‘It’s too dangerous.’
‘It’s not your place.’
‘You mustn’t.’ Cate grabbed her arm. ‘I won’t let you.’
Her plea was the hardest to resist, for the secrets they shared were not for a king to know. But Cate, who had been like a sister, was a wife now. And Bessie was sleeping alone in an empty room.
She squeezed Cate’s fingers. ‘There is no one else,’ she said, calmly. ‘Johnnie’s defied him already. The King will clap him in irons without even listening.’ She shook her head. ‘And, Rob, the only way you know how to talk is with a sword. But if I go...’
What was that tickle in her stomach? Fear or excitement?
‘I’m a woman. I can’t give the family’s oath, so the King can’t force us into that. But perhaps I can make him listen long enough for me to explain.’
‘Explain how Willie Storwick died?’ John took his wife’s hand.
Bessie shrugged. ‘I need tell no lies. None of us killed him. No one need know more.’
Especially Laird Thomas Carwell.
‘I wish I had,’ Cate muttered.
‘But maybe I can make the King understand...’ What would she have him know? How the wind whined at the top of the hills? The purple of the thistle in the late-day sun? How days were spent with an eye ever looking south, waiting for raiders to sweep into the valley?
How precious this home, this life, these people were?
‘We do what we must to protect the family,’ Rob growled. ‘That’s all any man needs to understand.’
‘Carwell doesn’t,’ she said.
‘The King,’ said Johnnie, ‘cares nothing about our family. He cares only that what he wanted to happen did not.’
What he had wanted was for Johnnie to enforce the King’s will on the Brunsons. Instead, Johnnie had come home to himself. To know that family was first. Last. All.
‘If I do not go,’ she said, ‘if I do not try to sway him, he will come after all of us.’
‘He’ll come anyway,’ Johnnie said, with grim certainty. ‘One day.’
‘That may be, but my going would give you the winter.’ Would give them time.
Johnnie and Cate exchanged swift smiles. Rob ran his thumb over the hilt of his dirk.
She had always been closest to John and now he looked at her, puzzled. ‘I once suggested you go to court, didn’t I?’
‘Aye.’ And she had refused, knowing she would be mocked for her plain dress and her country ways. Things too selfish to concern her now.
He took her hands. ‘So your heart is set on this?’ John said. ‘On meeting the King?’
‘The King?’ She let her fingers rest in his. ‘Do you think I make this journey so I can skip to a minstrel’s tune?’ This trip was her duty. Her father would be ashamed to think she had spared a moment’s thought for clothes or music. Or herself.
Johnnie shook his head. ‘I don’t trust him around you.’
She bridled. ‘I’m not one to be blinded by a king.’
‘You needn’t worry about Bessie,’ Cate added,
loyally.
John smiled at his wife. ‘It’s not Bessie or the King that I don’t trust. It’s Carwell.’
They shared the silence of agreement. There, of course, was the problem. None of them did.
‘But the King does.’ Don’t insult me. The sharpest words he had said. She shrugged off the memory. Her brothers might have ridden side by side with him, but she refused to trust the man, with his half-truths and his changeable eyes. ‘That’s what matters now. Besides, with time enough by his side, I can find a way to prove he betrayed us.’
Scarred Willie had escaped twice when they had allied with Carwell. Only when the Brunsons tracked him down alone did the man end up dead.
John sighed. ‘He swore he didn’t.’
Rob snorted. ‘And you believe him?’
‘You don’t kill a man without proof.’
‘You don’t send your sister to court with him either.’
She sighed. ‘Argue amongst yourselves,’ she said, reaching for the door. ‘I’ll be packing.’
And when she entered the courtyard, the first thing she saw was Thomas Carwell.
* * *
Carwell stepped smoothly away from the door when he saw the flash of her hair, bright as a red-breasted bird flying over the valley.
He raised his eyebrows, a silent question. ‘And?’
She cocked her head without smiling. ‘As close as you are standing to the door, did you not hear?’
