He came closer, lifted his blade, tilted its tip up and spasmodically clenched his fist on the hilt.
Just as he thrust it at me, I let the image dissolve and dodged to the side. He missed me cleanly, but stood grinning at me all the same. “You can’t outwit me, Raven,” he said. “Never that. I’m too old, too clever to be fooled by your tricks.”
I couldn’t even argue it. “So I see. Then I suppose my only hope is to outfight you.”
“We both know you cannot.”
“We’ll see.” I lurched, swinging my blade, and when he dodged the blow, I leaped and kicked him hard in the belly. A loud grunt gusted from him as he doubled over. By the time he got his breath and straightened again, I was racing through the trees, taking an uphill course. If I could tire the old man, I might stand a chance of beating him. Maybe. If he were as desperate for a heart as he’d claimed, he should be weak. He should lack stamina.
He’d shown no signs of it so far, though. And if he’d lied–
I wouldn’t think of that now.
He gave chase. I knew when I paused for a breath and heard him crashing through the pines, branches snapping, needles raining to the ground in his wake like minuscule raindrops, whispering down.
Higher, then. And I ran on.
And then the trees parted before me, opening all at once onto a sheer drop to the sea. Planting my feet, I nearly overbalanced. My arms whirled backward twice, then I went still, blinking at the vista spread out below my feet. Endless space, and below it, jagged rocks winking and blinking up at me as the waves covered and uncovered them. White froth.
“Oh, now, this is amusing.”
I turned slowly, faced Nathanial. He stood in a powerful crouch, and if his face was flushed, it was with excitement, not exhaustion. His eyes gleamed. He wasn’t tired. If anything he was thriving on this battle. “You made a grave mistake, didn’t you, Raven?”
Grimly I knew Arianna had been right. I didn’t have the skills to beat him. I’d never beaten him. And if I fought him now, he would kill me. And then perhaps he’d kill Duncan.
But if I didn’t....
He’d promised he would go after Duncan anyway.
I couldn’t die here. I had to survive, even if it meant running from this fight. At least that way I would be alive to warn Duncan, to protect him, or try to. Goddess, I should have listened to Arianna in the first place. She’d told me I couldn’t beat him.
I looked to the left, to the right. In the distance I saw two forms coming toward me. Far below, they moved along a path leading up to these cliffs. And as I stared down at them, focused my vision, I saw the woman’s soft blond hair riffling in the breeze, and then the dark locks of the man beside her. Arianna...and Duncan. As if sensing my eyes on them, they both looked up. Duncan pointed, and I saw his lips move. It was likely he called my name, though he was too far away for me to hear him. Then the two ran. They’d be here soon.
I met Nathanial’s eyes again. Cold.
“Yes,” he said, having seen my thoughts in my eyes. “But by the time they arrive, you’ll be dead. And I’ll be gone. And know this as you die, Raven. I will take Duncan’s heart, too, once you’re out of the way. Your friend can’t protect him forever.”
I narrowed my eyes on him. He was lying. I saw it there clearly. He wouldn’t take Duncan’s heart unless he had to. And he wouldn’t even attempt it while Arianna was nearby. He feared her.
But there was no time to work this out in my mind any further, because he leaped at me. His blade drove directly at my midsection, and though I moved to block the thrust, I moved too late. Hot steel sank deep into my belly. Burning pain, terrible pain. I cried out, but all that emerged was a gurgling sound and a mouthful of blood.
He jerked the blade out again. Then he reached for me. And I knew he would hold me and carve into my chest, rip out my heart, end it all now. I took a single step backward as he reached for me. And there was nothing there. Air. I fell into its breath. In silence I plummeted. No sound at all. Not until the impact.
* * *
Duncan ran. His lungs worked in a way he’d never felt them work before. Efficiently. Powerfully. The beat of his heart seemed like an engine. Unstoppable, strong. His legs pushed his body to speeds greater than he could have reached before. But he didn’t marvel at these changes. Only noted them and felt grateful, because it meant he could reach Raven faster.
