Surrounded by this loyal company I barely even felt the sting of her words.
Ryder looked back and forth between Mrs. Tanner and me and then said in a proud, raised voice, “It’s too late for that. Ivy Pierce may be trouble, but she’s exactly the kind of trouble I’ve been looking for.”
I smiled at him for sticking up for me again and then my grin grew when Chase started clapping and Phoenix hollered a “Preach it.”
Things were still bleak. But not nearly as desolate and depressing as they had been.
Besides, tragedies were always easier to face when you had friends.
Acknowledgments
First to my God, in the land that is plentiful and when I walk through the wilderness, may I always turn back to praise.
To my husband and best friend, Zach, you complete me. Just kidding! I love you. You are an amazing man, and none of this would have ever happened without you, or because of you. Plus you’re a really good kisser.
To my Stella, Scarlett, Stryker and Solo, I love you more than anything. This is all for you.
To my mother, Helen, I couldn’t have asked for a better fan or supporter than you. Your encouragement, support and fix-it-texts mean everything.
To Jennifer “Nate” Nunez, you are a phenomenal editor and fantastic friend. Thank you for helping me make sense, (deleting my parenthesis) and putting up with every long email and run-on text. But most of all, thank you for making me laugh. I couldn’t do this without you.
To Sarah Hansen, thank you for your vision. You see creative in a way I can’t and have genius in a way I never could. Thank you for every cover and every design. I am in love with this one. But then again… I’m in love with all of them!
To Lindsay, Miriah, Bridget, Diana, Brooke and Ashley, you girls are the greatest friends. Thank you for your energy and excitement. Thank you for letting me talk about myself. And thank you for promoting me! You are true friends. You make me feel like a real writer and I can’t thank you enough for that!!
To my Hellcats, Michelle Leighton, Georgia Cates, Shelly Crane, Amy Bartol, Angeline Kace, Samantha Young and Quinn Loftis, I am so beyond blessed to know you ladies. You are the greatest writers I know! Badass, rock stars that dominate this world. Love each and every one of you!
To Jenn Sterling, you inspire me daily. I am so proud of you and amazed by you! Thank you for your friendship and knowing when to call “Seahorse” when you see it.
To Lila Felix, one day soon we will share a table together. I’ll bring the fire extinguisher; you just give me the signal. It’s important we stick together! Also, thanks for being so awesome.
To Andrew James, thank you for creating real beauty out of this. Thank you for putting a soundtrack to my words. I didn’t know what to expect, but what came out of long, confusing emails and your musical genius is so insanely good there are not even words to accurately describe. Thank you for I Believe and thank you for Blackheart. There have never been greater songs.
To Kristen, thank you for supporting this, and your husband. And thank you for playing Just Dance with mine!
And to the reader, each and every reader, thank you so very much for all your support, for buying this book and making it all the way to here. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you and thank God for you!! I seriously have the most amazing fans ever. Thank you!
The Music
While I was writing The Rush, I had the incredible opportunity to work with Andrew James. He is a truly talented musician, based in Omaha. His sound is this raw blues that draws you in and makes you appreciate the authentic sound of genuinely good music. And because he’s so awesome, he agreed to collaborate with me and this series and write some original music.
For The Rush, he gave Ryder a voice, and a sound and he took the concepts talked about in the book and brought them to life.
The first song released for The Rush is called I Believe and is available wherever music is sold, iTunes, Amazon, and Spotify.
The second song, Blackheart, talked about specifically in the book, will be released very soon!
If you enjoyed Ryder and Ivy I hope you take the time to check out the songs!!!
You can find Andrew James on Facebook at The Andrew James
Or on Twitter at @Andr3wJames
About the Author
Rachel Higginson was born and raised in Nebraska, but spent her college years traveling the world. She married her high school sweetheart and spends her days raising their growing family. She is obsessed with bad reality TV and any and all Young Adult Fiction.
The Rush is the first book in The Siren Series.
Look for The Fall, the second book in The Siren Series, coming fall 2013
Other books by Rachel coming out in 2013 are Sunburst, the second book in the Starbright Series, The Relentless Warrior, the sixth book The Star-Crossed Series and Tied to Me, a contemporary romance.
Other Books Out Now by Rachel Higginson:
Reckless Magic (The Star-Crossed Series, Book 1)
Hopeless Magic (The Star-Crossed Series, Book 2)
Fearless Magic (The Star-Crossed Series, Book 3)
Endless Magic (The Star-Crossed Series, Book 4)
The Reluctant King (The Star-Crossed Series, Book 5)
Starbright (The Starbright Series, Book 1)
Bet in the Dark (A Contemporary NA book)
Follow Rachel on her blog at:
www.rachelhigginson.blogspot.com
Or on Twitter:
@mywritesdntbite
Or on her Facebook pages:
Rachel Higginson
Or
Reckless Magic
Keep Reading for an Excerpt from Rachel’s new contemporary romance Bet in the Dark, a never before seen chapter from Lila Felix’s Down N’ Derby and a chapter from Shelly Crane’s newest Wide Awake.
