‘Like they always do with you, Ben.’
And once more, he’d found himself on the end of a dead line.
In the end, Ben had realised that if he pushed on with his search for Brooke and caught up with her, as he surely would, he’d only alienate her even more. Giving up the search was one of the hardest things he’d ever done.
So here he was, sitting in the barely recognisable surroundings of what had once been his home, feeling lost. He’d no clear idea what had made him drift back here to the Galway coast. Maybe he hadn’t let go of that part of his past as completely as he’d thought he had. Or maybe he just wanted to punish himself by rubbing salt into his own wounds. All he knew was that after two months of drifting aimlessly from place to place, squandering his cash on hotel rooms, drinking far too much and spending most days in a trance-like state of numbness and regret, he’d found himself heading back to Ireland and renting a cottage on the beach less than half a mile from the large house that had once been his home.
Mrs Henry returned, interrupting his thoughts. Noticing that Ben’s glass was almost empty she said, ‘Ready for a top-up?’
‘I’m always ready for a top-up.’
‘See that nice-looking young lady over there?’ Mrs Henry said, lowering her voice and nodding towards the window as she refilled Ben’s glass. ‘She’s a famous writer.’
‘Uh-huh?’ Ben glanced back over his shoulder, feigning interest for the sake of politeness. The sandy-haired woman was still bent intently over her small laptop, tapping keys, very deeply absorbed by whatever she was working on. Finished with whatever was in her notebook, she paused to slip it into a slim leather pouch, then zipped the pouch shut and dropped it into the cloth bag at her feet before going back to her typing.
‘I wonder what she’s writing,’ Mrs Henry whispered, with a glimmer of excitement. ‘Perhaps she’s writing about this place. That’d really put us on the map.’
‘Murder at Pebble Beach?’ Ben said.
‘Oh, you are a one,’ Mrs Henry laughed, nudging him playfully. Then she bustled off again, leaving him alone at the bar.
Chapter Three
Some time later, Ben left the guesthouse and wandered back down the private beach towards the water to sit on the big, flat barnacled rock he’d often sat on in the past. At high tide it overhung the surf and he’d spent many hours gazing at the water, smoking, thinking, alone. With three pints of Mrs Henry’s Guinness inside him, he was feeling a little more mellow than he had earlier. The booze helped to take the edge off his raw emotions, but he was acutely conscious of having been overdoing it lately, as well as of being somewhat out of condition after these weeks of neglecting his fitness. It didn’t take long at all for self-discipline to slip and bad habits to begin to shoot up like weeds.
He hated himself for letting it happen. In all the years since qualifying for 22 SAS, he’d kept up virtually the same disciplined, even punishing, regime and now here he was, by his own strict standards, intolerably slack, lazy and listless.
As he watched the waves, he made himself a promise that tomorrow morning, rain or shine, he’d be up with the sunrise and out running on the beach. He didn’t expect to be able to jump right back into his routine with the usual five miles followed by a hundred or so press-ups and sit-ups. But you had to start somewhere.
Meanwhile, there wasn’t much to do but let the time slip idly by. Reaching into the pocket of his leather jacket he took out his rumpled blue pack of Gauloises and Zippo lighter. He lit up the thirteenth – or was it the fourteenth? – cigarette of the day and gazed at the steel-coloured horizon. Those dark clouds over there in the west, somewhere over the Aran Islands, were gathering and sweeping in fast towards the mainland. A rainstorm was coming.
The crunch of approaching footsteps on the pebbles made him turn to see someone crossing the beach towards his rock. He recognised her at once: the sandy-haired woman who’d been sitting in the guesthouse earlier. She’d put a lightweight fleece on over her T-shirt and had her cloth bag slung over her shoulder.
As she came closer, she smiled at him. ‘Hello,’ she said. She had blue-grey eyes, which she shielded from the sun. The sea breeze gently ruffled her short hair.
Ben smiled back, but his smile was a little forced. He’d have preferred to have been left alone. When this had been his own private stretch of beach he’d been used to having it to himself. It seemed odd to have uninvited company here.