He could still see her, facing his father–or the man he’d called his father–on the cliffs. Nathanial moved closer, until Raven seemed trapped.
“We’re not going to make it in time,” Duncan rasped.
“We have to.” Arianna’s voice was a monotone of utter determination.
Then Nathanial drove forward, and Raven went stiff. Duncan could see her eyes widen, see her lips move, and the scarlet that bubbled from them. She looked down, then toward him. And Nathanial jerked his blade from her belly.
“No!” Duncan screamed with a voice that rolled like thunder, like the words of the gods themselves; his command broke the silent pause on that cliff. “Dammit, Nathanial, leave her alone!”
But it was as if no one heard. Nathanial reached out. Raven stepped back and into oblivion. She didn’t even cry out. Just fell. Just fell. He could hear her clothes snapping like flags in the wind, see her hair fluttering. He screamed her name in anguish. His head felt as if it were exploding, splitting, when her body hit the rocks below. A shock went through him. Pain, horror, devastation,
And memory. The clear, vivid memory of all of this happening before.
His heart filled with long-repressed emotions, unbearable emotions he realized had been there all along. Condensed, perhaps, and bottled up somewhere. But the bottle had shattered and the feelings swelled until he didn’t think he could contain them. And then he was running, clambering, half climbing, half falling, sending a shower of rocks down the cliffs before him, hearing their plunking sounds as they hit the water. Sliding, skinning his hands and chin and every other part of him, tearing his clothes, he made his way to the bottom.
And then he paused on the shore and searched the unforgiving waves for her.
There.
She lay face up, half submerged. Her head and one shoulder and arm were sprawled on a sloped rock. The rest of her body submerged, broken, as the waves tugged at it, so steadily and greedily that she’d be swept out to sea soon.
He moved as if entranced. Sloshing into the water, walking out deeper, deeper, then swimming. He’d kicked free of his shoes at some point. He wasn’t certain when. But he reached that rock and pulled himself up onto its slick surface. And then he gathered her broken body into his arms.
Limp. So limp, so shattered. A porcelain doll smashed and tossed aside.
“No,” he whispered. “No, not now. God, Raven, not now.”
Her long hair was dripping with seawater that streamed over her face and shoulders. He gently smoothed it, stroked her face with his hand as his tears came. Burning hot, like acid on his cheeks, they flowed. They fell, and mingled with the water on her lips.
He clung tighter, pulling her full against him, rocking her slowly and weeping without control, without shame. So tightly, he held her body pressed to his, her lifeless head heavy on his shoulder. The enormity of it crushed down on him all at once. To have loved her this much, this damn much, so much it was every part of him, every cell, every breath, his soul, his life...all his lives. How could he not have known? How could he not have felt this? And now, now when he finally did feel it, and know it and recognize it for what it was, and remember it, she was gone. She was gone. Oh, God, she was gone!
He kissed her face, her hair, as sobs rose up and tore at his chest, threatening to split him in two. Now he understood how she’d felt all those years ago, when she’d held his lifeless, broken body on these rocks. Now he understood what she had faced. All those years alone. God, they stretched out before him like a desert, where every grain of sand was a shard of glass, and which he had to cross barefoot withou
t a sip of water.
“I willna,” he whispered. “I canna do it, Raven. I dinna know how you did, but I canna. I canna go on without you, lass.”
She had, though. Her strength must be an awesome thing, to enable her to survive with this kind of pain. Three hundred years. Three centuries, she’d dealt with it.
“An’ when you found me again, what did I do? God, Raven, what did I do to you? I trusted him, believed him.” He let her head fall backward, staring down at her face, so pale and still and lovely. “How that must have hurt you. How could I hurt you like that? You, you, Raven, my soul, my heart. How many times will I lose you this way? How many times?”
Still. So still. So dead. He closed his eyes and held her, loving her with everything in him, and another memory came to him. He was standing there, holding her in his arms for the first time. Beneath a gallows as he sawed at the filthy rope with a pilfered blade. And held her, and cried for the woman he didn’t even know.
