by Sienna Mynx
“Hey,” he lifted her chin. “Who do you see yourself as?” he asked.
“I don’t know,” she admitted.
“Guess? Fine. I’ll tell you. You’re not Valentina the pop-star, anymore. And Valerie from Brooklyn has grown up. You’re somewhere in between. I see you. I always have. I like what I see.”
“I’ve missed you,” she breathed.
He smiled at her.
“I’m serious, Matt. I’ve missed you so much.”
“It’s been less than two days,” he joked.
“I can’t stop thinking about you. I can’t.” She initiated a kiss, and moved over to position herself on his lap. Holding his face she let her tongue do the rest of the explaining. Mattel’s response was eager. It sent shivers of desire up her spine as it traced the soft fullness of her lips. Valentina moaned and his lips opened her mouth wider, giving herself freely to the passion it brought.
“Okay, Valentina. Stop,” Mattel said. He pushed her back and turned his face. “Let’s not do this again.”
She grabbed his face firmly and kissed him with a hunger that belied his protests. In fact those words were smothered and later devoured by her ravishing. Their tongues dueled in an urgent display of unrelenting need. Neither had the power or will to stop it. His mouth left hers and his firm lips brushed under her chin and went down her neck. He kissed the hollow at the base of her throat.
Valentina’s head dropped back. Her vision disappeared under her thick fluttering lashes. “Oh God, baby, yes.” she said. She ran her fingers up through his silken strands. Mattel untied the sash to her robe. He discovered she wore nothing underneath. His kisses stopped as he gazed down at her body. Valentina let go a deep sigh and brought her head back around to look down at him and then herself. She wanted to be in his arms.
“We can’t do this, Valentina,” he spoke the words to her breasts.
“I want it, Matt,” she pleaded.
“No, I won’t do this.” He lifted her hips and moved her off his lap.
Valentina closed her robe. His erection was impressive. “What is it now?”
Mattel heaved a deep regretful sigh. He leaned forward on his knees and struggled with his desires.
She reached to touch him but stopped. “Matt?”
“Have you made a decision?” he finally asked. He looked over to her.
“I... it’s just been a hard day.”
“Right. Well it’s been a long fucking year with me trying to keep my hands off you, baby,” he said. He stood and pulled on his erection to make it go away. How big was his dick? She still hadn’t seen it. She felt it and it felt righteous. What would sex between them be like? She tickled between the lips of her sex with desire.
He wiped his hand down his face. He paced away. “This is why we can’t. We do this and it changes everything for us both. Do you understand me? I’m all in. I won’t just be pushed away.”
“I need you, especially tonight, Matt. After everything I’ve been through I need to feel decent again! Can’t you do that for me?”
“But I love you!” he shouted. Valentina flinched. “That’s the fucking point, sweetheart. Touching you once won’t be enough for me. And I’m not suicidal. You need to handle your boy and make a choice. But don’t do this to me, Valentina. I love you and I need to hear and feel that you love me. Me.”
“You said you wouldn’t push me.” She lowered her gaze.
“I can’t get through to you. No matter what I say or do, I just can’t win here.” He pounded his fist against his palm.
“Matt.” She pushed up and stepped to him. “You’ve gotten through. Hey look at me.” she touched his chest. “I love you too,” she said freely and without doubt for the very first time. She let the three words sit between them for a moment. It felt good to say it aloud. Once it was out there she had no other reasons why she shouldn’t explain her heart. “I love you. That’s never been hard for me to see. I always knew I did. I’m sorry I was a coward not to tell you this before.”
“And AK?” he asked, though she knew he dreaded the answer.
Valentina lowered her hand. “I love him too, in a different way. I have to be honest. I love you both.”
Mattel shook his head. “Who are you in love with?”
Valentina turned from him and he caught her hand. “Who are you in love with, babe?”
“I don’t know,” she answered.
He pulled her to him. “Yes you do. Who Valentina? Who is it?”
