The Promise of Everything - Garner-Willoughby Brothers Book Three

by Blaire Broderick

  The Promise of Everything

  Garner-Willoughby Brothers Novel — Book Three

  Blaire Broderick

  Contents

  Description

  A Note From the Author

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Epilogue

  Connect With Us!

  About the Author

  Acknowledgments

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  Description

  They think I’m dying—probably.

  There’s an aneurysm at the base of my brain, a ticking bomb of sorts, and painting is all that can take my mind off the inevitable … until him.

  His name is Jamison and despite the fact that we’ve only just met, he’s everything.

  His kisses are fire, his owning gaze gives me life, and his touch makes me forget that my days are numbered …

  I thought it was funny, the way fate put him in my path just when I needed someone like him the most—but my sweet, serendipitous smile fades the moment I walk into the hospital to consult with the surgeon whose wait list I was placed on months ago.

  Turns out Jamison is none other than world renowned neurosurgeon, Dr. Jamison Garner.

  He says he can save my life, but first he’ll have to break my heart.

  A Note From the Author

  I previously wrote these books under the name Coco Jordan/Gia DeLuca. If you read those books, you have read these books.

  “She was beautiful, but not like those girls in the magazines. She was beautiful, for the way she thought. She was beautiful, for the sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was beautiful, for her ability to make other people smile, even if she was sad. No, she wasn't beautiful for something as temporary as her looks. She was beautiful, deep down to her soul. She is beautiful.”

  ― F. Scott Fitzgerald

  1

  SOPHIE

  “Do you know why Dr. Bledsoe referred you to me?” the pretty blonde psychologist asked, her eyes glimmering behind her thick-rimmed glasses. She sat so still, so poised in her leather chair with her long legs crossed tightly.

  “Yes,” I replied. “Because he told me I was dying, and I smiled.”

  “You understand that’s not a common reaction, right?” she asked, her voice annoyingly calm, and her words drawn out.

  “Not all smiles mean you’re happy. Smiles can mean lots of things,” I said. I spread myself out across the length of the leather loveseat in her office, kicking my legs over the edge and cupping my hands behind my head in an attempt to settle in. We were going to be there a while and not by my choice.

  “Can you tell me more about why you smiled?” she asked carefully. “Or what this smile meant?”

  “I’m not suicidal if that’s what you’re implying.”

  “I didn’t say you were suicidal.”

  “I’m not.” The room was suddenly stuffy, and the air thick. My constant, throbbing headache reminded me of the unruptured aneurysm at the base of my brain dangling like a vine-ripened berry waiting to burst, and that stale, suffocating office in a depressingly gray Manhattan high-rise wasn’t doing me any favors.

  I wasn’t suicidal. I may have been a month ago, but not anymore.

  I didn’t know why the pills didn’t work. Fourteen blue ones, twelve white ones, and twenty-four brown ones. I took enough to kill a horse, and I woke up two days later warm in my bed feeling like a million bucks. All I’d done was put myself into a light coma. I took it as a sign that I wasn’t supposed to die. Not yet. Not like that.

  A month later, the headaches started.

  “How do you feel about this aneurysm, Sophie?” she pried. Her pen pressed into the yellow legal pad on her lap as she waited for my response. “You’re not exactly terminal, you know. This is treatable.”

  Dr. Bledsoe had referred me to her because she specialized in end-of-life patients. That told me all I needed to know. She helped people come to peace with the fact that they may or may not be dying.

  “Twenty-percent chance of being alive a year from now?” I said blankly. “Sounds pretty terminal to me.”

  “Those statistics are only relevant if you don’t seek treatment,” she gently reminded me.

  “I know,” I said.

  “You plan to seek treatment, right?”

  “Yeah, but the specialist is booked out a month,” I sighed. “A lot could happen in a month.”

  “Can you take me back to when you were first diagnosed?” she asked. Her voice was overly soothing, yet her expression was empty as if she’d asked this question a million times before, and it had gradually lost its meaning.

  I’d been having headaches for weeks, and after a while, choking down Tylenol after Tylenol barely put a dent in the throbbing pain. When my vision became blurry, and it interfered with my ability to paint, I forced myself to trek down to the ER in the middle of a December snowstorm at three in the morning.

  “Yesterday,” I said. “He told me yesterday.”