But he had. He’d known her then, somehow. Some way. His soul had recognized hers. His heart had known hers, and he’d loved her. He’d loved her from the first moment he’d set eyes on her.
“I told you I wasna the man you remembered, Raven. But I am. I’m Duncan Wallace, an’ I was born in 1675 in the land of the Scots, the land of my father an’ his before him. I’m the man who loved you all those lifetimes ago, an’ I love you still, Raven St. James. I love you still.”
He drew a breath, somehow got to his feet, and holding her cradled as carefully as if she were made of crystal, he drew her with him as he made his way to shore. He wouldn’t leave her to the sea. He couldn’t. Something was niggling at him through his anguish. A faint, desperate hope that wouldn’t leave him alone. He didn’t want to let the hope form fully, for fear it would only destroy him if it turned out to be a false one. But as he stepped out of the waves and carried her onto the shore, he couldn’t suppress it any longer.
He laid her down, in the lush green grass, in a spot dotted with tiny blue forget-me-nots. And then he sat beside her, leaned over her, and gently spread her hair to dry in the grasses. “That first time I held you, lass, that first time I wept for you, you were nay dead then. You survived that noose. You told me you were immortal. You told me you couldna die unless the bastard took your heart.” He closed his eyes, recalling the thrust of Nathanial’s blade, but he’d been so far away. He couldn’t tell.
“Tell me that bastard didna do that.”
Gently he touched the front of her torn, bloodstained blouse. Even the cool kiss of the ocean hadn’t washed those stains away. Nothing would, and he hoped nothing would wash them from Nathanial’s hands, either.
His heart in his throat, he prayed in silence. Please, please, dinna let it be....
Opening her blouse, he stared down at her chest. Pale, beaded with droplets of seawater, but unmaimed. There was no gaping hole, no wound near her heart.
He spread the blouse further and saw the wound she had suffered, the deep cut of Nathanial’s blade, high in her belly. But even as he looked, that wound began to heal. Its edges puckered and pulled in on themselves as if magnetized. One side met the other, pressed like a kiss, and seemed to meld before his eyes.
Stunned, he drew his gaze upward, focused on her face, afraid to believe, afraid to hope.
“Raven?”
And then she went rigid, back arching off the ground, hands clenching fistfuls of grass at her sides, heels pressing the earth. Her neck arched as well, chin pointing skyward, and she sucked in a harsh, greedy breath. It made him think of electrocution, that brief seizure. Her eyes went wide, too wide, for just an instant. And then her body relaxed again, and she lay limp on the ground, blinking slowly, staring at him from unfocused eyes.
“Raven,” he whispered. “Raven, Raven, Raven.” He slipped his arms around her, beneath her, lifting her gently against him, holding her close, but not close enough. It would never be close enough. She hugged his neck, so pliable in his arms, melting there. His hands burying themselves in her hair, he drew her head back slightly, and then he pressed his lips to hers, kissing her more deeply, more urgently than he had in this lifetime. Kissing her the way he had before, in that other time, when he’d known what she was to him. Because he knew it now. He finally knew it now.
She blinked in confusion when he lifted his head away. Her slender, perfect fingers touched his cheeks, touched the tears there as she frowned. He couldn’t speak, couldn’t put the overwhelming things he was feeling into words. Not yet, not yet. He felt as if he’d been lost, wandering and lost, and searching, and now he’d found her. He’d found himself. He’d come home.
He bent and kissed her again, and this time he didn’t stop. His hands pushed her blouse away, caressed her breasts, felt them warming, felt her entire body warming to his touch. He kissed her neck, her shoulders, her belly, where that wound had been. He kissed the place where her heart beat in her chest and willed that it would always remain there, strong and alive and full of love for him. He kissed her hips as he undressed her. Her thighs. Her center, where he lingered. How he loved her. How he’d always loved her.