He had tried to listen, dammit, but the walls were thick. ‘I heard only something of packing.’
Behind her, the door opened and Rob stepped out. ‘Bessie, come back here! I’ll not let you leave with that unreliable—’
He saw Carwell and snapped his lips shut.
‘You can say it.’
‘Turncoat.’
A man who hid his badge to disguise his loyalties.
He clamped his jaw against a harsh reply. The man didn’t trust him. So be it.
John’s grim face appeared over Rob’s shoulder. He spared Carwell barely a glance. ‘You know nothing of the court, Bessie. Stirling’s a nest of vipers. You’ll be eaten alive.’
She faced her brothers calmly. ‘Will I? Then let the vipers choke.’
Stubborn wench. Her brothers might not trust him, but at least they were sensible enough to know it was unthinkable to put a woman, even this one, in such a position. ‘So we agree this is not for her to do.’
Rob turned back to him and he saw a shift behind the man’s eyes. ‘I’ve not decided.’
Damn. A misstep. Would Rob allow this, simply because Carwell opposed it?
‘Well, I have,’ Bessie said. ‘It’s the only solution.’
Her brothers exchanged glances. Rob looked back at her, to make one final plea. ‘Are you sure?’
‘I am sure that it is my duty,’ she said. ‘So step aside and stop wasting your breath.’ She looked over her shoulder at Carwell. ‘All of you.’
He inhaled, ready to argue against this madness. ‘It’s mine to waste.’
Suddenly, he faced three siblings and one wife, each with that ‘stubborn as a Brunson’ set of the jaw.
John shook his head. ‘She’s right, you know.’
Rob sighed. ‘Aye.’
They won’t be able to stop me, she had said. How had she known?
Both brothers turned to him now. ‘If anything happens to her,’ Rob said, ‘anything at all, it’s you who’ll be answering for it.’
‘She’ll be hostage to King James for your behaviour,’ he replied, smothering his anger. ‘If you violate the peace, do you expect me to defy the King for you?’
They traded sceptical glances. No, they knew better than that. They still blamed him for what had gone wrong on Truce Day.
No more than he blamed himself.
‘But her life,’ John said, glowering. ‘You must promise to protect her life with your own.’
He looked at Bessie. Her chin was high, her lips were set and he wanted nothing more than to refuse. The last time he had made such a promise, he had failed. But this...
No. He must not fail this time. ‘I’ll protect her life with mine.’ Her liberty? Well, that he could not promise.
‘And her reputation?’ John added.
Bessie’s eyes widened. ‘I need no such—’
‘Aye.’ He’d see she got there and back untouched. ‘That, too.’
‘If anything happens—’
‘I’ve given you my word,’ he retorted, cutting off Rob’s threat.
If anything happened to her, his conscience would punish him far worse than the Brunsons ever could. ‘We leave at dawn,’ he said to Bessie.
She nodded, her damnable calm like a thistle scratching his skin. This woman was as steadfast and unmovable as a rock. And nearly as unresponsive.
‘Be ready.’ He turned and walked away.
* * *
As Bessie took each familiar step down the tow
er’s spiral staircase the next morning, she trailed her fingers over stone walls her chubby fingers had reached for when she was a babe in her mother’s arms.
The stairs rushed to the ground all too quickly.
One step at a time, her father would say, when a task seemed too much
Now, each step was a farewell. Each stone and plank and candle deserved its own goodbye.
Cate greeted her with a hug when she reached the ground floor. Side by side, they walked to the door.
‘There’s flour enough to last the winter,’ she began, ticking off the things Cate must know when she was gone, ‘if you don’t make too many pies. Rob doesn’t like carrots, so when you make the stew, scoop his portion without them. The Tait girl can help you brew the ale. She’s good at it, but she’s lazy, so you need to watch her, and—’
The door opened; the courtyard yawned before her, crowded with men already mounted on their horses. Her wooden chest, pitifully small, was already strapped on wooden runners to be dragged behind a horse.
