Pursuit For Lucidity (Crashing Waves)

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by Marie Jem


  When Alex returned from having his hair cut, he looked exactly like he did the first day I met him. His eyes looked bluer than ever. I loved how his hair wasn’t cut too short and was still a bit long and sexy. I smiled when he walked in and I saw his new look.

  “I love it, Alex. Welcome back,” I said.

  “Thank you, baby. It’s good to be back. It’s really cold outside. Let’s go take a hot, steamy shower together,” he said, taking my hand and taking me to the master bathroom. Alex removed the white t-shirt he had let me borrow. He removed his jeans and sweatshirt quickly and turned on the water in the shower. He began kissing me after we were both in the middle of the bathroom, naked. He checked the water in the shower, “It’s ready,” he said as he lead me into the large shower. The water was so hot that it caused a lot of steam in the shower.

  “Alex, it’s too hot,” I said.

  “It’s only hot because you’re in it,” he replied as usual.

  He began kissing me so passionately that my heart began to palpitate. I didn’t know if it was the hot water or his kisses. His hands were everywhere on my body, starting with my face, then my neck, then my waist, and finally between my thighs. I felt his erection press against my body as he put his hands on my shoulders and pushed me down until I was on my knees and his hardness was in my mouth. Alex groaned as I took it deeper into my mouth. I continued to take it in and out of my mouth quicker and quicker and stopped before he came.

  I stood up as he kissed me so passionately that my back was pushed against the hard tiles on the wall. He was so close to me that I didn’t have an inch to move anywhere. His fingers gently made their way into me as he went moved them in and out, in and out, until I was about to lose control. He pulled out his fingers and carried me up as my legs wrapped around his body, his erection penetrating into me. The wall behind me hurt my back, but I didn’t care. Alex making love to me made me forget the discomfort. His thrusts became quicker and deeper and it seemed to get hotter in that shower.

  “Tell me you want it,” he commanded.

  “I want it,” I said.

  “That doesn’t sound convincing,” he said.

  “I want it!” I yelled out.

  “That’s all you’ve got?” he asked.

  “Give it to me, Alex!” I yelled out.

  “Still not convinced,” he said.

  “Fuck me, Alex!” I yelled loudly.

  “Now, that’s much better,” he said as he quickened his pace and penetrated deeper and deeper, making me moan out of control as I came. Alex groaned loudly as he came. He pulled himself out of me and sat down on the tile bench inside the shower with me on his lap, the hot water still coming down on us. We held onto one another, so comfortable in that position. He kissed my forehead as he held me tightly. I didn’t think I would be able to walk after that lovemaking session in the hot shower with my back banging against the wall. It was pleasure and pain mixed together, more pleasure than pain.

  Alex shampooed my hair and lathered my body, as he always liked to do. He was very nurturing and took care of me as if I were his baby. He loved to cook for me and enjoyed to see me eat. He was concerned about my safety, considering what had happened to me years ago.

  We dried ourselves after the nice hot shower and he gave me a new t-shirt and a warm bathrobe to wear on top. The heater was on in his house, but it was still a bit chilly for me. He wanted to take a nap and I didn’t decline because I was extremely tired.

  “Do you want to go out tonight, baby?” he asked.

  “I don’t have clothes, Alex,” I replied.

  “I’m going to put your clothes from last night into the washer. It will be ready by tonight. Let’s go out to dinner. I want to go to Café Amor, since that’s where we had our first official date. What do you think?” he asked.

  “Hmmm, sounds good to me. I don’t care where we go, Alex, as long as I’m with you,” I said as I put my head on the pillow. Alex went to throw my clothes in the washing machine and came back to join me afterwards.

  “Let’s not forget to put those clothes in the dryer,” he smiled as he pulled me close to him, so I could put my head on his chest. My eyelids got heavier and I couldn’t keep my eyes open any longer. “I love you, baby,” he said as we surrendered to sleep.

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  When I opened my eyes, it was already dark out. I wondered what time it was. I awakened Alex and he looked at his cell phone, which was on the nightstand for the time.

  “It’s past five o’clock. We slept pretty long, didn’t we?” he asked.