“I don’t want to hurt him. AK and I have been together for a while. I just can’t disregard that. I don’t want to hurt him.”
“Who! C’mon, baby, say it.” He held her up against him and pinned her arm behind her back. He kissed the side of her neck all the way up to her ear. Valentina sighed with pleasure. “Who, Valentina? Tell me it’s me.”
“You, I’m in love with you.” she admitted.
“I know. I just wanted to hear you say it.” He lifted her by the waist. She wrapped her legs around his. She put her arms around his neck. He walked her back into her bedroom and she brushed her lips over his brow, and then down the bridge of his nose. She did so until her lips found his and connected. She loved him. It felt good to finally say it out loud. She realized she could run off a list of all the ways she felt for him. She could write a song about it. She could sing it in front of millions of people.
He laid her down on the bed and their kiss continued. Once again she let her robe fall open. His touch left her trembling. She grabbed at his shirt from the back of his shoulders pulling it up over his head. Matt only let go of their connection to be done with it.
Their tongues joined again as he helped remove her robe. It came off her shoulders. Valentina liked the way Matt looked at her body. She felt so sexy seeing herself through his eyes. He was transfixed on her pussy. She stuck her hand in the front of his pants and felt for his dick. Valentina bit down on her bottom lip and shuddered with delight.
“You like that?” she asked.
“Do you?” he looked down when she removed her hand, unbuttoned his jeans, and removed his dick. She stroked his length. Valentina nodded slowly. Mattel backed off the bed to shed his jeans. She scooted across the mattress to the headboard. She was fascinated with his body. Its imperfections and perfections, all making his manly appeal massive and real for her.
His cock bounced free, erect, thickly veined. It was a darker olive tone than his body and so long it curved. Why she always thought white men had pink dicks she didn’t know. Maybe some did, but Mattel didn’t. She giggled. He arched a brow for an explanation and she shook her head to say forget her silliness. Gently he came down on the bed, stopping to kiss her knees, thighs, and pussy. He ran his tongue over her pierced navel, circling it then dipping it inside. Valentina relaxed and sighed, gripping the sheets for restraint as desire boiled the blood in her veins.
When his lips left her skin her lids parted, though weighed by desire. And his sexy smile was the first thing she saw.
“I’ve wanted you for so long, girl,” he confessed.
She smiled and reached to touch his face. “Show me.”
For Valentina his touch was light and painfully teasing. She carried butterflies in her tummy over what making love to him would be like since the day they had their play fight with the water hose.
One hand went down her taut stomach to the swell of her hips, it continued to explore, searching for her pleasure points. He paused to kiss her here, then there, then everywhere––he whispered his devotion to each part of her body.
God she loved those whispers. Gently he eased her thighs apart. And Valentina pushed up her bent knee to reveal her innermost jewel. Two of his fingers stroked the outer folds while the middle fingered her, stroking in and out of her silky walls.
She licked her lips and moaned, her hips moved in small half circles, her pelvis gyrating. Then with a frequency that became deliciously urgent, Valentina’s hips rose and his face lowered to her sensitive bud. He flicked h
is tongue and she felt its soft graze over her clitoris reach all the way into her soul. Both of her breasts surged upward from the inhalation. She found his mouth was devilish and sinful when it covered her pussy, and he gave her swirling licks. The real thing turned out to be much better than she could have ever anticipated. The mastery drove the rhythm of her hips. She wanted to smash her pussy against his face and keep him there. Mattel groaned as he sucked her sensitive and swelling bud tighter.
Rapture tore through her pelvis and spread like liquid fire through her body. And then he slowly pushed his thumb into her pussy, and it slipped in deeper.
Valentina gripped the sheets tighter.
He dragged his mouth up from her pussy over her stomach. Lazily his tongue kept its pursuit of tasting her skin. It swept around the circumference of her nipples as his thumb went deeper and deeper. His teeth gently tugged at it. When his lips finally lifted off the marble-hard nipple, he licked the sweat between her breasts, and then captured the other one.
