“You can be a fucking asshole. If you for one second can get your head out of your ass, and talk to her. I mean talk not be an asshole, talk to her, maybe you will see…”
“Fuck off, I don’t need to do shit.” I cut him off. How fucking dare he stand in front of me and think I have to listen to him?
“Cash, I would never do that! Fuck man, I honestly thought it was for the best and I know now that what I… we did was wrong. We shouldn’t have kept you in the dark.” He’s backtracking now. He knows how fucking pissed I am and that he’s pushed me too fucking far.
“I’m going out; I need to get some air. Call Tanner and see what he says about this shipment coming in. Also see if he’s heard anything about where that bastard Colin is.” I walk into my room and change into my sweats and running shoes. I’m going for a run. I need to get out of this house and away from them.
***
I was wrong, that makes a fucking change. I should never have called her a bitch and I should never have said they were sleeping together. I’m glad that they had each other and grew close but I’m fucking raging that they even thought it was a good idea to keep me in the dark. I’ll forgive them eventually. But right now, this hurt that I’m feeling isn’t going away any time soon. The best thing is to keep out of their way until I can finally get rid of this anger.
Argos wasn’t in the sitting room when I came back from my run and I can only assume that he was with Lucy. I hear a cell ringing as I make my way to the shower. Hopefully that is Tanner with some fucking information, as I need to kill someone. It will help me get this anger out of me.
The door to the bathroom slowly opens and Lucy is standing there wearing a different dress and she looks fucking gorgeous, but I need to stay the hell away from her. The last time we touched I fucked her so hard she pulled her stitches loose. “Cash, did you mean what you said to Argos? That I’m a heartless bitch?” Her voice is low but I can still hear her perfectly clear and she starts to wring her hands together.
I turn on the shower and turn back to stare at her. I don’t know what she wants from me. This is why I didn’t do relationships, things were so much better when it was just a one-time thing. “You want to know the truth?” She nods but is looking down at her hands as she shifts her weight from one foot to the other. “You’ve changed; the woman that I fell in love with was innocent and pure. I get that you’ve been through a lot, but to hide that you’re alive and then to do it so I can kill people; it’s not you.”
She laughs but it’s one filled with sadness, “You know you are the only thing that has kept me going. Knowing that you loved me, knowing that no matter what you’d find me. Each time I’ve been taken you’ve been there to find me and every time I break you’ve been there to catch me. I thought that I was doing the right thing and in doing so I hurt the one person in this world who I love more than life itself.” Fuck, I can’t hear this. I need to be mad and angry at her but fuck, she’s killing me and I’m barely hanging on to not fucking her again.
“Cash…” Fuck the way she says my name, I lose that last bit of thread. I walk over to her and press my hand against the door, closing it in the process. “Cash…” Her whispery voice goes straight to my groin and my dick stands at full salute.
I lean down and press my lips on hers. They’re soft and cool and I know it’s from her tears but fuck they’re so kissable and I can’t stop; she’s my addiction. I feel her hands move up my body toward my hair and I take a hold of them stopping them in their tracks. She pushes hard against the grip I have on her and we somehow end up moving around. Fuck this, I need more; a hell of a lot more.
I wind her hands up above her head as I walk her toward the shower. The kiss has turned frantic as I consume her mouth. I own her at this moment in time. She walks further backward into the shower. The cascading water hits us and I break the kiss only to take that fucking dress off her body. She lifts her arms up so I can take the dress off her; she’s not wearing a bra or panties. “Were you naked under that dress the whole time?”
I watch as she blushes and that gives me the answer, she was! I don’t say anything else to her, but I don’t do what I should and walk away. Instead I pull my t-shirt off, followed by my sweatpants. Lucy’s eyes are drawn to my boxers and the large bulge that is confined in them. I take them off, my eyes haven’t left Lucy’s face but she’s fixated on my cock. I smirk as I move closer to her and lift her and place her pussy on my cock. She gasps as I roughly enter her, this isn’t for her to get off. I’m being the selfish one now as I move in and out of her, she begins to moan and it sends me into a frenzy. I start to fuck her with hard painful strokes; this is my way of punishing her.