  “Right,” she said, shifting in her seat. “But let’s talk about how you felt.”

  I had an idea something was up when they took me back for a CT scan and made me wait four hours while they consulted with the doctor on call, who then needed to consult with another doctor who wasn’t going to be in until eight. The nurses wouldn’t tell me anything. They’d just looked at me with pity in their eyes as if they knew something I didn’t.

  “Shocked.
I don’t know,” I said. “Certainly, I didn’t think a headache would turn into a death sentence at twenty-four.”

  “Can I ask why you smiled when you were given your prognosis?” This woman was relentlessly asking the same question fifty different ways as if I wouldn’t notice.

  “Do we need to psychoanalyze this?” I asked with an incredulous laugh. “I mean, it was just a smile. It didn’t mean anything.”

  “Are you sure about that?”

  “I don’t know,” I said, frustrated. It was an ironic smile. Ironic, because just when I’d decided I wanted to live, I was told I might die. But she didn’t need to know about the pills. She’d want to focus on that, and then she’d never believe that I wasn’t suicidal.

  “And that’s why I’m here, Sophie,” she said. She re-crossed her long legs and leaned forward, her red lips parting into a faux-empathetic smile. “We’re going to figure this out.”

  “No offense, Dr. Strong, but I don’t want to spend my last days on earth sitting on your couch trying to psychoanalyze why I smiled when Dr. Bledsoe gave me my diagnosis. I’m going to fight this thing. I can promise you that. I want to live.”

  I wanted to live more than anything.

  “When is your appointment with Dr. Garner?” she asked, pen pressed to paper again. The ticking of the wall clock echoed against the tragically plain, off-white walls. Every second in her stuffy office was a second I could have been spending outside living my life and doing the things I loved.

  “Not until January. Dr. Bledsoe gave me some meds to take that are supposed to buy me some time until I can get in.”

  “Do you have anyone else you can talk to?” she asked. “Parents? Friends? Siblings?”

  “Of course,” I lied. I lied so hard. I just hoped she couldn’t see through me—but then again, she read people for a living, so I was probably fucked. I should have said, “Not really. One. Nope.”

  My fingers reached up to my neck twisting my necklaces between them as I often did when I thought about my sisters. A thin, gold ballerina charm dangled from one, representing Rossi, and a musical note, representing Nori, hung from the other.

  I forced a smile. That suffocating sensation was beginning to wash over me again. I glanced up at the clock. We were only ten minutes into our hour-long session.

  “Don’t bottle this up, Sophie,” she said, her voice directing me to turn back toward her. “You can’t go through this alone. Ask for help. Talk about it. Work through it. Embrace it.”

  “That’s the plan…” I planned to embrace my life, to live like I was dying. I didn’t want to spend an hour each week in therapy. Those hours were better spent painting, sketching, dancing, singing, anything but sitting around and discussing my feelings.

  “Celebrate every single, solitary day,” she said with a smile. “Live every day like it’s your last.”

  “I think I’ve seen that on a bumper sticker.”

  “It’s cliché, I know.” She laughed.

  I sat up on the loveseat, trying to get comfortable again, and glanced over at the clock again. It had only been two more minutes.

  “You seem like you want to leave,” Dr. Strong said, setting her legal pad on the edge of her desk. “That’s okay, Sophie. I’m not going to make you stay.”

  I sighed, relieved, and reached down to grab my bag off the floor.

  “I would like to see you regularly,” she said. “I think I can help you.”

  “I don’t know,” I said, not wanting to be rude.

  “Will you at least think about it?” she asked, removing her thick-rimmed glasses to reveal blue eyes as dark as the sea. She almost looked sincere. Almost.

  I didn’t want to see her in the first place, but that damn Dr. Bledsoe was so fucking persistent. I didn’t know how to tell him no. He’d been rattling off statistics and medical verbiage, and before I realized it, he’d slipped Dr. Strong’s card into my hand. The next thing I knew, his nurse was calling me to tell me they’d scheduled an appointment for me to meet with a shrink.

  “Maybe,” I said, antsy to get moving and get the hell out of there. A picture was forming in my mind, and I had to get it on canvas before I burst like the aneurysm in my head. That was how I coped. That was my therapy. Everything on canvas. All the time. Art was my oxygen.

