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by Cynthia Freeman


  “Fine.”

  “Is that all you’ve got to say?”

  “That’s all.”

  “You not even gonna ask how we’ve all been?”

  “No. I don’t think you worried too much about how I’ve been while you were drinking all those mint juleps out there on the veranda.”

  “That’s not true, Dominic, and you know it.”

  “Sure.”

  “Look, Dominic, I know what happened was nothin’ more than happens between married people. I’m sure we’re both sorry for what we said … now, I think the time has come when we’ve got to act like grown up, mature human bein’s. For heaven sake, we can’t go on bein’ mad for the rest of our lives … now can we?”

  I didn’t think he was gonna answer, but he said, “Do what you want.”

  “Is that any way to talk, when I’m humblin’ myself.”

  “Yeah, that’ll be the day.”

  “There you go, Dominic … when I’m tryin’ to make up our differences. I’d think you’d realize how difficult this is for me, your bein’ so cold and all.”

  “Look, Catherine, I’m not going to argue with you. This is your home, the children’s home, so do what you want.”

  “I’m not gonna come home if you keep freezin’ me out. Don’t you have any feelin’ or consideration for me at all?”

  “It’s a little bit difficult after what happened, then suddenly, you call up and that makes everything alright after almost three months.”

  “Two and a half.”

  “Oh, so you’re counting?”

  “Dominic, please … I wish you could hear yourself, I honestly do. It’s just plain childish stubbornness … If I did anythin’ so unforgivable, I’m truly sorry.”

  “Oh, my God, if you did? You’re not even sure about that. You bet you did.”

  “I hadn’t meant this to be a contest, Dominic, but you’re provokin’ the subject. You said some pretty awful things to me, you know, which I’m not holdin’ against you.”

  “I think that’s very generous of you, Catherine.”

  “I know you’re bein’ sarcastic, but I’m gonna overlook it. Now, Dominic, I’ve got to come home and get the children ready for school and I fervently pray that by the time we come back, you can forget our differences, so that we can have harmony once again. Will you do that … Dominic, darlin’?”

  There was a peculiar sound I took to mean as a laugh, but I wasn’t sure, then Dominic answered, “Fine … sure … okay. I guess that’s about all then, right?”

  “Well, only for one more thing … I’ll call you before I leave so as you and Dom can meet us at the airport.”

  “Fine.”

  “I hope you mean that.”

  “What?”

  “That everythin’s fine.”

  “Oh … yes, of course. Well, I guess that’s it, then.”

  “One thing, Dominic, Gina Maria wants to say somethin’.”

  I handed the phone to my only daughter and stood there with tears of relief in my eyes as I heard her say in that sweet voice, “Buona Sera, Papa, I miss you.”

  I could almost feel Dominic swallow the lump in his throat and see him wipe the tear from his eye as he answered across that long span of distance, “Grazie, mia cara. I miss you more than you know. I’m so happy you’re coming home.”

  “Me, too, Papa. Arrivederci.”

  “Arrivederci, Gina Maria… arrivederci.”

  Oh, God, Catherine sighed, there was so much to remember. What are we but our memories and bein’ alone as I am now leaves me with nothin’ to do but think and thinkin’ at this time is a most distressin’ thing. I’ve simply got to get some rest, but I can’t seem to turn it off. As she got up and walked wearily to the bed and lay down, she thought, the years are like yesterday, so vivid, like mental portraits hangin’ on a wall. All the light and shadows of the past indelibly painted in the recesses of her mind. Something that happened ten years ago crept into her consciousness like a foe that would not leave her at peace. Before dropping off to sleep, her last thought was about Dominic. Did he remember what he had done to humiliate her ten years ago, which was an unforgivable thing she had never ever been able to forget. Did he remember … did he … ever … re … mem … ber …

  There were times Dominic did remember, and those times were as bittersweet for him as Catherine’s were angry and hostile. Of course he remembered, how could he ever forget when Catherine had gone off and left him that year taking the children with her and leaving him completely alone, drained emotionally, with plenty of time on his hands to do his own thinking in the wee small hours of the morning. His thoughts were bitter and the whole of their lives made him feel trapped. Here he was, forty-three, married twenty years and seven children later with nothing left but a marriage on the rocks. Had the fault been his? Had he really failed Catherine? Be honest, Dominic. Were you an understanding husband? Did you do all you could to make your marriage work? Because what marriage requires is hard work, constantly. It’s a continual reaffirmation time and time again. Marriage is not a one-shot thing. Think hard, search your conscience … did you?