Soft pants and passionate pleas to be fucked escaped her. He now had removed his thumb and was gripping both halves of her ass. As he sucked her nipple he dragged his dick from the bed sheet to rub his length between the walls of her labia. The friction of his veined length brushing the sensitive nerves of her sex starved pussy brought tears to her eyes. Never had she anticipated and wanted sex so much.
“I want to fuck you bare,” he brought his head up to whisper in her ear. “I want fuck you so bad, feel all of this pussy so bad, it’s killing me,” he wheezed.
Extreme quakes of pleasure rocked through her and she climaxed. Not since she was sixteen had she climaxed from a guy rubbing his dick against the core of her sex. It was sublime. A release of the tightly coiled knot of passion she carried for him in her heart. She creamed herself and the joints in her knees cramped.
And that was just foreplay.
Seeking more of her lips and tongue, he breathed a single word through the exchange. “Condom?”
“Drawer,” She panted, crushed beneath him. Valentina rubbed her weeping pussy up against the silky curled pubes that his long throbbing cock dropped from. She pointed over to where AK kept them.
Then AK’s face appeared. His laughter could be heard and his desires for her could be felt. On this bed he was the only man she had ever had sex with. Hell he bought her the mattress as a gift. Said his back hurt on the one she loved. Her lids flipped open. She looked over as Mattel reached for them.
“Matt?”
He returned to her and kissed her. Her eyes closed again, the hardness of his lips brushing hers stole her breath, and her resistance. She told herself that what they were doing was okay because she loved him. But in her heart she knew it was wrong. And the battle waged on in her mind as her back arched and her legs hooked around his brick hard thighs wanting to feel him buried within.
Mattel slipped the condom on within seconds and Valentina groaned through tears now behind her closed lids. “Matt—”
“Yes, baby?”
“I can’t. I mean I’m sorry, but I have to tell AK first. I just can’t do this to him. What would that make me? Make this between us?” she asked.
Mattel sighed. He couldn’t hide his disappointment. He dropped on top of her and breathed in another deep breath, and then blew it out for patience. Moving off her he rolled to his back.
“Damn it. I knew it,” he groaned.
“I know you’re tired of me but—”
“No. No, it’s okay. You’re right. I don’t want my making love to you to ever be a painful memory. You should tell AK first. You’re right,” he wheezed as his balls ached so bad it made his stomach hurt. “You’re right,” he repeated over and over to keep from pressuring her. She was killing him.
Valentina turned over to lie on his chest. He felt her nipples graze his skin and winced. For the first time he wanted her away from him. He just wasn’t the better man. Biting down on his bottom lip he endured, and every muscle and tendon in his body tensed.
Valentina could hear his heart pounding beneath his skin. She could feel his erect cock slowly deflate. “I do love you, I want us…I do.”
He rubbed her back. “Then that’s enough for me. I need you to be happy, Valentina. If you had chosen AK I would have removed myself from your life permanently. That’s how much I love you.”
She lifted her head. “I still don’t know if I deserve that kind of love, after the way I’ve taken you for granted.”
Mattel chuckled. “I’m no boy scout, Valentina. You belong to another man, and I would have totally disregarded that and him without a second thought if you hadn’t stopped us.”
She smiled sadly. “Aren’t you afraid?”
Mattel frowned. “Of what?”
“Of us. I mean we’ve been such great friends. What if that changes? What if we ruin it? I’ve never had a relationship outside of Raven and Zephyr last for always, never, not even with my family. And that’s what I will want with you, Matt. I will always want you in my life and in my heart.”
“That’s not how it works, babe. Friendship should be part of love. It’s not a trade off. I knew I was in love with you because you are my best friend,” he told her.
“You talk like a girl sometimes, Matt,” she laughed.
He pinched her and she laughed harder. “I talk like a man in love. Men have feelings, and real men aren’t ashamed to show them.”
“Well I got a thing for thugs,” she said. She lay back down and re-snuggled his chest. “My man has to have an edge to him. He can’t be a punk.”
