by John Renehan
His voice wobbled like a child’s.
“He came over to where Sergeant Caine had the boy and he had his pistol in his hand and he just did it! Why did the lieutenant do that, sir?!”
Corelli sobbed freely. The telegraph station spun around Black, though he’d been lying very still.
“And you bring his servant into my town.”
Memories crowded him, jabbed at him.
“All valley people says get the Devil out of the valley.”
His mouth was very dry and his head felt as though it were full of pennies and someone were shaking it.
He took a deep breath and thought: I am a fool.
“What happened after?”
Corelli struggled to compose himself.
“Everyone just freaked out, sir,” he said miserably, lost in the horror of the memory. “The father was screaming and flailing against Shannon, and you could hear the women inside just screaming too.”
He gave a heaving sigh and shook his head.
“Even Sergeant Caine was freaked out, sir. No one thought the lieutenant was gonna do something like that. Sergeant Caine was yelling ‘What the fuck, sir!?’ And the lieutenant was acting all crazy.”
“How?”
“Like, he seemed spaced out, and he was all, like . . . formal, I guess. I mean, the dad is screaming his head off and crying and hitting Shannon with his fists, and the lieutenant is just . . . rambling, sir, in the middle of all this chaos, saying how ‘Now they’ll all know’ over and over, and giving these orders for us to return to the COP.”
“What did you guys do?”
“Sergeant Caine went and grabbed the dad from Shannon, and as he’s doing it this other kid runs out from the house and runs away into the trees.”
“A kid?”
“Yeah, another young kid. We couldn’t even tell if it was a boy or girl, but I guess the kid figured they were gonna get shot too, so they made a break for it.”
Girl.
“And Sergeant Caine tells Shannon to go after the kid. And Shannon hasn’t said anything this whole time, sir, and he just stands there and looks Sergeant Caine in the eye and tells him, ‘Go fuck yourself.’”
“What did Sergeant Caine do?”
From the upper corner of his eye he could see Corelli’s head come up.
“He was mad, sir. Like, panicky. And he said, ‘God fucking damn it,’ and then he dragged the father into the trees where none of us could see and he shot him too, sir.”
Corelli let that sit before continuing, matter-of-factly.
“Then he came back and he took us all away from the house, and he took us aside in another part of the Meadows, away from Lieutenant Pistone, and he told us that nothing happened that night and we didn’t see anything. He said that if we said one word of it to anyone, even Sergeant Merrick, the lieutenant was going to kill us too. Like, he was trying to act like he was behind what Lieutenant Pistone did, sir. He said, ‘Now you know the lieutenant does not play.’ But I could tell he was scared, sir.”
“Okay.”
“Then we all went back to the COP.”
“Who else was on the patrol?”
“Besides me and Shannon, it was just Hill, sir, and Chen.”
From O.P. Traynor.
“What happened after that night?”
“Nothing, sir. Sergeant Caine would remind us every week, remind me at least, what Lieutenant Pistone was gonna do. Nobody talked about it, and Sergeant Caine tried to just keep on like everything was normal.”
Black was confused.
“Why’d he let any of you guys keep going out on patrols?” he asked. “Why would Caine want to keep going down into Darreh Sin?”
“He didn’t want to, sir,” Corelli said. “But we had to go. We had that water project that we had to go down and take pictures of and stuff, once a week. Sergeant Caine couldn’t leave just us in the COP all the time, ’cause that would look too suspicious to the rest of the platoon. And he definitely couldn’t explain to our H.Q. why we couldn’t go take the pictures anymore.”
Black imagined these patrols.
“Those trips must have been hairy.”
“Very hairy, sir. We went two or three times since it happened, before the time we took you down there.”
Darreh Sin was making more sense.
“What about the goat thing?”
“The goat thing was just the goat thing, sir. That’s all that was. Honest mistake. Sergeant Merrick made us go down to the town the next day to try and make it right.”
“I’ll bet Sergeant Caine wasn’t happy about that one.”
“Not even a little bit happy, sir.”
“But he couldn’t say anything.”
“No, sir. I think he was trying to keep Sergeant Merrick as much in the dark as anyone.”
“So you went down there, and the vibe was weird.”
“Very weird, sir,” Corelli said, shuddering. “That’s when I knew.”
“Knew what?”
“Knew that they knew who each of us was, sir. Not just knew what happened. We knew they all knew. But knew each of us specifically that was there, sir.”
His voice went distant.
“I could just see it, the way those guys were looking at me.”
“That’s why you were so jumpy and ended up firing your weapon.”
“I guess so, sir.”
Black lay still for a moment. He realized he was terribly thirsty.
“When did Hill disappear?”
He saw Corelli start in surprise.
“Uh, how’d you know about Hill, sir?”
“I just do.”
“A couple days after that night, sir. Nobody’s seen him on the COP since then. Sergeant Caine keeps saying he’s out on a ‘long patrol,’ but he never comes back in again. And then Bosch went away a couple days ago. I thought that, that maybe . . .”