It doesn’t take long for me to reach my climax. I know that she’s close but I don’t let her finish. I cum inside of her in one long inward stroke. She lets out a whimper as I pull out of her and put her on her feet. I feel like shit, but it is what it is and there’s nothing I can do to change the fact that I don’t trust her and I’m still fucking mad at her. She had a great speech, but that’s all it was until I’m ready to move on and forgive them.
I turn around and wash myself. She hasn’t said anything at all since. I don’t turn around to comfort her as I can hear her crying over the sound of the water. As soon as I’m finished, I leave her in the shower and make my way out of the bathroom and into my bedroom. I lie on the bed just wanting to crash.
***
I finally managed to get some decent sleep, well compared to the past few months it’s decent. I pull on some jeans. I need a damn drink. Fuck, the way I’m treating Lucy is shit, but I can’t help it. I’m so mad and it’s the only way I’m able to function. She’s my addiction and I want her constantly but I hate her at the same time. It’s a fucked-up situation and there has to be something to make it better. I can’t keep doing this to her, I’ll break her if I do.
I see Lucy sitting in the hall. Back to the wall and her legs stretched out in front of her, eyes to my bedroom door. “Cash, I fucked up and I made a mistake. One that I will live with for the rest of my life.” Big, fat, tears are falling down her face and the guilt is very much alive inside of me. “I need you more than I need the air that I breathe, I’m begging you. Please, forgive me?” The sobs that wrack her body are too much for me to take. “Please?”
I slide down the wall next to her and lift her into my lap. “Lucy, God.” I bury my face into her wet hair as she continues to sob in my arms. “Fuck, please stop crying I can’t take it.” She winds her arms around my neck as the sobs begin to subside.
“Cash, please, will you forgive me? I truly am sorry.” She sounds as though she’s going to cry again.
“I know and I’m sorry for treating you badly.”
I hear footsteps coming closer to us but I don’t look at Argos as this conversation is more important than what he has to say. “Do you really forgive me?” She sounds like a broken child and I pull her closer to me.
“I forgive you, but that being said I don’t know how easy it will be to forget.” I feel her nod against me. “I’m going to try though.”
“Thank you.” She presses a kiss against my throat and damn she’s making me hard again. She lifts her head and I see the tear stained cheeks and the red eyes, but she’s still the sexiest woman I’ve ever seen.
I lean down and press a kiss against her soft lips and I feel her smile as I do. A cough has her jumping away from my lips and looking toward Argos before hiding her face into my neck once again. “What’s up?” I ask him, my tone annoyed. Why the hell would you interrupt this moment?
“Tanner called, he has info and he wants to talk to all of us. So, conference call’s whenever you’re ready.” He’s in a pissy mood and he better take it elsewhere.
I lift Lucy of my lap and stand. As soon as I’m standing her stomach starts to rumble and she starts to blush. I don’t say anything about it and start to move when she takes my hand and we walk into the sitting room. Argos clocks it as soon as we wal
k in. “Okay, call him and let’s get this over with. Lucy’s hungry.”
He looks to Lucy as we sit down and I smell the vanilla in her hair; this, I’ve fucking missed this. He looks happy but at the same time he looks like someone has killed his puppy. What’s his problem? He sets the cell on speaker as it’s calling Tanner. Lucy curls up onto my lap and I see that she is really tired. I wouldn’t be surprised if she falls asleep.
“Hello Argos,” Damn, is he drunk?
“Tanner, Hades and Lucy are with me.” Argos tells him and I stare at the fucker. Is he completely fucking stupid? They faked her death that is a fucking criminal offence!
“Good. Lucy, I heard you’ve met Raphael St. Clair or Sousa, whichever name the fucker is using?” Tanner says and I was wrong. He’s not drunk he’s overworked by the sounds of things.
