"I know baby. I promise it'll never happen again. I won’t even look at another girl!"
The sight of her crying had tears streaming down my face. I never knew someone could love me as much as she did besides my mother. She loved me so much, and I could tell it physically hurt her to know I cheated on her. "If I could take it back Nic I would, baby."
She continued to cry. "Let me go Kendrick. I don't want you anymore!" she sobbed.
"Don't say that baby. This is one mistake. I'll never make a mistake again! I promise don't, leave me baby," I begged like a nigga on death row while kissing her neck.
She started to try to push me off again, and I wouldn't let her.
"You cheated on me while I was here cooking for you and taking care of our baby! You don't love me! I just had our baby a month ago and you already fucking around! I can't do this, Kendrick!! Why didn't you leave me alone at the party?! Why did you make me love you?! I hate you!" she cried, and her words stabbed me in the heart.
"Nic don't ever say that again. I love you more than anything!"
"You couldn't even wait until I healed! You had to fuck someone else! You're worse than Michael! I didn't love him like I love you!" she cried. Her body jerked at how hard she was crying. I was speechless and continued to hold her tight. I sat up a bit to look her in the face, and it was wet by all the tears. "Kendrick, it's me Nic, how could you do this to me? I thought I was it for you. That’s what you said."
I stared at her with tears streaming down my face. "You are, Nic. Baby I swear on everything, if you give me another chance I will never do nothing like this again!"
She didn't respond and just cried. I held her until we fell asleep.
***
I woke up around 3 am, panicking because she wasn't in my bed. All her stuff was there, but Nic didn't care about this shit. She would leave with the clothes on her back. I hopped up and ran into my son's room. She was sitting in the chair in his room, sleep in tights and a sports bra. I kissed my son and picked her up. I carried her to my room and cuddled up behind her.
"Why did you mess us up?!" she asked in a low tone.
"I didn't mean to baby. It'll never happen again," I said, hugging her from behind.
"I know, because we are done," she said and went to sleep.
I was up half the night with tears in my eyes thinking about her last sentence to me. I prayed to God she didn't mean that.
***
I woke up and smelled cinnamon pancakes, cream of wheat, peppered bacon, and eggs. I came down stairs to see KJ in his swinger and Nic cooking in a tight skirt and top. I was a damn fool, but I be damned if I let her get away.
"Can I have some?" I asked, already knowing the answer. She ignored me. "Tell your mommy to stop being mean to your daddy," I joked with KJ. She put a plate in front of me and ignored my comment.
KJ started laughing "What are you laughing at, baby?!" she said in a kiddie voice. She looked so pretty. She poured me some juice, and took the baby out of the kitchen.
I ate and brushed my teeth, then went to KJ's room where she was laying him down. She walked past me and went to the bathroom. Before she could close the door good, I came inside.
"Kendrick. What?!" she said irritated.
"You gon’ leave me?" I asked.
"I told you I don't want you," she said, putting on mascara.
I grabbed her small body and began tonguing her down. She snatched her face away.
"Go kiss that bitch," she spat.
"You my bitch," I said, holding her hands behind her back and kissing her neck. She tried to squirm.
"No! You don't get to cheat on me and then have me!" she said, tearing up and pushed me off. "I'm moving out once I get a job." She was pissing me off at this point.
"No the fuck you not Nic! You and my baby staying right here! You my woman and you gon’ be my wife! We getting married Friday so get ready!" I said as I grabbed her ass and kissed her lips. Tears streamed her pretty face, and she left the bathroom. I punched the wall and plopped down on the closed toilet. I didn't know what to say or do to make her forgive me.
Chapter Seven: Nic
I was so fucking depressed. When Kendrick told me he fucked that hoe, all I heard was what Jessica told me. It was like my worst nightmare had come true. I always thought I wasn't good enough to keep Kendrick happy. Niggas like Kendrick were used to girls who were built like brick houses and stripped for a living. Me on the other, I had small but perky breasts, a small plump butt, and nice toned legs. I was by no means skinny, but thick was not used to describe me; more so slim thick. I was small, but I had meat on my bones. I was always used to niggas falling out over me and just knew when Kendrick did, it was too good to be true. I already had his name tatted on my lower back. Smh. I was dizzy for this nigga. I didn't want to mention this to my friends out of embarrassment. We'd only been together a little over a year and he was already stepping out.