She whispered his name with her heart in her breath and her hands in his hair, and he tasted more of her, wanted to devour her, make her truly a part of him, take her inside him somehow and keep her there, cherished and safe. Always safe.
When she cried out, he moved up over her body once more. He ran his hands over her flesh. Living and warm. Over limbs, alive and responsive now, no longer limp and broken. Did she know what she was to him? Could she know? My God, was it even possible that he was that much to her, as well?
Yes. It shone from her eyes and danced on her tremulous as she opened to him, held him, drew him down, took him inside her. She held his gaze as he moved, and she moved with him. Rocked him, loved him. He stared right into her eyes, into her soul, it seemed, as he made love to her. And the pounding of her heart and the pounding of his own blended with the pounding of the waves against the shore until it was all one. All one...and he felt as if he and she were one. A single soul that had been split for a time, united again at long last. She never blinked, nor did he. And when her lips parted and her breaths came in short little gasps, and he rode her faster and harder and deeper, their gazes remained locked. He felt their souls connect and touch, through their eyes.
She cried out his name, those black eyes widening. He felt the pressure build inside him, and then the explosion as he spilled into her, his entire body quivering with the force of his release. And in that moment, he saw himself in her eyes. As if he truly had merged with her, as if his soul really did live inside her.
And only then did those eyes fell closed.
He relaxed atop her, sliding slightly to the side, to ease the burden of his weight. “I have so much to tell you,” he whispered.
She nodded, kissed his head. “And I you. I’d been thinking, Duncan, that our chance had passed. That we could never be as we were before.” Her hand stroked his hair. “But I know now that I can’t go on without you, Duncan. So whatever you can give me, it will be enough. I’ll make it be enough.”
He lifted his head, stared down into her eyes. “You dinna ken what this was, do you, lass?”
She smiled slightly. “You sound like the Highland lad you were so long ago. Are you lapsing into a brogue you don’t even recall, Duncan?”
“Am I? I dinna care if I am. It doesna matter. Nothing does right now, except....” He licked his lips, swallowed hard. “When I saw you on the cliffs, when I saw you fall–”
She sat up straight, eyes flying wide. “Nathanial! The bastard nearly had me! Duncan, we have to....” She paused, looking past him. “Oh, no,” she whispered, and her face went pale.
“What is it?”
She snatched her clothes, wet and tattered, throwing them on haphazardly. “Arianna! She was with you. Where did she go, Duncan, where is Arianna?”
He gave his head a shake. He’d completely forgotten about Raven’s friend. “W
e...we were together when you went over the edge. I dinna ken where she went then, Raven. I was only thinkin’ of you, trying to get to you. When I did, she wasna with me.”
Her face crumpled, and her fingers went to her lips. Openmouthed, she sucked in a breath and got to her feet, righting her clothes as best she could. “She’s gone after Nathanial.” Closing her eyes, she shook her head. “He’s better than either of us knew, Duncan. He’ll kill her.”
“We’ll stop him.” He helped her to her feet, and when she stumbled, held her tight to his side. “Are you sure you’re all right?”
Raven nodded. Always so strong, so determined. “I love her, Duncan.”
“I know. I can see it.”
“He probably ran back to his lair–that obscenity he calls a museum. He doesn’t want to face Arianna. He fears her. She fought him once, nearly beat him, I think.”
“That’s where we’ll go. It’ll be all right, Raven, I promise. He’s never goin’ to hurt you, nor anyone you care about, ever again. I swear it.”
She stared up at him, and he saw the questions in her eyes. Maybe because he’d spoken with such passion just now, maybe because she sensed he meant every word.
“Later,” he promised, bending to plant a quick, tender kiss on her mouth. “I’ll tell you everythin’ later.”
He took her hand, closed his eyes briefly in ecstasy as he realized how good it was to hold that hand in his again, and together, they ran.
Chapter 22
Damn!
She’d done it, Nathanial thought viciously. Raven St. James had come between him and Duncan all over again. And she’d gotten away with it!
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