No time. There was no time left.
Cate rested a hand on her shoulder. ‘It will be all right.’
She did not speak of the ale.
Lifting her eyes, Bessie looked toward the hills, hung with fog. It was raiding season. Anything could happen while she was away. A thousand terrors crowded her thoughts.
She lifted her chin and shut her mind against them. Rob and John were waiting. They must not doubt her. She must leave them with minds at rest.
Her first farewell was for Johnnie.
Never afraid to show affection, he wrapped her in a hug. ‘Stay safe. The King is not a bad man, but he is younger than he is wise.’
She nodded. ‘He won’t keep me there long, will he?’
Johnnie ruffled her hair, as he had done when they were children. ‘A woman as pretty as you? He’ll have a hard time letting you out of his sight.’ His lips smiled. His eyes did not.
She shook her head. ‘Then don’t worry yourself. I’ll be home by Yuletide.’
Then, his back shielding them from Rob’s eyes, Johnnie pressed a silver coin into her hand. ‘In case you need it for...something.’
Her eyes widened.
‘That’s the King’s face on it,’ he said.
She ran her thumb over the crowned profile. ‘He has a strong nose.’
‘And a stronger will.’
She slipped the coin into the pouch at her waist and turned to Rob.
Never at ease with sentiment, he raised his arms from his side, not knowing what next to do with them.
She slipped her arms around his waist and pressed her cheek to his chest, but only for a moment. And when she reached to touch his cheek, he jerked away.
Ah, that was Rob. Just like his father. Never able to be soft, not even with her.
‘Don’t worry.’ She squeezed his hand and blinked, refusing to let the tears fall.
Instead of meeting her eyes, Rob glowered at Carwell. ‘Bring her safely back or you’ll wish you had. If anything happens to her, I’ll find you. No matter where you are.’
‘It won’t.’ But when he answered, Carwell looked not at Rob, but turned his gaze as if the vow were made to her.
She shook her head, not wanting the man’s promise. Never again would she trust him to be responsible for anything that mattered. ‘I will mind myself.’
She knew who she was, what she was doing and why. And if she had to put up with the arrogant, untrustworthy Carwell in order to do it, then she would.
They mounted and rode out of the gate, turning east toward the sun. And she heard, drifting on the wind behind her, Rob and Johnnie, singing her on her way, the words of the song that defined the Brunsons.
Silent as moonrise, sure as the stars...
She had grown up knowing her place. Silent servant. Steady support. The calm, quiet, sturdy centre of the household. Now, she was leaving everything she knew and loved, but only so she could save it.
She glanced at Carwell out of the corner of her eye, surprised to see him watching her.
She looked away.
Aye, there might be one other reason she was going to court. Not for clothes or dancing, but so that when she returned, she could bring this man’s head on a platter.
The notes of the song grew faint and she turned to look at her home one last time.
Behind her, she saw nothing but fog.
* * *
Bessie had thought to draw him out as they travelled, but the day was cold and the wind raw and they rode too far and fast for idle talk. She had ridden the length and breadth of Brunson land, but when day’s end came, early, she was surrounded by unfamiliar hills.
‘This is the edge of Brunson land,’ he said, as they dismounted to make the night’s camp. ‘Robson lands start with that next ridge.’
She squinted in the gathering dusk. The next ridge looked no different than the one they had just left. ‘Is that part of the March also under your rule?’
‘Rule? The Warden rules nothing.’
‘Yet you insisted you were responsible for this side of the border.’
‘Responsible, yes, but the King barely rules here, as the Brunsons have made clear. I only try to keep louts like your brothers from killing each other.’ His smile was unexpected. ‘And me.’
How could he smile? Life and death were no game. ‘To those of us who live here, it is no laughing matter.’
‘I did not laugh,’ he answered. ‘I only thought to break your silence and make you smile.’
And against her will, a smile broke out. Rob could be a lout, it was true. ‘If you had to stand between those two loggerheads all your life, you’d be silent, too.’