  Maybe, Dominic thought, we plead our own cases in our own behalf and delude ourselves because we have to preserve our own image, our own self-esteem, that precious little corner of our egos. Maybe it’s totally impossible to see and evaluate ourselves as we really are or how we appear to other people. That being the case, he tried with all his integrity to step over the hurdle of self-deception and come face to face with the past. To begin with, he had married young, married a girl whom he knew for a very short while and although he thought he was astute enough at the time, he really didn’t know Catherine at all. Certainly there was a sexual attraction. She was beautiful, different and spirited with a provocative uninhibitedness. In the beginning, he made excuses for her possessiveness, her demands upon him which later he felt, in all honesty, were unreasonable. To have no more illusions is a devastating thing. To see someone as they are is a shattering experience and when he could no longer blind himself to Catherine’s caprices, he took a long … long look and what he saw under the facade of her external self was a woman without understanding of how to take or give in a marriage. She even mistook the act of childbearing as a gift to him, feeling that she had immortalized his being for posterity. She did not consider that having children was, in reality, the sacred culmination born out of the love of two people. Dominic tried with all his might to be honest in his evaluation of Catherine, but in the end, he could not delude himself. She had tried to carry on a traditional Italian household, perpetuate in the children a pride of their heritage, and as a mother, although she was possessive and demanding, she was devoted and loving and made them the center of her existence. But Dominic felt that his function as a father had ceased after the birth of Vincente. Catherine battled him all the way, as though she begrudged his success. When the thought first came to him, Dominic tried to fight it down saying he was imagining it … but the thought persisted until he could no longer deny it. What bothered him almost more than anything was her unwillingness to be with him when he was away. Naturally, he knew it would have been impossible for her to travel with him constantly, but never once did she seem to feel her obligation toward him. If the children had not been provided for with loving care, then he could have understood, but that wasn’t the case… The residue of all his reflections left him with one painful reality, that his marriage was a failure from which he could not escape, because not only was he a devout Roman Catholic, but he had seven children and how could he walk away from them. He was trapped, beholden to an illusion of his youth…

  3

  THE BALANCE WHEEL OF destiny turned and where it stopped was at the door with the name of Henricks, Wilcocks and Lang. Dominic, indeed, had his memories. In his desperation to escape the lonely absence of children’s voices echoing in his ears, he attended a cocktail party his friend, Lawrence Henricks, was giving, having just moved into the penthouse suite of the Hills
Tower building. At first, he disregarded the invitation, feeling in no mood, so he tore it up and sent a flower arrangement with a note of congratulations, as well as regrets for not being able to attend. But at the end of the day he sat in his office, listlessly, wondering how he was going to endure the evening. Catherine had been away for a week and the walls of that house seemed to close in on him. He swiveled in the large red leather chair with a pencil between his teeth. Impulsively, he reached for the phone and dialed his mother’s flat, but in that split second before the ringing started, he hung up, thinking no, he couldn’t go through the pretending tonight. Knowing his mother would guess something was wrong since he had not taken the children to see her after mass on Sunday which was what he did every week in view of the fact that it was the only time she saw them. He had made some ridiculous excuse, knowing she was not taken in, but at that moment he simply couldn’t bring himself to say Catherine had taken the children and gone home. So that still left him adrift tonight. He placed his elbows on the long hand-carved Italian desk, buried his face in his hands and saw a kaleidoscope of images emerge out of his mind. Suddenly, Lawrence J. Henricks became a part of the fabric of his imagery. He looked at his watch … it was seven. What the hell, he had nothing else to do. So, without another thought, he went into the small washroom, shaved with his electric razor, applied after-shave lotion, combed his thick auburn hair, changed into a clean shirt (which he always kept a number of in the office), then quickly left. Once out in the street, he felt slightly better at least. On the way toward Montgomery Street, he thought maybe he would have Dom come home from summer school so they could be together, but just as quickly, he dismissed the thought as being selfish. Besides, what would happen when he had to be away on business. It would mean Dom would be alone during the day if he were to take him along. He’d just have to accept things as they were and God only knew how long Catherine would be away, or more to the point, what her final intentions were. Maybe she would decide on a permanent separation and stay in New Orleans, knowing how much she missed her own people. She had always thought of that as home. Okay, Dominic, that’s enough, trying to second-guess life. Just go have a few drinks and get a little high … or better still, even plastered. He entered the building and got into the elevator, where he pressed the button to the penthouse. When the doors opened, it seemed to him that the immediate world was present. He heard his name being called above the sounds of voices and laughter, “Dominic, come over here,” Lawrence Henricks called out as he held a glass of champagne in his hand. Dominic weaved through the crowd. When he approached, Henricks said, “I’m glad to see you, Dom … thought you were busy tonight.”

