by Laura Morgan
Copyright 2017 © Laura Morgan
Cover photographs courtesy of bigstockphoto.com
Table of Contents
Dedication
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Epilogue
About the Author
Laura Morgan’s other novels
Dedication
For Jodie. I literally couldn’t do any of this without you. Thank you so much for your firm friendship and amazing support. I love ya my High Priestess :-D
Licence Notes
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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
PLEASE NOTE
This story depicts explicit sexual relationships between adults. It is absolutely not suitable for those under the age of 18.
Trigger warning – this story involves graphic sexual scenes dark elements which some people may find upsetting.
Chapter One
“Ashes to ashes, dust to dust…” The coffin holding my sister’s body was scattered with dirt by her nearest and dearest before being lowered into the ground. My heart broke watching her leave us. I hated being powerless against fate or whatever divine overseer decided it was time for her to go. I cursed everyone and everything, while not speaking a word the entire time.
Afterwards, everyone who had come to pay their respects left in search of a stiff drink and the promise of a buffet dinner. Everyone except my family and me. As we stood watch, my father held me tightly in his arms. His embrace was strong and supportive, yet I couldn’t help but feel as though I was the one holding him upright, rather than the other way around.
It suddenly dawned on me how my only sister lay dead in the ground. I wish I could write about the fun times we’d shared, or reminisce over our lives together, but I couldn’t. The truth is, she’d been a stranger to me most of my life, but I still felt the loss like a gaping hole in my heart. In a family of five children and a long-gone mother, the sad fact was that us girls hadn’t stuck together. I wished it wasn’t so, that we could go back and change things, but time doesn’t work that way. Things done cannot simply be undone. She and I weren’t a united front, staying strong in the face of all the men who guarded us and kept us safe while they also controlled every aspect of our lives. I’d always wondered if it was perhaps our ten-year age gap, or because of how our personalities had seemed the polar opposite of each other’s. I could never be sure.
Unlike me, Dita had a loud mouth and a temper on her to rival any one of our three brothers. She was headstrong and independent until the very end, and while our father doted on her regardless, he and I had always been a closer and more natural team thanks to my quieter nature and easy-going attitude.
I knew I’d spent my twenty years alive on the planet wrapped in cotton wool. I was no fool. But, part of me liked it. I enjoyed being a daddy’s girl and I didn’t mind when he treated me like his baby because that was how my entire life had always been. Now it was just my three brothers and me: Nico, Thomas, and Bradley. Dita was born between Nico and Thomas, and then Brad had quickly followed. Eight years later, I’d then been conceived out of the blue and had reportedly been utterly unplanned for my dear parents. Since the day I became more than just a rapidly growing bunch of cells they had doted on me though. Twenty years later I knew my father saw in me a combination of the wife he’d lost to breast cancer when I was three years old, and the baby girl of the family who had never given him lip or caused trouble.
Dita on the other hand was a wild child. She was always out drinking and taking drugs, being brought home by the police, or by her latest squeeze. I’d often found her sneaking her boyfriends into our large house in the centre of Birmingham, England in the middle of the night, much to our dad’s dismay. There was only so much of that he could put up with before laying down the law, and it was something that always had me cowering in my boots, while Dita always acted as if she couldn’t have cared less what he thought or the way he expected her to act.
To me, he was an intimidating man who I loved and respected more than anyone, but also feared in equal measure. Our dad had been a member of a local motorcycle club, the Black Knights, since long before any of us were born, and while the closeness of the club and security therein was all we’d ever known, the life could also make those affiliated with the club a little bit fearless. As though they thought they were untouchable. Dita was exactly that. It seemed to me as though nothing and no one could harm her without the weight of the club coming down on them hard, and while it was probably true, even I saw how she’d pushed her luck on a far too regular basis.
It wasn’t until she started seeing my father’s second-in-command and the club’s Vice President, Tobin Stone, two years before that she finally calmed down. Her skirts were no longer the size of a belt, her language became less vulgar, and Dita had rarely gone out and come home drunk after that. She’d happily played the role of the powerful VP’s doting fiancée, or so it’d appeared. Dad’s right-hand-man had seemingly come through for my sister exactly when she’d needed it most. And yet, in the end, none of that had mattered. Nobody had been able to stop the inevitable from happening. A drunk driver had still run Dita over at a zebra crossing on her thirtieth birthday. I was told she’d been killed instantly. I guess you could call that a blessing, but I’m still not sure.