Lucy shifts in my lap, “Yes, I met him. He’s going by St. Clair.” She’s polite but defensive. She doesn’t want to talk to him and neither do I. I thought he didn’t want to talk to anyone but Argos.
“Hmm thought so. Hades, you want to know about the shipment that is incoming?” Does he have to ask stupid fucking questions?
“Yes.” I reply gruffly. I hate answering questions especially questions from a cop.
“Okay so word on the street is there are two shipments coming in tomorrow. We’re not sure the exact times. Are you’re sure that it’s a shipment of girls that is coming?” Again, with the fucking stupid question.
Argos can see that both Lucy and I are pissed off with this line of questioning and cuts him short. “Yes, we’re positive that it’s a shipment of girls.”
“Neither shipment is coming via a shipping yard. One is stopping at the Rock Creek Park Trails and the other is at Anacostia Park Section F. We’ve heard that they’re coming in at the same time and that they both contain drugs. This could be true and the girls could be on a different shipment.” Tanner tells us and it’s going to be one hell of a job trying to get the girls when the cops are going to be around.
“Okay, thanks. Do you have anything else?” Argos asks. His eyes on Lucy, whose weight is getting heavier. I don’t need to look down to see that she’s almost asleep.
“Henry Colin will be making his way into DC in the next few days. He has a meeting with Raphael and we can only assume that they’re going to discuss your girl, Hades.” We hear talking in the background, seems as though Tanner is wanted. “Got to go. If you find the girls, call me.” He ends the call and I’m left staring at Argos confused as hell.
“Check out all three spots. Raphael spoke in Portuguese in hopes that Lucy didn’t understand him. Why would he go to all that trouble to speak in another language if he was going to lie? Watch the sites and see if there is any suspicious activity. I’m taking her to bed. If you find anything, wake me.” I stand with Lucy in my arms.
“I know what to do, you don’t have to tell me how to do my job!” The fucker responds with his pissed of attitude.
“Hmm, doesn’t seem like it. How about you stick to your computers and doing what you’re good at, and I’ll stick to keeping Lucy safe.”
“Sure thing, Boss.” He’s being sarcastic. I’m not his damn boss.
I ignore his last remark moving toward my bedroom and put her into my bed. I take off my jeans and look over at her sleeping form. As I get into bed with her I make her a promise, one that I intend to keep. “You’re mine Lucy, and I’m not letting you out of my sight again. No one is going to hurt you, I’ll die first.” I kiss her hair and listen to her breathing as she sleeps. “I love you Lucy.”
Chapter 9
Lucy
I feel a hand on me and I feel it moving up my body. I feel sick as I feel another hand on me moving up the other side of my body. Even more hands join and I want to scream. I open my eyes and take in a deep breath. It was a stupid nightmare! The same nightmare that has haunted me every night since I was shot.
Looking round the room, I’m in Cash’s room. I sit up in bed, turning to see Cash fast asleep. There’s nothing in this room except for the bed we’re on and a chest of drawers for his clothes. Typical Cash, he doesn’t make roots.
Walking out of the room, I head down the stairs toward a light I look over to where the light is coming from and I can see Argos sleeping on the couch with four laptop screens facing him. If only Cash gave him or me the chance to explain why our friendship got so close. Maybe then he would understand, but I don’t see that happening just yet.
Cash’s words still hurt me, ‘turned her into a heartless bitch’. He says he forgives me but is that because he really does or is it because I was crying so much? I don’t know and at the moment I don’t care. I’m sick of always fighting with him. I hate it and fighting with him always leads to tears.
I walk over to Argos and place a blanket over him. I take a quick look at the screens. One is some sort of map with a circle on it which tells me that he has someone pinned. Two of them are just of code running on the screen. I turn and look at the last one.My body goes cold when I see the images from the worst night of my life being replayed. What the hell is he doing watching that? Is he trying to get a facial recognition on the men?