Chapter One
I blamed this on Kelly Clarkson.
On Kelly-Freaking-Clarkson.
The angry man standing across the kitchen island looked like he was about to throttle me. I had visions of large hands gripped firmly around my neck shaking me like a rubber chicken. His eyes flashed with frustration and I cursed Kelly Clarkson straight to the grave.
Things started out so good this morning, so unbelievably, unnaturally good. I should have known better. But at the time, I woke up in my bed to the powerful chords Kelly Clarkson belting through my radio alarm, and laid there for the length of the song just to let her words sink in.
Stronger.
In fact I started to think Kelly Clarkson was a genius. And like maybe we were soul sisters that survived something awful but came out on the other side of it stronger. I started to think maybe she got me….
Because the bed did feel warmer, and I dreamt in color again. I never felt lonely when I was alone anymore and really I was standing taller. Kelly Clarkson had it all figured out.
Well “was” as in the seriously past tense because with monster-man looming over me, pissed off and yelling about money he wanted and I definitely did not have, I wasn’t standing taller anymore. I was shrinking slowly into what I assumed would soon be the fetal position.
But this morning, even as the warm sun sifted through my bedroom window and heated my exposed skin, everything seemed possible. I felt strong enough to get out of bed today and conquer the world- or at least the closest Starbucks and my Econ class.
Which come on, that’s close enough right?
And even though last week I missed a seriously important pop quiz in my post-break-up-cowering phase and now my grade was in some trouble…. and then it started raining and I happened to be wearing a white t-shirt and red bra. Who does that by the way? Me apparently, in my Kelly-Clarkson-gave-me-the-strength-to-be-a-skank-mood. And then even after I came home to my roommate on her way out, for what at the time she promised was just a bite to eat even though she was two months behind on her share of the rent, I believed today was the start of better things to come.
All thanks to Kelly Clarkson.
After setting my purse down on the kitchen counter because the entry hall table that I usually placed it on had been moved, I started to wonder if maybe Kelly Clarkson lied to me.
Well, Ok, that’s not exactly true. First I wondered if I was hallucinating. And then I ran through the possibility of being robbed, but my roommate’s casual departure quickly negated that idea.
I blinked. And blinked again. And then blinked so hard tears formed in the corners of my eyes and I felt like I was trying to be the second coming of I Dream of Jeannie. If I willed all of my furniture and belongings to reappear, they would.
But they didn’t.
And that was just the start of my disappointment.
Then there was the letter…. The one calmly explaining my roommate had a clinically diagnosed gambling addiction, and was thousands of dollars in debt. She explained that she had to sell the furniture, my furniture, to pay for rehab. Her family insisted on it. She had a real problem. A real problem. And I needed to understand that anything she had done to hurt me was her addiction and not the real her.
Well her addiction wasn’t going to replace all of my furniture.
Her addiction wasn’t going to come up with the other half of my rent!
And her addiction really wasn’t going to explain to the man across the kitchen yelling at me that no matter who he thought I was, I did not owe him seven thousand dollars!!
I picked up the handwritten letter of crazy with a shaky hand and held it out to him.
“What’s this?” He paused in his tirade to take the half sheet of torn notebook paper. I noticed my Biology notes on the back of the paper for the first time. Seriously, she couldn’t even use her own paper???
“Um, see? I’m not the one that owes you money,” I sounded confident, but inside I was a trembling, terrified puddle. And on second thought, maybe I didn’t sound quite so confident….
“Who’s Tara?” he grunted after skimming the note quickly.
“My roommate,” I said simply and then thought better of it. “My ex-roommate. She’s moved on to group therapy and the twelve steps apparently.”
“And who are you?” he asked carefully. His eyes swept over me in a way that made me feel like he had x-ray vision and suddenly I felt very vulnerable and very naked.
Ok, more vulnerable.
And not really naked.
But feeling more vulnerable was a hard emotion to feel since he elbowed his way in here not even ten minutes ago and started shouting at me and threatening all kinds of legal action and at times bodily harm.
“I’m uh, wait a second! Who are you? You’re in my apartment!” I dug deep for some courage. I slammed my fists to my hips and tilted my chin in my best I-mean-business pose.
“Don’t get cute with me.” He sneered. I wanted to explain that I wasn’t being cute; I was being tenacious but decided to stay silent when his full upper lip curled in frustration and his dark, chocolate brown eyes narrowed. “I’m the guy you owe seven thousand dollars!”
Ugh, he was still stuck on this! I cleared my throat and tried again, “How could I possibly owe you seven thousand dollars? I’ve never even met you before! I don’t even know your name.”
“You’re really going to stick with this whole doe-eyed-innocent act?” he scoffed unkindly. He walked forward and placed two meaty hands on the kitchen counter slowly, like he was weighing his strength against a fragile surface. His broad shoulders tensed and stiffened and his entire body went rigid with frustration. I almost felt bad for him.
Almost.
But then I remembered I was not that person anymore. No more pity for people that didn’t deserve it. No more sacrificing my time and money and energy for people that would just screw me over when they got what they wanted. This was the new me. The stronger me. The me that was soul sisters with Kelly Clarkson. The I-get-what-I-want-me! And right now, I seriously wanted this guy out of my life, or at the very least out of my apartment.