‘Mind if I join you?’
‘Be my guest,’ he replied.
She smoothed her hand along the rock and found a place to sit. ‘Nice here, isn’t it?’
He nodded. ‘Certainly is.’
‘I’m Kristen. Kristen Hall.’ Her accent was English, Home Counties maybe.
‘Ben.’ He held out his hand. Her grip felt soft but firm in his.
‘I know,’ she said. ‘Ben Hope.’
He stared at her for a moment.
‘Mrs Henry told me who you were,’ she said, laughing at his surprised look. ‘She said the place used to belong to you.’
‘It’s true.’
‘It’s so lovely. You must miss it.’
This wasn’t a topic he wanted to dwell on. ‘So I hear you’re a writer,’ he said instead.
Kristen grinned. ‘Mrs Henry does like to blabber, doesn’t she?’
‘Certainly does. She’s all excited that you might include the guesthouse in your novel.’
‘She’s going to be disappointed. I’m not a novelist.’
‘Oh,’ Ben said, nodded, and looked back out to sea again.
‘More of a glorified journalist, really,’ she added.
Ben fell silent. He didn’t have much to say, about books or journalism or anything else.
‘I’m sorry,’ she said. ‘I can tell I’m disturbing you. I’d better go.’
He felt a stab of remorse. ‘Not at all.’
‘It’s okay.’ She smiled. ‘I know what it’s like to want to be left alone.’
‘It’s me who should be sorry. I’m being rude.’ He paused. ‘Look, I was going to take a walk along the beach before the weather closes in. Maybe you’d like to join me?’
She hesitated, looked at her watch. ‘There’s something I have to do later, but I have some time. All right, then. I’d love to. Being as you’re a former resident, you can show me the sights.’
Leaving the rock and setting out with her along the beach, he said, ‘There’s not much to it. What you see is what you get.’ He pointed ahead, to the north. ‘See the big rock over there, where the road turns away inland? That’s where my bit … I mean, the bit of beach belonging to the guesthouse ends. Just out of sight on the other side is where the cottage is that I’m renting. The coastal path takes you all the way around the headland.’
‘Nice to have my own guide.’
‘My pleasure.’
They walked along the beach, leaving the guesthouse behind in the distance. ‘So, are you here with your family, Ben?’
‘I’m on my own.’
‘Business or pleasure?’
‘Neither.’
A broad shadow passed over them as they walked. Kristen looked up. A large gull swooped overhead, banked out to sea and glided high on its wide wings. ‘I’ve never seen such big gulls.’
‘We get all sorts here,’ he said. ‘That one’s a great black-backed gull. If you think he was big, you should see an albatross. They come inshore now and then.’
Kristen paused and breathed in the fresh sea air. ‘It’s so peaceful here. I can see why you came back. What on earth made you leave?’
‘I went to live in France for a while. Place called Le Val. An old farm in Normandy.’ He didn’t add that the facility he’d founded there, under his management, had operated as one of Europe’s key specialised training centres for tactical raid and hostage rescue teams. Certain aspects of his past, most of it in fact, were subjects he generally wouldn’t, couldn’t, discuss with people.
‘You certainly pick
nice places to live.’ She pulled a face. ‘I live in Newbury. Hardly the most romantic spot on earth. So where’s home for you now?’
‘Wherever. Nothing permanent.’
‘A rolling stone.’
‘Not by choice,’ he replied. ‘That’s just the way it is.’
‘So where to after this?’
‘No plans. Sooner or later, I’ll move on. Don’t know where.’
They walked a little further. Kristen seemed about to say something, then reached for her bag. ‘Excuse me a moment. I really need to check my messages.’ She dug in the bag, and Ben got a glimpse of the small laptop inside.
‘You carry that thing around with you everywhere?’ he observed with a smile.
‘Never know when the muse might strike.’ She took out the slim leather pouch that she kept her notebook in and unzipped a little pocket on the front. Inside were two mobile phones. She took one out, gave it a quick check and then tutted to herself and shook her head as though disappointed. ‘Damn it,’ she muttered, zipping the phone back inside the pouch and replacing it in her bag.