  “I … was, but my conference ended much earlier than I expected.”

  “Glad you could make it … here, let me see if I can get you a drink … scotch, bourbon, champagne?”

  “Bourbon on the rocks, please.”

  “Good enough.” With that, he was away.

  Soon Dominic found a glass in his hand, served by a Negro waiter. As he started to walk toward the windows, he was stopped by a dozen different people, exchanged a few brief hellos, glad to see you, what’s new … fine, fine … fine … thanks … thanks. He smiled his best smile, but inside he had never felt more alone in his life. Finally, he stood staring out at the panoramic view. Fleetingly, he thought, this building wasn’t here when I was a kid growing up in North Beach, imagine, how the city had changed … just about as much as my life has changed, Dominic thought, but he was brought up sharply. “Enjoying the view, Mr. Rossi?” He turned around and saw Victoria Lang, beautiful as ever … her hair was soft blonde, streaked with golden highlights, worn simply. Her figure, slim with just enough fullness above to make it exquisitely feminine, as indeed she was. The white raw silk suit embellished the fine creamy texture of her suntanned face and her eyes were amber, the color of warm brandy. She was thirty-five and divorced six years, which to all outward appearances, seemed to have left no scars. She was a junior partner of the firm, having won her priorities the hard way, in spite of the fact her father was Lawrence J. Henricks, a name she no longer carried and which, in a sense, pleased her since she no longer felt the need to trade on her father’s reputation. Dominic looked at her standing against the background of the city lights that sparkled as she did, and for the first time, he realized how truly exquisite Victoria Lang was. There was a gentility about her … an inbred poise that came from the genes of distinction, but she was also a phenomenon of beauty and brains. She had graduated from Vassar and Stanford, had cut her eyeteeth on the law and could pit her brain against any man while remaining a woman.

  “Yes, I am enjoying the view … it’s really magnificent,” he said, not able to take his eyes from her.

  “I wasn’t sure, you seemed so … well, so lonely, standing here … here, let me refill your glass. What are you drinking?”

  “Bourbon on the rocks.”

  “Now, don’t go away, I’ll be right back, if I can get through this obstacle course,” she said smiling as she left.

  Within minutes she was back and handing Dominic his drink. “Here’s to every happiness in these marvelous surroundings.”

  “Thank you, Dominic, I’ll drink to that.”

  “Congratulations on winning that civil suit last week. Your picture in the paper was lovely.”

  “Thank you, for both compliments … and you’re not doing too badly in the press department either.”

  He laughed and suddenly, he felt happy … or light-headed or something. “That suntan certainly didn’t come from the San Francisco fog … it’s most becoming.”