  I stood to leave, bypassing the scheduling desk and making a beeline for the elevator bay. I wanted to click my heels and return to my apartment, my sanctuary. I wanted to dip my brush in the prettiest shades of blues and pinks and purples and transform a blank canvas into something extraordinary. I wanted to take every teeny, tiny thought and emotion and get them out of me. They always looked better outside of me than they felt inside of me.

  2

  JAMISON

  My boots crunched in the snow as my lungs filled with freezing cold air. Oversized snowflakes brushed my face melting on contact as moonlight spilled through barren trees.

  I came alive at night, roaming the streets of Tribeca. Packed city streets became mostly deserted come ten o’clock. That was when I took my nightly walks. Crisp night air washed the day off me, cleared my mind, and brought a sort of otherworldly peace I could never fully put into words.

  My nightly walks were also when I got to see her—the painter girl. Her loft apartment was directly across from mine on the other side of the street. Some nights, when I couldn’t sleep, I’d stare out my window and watch her paint. Leaning against my living room window, I’d watch as her wild, brown hair spilled down her shoulders, and her body moved in tandem with each stroke of her brush. Sometimes the canvas was bigger than her, and the colors seemed to swallow her whole.

  I tried to imagine what kind of music she was listening to or what was going through her mind as she painted. I’d never seen her up close before. I only knew she had long, dark hair filled with loose waves and thick bangs that hung in her eyes.

  I’d walk past her building each night hoping to catch a glimpse of her face just once, but it was always just her hair.

  In a borough with over a million people, I thought I’d never be lonely. It turned out I’d never been so lonely in my life. I spent my days amongst hundreds of people, ten- or twelve-hour days sometimes packed full of people who needed me and pulled me in every direction. There was never enough of me to go around.

  My quiet apartment perfectly juxtaposed itself against the chaos that consumed my days. No one ever needed me after six o’clock anymore, not since I’d realized that people like me were better off alone than in the company of those with less-than-genuine intentions.

  I slipped past the painter girl’s apartment and glanced up. Her window was dark that night. I sighed, trekking on and slipping my gloved hands into the pockets of my gray woolen coat.

  Maybe tomorrow.

  The door to her building flew open just before I passed, and a girl bundled up in a puffy coat with a fur-lined hood ran out breezing past me. Her face was covered with a thick lavender scarf, and dark hair fell from her hood spilling down the front of her coat.

  “Dammit!” she yelled a second later. “Ow. Ow.”

  I spun around to see her lying on the ground, a gloved hand wrapped around her ankle.

  “You okay?” I rushed to her side. “Sidewalks are slick tonight.”

  She tugged her scarf down her face revealing full lips and a hint of deep dimples centered in her rosy cheeks. “I was trying to get to the art supply store before they close. I need more white paint.”

  It was her. The painter girl.

  A dried streak of blue paint graced her left cheek, and it took every ounce of my Type A personality not to try to wipe it off.

  “I think I twisted my ankle,” she said, her sweet face flinching. She glanced at me, looking up through a splay of dark lashes, and immediately tried to toughen up. I studied her soft features in the moonlight. She was more beautiful than I’d ever imagined her to be. Her arms latched onto the park bench beside her attempting to hoist herself into a standing position. “Ouch
…”

  “Let me help you.” I lifted her up as if she were a rag doll and plunked her on the bench. “Can I look at it?”

  Her body froze as our eyes met. Even in the dark of night, I could see her cheeks blush. She cleared her throat and nodded. I slipped her boot off and pulled her sock down enough to examine her ankle before I gently felt around.

  “It’s just a light sprain,” I said. “Ice it for the next two to three days until the swelling goes down. Keep it elevated. Stay off it.”

  I pulled the sock up and slipped her boot back on ensuring it was perfectly straight on her foot.

  “You need help getting to your apartment?” I asked her.

  She huffed, though her annoyance was more than likely directed toward her sprained ankle than anything else.

  “Yeah. I live right there.” She pointed toward the door she’d burst from just minutes before. “Third floor.”

  I slipped my arm under hers, and she gripped my shoulder as I raised her up. We hobbled, step by step, to the apartment building door.

  “I don’t have an elevator,” she said apologetically as we made it inside the warm and cozy foyer.

  “Not a problem.” I scooped my arm under her knees and lifted her petite body up the stairs one at a time until we’d arrived at the third floor. “Which apartment?”