‘Something important?’ Ben asked.
‘Oh, it’s just about my research,’ Kristen said quickly, and he thought there was a slight evasive tone in her voice, as well as a momentary nervousness in her expression. ‘Someone I was hoping to hear back from.’ She shrugged. ‘Never mind.’
‘Is that what brings you to Galway, research?’
She nodded. ‘I’ve been travelling around a few places, the last ten days. Killarney, Limerick, Athlone, all over really.’
‘Useful trip?’
‘Oh yes. Very much indeed. And in ways I couldn’t have imagined.’
‘I won’t ask.’
She smiled. ‘And I won’t tell. Trade secrets. Don’t take it personally.’
‘Never,’ he said.
The wind from the sea was rising. Ben looked at the sky. Those dark clouds were nearing ominously. ‘We might have to make a run for it. Weather’s coming in faster than I thought.’
‘Hardly feels like August, does it?’
‘Must be the global warming they keep promising us,’ he said.
‘Yeah, right.’
‘So what’s the book about? Or is that part of the trade secret?’
‘No, the book I can talk about. Historical stuff. A biography.’
‘Someone I might have heard of?’
‘Lady Elizabeth Stamford. Nineteenth-century diarist, novelist, poet, educator, considered one of the first feminists. I won’t be surprised if you haven’t heard of her.’
‘I can’t say I have,’ Ben said. ‘But from the name and the fact that you came here for your research, I’m guessing she was married to Lord Stamford, owner of the Glenfell Estate that covered about a million acres near Ballinasloe, just a few miles away.’
‘Ten out of ten. Nothing like local knowledge.’
‘More like local legend. You still hear the old story of the tyrannical English lord who went mad and burned his own house down with himself inside. But that doesn’t make me an expert. So Lady Stamford’s the subject of your book?’
‘Yeah … she is.’ She gave a non-committal kind of shrug.
‘You don’t sound too sure.’
She looked at him. ‘Don’t I? I suppose not. That’s because … well, the fact is that I don’t really know that I’ll be writing it any more. Something else has come along in the last couple of days that makes me think …’ Her voice trailed off and she frowned up at the clouds. They were directly overhead now and more threatening than ever.
‘Here it comes,’ Ben said. Moments later, the first heavy raindrops began to spatter down, quickly gathering force.
Kristen drew her fleece more tightly around her. ‘Christ. We’re going to get soaked.’
He glanced back over his shoulder. They’d walked quite a distance from the flat rock. ‘Listen, we’re closer to my place than we are to the guesthouse. If you want to shelter from the storm …’
‘Lead on,’ she said, nodding.
Chapter Four
They ran. The rain was pelting down now, carried in gusts by the wind, as the path led them away from the pebbly beach and between the rocks to the cottage. Ben creaked open the gate in the little picket fence, and they hurried to the door. He unlocked it and showed her inside.
Kristen stood shivering and dripping on the bare floorboards. ‘I’m like a drowned rat.’ She took off her fleecy top, which was wet through. Her bare arms were mottled with cold.
‘Here,’ Ben said, pulling a wooden chair out from the table. He hung the fleece over the back of it. ‘This’ll dry off fine once I get the fire going.’ He’d prepared it earlier, split logs and kindling sticks on a bed of balled-up newspaper.
Kristen checked inside her bag. ‘Thank God, my stuff didn’t get wet.’ As she slung the bag over the back of the chair, Ben motioned towards the narrow wooden staircase. ‘You’d best get yourself dried off. There’s towels and a hair dryer in the bathroom.’
As Kristen trotted upstairs, he knelt by the fireplace and used his Zippo to light the paper and kindling. By the time she returned a few minutes later, her short hair frizzy from the dryer, he had a crackling blaze going and the cottage was already filling with a glow of warmth.
‘What a lovely little place,’ she said, now that she could admire it.