  “My clothes! I have to put them in the dryer,” I said as I began to get up.

  “I got it, baby. I will throw them in the dryer. You just relax,” he said as he got up to go to the laundry room. When he returned, he made reservations at Café Amor for seven thirty, so we would have plenty of time to make sure my clothes were thoroughly dry. It felt so good to just stay in that I did not want to move. Alex looked healthy again. The dark circles were gone. His hair was perfect again and his almost beard was gone. He was my original Alex once again. He couldn’t stop telling me how alive he felt.

  “Your birthday is coming up, isn’t it, baby?” he asked, smiling big.

  “You remembered,” I replied, smiling.

  “Why wouldn’t I remember?” he asked.

  “I don’t know,” I replied.

  “Tell me what you want for your birthday,” he said.

  “I have everything I want. I have you and I can’t imagine anything else in this world that would make me happier than the fact that I have you, Alex,” I said, honestly.

  “Do you really mean that, baby?” he asked.

  “Cross my heart,” I said, making a cross.

  “Well, then, I will have to think of something,” he said, grinning. “Do you want to go bungee cord jumping? I recall you mentioned sky diving recently,” he said.

  “That was a joke, Alex. The craziest thing I have been doing lately is riding on a motorcycle,” I replied.

  Alex’s face changed and his smile disappeared. “You rode on motorcycle guy’s bike, didn’t you?” he asked.

  “His name is Stefano and he is my dance instructor and friend, Alex,” I said sternly.

  “Did you go to his Halloween party? Did you date him?” he asked, insecurely.

  “Listen, Alex, I never dated Stefano. It wasn’t his Halloween party that I went to. He is my dance instructor and friend. He has a girlfriend. Why am I explaining myself to you?” I began to get angry.

  “I’m sorry, baby. I just got carried away. I have to stop treating you as if you’re Angela,” he replied.

  “Yes, you really need to stop treating me like I’m Angela. If you need more time apart, then we can take some time apart,” I offered.

  “No, baby. I don’t want to be apart from you. I just have to work on myself and constantly remind myself that you are not like her,” he replied.

  “You know, Alex, even if something had happened with Stefano, you and I weren’t together at that time. It wouldn’t have been like I cheated on you, anyway,” I said.

  “Did you two date? Did something happen between you and Stefano? Did you sleep with him?” his questions were endless.

  I got up and headed for the dryer to get my clothes out, so I could get dressed and head home. I had to teach him a lesson if it was the last thing I did.

  “I’m going home. I will not put up with this. If this is how our relationship is going to be then I don’t want any part of it,” I warned.

  “No, baby, don’t leave! I’m sorry. I won’t ask you any uncomfortable questions, I promise. Please work with me, Claire. I can’t change alone. I need your help to heal from what Angela has done to me,” he said, taking my hands and pleading with me. I didn’t know what to do with Alex. I wanted to help him and I knew he would listen to me and take me seriously if I continued to set him straight.

  “Fine, Alex, but I’m warning you. This cannot continue if you want to have a healthy and
happy relationship with me. You have to trust me. If you don’t trust me then we don’t have anything. I’m not Angela and I would never cheat on you. I would leave you before I cheated on you. Are we clear?” I asked.

  “Yes, baby. I know you’re different and I do trust you. Let’s just forget about all this and enjoy one another. I love you, Claire. I can’t stand to see you leave again. It will kill me next time,” he replied.

  “I love you, too, Alex. I will stay because I know you genuinely want me to. We will work through your trust issues and see how it goes,” I said as I took my clothes out of the dryer and put them on, as we had dinner reservations we both didn’t want to miss. Alex kissed me and held me tightly against his warm body.

  “Thank you. I’m going to change, I promise,” he assured.

  Chapter 19

  Alex and I were very quiet on the drive to Café Amor, where we had dinner reservations that Saturday evening. I wasn’t quiet because I was upset at him. I was quiet because I was feeling a bit under the weather. I didn’t want to complain and ruin the evening, so I thought I would just tough it out. Alex sensed something was wrong and rubbed the back of his hand softly against my cheek.