He smacked her bare ass and she jumped. “I’m going to tear into this ass when you get ready for me. How’s that?”
Valentina laughed. “Better, much better.”
Mattel rolled her over to her back and pinned her to the bed. He held her wrists down gently to make sure not to hurt her already bruised skin. “What will your friends say?”
“Who? Raven and Zee? Please! Those two will be singing the ‘I told you so’ song until we’re both old and gray.”
“I should go,” he said staring into her eyes.
“Why?” She heard her voice pitch into a whine.
“If I stay I’m going to use this condom,” he said rising off her. Valentina sat up disappointed. She watched him go into the bathroom. Admiring the perfect round mounds of his ass, muscle packed calves, and the slight bow to his legs. Hugging her knees she reasoned again why they couldn’t just do it and get it over with.
He came back to the bed. “Will you be okay? I haven’t forgotten the day you had. If you need me to stay I can camp out on the sofa.”
She put her finger to his lip and silenced him. “Go ahead. I’m fine. I promise.”
He crawled over and grabbed her locs to pull her head back and kissed her fully on the lips. She bit his bottom lip and he released her hair. “You make it hard for a man to go.”
“Just think, you have something to look forward to,” she exhaled.
“I always do when it comes to you.” he lifted from the bed and picked up her kimono. Valentina came off the bed, giving him another full view of her body. She smiled at the lustful gleam she saw sparkling in his eyes. “You like what you see don’t you? Sure you don’t want to lay next to it the rest of the night? Get a couple more feels and licks?” she teased. She ran her hand down her body, she began to hum and sing the hook from one of their songs. “Oooo, baby, rock my world tonight! Take me, baby, make me scream—”
“Shut up!” he grunted. He threw her robe around her shoulders, and she pushed her arms through it. “Don’t tease me, it’s cruel.”
She wrapped her arms around his neck. “How is it that you turned the worst day of my life into the best?” she grinned up at him,
“Easy, I just gave you what you needed: my heart.”
“There you go talking like a woman again!” she laughed. He bit her nose and she squealed. Grabbing her he lifted her and threw her over his shoulder. Valentina howled with laughter as he carri
ed her out of the room, smacking her butt cheeks with a loud spanking. She then beat on his ass like an African drummer with both hands, playing her own music. He bit her thigh and she bucked causing them both to nearly go down.
Matt lowered her to see the wide grin splitting her face. It was such a change from the broken sorrow in her eyes earlier. Valentina glanced back at the door and her smile faded in disappointment. “Stay, let’s watch television! ESPN?”
“Handle your business with AK and you won’t be able to get rid of me,” he told her.
“Maaatttttttt…”
“Vaaaaallllleeeerrrriiiiiiieeeeee…”
She threw her arms around his neck once more. He squeezed her ass cheeks tightly. When he released her, her stomach dropped. She stepped back and watched him open the door. It was ending before they really began. She was bursting with excitement over the possibilities of being Matt’s girl.
“Oh, and when I become your lady, just know I ain’t dirt-bike riding, or whatever it is you do with those teenagers you date.”
He laughed. “I plan to break you in, don’t worry,” he gave her a parting kiss.
“I run the relationship!” she put her hands to her hips.
He threw his hand up to wave bye and walked out.
“You’ll be my bitch, Matt! That’s how I roll,” she called after him.
He kept going, fishing his keys out of the front of his jeans. Valentina started to go after him but realized she was naked except for her robe.
“I love you too, Matt.” She called after him. He looked up and winked then got in his car.
“I love you,” she mumbled as she closed the door.
Dropping against it she sighed and let the warmth of new love cover her like a child’s blanket. “I love you!”
Valentina walked through her dark condo to her room. She stood at the door and stared at the bed. She remembered every decadent moment of the sex that almost happened. And then her heart recalled every night she spent in that bed with AK. She sighed. She turned and went into the kitchen. She had no idea where Zephyr hid her phone and computer so she picked up her house phone and dialed.