Walking away from the laptops I head to the kitchen. I need a drink, a very strong drink. I see that shit in my sleep every night, I don’t need to see it when I’m awake. I want to talk to Ruby. I miss her so much, I haven’t spoke to her once since all this happened. Does she still think that I’m dead, or did Argos tell her that I’m alive? I want to talk to my dad too as I want to know how mom is.
I hear a noise from one of the other rooms and my heart skips a beat. My mind goes into auto-pilot. Quickly and as quietly as I can, I grab the knife off the counter. I stop and listen carefully to the footsteps, hearing them get closer to me. I peek out of the corner of my eyes and see Argos is still sleeping. I can hear the footsteps get closer and in one quick movement I turn and swing the knife around. But my arm is grabbed in a tight grip and my body relaxes just a little.
“You’re fast.” Cash whispers as he takes the knife out of my hold.
“Not fast enough, they still took me.” I say turning back around. I’ve learned a lot since I was shot, but being taken yet again proves that I need to learn a lot more.
“I rolled over to hug you and you were gone,” Cash wraps his arms round me from behind, I love the feeling of his warm body wrapped around mine, “talk to me.”
“I haven’t slept since it all happened, sleeping is just so hard.” I look over at Argos, “You might hate him at the moment, but he was there for me especially the nights when it was bad. He would answer the phone no matter what time of night it was. There were some nights it was so bad that once I put the phone down he would be at the house to make sure I was okay.” Turning around to face Cash.
His voice is tight and I feel as though I’m doing more harm than good by telling him. “I always thought he went to go see Ruby.”
“He did some nights but the night that I only saw black in front of me he would call and bring in some color. He gave me something else to think about. There would be times he knew I missed you so much that it hurt; he knew all I wanted to do was to hear your voice. So he would call me while you were talking just so I could hear your voice. Those were the best days for me, just listening to you.”
Cash just stares at me his eyes not leaving mine. I want to know what he is thinking. What the hell is going through his head right now? “Why are you not sleeping?” he asks. I already knew this question would come and as much as I don’t want to talk about it I know he wants to know.
“Cash you called me a heartless bitch…”
“I said that out of anger…”
“You’re not far off Cash. I’m not that sweet kindergarten teacher that only saw rainbows and unicorns, not anymore. All I see now is blood and guns. I’m never going to be the girl you fell in love with again. Never, and I’m scared that in this world I’m going to lose any color that I did have in me. You think we
didn’t tell you about me because we wanted to hurt you? No, Argos did this because he knew how much you loved me and how much you would want revenge. The sooner you did it, the sooner we would be together again.”
I look over at Argos. “He didn’t know about Raphael. You didn’t know about him, no one knew about him. How was anyone meant to protect me from a man no one knew about?” I stop and look at him for a moment. He wants to know what is going on in my head so I’m telling him. This is the first time since we have gotten back together that he is listening to me, that he wants to talk and I want him to hear why we did this.
“What do you dream about, Lucy?” He asks again. I know that he’s not ready to forgive Argos and I think that is going to come between them. I can’t fix that as much as I want to; I can’t.
I look down at the floor as a tear pools from my eye and a shiver runs through my body. I remember what they took from me. I feel Cash lifting my chin, “Have you told Argos?” My body goes stiff. I don’t want to piss him off more than he already is with him, “I’m not asking because I’m going to get angry, I’m asking because I want to know if it helped talking to him.”
“Cash, I love you. I love you so much that not being able to touch you was killing me, Argos saw that. You being with me again; it is the best thing in this world and I can see a start of the rainbow that I lost. The color you give me is all I need.” My hand moves over to his face and run it over his stubble.
“Talking to Argos helped but you have to remember that he loves you and did this for you.” Closing my eyes, I can’t keep running away from his question. I need to give him an answer about what my nightmares are. “When I fall into a deep sleep, I feel hands on me. Then more hands and their mouths. God their mouths. My body goes cold, and… The only hands that should have ever touched me are yours. I should be closing my eyes, and only thinking about your hands touching me,” I say through tears, “but they took that away from me, they took…”
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