I stood up in the mirror to look myself over. I had on a yellow tight short skirt and the matching tight crop top. I was barefoot because I wasn't going anywhere, but I had my make-up and hair done just in case. I heard Kendrick come in the room, so I starting looking on my phone. He looked gorgeous. His body was cut the fuck up, but not on no body builder shit. His toffee skin was so smooth and blemish free. He always kept a fresh haircut.
"You look beautiful Nic, I forgot to tell you," he said, staring at me and looking sexy as hell with one of his hands holding his towel up around his waist. I ignored him. He exhaled heavily and walked over to his dresser.
"What am I not doing?" I finally asked, not taking my eyes off my phone. I could see that he turned to look at me.
"What you mean?"
"Well you claim to love me but you cheated on me early as hell into the relationship. I mean, it hasn't even been two years and you cheated on me. And weeks after having our baby. So I'm just curious, what was I not doing to make you do that?"
After putting on his boxers he walked over to me. "Nic, baby please don't blame yourself for my dumb shit. You're perfect. I slept with Paris because although I love you, I've never really had consequences of sleeping with any woman I wanted." I frowned and shook my head. This nigga was irritating me.
"I'm not done. But after I did it, so much guilt and disgust for myself came over me. That's never happened. I've had lil chicks here and there that I would maybe call my girl, but when I fucked around on them I didn't feel bad about it. With you, I felt like shit. And the feeling I have now especially that you…Uh…You may not take me back is just not something I like. I don't think I can live without you. I never understood how niggas would be begging for a bitch to take them back, but now I see. I'm begging you, Nic. Please, baby girl. I need you. Nothing is wrong with you, you're perfect. Too good for me, which is why I'm trying to hold on to you," he finished.
I was crying so hard. "They told me I wouldn't be enough for you. And I didn't believe them, but now I see," I replied. I stood up to leave, and he hemmed me up against the wall. "Move Kendrick. I want to be alone right now."
"Who said you wouldn't be enough for me?" he frowned.
"People! Girls!" I yelled, not wanting to give him names.
"Them muthafuckas don't know what's good enough for me. Only person that knows that is me. If you wasn't good enough I would’ve never approached you or asked you to be wife, baby girl. I wouldn't be trying to get you back, nor getting you pregnant," he said, looking into my eyes. "Next time a bitch say some dumb shit like that, flash ‘em your engagement ring," he smiled.
"Well you're not doing a good job of proving them wrong," I said, almost in a whisper.
"Nic. I'm sorry. I need you baby," he said in a low tone, kissing my neck and hugging my waist tightly.
I hated when he did this. He knew I was weak for him. I finally stopped resisting. He towered over me and kissed my lips. I allowed him to dip his tongue in and out of my mouth. I hated that I loved him so much. We kissed and kissed long and hard, like we hadn't see
n each other in days.
"Promise me you'll stay with me, baby. I need you," he said in between kisses.
I couldn't let him off that easy. I pushed him off me. He grabbed me back, squeezed my ass, and kissed my neck from behind.
"Don't take too long or I'm coming to get you back. I need you. We love each other, don't throw this away. I won't let you," he said in a low tone.
For the rest of the day, all I heard was him telling me he needed me. He needed me. I was breaking already, and I hated it. I needed him too, but I didn't want to. He came back later that day with Nic Amyah tatted on his neck. Fuck, I love his ass, but if he thought he was gon’ fuck around on me and just plead his love to get me back, he had another thing coming.
Chapter Seven: Kendrick
Nic was really not fucking with me. I could feel me breaking her down little by little though, thank God. It had been three weeks, and the most I got would be a damn kiss on the lips, in which she would push me off her after a couple seconds. I even barged into the shower with her, and she only let me watch her wash off and gave me no pussy.
