With a last look at the innocent life she was leaving behind, she reached for her bag. She was standing on quicksand, and if she didn’t free herself fast, she’d be stuck here playing nursemaid to a child who wasn’t hers for a man she couldn’t touch.
Get out while you still have your pride.
Lifting her chin, she tried to do exactly that.
“Wait.” His fingers curled around her upper arm, stopping her retreat. “Stop. Just wait.”
When she glanced back at him, there was a wildness to Walker she’d never seen before. Calm, cool, and perpetually detached, she’d never seen the tech genius sweat. But the thought of her leaving had desperation filling his eyes that rooted her feet to the ground.
“I know it’s not fair,” he said, pulling her closer. “It’s the most selfish thing I’ve ever asked in my life. It isn’t your problem.”
“A child isn’t a problem,” she tried.
“It is for me,” he replied. “I never wanted kids. You know that.”
“It’s a little late for that now.”
“I know.” His sapphire gaze shifted to his son. “I will do everything in my power to see this baby has the best chance at a good life. But I don’t know where to start. Hell, I don’t even have his birth certificate. Or a record of whether he’s had his immunizations or checkups. And a lawyer. Do I need a lawyer? There are issues here I just don’t know how to handle. You practically raised your siblings. You know how to do this far better than I do.”
Raised them as a modern-day Cinderella, she thought bitterly. Minus the fairy godmother and the handsome prince.
“I have a life,” she said. “A normal, nine-to-five day job.”
“We’ll arrange for a nanny during the day,” he promised. “I can work from home for the immediate future. I rely on my board for the day-to-day operating of the company anyway. You know I’ve always been happier inventing than managing.”
“If you’re going to hire a nanny you don’t need me.”
“I always need you.”
Her breath caught as she looked up at him. The hand on her arm burned through the thin material of her shirt.
“I don’t even know where he came from or how he ended up on my doorstep,” he said, stepping closer till their bodies almost touched. “I need to unravel all of this. Find his mother. Figure out what happened. But you know my world is all numbers. This will be the hardest transition of my life, and I need a partner who will remember to heat up a bottle if I slip.”
“But I’m not your partner,” she whispered.
“Be one for a little while. I can’t do this alone, Clara. We both need you.”
She glanced back at the baby. As much as she loved her friend, she’d never known Walker to be able to keep so much as a cactus alive. He wasn’t joking when he said he’d need help for this task.
“How long?” she asked, refusing to admit she was caving.
“A month, maybe two,” he offered. “By then I should have learned enough to handle this alone.”
“You expect me to reorder my life for an indefinite length of time only to be cast off once my usefulness has ended,” she said. “Flattering.”
“You know it’s not like that,” he chided. “You’re my best friend. I’ll need you for the rest of my life.”
But you won’t. And some day, I won’t need you either.
That was how friendship was supposed to work. Someday she’d meet a real partner who made Walker pale in comparison, and he’d become the new rock in her life. Sure, no one had come close yet, but someday he would and she couldn’t be dependent on Walker when that happened.
Hell, they were already moving in that direction. This baby hadn’t come into existence all on his own. Somewhere out there was a woman forever entwined in Walker’s life. What if she returned? What if she was the person who’d become Walker’s rock? He’d never wanted a permanent relationship, but there was a child involved now. That seemed pretty damned permanent to her.
Raising a hand, she cupped his strong jaw. There was no hiding the worry and exhaustion on his face. His world of order and logic had just been disrupted, and he didn’t know which way was up.
And he’d turned to her.
How do I leave him like this?
She wasn’t the sort of person who ever put her well-being above another’s, especially a child’s. Was she really going to walk away when Walker needed her most? What sort of person would she be to leave a defenseless baby and her oldest friend in a mess when she had the skills to help them?
“Clara,” he said, his voice almost a whisper as he placed a hand over hers. Their fingers entwined as he pressed his cheek into her touch. “Don’t leave me now.”
She closed her eyes, feeling his hand on hers. Staying would be the wrong choice for her. But it would be the right choice for him and the baby. Two to one. If she went into this with her eyes open, she could make sure no lines were crossed that they couldn’t come back from. They could survive this with their friendship intact. She’d make sure of it.