  “Again, Mr. Rossi, my thanks, but no, I just had a few well-earned days in Hawaii.”

  “Did you enjoy it?”

  “Oh, yes … I adored it, especially Maui.”

  “I know what you mean.”

  “You’ve been there, I take it.”

  “Yes, but not in a long time.”

  “You sound so sad,” she answered lightly.

  “Did I?”

  “Just a little, sort of longing, perhaps … you should go, Dominic.”

  “You’re right, I should … talk about going, what are you doing for dinner this evening?”

  “Nothing.”

  “In that case, may I have the pleasure of taking you to dinner?”

  “I’d love to, this place is getting to sound like Grand Central Station … wait till I get my coat and say good-bye to L.J.”

  “I’ll go with you.”

  “Alright, but don’t push too hard through this crowd or you’ll get stampeded.”

  They had dinner at Trader Vic’s. The food was marvelous, the conversation stimulating, and Victoria Lang was enchanting. Then just as suddenly, his mood changed when it came time to leave; a peculiar loneliness settled over him. When they stood before Victoria’s door, he wanted to ask for a nightcap but thought better of it. Afterward in his room, he found Victoria had not left him … he could almost feel the touch of her hair … smell the haunting fragrance of her perfume … she was such a totally fascinating woman and indeed she was a woman in every sense of the word. He slept badly that night, barely able to control the impulse to call her even at that hour … but of course he didn’t. The next day, he had difficulty concentrating … Victoria Lang was all he could think of.

  No longer able to control the impulse, he finally dialed her number on his private phone. When he was connected, he heard himself saying, “I can’t tell you how much I enjoyed last night.”

  “It’s mutual, Mr. Rossi.”

  “What about tonight, are you busy?”

  “Yes and no.”

  “That wouldn’t stand up in court, Miss Lang. I want an unequivocal yes.”

  “No, Mr. Rossi, but thank you for asking … another time, perhaps.”

  “What do you mean, perhaps … and what do you mean by no … Before, you said yes and no.”

  “Well, I wish to rescind the original yes and no…”

  “
Please, Vicky, I’m really lonely. I’d love you to go to dinner with me … please?”

  “Love, Mr. Rossi? That’s a very strong word, just for dinner.”

  “Stop teasing me … I’m really at loose ends, will you?”

  “Dominic, I really would, if I didn’t have to work on a brief that is very important.”

  “Can’t it wait?”

  Victoria hesitated, then said, “I don’t know why I feel so sorry for you, Mr. Rossi, but I’ll say yes, although you’re interfering with my discipline.”

  “Thank you, Vicky … really. When may I call for you?”

  “Let’s see … say, about seven. And Dominic, it will have to be an early evening because tomorrow is going to be frantic.”

  “Again, thank you.” Dominic hung up like a schoolboy. Excited at seeing Victoria again, he could scarcely wait for seven … and when seven came, he was at Victoria Lang’s apartment, ringing the bell. When he saw her looking so lovely in her cerise silk frock, he wanted to take her in his arms and hold her against him, but that’s where the feeling remained … only wanting.

  He’d never had an affair before. For a moment Catherine crossed his mind. An affair? The thought startled him, making him feel uncomfortable.

  “Dominic, would you be a dear and help yourself to the bar—the ice is in the bucket—while I get the hors d’oeuvres out of the oven,” she said, going to the kitchen. Then she called out, “I’ll have scotch and soda.”

  Dominic poured the drinks and soon Victoria was back, placing the silver plate on the coffee table, in front of the velvet sofa. Dominic handed Victoria her drink and settled back observing the room. It looked just like its mistress. In the most exquisite taste … simple and elegant. The view was much the same as the one he admired last evening.

  “It’s so lovely … the apartment, I mean.”

  “Thank you, Dominic, it’s been such fun doing it.”

  “You have so many talents.”

  “Now, you are flattering me.”

  “No, it’s far from flattery, it’s true. There’s a tranquility and a quietness about this room that makes one forget there are any problems in the world … that’s rare, Victoria.”

 

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