“They’re fine,” Black said. “I saw them.”
“Sir?”
“Don’t worry about it. What about Lieutenant Pistone, after that night?”
“He just practically disappeared after that night, sir. I mean, he was around the COP, but nobody saw him. He just hid out in his room, and he definitely didn’t go out on any patrols anymore. Sergeant Caine probably told him to lay low, sir. In fact, the morning after the goat thing, right before Sergeant Merrick took us down to Darreh Sin, Sergeant Caine told me I didn’t have to worry because the locals were mostly mad at Lieutenant Pistone, and the last time we were down there he had told the mayor or the chief or whoever that the lieutenant had left Vega and he wasn’t coming back.”
Corelli shook his head.
“I just still don’t understand it, sir. I mean, Lieutenant Pistone didn’t exactly seem like a nice guy, but, I mean, he definitely didn’t seem like . . .”
“I know,” Black said.
He reread the diary entry in his head.
“He fooled me too.”
They sat and lay a moment.
“Was Doc Brydon there that night?” Black asked.
“No, sir, thank God. I think Billy had enough on his plate.”
Black peered up at Corelli, but nothing more was offered.
“What do you know about Brydon?” he asked.
“What do you mean, sir?”
“Like where he was from and what his deal was.”
Corelli paused.
“Nothing much, really, sir. I like Billy.”
“But.”
Corelli was wrestling with something.
“Well, I mean, it was weird when he showed up, sir.”
“How’s that?”
“The night before he got to Vega, sir, this weird thing happened,” Corelli said, drifting back into the memory.
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“Well, I was on duty in the C.P., sir, and I was just monitoring the frequencies and reading my book, and I started picking up all this broken-up chatter on the Brigade net.”
The frequency for anyone in the entire area of operations, including the Valley, to talk to the Brigade headquarters.
“Firefight chatter,” Black said.
“Yeah, firefight chatter, sir. How’d you know that?”
“Don’t worry about it.”
“Okay, sir. Um, anyway, it was bad, sir. I mean, the firefight was bad. Well, the connection was bad too. Like, real patchy, like we were just getting little bits here and there. But you could tell something was going on somewhere. Somebody was in real trouble, but we had no idea who. I mean, it wasn’t Heavenly, and there’s nobody farther up the Valley, so we were sitting there wondering if somehow we were getting transmissions from another valley. Like, maybe the weather was doing it or something.”
“Okay.”
“Sergeant Caine and Shannon went out to go up to higher ground and check it out, sir. Which Sergeant Merrick would never have let him do, just him and another guy by themselves, but he was gone on his R&R leave and Sergeant Caine was running the show. So he and Shannon went up there, sir, and they came back a few hours later and said they didn’t find anything.”
“Billy showed up the next day.”
He could feel Corelli’s searching gaze on him.
“Well, yeah, sir. The next day Sergeant Caine brought Billy to me at the armory, and said he was cross-transferred from another unit, and to add him to the roster. Which was weird because I hadn’t known there had been a convoy in the middle of the night or anything.”
He sighed.
“I don’t know, sir. I guess I just figured maybe he was a guy who had had some trouble in his other unit, which is why he got transferred. And I figured maybe it just kind of bothers him, whatever it is. Like, it’s hanging over his head.”
“He didn’t tell you anything else?”
“No, sir. I got the feeling maybe he wanted to tell me something else, but he hasn’t told me, so I don’t push it. I mean, I figure whatever he’s dealing with, it’s his business, sir.”
He paused.
“I figure maybe that’s why Sergeant Caine always arranges for him to go on so much R&R leave all the time.”
“What do you mean?”
“Oh, you know, sir. Just trips for a day or two. They’ll send a guy if they think he’s, you know, if they think he needs a break for real.”
He paused.
“It’s just, Billy seems to need a lot of breaks, sir.”
Black thought he understood something.
“Did you ever tell him about that night in the Meadows?”
“No, sir,” he murmured. “I kind of think he might know, though.”
“How’s that?”
“He’s friends with Bosch, and I think maybe Bosch told him. He started kind of being nicer to me all of a sudden, giving me music and stuff. Like he knew something was bothering me too.”
Corelli’s breathing sounded as though he might start sobbing again.
“I couldn’t do it, sir!” he cried wretchedly.
“Do what?”
“I didn’t tell him or anyone! No one was talking to anyone about it. Everyone was scared of what was going to happen to us.”
“You tried to tell me, and you’re telling me now.”
Corelli’s voice went wispy and blank.
“I was a coward and I’m going to burn for it,” he murmured to no one in particular.
“No one’s going to burn,” Black said. “It’s time to get out of here.”
Corelli looked at him questioningly.
“The Monk’s coming, sir?”
“The Monk’s not coming.”
Corelli sat in silence a moment.
“Oh, sir,” he groaned. “We’re screwed, aren’t we? We’re stuck up here.”
“No one’s stuck,” Black said. “I’m getting you out of here.”