“I’m not innocent,” I spat back with my arms crossed firmly against my chest and my hip jutting out. I realized that maybe that wasn’t my best defense but I pushed forward. “And I’m not doe-eyed!”
His face suddenly opened up in some shock and his lips kind of twitched like he was holding back a laugh. “I can’t believe this.” He rubbed two hands over his face in a sign of exhaustion and turned his back on me.
With his body more relaxed I saw him almost in a new light. He was less macho-Neanderthal in
this posture and more holy-sexy-back-muscles-batman. Obviously the disaster that was my last boyfriend did a number on me if I was checking out the confused hit man pacing back and forth in my kitchen. I mean honestly, fantasizing about what his back could potentially look like under his thin t-shirt was seriously clinical right? Maybe Tara wasn’t the only one that needed medical observation and group therapy.
“I think there has been some miscommunication,” I ventured, now that he was somewhat
relaxed. “You think I am someone that owes you money, but I am not. Do I look like a drug addict to you?”
He swung his head back around to face me. “You think I’m a drug dealer?”
“Seven thousand dollars is a lot of money,” I sniffed.
“Yes, it is. And you think the only way to go that much in debt is by drugs?” His eyes widened in
disbelief.
Now that he was even calmer I noticed his face wasn’t necessarily menacing, but more chiseled and dignified. Actually when his dark eyes weren’t bugging out of his head in rage, he looked more like a Calvin Klein model than Tony Soprano…. And his hands weren’t so much meaty as they were just large and connected to very defined arms. And Ok, originally I was under the impression that his neck was the size of a redwood, but now that I was really paying attention it was more like just a very strong, carved out piece of art, attached to an equally and artfully sculpted body. And then to top it off, he had great hair. I just needed to admit that. He had amazing hair. Hair that I was instantly jealous of! Dark, rich coffee colored hair that matched his eyes. Short on the sides, and just a little bit longer on top, it was stylish and trendy, not at all ex-military-renegade-private-security like I originally associated him with.
Wait a minute, I didn’t think I liked that he was attractive…. more than attractive, hotter than hot attractive. When I finally took in the scruffy growth across his jaw that partially hid too full lips, I wanted to roll my eyes. Who was this guy?
“Well, it’s one of the ways,” I huffed impatiently.
He cocked his head back, seemingly surprised with my answer. “I actually have no argument for that. You’re right, drugs is one way to go into that much debt.” I smirked at him, momentarily satisfied until I realized he was really a drug lord and he thought I was his client! A client that owed him money! “But that’s not why you owe me money. I’m not a drug dealer.”
Oh whew. Sure, I knew that.
“Ok, are you a bill collector then? Because I don’t even have a credit card. Well, I have one credit card, but it’s for emergencies only and I’ve never used it. Besides, it only has like a fifteen hundred dollar limit on it. And it’s actually in my brother’s name.” I was growing more impatient the longer he stared at me. It was like all of the anger that propelled him into my apartment to begin with had evaporated somewhere between drug dealer and bill collector. Now his chocolate eyes were lit with amusement and his mouth was doing that annoying twitching thing again. “And my roommate gets calls from debt collectors all the time. Phone calls- have you heard of those? You seriously did not need to come all the way over here; I could have explained this to you over the phone.”
“I’m not a bill collector either.”
This time I could tell he was laughing at me. The corners of his eyes crinkled with humor and he held his hands up, palms out as if to stop me from guessing anymore. But I wasn’t finished. If he wasn’t a hit man, drug dealer or bill collector but wanted seven thousand dollars from me that left only on
e option.
I gasped, “Oh my gosh, is this about prostitution? Oh my goodness, are you a pimp?” I shrieked and backed up three steps.
“What?” he burst out in a bark of confusion. “Are you into prostitution?”
“What? Me? Do I look like a prostitute?” I was back to being angry; narrowed eyes, hands cocked on my hips, scowl tightening my expression.
“Well, no, honestly, you look more like a missionary,” he shrugged a casual shoulder and let his eyes travel over me.
“A missionary!” I spit the word out like it burned me. I clutched at my gray infinity scarf that covered my black and white cowl neck long sleeve tee. Ok, maybe it was a little conservative…. but he seriously did not need to confuse modesty with missionary.
“Would you rather look like a prostitute?” He asked, his stupid dark brown eyes laughing at me.
“Why in the world would you think that?” I demanded. This conversation had the disorienting feel that we were going backwards instead of forwards and I started to feel dizzy from all the circles and the way his mouth quirked up when he was trying not to laugh.
Wait, scratch that. I was only dizzy from the conversation!
“Listen, honesty, I don’t care what you are, I just want my money,” some of his amusement faded and a wave of exhaustion flashed across his face.
“So this isn’t about prostitution?” I asked, just to clarify. It was kind of important that this wasn’t about prostitution.
“If you’re not a prostitute and I’m not a pimp how in the hell could this be about prostitution?” he rumbled.
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