Tonight I decided to take her out to dinner. I had planned how I was gon’ get Trenton's ass, so I had plenty of time to dedicate to my baby girl. As far as Trenton, I waited awhile ‘cause I knew he'd be on his P's & Q's right after Kayden was shot, and I needed him to be chilling thinking everything was cool. He hit me up a couple times and I played the part, but this nigga had it coming.
I walked into the living room and sat down. I had on some fresh jeans, Louboutin sneakers, and a V-neck with a blazer. My wrists and neck were iced out too. KJ was in his swinger staring at me with his bright jade green eyes we both had.
"What you looking at homie!?" I joked and frowned up. He started to laugh and drool on his clothes. He had on a thermal top with jeans and some Jordans.
"No! Little man, if your mommy sees drool on your fit she gon’ be mad at both of us!" I said as I quickly dabbed his little chin with a tissue. "You been putting in a good word for me right?" I said as I picked him up.
"No he hasn't," Nic responded, coming down the stairs.
She had on a skirt that flared out at the thigh showing her toned thighs, a turtleneck that was a crop top and long-sleeved, and some stilettos. Her hair was pressed down in Aaliyah's style, and she had on red lipstick with big hoop earrings.
"Damn. Nic, you look beautiful," I said in a low tone. She flashed her pearly whites, I kissed her, and we headed out.
We arrived at this Italian restaurant, and it was real upscale. Thank God KJ was a well-behaved baby. He was so caught up in staring at the people that he didn't act up.
"Thank you for coming babe," I said, looking in her eyes.
"You're welcome."
I was holding her hand and playing with her engagement ring. "I'm glad you put this back on."
"Well if you do good, it may stay on," she half smiled.
We ordered our food and got these huge lasagna dishes. Thank God, because I was starved.
"Your baby is so well behaved!" the waitress commented.
"Thank you!" Nic and I replied in unison.
"Nic, I hope that you forgive me babe. I will never hurt you again. I just need another chance," I told her as she put a bib on KJ.
"Kendrick, I just feel like we shouldn't be having this moment this early in the relationship. This is still supposed to be the honeymoon stage."
"I know ma. And it will be in that stage forever if you let me back in there," I pleaded, pointing to her heart. "I told you I've never done this before, but I'm learning. You love me enough to stick with me right?" I continued.
"Yeah I do," she said in a low tone. "You sure you want this?" she asked, pointing from herself to KJ. "A family?" she continued. "If you want the both of us Kendrick, you need to leave that Kingpin player shit behind. I'm not going to be at home playing wife while you out banging strippers in your office."
"I know Nic. I don't plan on that. I won't be banging nobody but you," I joked, and we both laughed. "Speaking of banging. You think tonight I can–"
"I don't know," she said, cutting me off and putting some of her food in front of KJ.
"Well can you sleep in the bed with me at least? So I can hold you?"
"Okay," she smiled. "KJ!" she yelped ‘cause he had grabbed a handful of her corn in his chunky little hands. I laughed and so did he. "Thats not funny!" Nic said laughing.
The restaurant was on the ocean area, so we decided to get on one of the enclosed boats for a ride. Shit cost $1500 but it was cool. There were windows all around, so we were able to look at the water and the lights as we sailed. I was holding KJ as we pointed to all the other boats and lights. His little eyes were so wide in amazement. He laughed, showing the dimples he inherited from me. After about 30 minutes he fell asleep, so we laid him on one of the couches inside the boat by us. We sat on the couch opposite from him. I had my arm over Nic's shoulders and put her legs across my lap.
"Look at me." She did as I asked. I put my other hand gently on her neck. "You know I'm not letting you leave me, right?" I said, looking into her eyes. She shook her head yes. I began to kiss and lick her neck.
"Ahhh," she moaned softly.
"You gon’ let daddy get inside tonight?" I asked in a low tone, looking back into her eyes as I bit my lip. She shook her head yes. I kissed her passionately for what seemed like forever.
"I'm weak for you, Kendrick," she whispered in between kisses.
"I'm weak for you too ma," I said, not stopping kissing her.
We were kissing so much we were breathing in each other's mouths hard as hell. I pulled her closer as if I was trying to make us become one.