‘Back when I had the big house, this was just a derelict fisherman’s bothy, no more than four walls and half a roof. I used to shelter in it sometimes when I was out running and it began to rain. Good to see it all done up.’ He walked over to the old oak dresser by the window and picked up a half-finished bottle of whisky. ‘Would you like a drink? Afraid all I have is this stuff.’
‘Laphroaig single malt, ten years old. Very nice,’ Kristen commented. Then, noticing the case of identical bottles sitting on the floor next to the dresser, she added, ‘You must be a bit of a connoisseur.’
‘That’s a nice way of putting it,’ he said with a sour chuckle, and poured out two measures in a pair of chunky cut-glass tumblers.
‘I shouldn’t. Whisky always goes right to my head. But what the hell.’
‘That’s the spirit,’ he said. ‘This will warm the cockles of your heart.’
‘I always wondered which bit of the human heart the cockles were,’ she mused, accepting the tumbler. ‘Next time I meet a cardiologist, I must remember to ask. Cheers.’
‘Cheers.’ They clinked. The fireplace had a brass surround with a single padded seat on either side. They sat opposite one another, in the glow of the crackling flames.
At her first sip, Kristen spluttered. ‘Jesus.’
‘It’s cask strength,’ he said. ‘Fifty-five per cent proof.’
‘The strong stuff.’
‘You get used to it.’
‘I wouldn’t want to get too used to it,’ she laughed, then took another sip. ‘I can feel those cockles warming up already.’
Ben was beginning to appreciate the company now. It felt good to have someone to relate to again after long weeks of being very alone. He was glad he hadn’t turned Kristen away when she’d approached him on the beach.
‘So what is it you do, Ben?’
‘Right now, nothing.’
‘You certainly are the mysterious one. No family, no home, no future plans, and now no occupation either.’
It was his instinct to be evasive when being questioned. ‘Let’s just say I’m kind of between things,’ he said. ‘Considering my options.’
‘What did you do before? Or would I be prying?’
He knew there was a limit to the whole Mr Mystery bit. Any more, and he risked putting out alarming signals. He didn’t want to come over as a weirdo or a serial killer. It was time to open up a little with her. ‘I was in the military for a while. Then I left to start up in business for myself.’
‘You don’t strike me as the businessman type,’ she said, laughing.
‘It was a particular kind of business.’ Hi
s tumbler was empty again. He refilled it once more and topped hers up too. She was drinking much less quickly than he was.
‘Now you really have me intrigued. Remember you’re dealing with a nosy journalist.’ She grinned, pointing a jokey finger at him. ‘I can get information out of a stone.’
‘Really?’
‘Famous for it.’
‘Fair enough. I helped people.’
‘People?’
‘People in trouble. And people whose loved ones were in trouble.’
‘Now we’re really getting somewhere. Helped them how?’
‘By bringing the loved ones home safely,’ he replied.
‘You’re talking about missing persons?’
‘Kidnap cases, mostly.’
‘Wouldn’t the police normally deal with that kind of thing?’
‘In theory,’ he said. ‘But when clients begin to see how badly things can get botched up by going down that road, they’ll often turn to the freelancers.’
‘That’s what you were, a freelancer?’
‘The term was “crisis response consultant”. I worked alone.’
‘And did what exactly?’
‘Whatever was required,’ he said.
She sipped a little more whisky, getting acclimatised to the burn now, staring at him intently over the rim of her glass. ‘Sounds like a risky business.’
‘It had its moments. I was trained for it.’ He reached for another log from the neat stack by the fire, and lobbed it into the flames. The blaze crackled up with a shower of orange sparks.
‘Sounds like you enjoyed the danger,’ Kristen said. ‘Some people are attracted to it. Even thrive on it.’
‘Funny. That’s what Brooke said, too.’
‘Brooke?’
‘My fiancée. I should say, ex-fiancée. We split up a couple of months ago.’
‘Oh. I’m sorry.’
‘It’s okay,’ he said. ‘Well, no, it isn’t.’
‘I know how it goes, believe me.’
‘You too?’
She nodded. ‘We’d been together three years. I thought it would last forever, you know?’
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