At home, she seldom had a need to speak. It had left her awkward and graceless and unable to trade words with Carwell, let alone the King.
Her smile dissolved. ‘How long before we reach Stirling?’
‘Five days if the weather holds.’
She nodded, understanding. It was November. The weather would not hold.
Behind them, his men had fanned out and set to work, arranging the watch, building a fire, setting up camp. Each seemed to know his task. For the first time in her life, she did not.
She looked around for work to do and saw one of the men heating the griddle to fry oat cakes. ‘I’ll cook,’ she said, starting towards him.
Before she could move, Carwell’s gloved fingers circled her wrist. ‘I told your brothers I would take care of you.’
What a strange man. Had he never seen a woman bake bread? ‘Since I feed my brothers at home, I don’t think they would see a hot griddle as a violation of your oath.’
She tugged against his hand and he let her go, slowly.
‘Nevertheless, that is the way it will be.’
She opened her mouth, but before she could protest, he walked away to supervise the set up of the camp, leaving her with her hands propped on her hip and her mouth open, arguing with the wind.
Her hands, unfamiliar with idleness, dropped to her side, useless. The damp wind teased her with the smell of griddle bannocks frying.
Carwell might think to protect her, but surely his men would welcome her help? She looked over her shoulder. His back was turned, so she walked over to the fire and knelt down, welcoming its warmth on her face.
The man holding the griddle nodded at her without speaking.
‘Here,’ she said, reaching for the handle. ‘I’ll do that.’
Not waiting for permission, she grabbed the hot iron.
It seared her fingers and she dropped it into the flames, popping her fingers in her mouth.
Frowning, Carwell’s man dug into the hot coals with a gloved hand and rescued the meal. Muttering an apology, Bessie stood and stepped back.
How could she have been so daft? Turning away, she squeezed her eyes against tears of pain. She would never have made that mistake at her own hearth where she knew every stone in the floor. But here, even the land looked unfamiliar and unforgiving and
she was far from home and at the mercy of a man she neither trusted nor understood.
‘Here.’ Carwell’s voice, just behind her, sounded as close as if he had heard her thoughts. He held out a crisp bannock. ‘Have one.’
Had he seen her awkward mistake? She studied his eyes, blaming the fading light when she couldn’t decipher his expression. Whatever anger he had held when he left her before was gone. Or hidden.
At home, she could interpret her brothers’ emotions, even when they did not speak. There, she was the hub of the wheel around which the rest of them revolved. Here, she had no place, no role, and this man before her was as confusing as the steps of the silly dance he had tried to teach her.
He grasped her unburned hand and set the warm oat cake on her palm. ‘Hot and ready.’
Her tongue wanted to refuse, but her stomach did not, so she accepted and her lips curved into an unwelcome smile as she munched her first bite of welcome warmth.
Then, startled, she felt Carwell wrap a heavy cloak around her shoulders.
She looked up at him, bewildered. No man she knew studied a woman so carefully that he could hear her unspoken thoughts. The men she knew didn’t even hear the ones she said aloud.
She might be cold, yes, but she was not a woman who needed pampering. She pulled off the cloak, holding it out to him. ‘I don’t need this.’
He took it back and swept it around her again, proving he could ignore her words as thoroughly as any man. ‘I won’t have you falling ill on the road.’
His hands rested on her shoulders and the wind, at her back, blew the cloak around them, enfolding them like lovers in a blanket. What would it feel like, to have a man to hold her, to protect her? She swayed, tempted to lean into his chest...
No. This journey was not about what she wanted. It was about her duty to her family. So while she could not succumb to a desire for protection, neither could she allow stubborn pride to make her refuse good food and warm clothes.
‘I must thank you, then,’ she said, the words bitter as the bannock had been savoury.
He let her go. ‘Don’t force yourself.’
She bit her lip. Again, she had stumbled. He must expect please and thank you, curtsy and smile, and all the rounded corners of courtly style.
Well, she had thanked the man. That was high praise from a Brunson.
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