  “Are you still upset at me, baby?” he asked.

  “No, I’m not upset. I think I’m just a little tired, that’s all,” I replied, holding his hand. I wished I had taken something before we left his house. When we arrived at the restaurant, we were greeted by the hostess and escorted to a warm and cozy part of the restaurant. It was very cold outside, so we decided to sit inside. Alex took a seat right next to me and put his arm around me.

  “I hope you have a big appetite because I’m starving,” he said, looking over the menu. I had absolutely no appetite to eat, since I wasn’t feeling well, but I really didn’t want to ruin our first dinner since we had rekindled.

  “Sure, just order whatever you think is best and I will share it with you,” I offered.

  I ordered hot tea when the waitress took our drink order. I was so cold I thought the tea would warm me up a bit.

  “Hot tea, baby?” Alex looked surprised. “No wine or a martini?” he asked.

  “No, I’m really cold, Alex. I think I need the tea to warm me up,” I replied.

  “Are you feeling all right?” he asked.

  “I’m just cold, that’s all,” I replied.

  “You don’t look like you’re just cold, Claire,” he noted.

  “I’m fine, Alex. I’m just cold and maybe a little tired,” I said as I put my head on his shoulder.

  “You do feel a little warm,” he said as he put his lips on my forehead. “You may have a fever, baby. I think you’re coming down with something,” he said as he continued to feel my forehead and cheeks. “Why don’t we order to go and you can eat and lay down at home?” he offered.

  “No, Alex, I’m fine. Really, I am. Let’s have a nice dinner and enjoy ourselves,” I insisted.

  Alex ordered a big bowl of hot soup for me to help me feel better. I managed to eat the entire bowl because I was determined to feel better, but I felt colder and colder. I knew I had developed a fever because I was freezing and my entire body was aching. My teeth even began to chatter. Alex noticed that I wasn’t feeling better and asked for the check.

  I fell asleep on the drive home and he awakened me when we arrived at his house. Alex checked my temperature with his thermometer and discovered I had a fever of a hundred and two. He drew a lukewarm bath, which felt like ice water to me, and insisted that I sit in there for a few minutes to drop my temperature.

  “Here baby, take a couple of these,” he said, handing me two pills.

  After what seemed like an eternity, I came out of the freezing cold bathtub with my teeth still chattering and my body shivering. Alex helped me into bed. He lit the fireplace in the bedroom and tucked me in just as my parents used to do when I was a child. He crawled into bed and wrapped his arm around my waist, my back against his chest. My eyelids were so heavy that I couldn’t even open my eyes to look at the fire.

  “Wake me up if you don’t feel well,” he said as he moved my hair away from my neck and kissed the back of my neck. I was out like a light bulb moments later.

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  I woke up in the middle of the night shivering. I couldn’t get warm no matter how much I tried to cover myself with the comforter.

  “Alex, it’s freezing in here. Is the heater on?” I asked.

  “Hmm? What’s wrong, baby?” he asked, disoriented.

  “It’s so cold. I’m freezing. Is the heater on?” I asked again.

  “It’s hot in here, babe. I think you’re running a fever again,” he said. Alex got up and brought the thermometer and checked my temperature. He was right. I had a fever again. I hardly ever got sick and here I was, sick with a fever at his house.

  “Did you get your flu shot?” he asked.

  “Yes, I did. I feel really bad that you have to take care of me. I’m sorry,” I apologized.

  Alex gave me a couple more pills and made me drink a large glass of water.

  “Hey, don’t say that. Don’t apologize for being sick. I like taking care of you, baby, and I will as long as it takes to bring back my healthy Claire. I’ll hold you until your fever goes down,” he said as he wrapped his arms around me and I drifted back into sleep.

  When I woke up in the morning it was very bright and sunny out. I turned to look at the ocean and had such a clear view of it, since it was a beautiful, clear day. I looked at the time and was surprised to find out it was almost eleven in the morning. Alex was still asleep and I felt much better. I must have had a short-lived virus that I had fought off overnight. Alex must have felt that I had awakened and he opened his eyes as well.

  “Look who’s feeling better,” he said, smiling. “I have to say, you were pretty sick last night, baby. You look like you feel so much better,” he said.