"Only me?" she asked in between kisses, referring to my previous comment.
"Only you Nic. Only you babe," I replied, breathing heavily.
We continued to kiss forever, until the captain came up to say we were back at the dock. He laughed ‘cause Nic's lipstick was all over my mouth and a little on my chin. Nic laughed, wiped my mouth, and pecked me once more. I grabbed KJ and we headed home.
***
I know my brothers wanted in on this, but Trenton was my nigga and I had to do it myself. He was my best friend since I was ten years old, but Kayden was family. Shooting him over a girl that he wasn't feeling like that had me pissed the fuck off. He was getting too fucking reckless. He really thought he could disrespect us ‘cause he was my nigga. Fuck outta here!
I walked past Nic sleep on the couch with KJ, and I kissed her lips and his forehead.
"Where you going, Kendrick?" she sat up.
"Out. I love you baby." She ignored me.
I hopped in my car and headed to Trenton's house. As reckless as he'd been acting, I should've brought some people with me, but I didn't. I felt I owed him that much since I was gon’ kill his ass. I walked up to his house quietly, and I overheard him talking to some other niggas.
"Fuck," I said under my breath. I was gon’ have to kill these two other niggas he had with him.
"Yeah I know the times their product comes in and everything. Don’t trip," Trenton told the niggas in his living room.
I listened more and realized he planned to have Jules and Maurice robbed and murdered when they went to pick up the product. I was fucking furious. All the love I had for this nigga had exited stage left. I walked around to the back and took the safety off my burner. I burst in and emptied two shots into each one of the other two guys. Their brain matter splattered on Trenton's wall, causing him to scream like the bitch he was.
"Kendrick! Man what the fuck!" he yelled with his hands up.
"You a snake ass nigga!" I spat.
"Kendrick man it ain't even like that–" I shot his ass in the leg.
"Who else was in on you robbing my shit, bitch?!" I yelled.
"Just them two. Fuck!!!" he yelled, holding his leg.
"And Kayden?"
"Just one of them and and…just them two," he stuttered, trying to pretend he wasn't the one.<
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I shot his ass in the other leg and walked closer to him, "The least you can do is tell the truth, my nigga!"
"Aahhhhhh! Fuck you Kendrick! Yeah I shot your bitch ass cousin!"
I shot his ass in the head three times. I called Draco to get the clean-up crew. When they arrived, they cleaned and wrapped the bodies up. I told them to burn them down and throw them in the river. I got in my car and exhaled heavily, ‘cause although he turned out to be a snake it hurt to kill my nigga like that.
I drove home and Nic was blowing me up but, I didn't answer. When I got home, she ran to me to check me out.
"Kendrick what happened to you?!" she asked, holding my face.
"Nothing ma, I'm good." I grabbed her and pulled her close.
"Morgan called and said Kendreeis told her you went to kill some people alone."
"Yeah babe, I had to," I said, looking into her eyes. "You been crying?" I asked.
She moved my hands from her body. "I thought something happened to you," she said in a low tone.
She started to walk away, and I grabbed her and carried her upstairs. I laid her down and took off my jacket and shirt. She only had on a t-shirt, so I reached under it and removed her panties.
"No Kendrick," she said, trying to sit up. I removed her shirt and just enjoyed the view of her body. You couldn't tell she just had my baby boy. "I don't want you right now, Kendrick. I don't like when you leave without telling me where you going! The ice you’re skating on is too thin for that."
"Stop trying to make yourself believe that," I kissed and licked her whole body, making sure to kiss her stomach. I spread her legs and enjoyed the view of her beautiful pink pussy, and I began to devour it.
She moaned through tears. "Ahhhhh."
After making her cum three times. I pulled my dick out and entered her slowly. She put her hands at my pelvic area to slow me down, but I pinned her arms above her head.
"Oowww Kendrick," she whined.
I slowly started to pump in and out of her, not wanting to hurt her. She was so tight but wet as hell. It felt like forever since I'd been inside her, and it was heaven. I hadn't touched her since she was pregnant with KJ.
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