneapolis Star Tribune
“Abandon Me proves unequivocally that there must be room in the literary canon for the complexity of women’s stories on erotic fixation and loss.” —Bitch magazine
“After the age of irony and clever or snarky tweets, it is refreshing to see a work that is as earnest and heartfelt as Abandon Me. Even through this earnestness, Febos manages to add in a complexity and density that keeps the work interesting … After all, not every book ranges over as diverse topics as David Bowie, Borges, and Jungian analysis. These wide ranging interests help to make Abandon Me a lively, surprising, and distinctive book … Not to be missed.” —Kenyon Review
“Fans of Febos’ previous memoir, Whip Smart, will find Abandon Me a delicious follow-up to the salacious stories of her work as a dominatrix. Those new to her writing will be insatiable for more after digging into her new offering, which details the queer writer’s relationship to love, loss and erotic addiction.” —GO Magazine
“Abandon Me is an exploration of self-discovery. Febos’s collection of memoirs explores not only the act of abandoning, but also different types of love and growing up … Febos meditates over the concept of abandonment quite like [Leslie] Jamison meditates on the idea of empathy … Febos sketches in staggering detail her adolescence of abandonment.” —Chicago Review of Books
“Febos complicates the human desire for connection with explorations in philosophy, psychology, and accounts of historical repression that seduce readers in
to inhabiting her myths while resisting sentimentality by dismantling the fictions with deft intellectual probing reminiscent of the work of Maggie Nelson … One of Febos’s greatest literary strengths is her ability to make these intimate experiences feel universal.” —BOMB Magazine
“A fiercely intelligent and remarkably intimate essay collection about the border between love and obsession.” —Leigh Stein for The Rumpus
“There is something pioneering about the way Melissa Febos talks about love, connecting it to all its binary shadows … This book as a treatise on the siren call that leads us to re-stage events that have wounded us, so that we can produce a different ending, is absolutely luminous. The writing is crisp and unsettling.” —KQED Arts
“Lovely, very deep essays. It’s raw and vulnerable; the writing is gorgeous … Smart and surprising. If you like Maggie Nelson and Leslie Jamison, it will be right up your alley. I was very surprised and immediately gripped from the first page by the quality of her writing and by how open she is … It’s uncommon.” —Book Riot’s All the Books podcast
“Astonishing … Febos’s stirring prose—her delicately wrought sentences and stellar sense of pacing—don’t distract from the narrative arcs themselves, which is a relief, as each braided essay carries a beginning, middle, and end.” —Book Riot, “Best Books of 2017 So Far”
“Finishing the book felt like lying in bed after sex with a new lover, hoping arms would close around me but not wanting to ask for it … Abandon Me commands an attention you’d have to beg for to be returned … As Febos writes, in explanation of this paradox, ‘we are all the conquered and conquerors.’ So then, if to be left by Febos’s writing is not the greatest pleasure you’ve ever felt, then you’ve read her book wrong. And that is the worst kind of abandonment.” —Brooklyn Magazine
“This unflinching, lyrical, and often crushing memoir about love and the need for connection is a must-read.” —The Advocate
“Febos’ writing is unflinching, and her willingness to delve into her darkest corners avoids becoming overwhelming only because she handles it with strength and delicacy. Abandon Me finds the universal in her own story and taps into many people’s fears, pushing the reader to question what they might abandon themselves to or let themselves abandon.” —Paste Magazine
“Ambitious … I can’t wait to see what Febos writes next.” —Numéro Cinq
“Febos is a learned, lyrical writer, as well as an associative thinker … Abandon Me has much to recommend it: candor, a tone blessedly free of self-pity, and, for all those who ever flipped over the shiny side of love’s bright coin and discovered dross, hope.” —Washington Independent Review of Books
“The book explores shame, loss, and the meaning of family with such tenderness and vulnerability that readers can’t help but look at their own wounds through a more empathetic and, hopefully, healing lens.” —Barnes & Noble Review
“[Febos is] one of our most fearless and poignant writers … Here is a work that is both poetic and narrative, compassionate, raw and original. Abandon Me is a fiercely intelligent and remarkably intimate investigation of love and obsession, trauma and resiliency.” —The Brooklyn Rail
“[Febos] is able to simply flay herself on the page while never alienating the reader and always making us feel like we somehow are included in her life’s journey, even when we have nothing (or everything) in common with her … Mesmerizing and smart.” —Read It Forward, “Favorite Reads of February 2017”
“Fiercely intelligent and intensely intimate … Here is a work poetic and narrative, compassionate, raw and original.” —The Writers’ Block Blog
“It defies easy description or categorization, and begs to be reread, to be unpeeled, layer after layer.” —Fiction Advocate
“Striking and masterfully crafted.” —The Boiler
“As brilliant and insightful as it is beautiful and entertaining.” —Rebellious Magazine
“The essays build into an interrogation of relationships, idolization, and how the author’s past intertwines with cultural history. Though the book explores bonds that Febos has with others—lovers, friends, lost and found family members—the relationship it ultimately depicts is the one that she builds with herself. It is also an origin story about creating the life of an activist, artist, teacher, and cultural theorist.”—Bookforum