  “Thanks to you, Alex. Thanks for taking care of me. I’m glad I was here with you and not home alone. I felt terrible last night. I hardly ever get sick, especially with a fever,” I replied.

  “Well, you do work in a hospital now, Claire. You’re exposed to patients and viruses. You just have to make sure you get enough vitamin C during cold and flu season,” he ordered, just like the doctor that he was.

  “Is that an order, Dr. Blake?” I asked.

  “It is an order, Miss Morgan. Now I’m going to order you to undress,” he said as he began to undress me. “And now I’m going to treat you with my special home remedy,” he said as he finished undressing me. He began to kiss me with his soft, warm lips. I wasn’t sure if the house was really warm, but I was feeling very hot with Alex on top of me, kissing me passionately. His lips moved to my neck and shoulders, then made their way back to my lips. His middle finger made its’ way into my mouth, “Wet it,” he commanded. I did as he asked. After his finger was nice and wet, he removed it and slowly inserted it into me, gently penetrating in and out. He added another finger and gently worked both fingers in and out of me as he continued to kiss me, but harder this time and more passionately, as his fingers went deeper and deeper.

  “Turn over,” he commanded. My eyes widened. What did he mean by ‘turn over’? I didn’t want to have anal sex. I wasn’t ready or in the mood to try that. I didn’t turn over.

  “Turn over, baby,” he commanded again.

  “No, Alex,” I hesitated.

  “I’m not going to do what you think. Turn over,” he repeated. “I want you on all fours,” he added.

  I turned over onto my stomach very slowly and got on all fours as Alex had asked me to do. Alex came from behind me and I felt his erection penetrate inside me as he held onto my hips and quickened his thrusts. His hands moved to my breasts as he grabbed and caressed them, exciting me more and more. His thrusts were deeper and deeper and his erection felt even deeper this time, sending a tingling sensation all the way to the pit of my stomach. I moaned as he quickened his pace even more.

  “You like
this don’t you?” he asked.

  “Deeper, Alex,” I commanded.

  He penetrated deeper and deeper sending me into a huge climax as I could no longer control myself and moaned loudly. I was weak and exhausted from the intensity of that orgasm. Alex took a bit longer, but groaned loudly as he came. I was so spent that I couldn’t move. I wasn’t sure if I would leave that bed after that lovemaking session. Alex was on his back and looked as though he felt the same way as I did. He took my hand and kissed it softly.

  “I love you, Claire. I’m so glad you’re back,” he said, genuinely.

  “I love you, too. It feels good to be back,” I replied, smiling. “Can I ask you a question?” I asked.

  “Ask me anything. No more secrets,” he replied.

  “I recall you making me promise that I would never leave you for another man. Were you afraid that it was going to happen all over again? I mean, did you think I may have cheated on you as Angela had done?” I asked.

  “Honestly, I’m still afraid of that. That fear has not gone away. I think it’s just going to take time, that’s all,” he replied.

  “Alex, I want you to know that I would never in a million years cheat on you. You have to get that out of your head. If I wanted to be in a relationship with someone else, I would break it off with you first,” I assured.

  “I know, baby. I trust you. I really do and I know you are different,” he replied. We both didn’t want to get out of that bed. I didn’t know if it was due to the lack of sleep the night before, but I was very sleepy. Alex seemed sleepy as well, since he was awake most of the night taking care of me and nursing me back to health. With our bodies entwined together like ivy leaves, we both drifted off into the land of sleep.

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  It was approximately three o’clock in the afternoon when Alex and I decided to get out of bed and eat something. He made a turkey sandwich and a salad and we sat down and ate together and enjoyed the beautiful, cold, but sunny afternoon. I was feeling so much better as if I hadn’t even been sick the night before. When Alex looked outside, the bright sun made his eyes look bluer than ever. I couldn’t help but wonder how a man as handsome and wholehearted as he could love me so much. It was confirmed that I was one lucky woman and I knew Taryn was going to hate me all over again when she found out that Alex and I were back together. I asked Alex if he wanted to stay at my place for the week.

 

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