At the funeral, my dad, brothers and me had stood huddled together. We hadn’t broken apart until the very end when Nico led the other two away and left me to tend to our father. They also saw to the guests during the wake after the service was over, while I remained by Dad’s side. He was void of not just emotion but also words, thoughts, and I think if I had left him alone long enough—breath. He seemed to have ceased everything to mourn her silently, yet somehow also so loudly it consumed me. I spent the entire afternoon with my hand in his, refusing to let go even when family members and friends tried to come and take him away for their obligatory, ‘I’m sorry for your loss,’ discussions. I didn’t say a word either, I just watched him. My father looked older all of a sudden. The lines on his face were somehow deeper. The grey flecks in his hair more distinguished. He’d had dark brown hair once, but now it was like a mixture of what seemed to be a hundred different shades ranging from brown and grey to white. He hadn’t lost any though and had barely receded, his hair still thick and full. I peered into his eyes, seeing sadness behind the dark brown hue of them and I leaned into him a little more, offering as much comfort as I could.
When he later took his seat in the huge armchair that’d been his spot for as long as I could remember, I climbed into his lap as though I were stil
l five years old and curled myself into his embrace. No one even batted an eye. We all knew I was too old for this, but he’d brought me up never to care what anyone thought of me. I might’ve been a mollycoddled Daddy’s girl, but that suited me because people just left me alone rather than try to pull me into their drama. They knew I wasn’t interested, and that I wasn’t going to defy my father’s order that I remain well behaved.
Yes, he’d even gone as far as to dictate so much as that over the years.
I never argued with it though, or tried to resist him. An introvert at heart, I’d always loved the peace and quiet that being left to do my own thing and being locked away in self-imposed solitude brought. I loved nothing better than to curl up with a book and be alone. At only twenty years old, I’d already completed two master’s degrees and I had learned to speak three languages fluently. I’d never been drunk, had sex or taken drugs, and hardly had any friends. I wanted and needed for nothing and my father always saw to everything when it came to taking care of me. He controlled every aspect of my life, and I never once complained. I knew Dita hated him for controlling her in the same way as he did me and had lashed out because of it, but I couldn’t be like that. She’d never understood how I could be okay with this life. But, there we have it, just another example of how very different my sister and I were.
I guess in the end, I fell asleep in my father’s arms, because the next thing I remember is him carrying me to my room. My brother Thomas woke me just long enough to tell me to get changed and go to bed, and after he left I did just that. When I was finally alone, wearing nothing but the bare body I was born in, I slid under the covers and nestled myself within my thick duvet and soft sheets, fiddling with the corner of my pillow between my fingers—something I’d done since I was a little girl. I’d always slept naked, unable to sleep if I had any clothing on, or I’d always wake up dripping with sweat in the middle of the night. I was safe though. My room was kept locked from the inside, and of course because my brothers were so protective no one would ever dare slip inside my ivory tower in our dad’s house.
You see, my father, Garret Proctor, is an exceptionally powerful man. As far as I’ve always been aware, he’s no drug-lord or gangster, but still feared and respected by all those who frequented our home to talk business with him. No one messes with him and gets away with it, put it that way. My brothers are intimidating guys, too. They’ve all been highly trained in martial arts and other such skills from a young age, each of them huge, burly and scary to almost anyone whose paths cross theirs. Even I know the stories of how nobody who ever got in their way seemed to stick around long enough to tell the tale.
The other thing that’s made our family so powerful yet complete at the same time is that our father’s not only a member of the Black Knights, but also the President of the motorbike club. My whole life, they’ve passed themselves off as just another group of motorcycle enthusiasts, but even I can tell that they’re much more than that. They conduct secret dealings and have meetings all hours of the day and night. We’ve never wanted for anything yet no one in my family seems to work a nine-to-five to earn their wage. Their jobs are within the club. Their lives tied to it for seemingly ever, and I guess I figured mine was too, only I’d yet to find out in what capacity.
I loved it though, the life I was born into. I’ve grown up listening to the purr of engines at any time day or night. The roar of men’s laughter and the backdrop of rock ballads were the background sounds of my youth. I always knew I was safe with them. Home.
But, there were still the scary times, and I can be honest and say I’ve been sent off to safe houses far too many times for me to count. We have the highest spec security system I’ve ever known and I’m clever enough to know you only need that sort of protection when you have enemies who can penetrate the sort of security most homeowners invest in. I may’ve been protected, even from the truths, but I was never a fool. Well, I always thought I wasn’t…
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About a week after the funeral, I was sat lengthways on one of the large leather sofas in the living room of our home that doubled as the clubhouse. Things had gone back to relative normality and the club was back to business as usual. Listening to music on my laptop, I was finally making time to check my emails and social media websites. There were so many people who’d commented to say they were sorry and offered their condolences to my family, but as far as I knew hardly any of them had even been close to my sister, or me. It was all a farce. One ignorant bimbo after another wishing us well and saying they were sorry for our loss. I ignored more than half, while writing quick thank you notes back to the others.