“[Febos] is a gorgeously lyrical and insightful writer … A recording and reckoning of love and loss and longing, evoked in gorgeous language dripping with sensuality, hope, and pain … We recognize our own losses in hers and understand them better through her wisdom and insight. We feel relieved to see them so beautifully and viscerally rendered.” —Ploughshares
“A powerful, poignant meditation on not only the pain of loss but also the maddening, intoxicating, confusing, and exhilarating effects of true human closeness.” —Meghan Daum, author of The Unspeakable
“Abandon Me is a voluptuous book about the relationship between sex and surrender, desire and addiction, vulnerability and power. Febos unfolds her dark romance with erotic charge and sensuous poetry.” —Sarah Hepola, author of Blackout
“It’s rare to read a book as generous as it is genius. Febos intimately explores addiction, pain, pleasure, the uncontrollable character, and the strangely joyful and terrifying nuances of abandonment. I don’t know that I’ve ever felt more thankful to read a book. Abandon Me found me when I most needed it.” —Kiese Laymon, author of How to Slowly Kill Yourself and Others in America
“An intricately constructed and emotionally devastating book about the appearance and disappearance of love. Febos is a strikingly talented writer who pushes at the boundaries of her form and shows us just how amazing and expansive it can be.” —Jenny Offill, author of Dept. of Speculation
“Melissa Febos is the anthropologist and critic; the learned, dispassionate observer; and the passionate advocate of her body’s passage through time, space, and the woes and pleasures of contact with other humans. Abandon Me reflects an extraordinary range of both experience and understanding.” —Vijay Seshadri, Pulitzer Prize–winning author of 3 Sections
“Intellectual, erotic, and lyrical, this book arrives at emotional truths that startle and dazzle. Febos spares no one. And who would want to be spared such ravishing?” —John D’Agata, editor of The Making of the American Essay
“Riveting and heartbreaking and tough and passionate and beautiful and original; a tour de force. Melissa Febos weaves the personal and the universal together into a provocative, brilliant, incredibly moving examination of power and identity.” —Kate Christensen, author of Blue Plate Special
“Melissa Febos is a deep, broad, and fearless thinker. This hard-fought, hard-won, endlessly compelling, and elegant memoir teaches us that our traumas are not isolated, but in constant conversation with each other, and promises that if we listen carefully to their steady murmuring, we might find the means and the power to heal our lives.” —Pam Houston, author of Contents May Have Shifted
“This book made me feel more than I was prepared to about desire and identity, as though it were an exquisite vivisection of what we politely call ‘falling in love.’ Febos’s Abandon Me is extraordinarily written and unflinchingly bold.” —Nadia Bolz-Weber, author of Accidental Saints
“No one tells it like Melissa Febos. Sensual, lyrical, raw, brave, and honest, Abandon Me is simply gorgeous.” —Ann Hood, NYT-bestselling author of The Knitting Circle and An Italian Wife
Bookseller Praise for Abandon Me
“It is a rare and precious thing whenever I find a writer that makes me feel as heart-filled and glad to be a reader as how I felt when I read the prose of Melissa Febos. With emotional inklings of Maggie Nelson and Jenny Offill—and a heart-wrenching voice all her own—Febos’s Abandon Me seduced and entranced me. I couldn’t help but underline, dog-ear, and hover over every single page. An honest tale of the pains of love and loss, Abandon Me urges us to listen, to empathize, to desire without fear.” —Claire Tobin
, Literati Bookstore, Ann Arbor, MI
“A memoir like none other. Febos exposes the complications of identity, addiction, obsession, jealousy, forgiveness, trust, and abandonment—weaving into each scenario mythological, psychological, and literal interpretations. She forces you to evaluate your own stories and their power. How you abandon yourself to discover your true worth is the substance of Febos’s powerfully honest memoir.” —Mindy Ostrow, River’s End Bookstore, Oswego, NY
“What is it about need and desire; the belief that some thing, some high, some person will save us or complete us, despite that very thing leading us further away from ourselves? Melissa explores these issues with pinpoint attention even while she’s losing her edges. Ultimately it is the power of her focus and the grace of her writing that enables her and the reader to pull back and see the possibility of having a life more whole.” —Sheryl Cotleur, Copperfield’s Books, Sebastopol, CA
“Febos beautifully interprets her most intimate moments in order to make peace with what we all fear the most. This book compels its reader to reflect and to reach out.” —Gwen Corkill, Brookline Booksmith, Brookline, MA
“Beautiful, expressive, and poetic. Anyone who has experienced the highs and lows of an intense romantic (and often unhealthy) attachment will identify with this memoir. But the truly special moments are when Febos is exploring her relationship with her father(s) or ruminating on favorite books, the beauty and nuance of language, philosophy, native culture, and the meaning of home.” —Adrian Newell, Warwick’s, La Jolla, CA
“It is amazing to read a memoir that is both so lyrical and raw. Febos reveals all of her scars and tender parts, allowing us to feel the depth of her pain and desire. A truly beautiful meditation on the complexity of love and resilience.”—Luisa Smith, Book Passage, Corte Madera, CA
“Febos has the sense of structure of Rebecca Solnit and the accuracy in exploring sexuality of Maggie Nelson’s The Argonauts. Abandon Me is for fans of beautiful creative nonfiction.” —Jesse Bartel, BookHampton, Southampton, NY
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