“Oh, sir, you’re too—”
In one motion Black pushed himself to a sitting position. Pain shot from his shoulder down through his waist, and his head felt like it would burst. The room spun again and for a few moments he was sure he would vomit.
He looked around himself, panting. Only then did he see the pool of blood on the floor where his shoulder had lain. His left arm hung limply at his side.
He was so thirsty.
“Sir,” Corelli said matter-of-factly, “you are in no position whatsoever to attempt any kind of rescue.”
Black ignored him, instead turning so Corelli could see the back of his shoulder, where the bullet had passed through.
“Is this actively bleeding?”
“Uh, I don’t think so, sir, but there’s a big pud—”
“Good.”
Corelli watched as Black slowly eased himself forward until he was on his hands—hand—and knees, facing the doorway. Webs of pain spidered out across his chest and side.
“Stay here,” Black directed.
He realized the ridiculousness of that statement and laughed out loud. Corelli looked at him with concern.
Black managed to plant a foot in front of him and pull himself up on the doorway edge. Everything went a little tilty.
“Sir,” Corelli called after him. “Don’t tell Billy if he doesn’t know already. I want to tell him myself.”
“Billy’s dead.”
He stumbled through the doorway into the light.
The panorama before him was overwhelming. He felt as though he would fall off the mountain into the sky if he didn’t hold on.
He waited for the dizziness to subside and focused his eyes on the ground before him. Corelli’s pistol lay in the dirt. He let it be.
He placed one foot in front of the other, facing along the ridgeline toward COP Vega. Then the next foot.
He made it about twenty steps before he fell down.
“Walks in the fog and steals your babies and shit.”
He picked himself up and started again.
37
As he staggered and fell across the mountains toward COP Vega, Black heard and saw many things, some of which he thought were real and some of which he thought were not real. After what must have been several hours night fell, and he knew he was hallucinating because he saw the smartass next to him, guiding him to his point.
He tasted dirt. At points he thought he was crawling. The air had turned colder overnight, and with it the ground. He was sure he heard thunder echoing off the mountainsides. He needed water so desperately.
He may have lain down to rest, though the yawning horrors that opened beneath his dreams pushed him back up through the dirt and onto his stumbling feet again.
He was sure only that he was on his face now, in the leaves and needles, and that a rough hand was turning him over. He felt his heels dragging through the brush as the same hand hauled him along like a sled, pulling him by the straps on his pack, until finally it released him to slough onto the blessed ground again.
He opened his eyes and saw daylight filtering through tree branches.
And Corporal Shannon, standing over him, brushing off his cruddy hands and working stiff fingers. Turning to see another figure stepping forward.
Merrick. Scowling down on him.
“Jesus Christ, Lieutenant. Can’t you take a hint?”
Black’s hand went weakly to his hip and managed to unholster his pistol, which felt like it weighed thirty pounds. He waved it limply in Merrick’s direction.
“Oh, hell,” Merrick said, exasperated, disarming him in a languid motion.
He turned to Shannon.
“Hurry, let’s get him out of here.”
More thunder in the distance.
Merrick squatted to inspect Black’s shoulder.
“I tell you this way, and I tell you that way,” he muttered, tearing fabric open to get a better look. “I try to tell you that I’ve got this. I thought you Regiment officers were supposed to be the smart ones. Jesus, did you even try to bandage this?”
Black’s body tried uselessly to flinch away from Merrick’s hands as the sergeant rolled him on his side to examine the back of his shoulder, which Black only then realized was still very damp.
“How’d you get shot, sir?”
“Fuck you,” Black whispered, his throat dry as ageless desert wastes.
“You’re welcome,” Merrick said irritably, rolling Black back more roughly than he needed to and rising to his full height.
Black brought his right hand to his pocket and fished in it clumsily, finally coming up with a crinkled piece of paper. He tossed it weakly in Merrick’s direction. It stalled in midair and made a rough landing at his feet.
“Do it,” he croaked, “yourself.”
The effort of forcing out three words left him panting and exhausted. Merrick picked up the paper and read it without comprehension.
“What the fuck is this? Who gave you this?”
He handed it to Shannon for him to look at.
“You,” Black managed.
“What?” Merrick snapped.
He snatched it back from Shannon.
“Bullshit I gave you this. This isn’t even my writing.”
He wadded it in a hand and tossed it onto Black’s chest. It rolled away and fell to the ground unwanted.
“Is this from more of your snooping around playing fucking detective?” Merrick said angrily. “Sir, how many different ways did I have to tell you I had it under control?”
Black did not understand this, but he was finding that he was losing the ability to distrust the tall, contemptuous sergeant. Or perhaps to care whether he was to be trusted. Too much made no sense to sort out inside his careening head.
“Caine . . .” he whispered with effort, looking forward to not talking for a while.
“Yeah, I know. Caine,” Merrick snapped. “Who do you think I’ve been investigating since before you ever came up here to help me out by fucking everything up?”
“He means,” said Shannon, pointing to the little crumple of paper on the ground, “Caine.”