A short while later, our housekeeper, Sue brought me over a pot of tea. I hadn’t asked for one, but it was just another typical British thing to do in times of grief so I couldn’t be surprised at her for having taken it upon herself to bring me a cup. I thanked her anyway and carried on with surfing the Internet and busying myself watching crappy videos and reading threads on my favourite blogs. I commented back and forth with a few of the regulars, as well as adding my own reviews for the movies, books, and new music releases they were debating about. This was my usual routine. My head in either a book or my laptop, and I was happy there. Content.
After another half an hour, the door opened and in walked the hardest looking group of men I’d ever seen. Anyone else might have wilted at seeing them, but these were my family, some by blood and others by service to my father and their club.
My sister’s ex-fiancé, Tobin stood at the head of the group. He was leading the way and looked intense, focussed, and full of purpose. I hadn’t seen him since the funeral, so guessed that he’d taken a few days out to mourn Dita. We’d never spoken much, so I couldn’t know for sure, but figured it had to have been hard losing the woman he was planning on marrying. Now, he was back, and his ‘Vice President’ badge on his cut was clear even from across the room. He caught me watching and stared back at me as he led the group over towards the huge meeting room where they were about to get together for church—their version of a business meeting.
After a couple seconds of our gazes locking, I thought I’d best look away, but Tobin then put me at ease by giving me a half smile. He also raised his hand in a polite wave, which I returned, and then he ducked inside the doorway to greet my father while the rest of their band of bikers milled around in the suddenly incredibly full living room of our home. My three brothers each grinned over at me, as did the other men, but everyone was quiet and ready for their summons, so didn’t stop for chitchat, which was fine by me.
Looking around at the thirty or so men, all of them menacing and brutish, I knew that they should scare me. That I ought to be wary of them. Any friends I’d ever made during my school years were all far too terrified of the club and its members’ reputations to ever come over to my house, but I’d never seen them that way. They’d each taken care of me over the years, many of the older members having babysat me as a child or having given me lifts to school and back when my brothers were unavailable.
None of them ever looked at me or treated me the same way as they did the girls who draped themselves on their arms every weekend when they were looking for some fun. I think that to many of them I was like their own little sister, the protected one, and they knew how much my father doted on me so followed his lead without question. Neither my father nor I hid our closeness, so I always liked to think that as part of the newest members’ initiation into the club they had to swear to never touch me or try anything, otherwise my dad or brothers would have their balls on a plate.
My father, Garret, was no idiot and didn’t suffer fools gladly. Anyone who’d ever stepped on his toes usually ended up with a broken nose as their first warning, and shattered kneecaps as their second. I never saw anyone after their third, but never dared to ask what the outcome would be those times. Part of me didn’t want to know.
After the meeting was over, my father left the room first, wandering straight over to me an
d planting a kiss on my head before retiring to his study for some peace and quiet. I didn’t follow him. He knew where I was if he wanted me, and we’d spent a lot of time together over the previous few days so I decided to leave him to it. Even though he’d not necessarily asked me to stay with him while he mourned Dita, he hadn’t asked me to leave either, so I had just sat and soundlessly provided him with the comfort and companionship I had somehow known he needed but would never ask for.
My eldest brother, Nico, then came and plonked down beside me. He gathered my legs up onto his lap and almost knocked my precious laptop on the floor as he did so.
“Hey!” I cried, gripping it like a baby, holding the computer to my chest when I had finally closed the screen. “This thing has my entire life on it,” I added, smirking over at him. Nico had never been the computer geek type of guy. In fact, he barely knew how to use his smart phone, and didn’t own a computer. Whereas I had two laptops plus tablets, e-readers, and mobile phones. Technology had always been a big thing for me. I loved working at computers. The logicality of it all and the intricate elements of web design and formatting were a big pull for me career wise, and I hoped to put that love and skill to good use one day.
My middle brother, Thomas then sauntered over and took the seat to my left and grinned broadly, his dark brown eyes alight with mischief.
“No point trying, sis. He probably has no clue what that even is,” he teased, giving Nico the finger when he gave him the hand gesture that indicated Thomas might be a habitual masturbator. I simply laughed and slid the computer under the sofa and out of the way as I pulled my feet up and grabbed my drink.
I then watched as the boys then resumed their usual night time behaviour and each drank beers and shots, while I happily sipped on my tea or pushed the boat out with a cola here and there. Nico and Thomas could almost be twins they looked so alike—both the double of our father with their dark brown hair and eyes. Nico was taller though, and broader. He’d spent his entire life looking up to our dad and idolising him, and thanks to that he’d almost become a carbon copy of our patriarch—whether he’d done it on purpose or not.