“Three weeks,” she negotiated, extracting her hand and stepping back.
The breath rushed from his lungs in a loud exhale. “Three weeks,” he agreed.
“I’ll teach you everything I know, but then you have to be on your own. This isn’t my baby. I can’t let this change in your life be a change in mine.”
His eyes slid away from hers. “I understand.”
“Okay.” She let out a long sigh. “Then let’s get to work. I need some paper to write out a list of things we’ll need tonight. Your driver will be able to get most of it.”
“Whatever you need.”
Nodding, she dropped to the couch, eyes on the baby, and hoped she hadn’t just made the biggest mistake of her life.
…
Walker stared at the crib in his bedroom. It didn’t belong. It didn’t fit. His walls were lined with bookshelves filled with books and spare parts. One corner of the room was a makeshift workshop where he tinkered and created in the middle of the night when sleep evaded him. The other side housed a low couch where he’d sat with his arm wrapped around a woman a time or two. Neither sides of his life were conducive to a crib pushed up by the bed. It was out of place. A physical reminder that a baby didn’t fit into his world any more than a crib did into his bedroom.
What am I doing?
He couldn’t raise a child. What did he know about babies? His driver had been the one to scourer the city tonight trying to find the essentials he’d need to get him through the next few hours. He hadn’t even known what to ask for before Clara had told him.
I have no business being a father.
A smile tugged at his lips. He could almost imagine Clara’s response if she could hear his thoughts.
“There’s a baby in your home, Sherlock. It’s a little late for second thoughts.”
Even when she wasn’t here she was right. He’d made reckless mistakes that in hindsight were the heights of stupidity. He was lucky it was just a baby on his doorstep and not someone trying to extort him. He should have been more careful. More intelligent.
He should have been more like Clara.
How the hell did I let this happen?
And who had it happened with?
He ran a hand down his face, doing the mental math to back date the months. Somewhere out there was his baby’s mother who obviously wanted nothing to do with him. Not that he could blame her after having clearly gone through a pregnancy alone, but still. Didn’t creating a kid together warrant a conversation?
Unable to help himself, he crossed over to the crib to run his fingers along the wood.
Regrets did him no good. Reality had arrived and he needed to figure out how to deal with it. Finding his son’s mother wasn’t his top priority right now. Not when he only had a month to learn how to keep a child alive before Clara left. Three weeks would fly by and then he’d be alone again.
Maybe forever.
There’d been no missing
the shock and pain in Clara’s eyes when she’d looked at his son. She’d help him through his latest mess, but he couldn’t guarantee what would happen after. This might be the straw that finally pushed her too far. She’d realize she could do a hell of a lot better than an absentminded genius who spent more time thinking about software than people.
And then he’d have to watch the light in her eyes die when she looked at him. Her face would go carefully blank when he entered a room, and her words would become polite and bland until they finally parted ways. He’d seen it before. Watched it happen time and again to those who’d claimed to care for him. He’d been waiting ten years to see that expression on Clara’s face.
And tonight, she’d come close enough to make his heart twist in his chest.
I’ve been alone before.
He could do it again if he had to.
Couldn’t he?
“Walker?”
The soft sound of her voice wrapped around him, banishing the dark thoughts. For a second, he closed his eyes, embracing the tiny respite that her presence offered.
“I think I have him settled.”
Sighing, he turned to see her in the doorway.
The breath froze in his lungs at the sight. Clara stared up at him, her feet bare, her hair messy, with a baby nestled peacefully in her arms. His child. She was cuddling his son, and that knowledge made his chest tighten.
“Is the crib ready?” she asked, shifting her weight in a small rocking motion.
“Yes.” The word scraped against his throat as he pushed it out.
Her gaze drifted off him as she came farther into the room. Avoiding him, she made a beeline for the crib and gently lay the baby down.
“He needs a name,” she said, tucking the child in.
“I don’t know what to call him.”
“No one ever does. Pick one that makes sense to you.”
Name another human being as if it’s nothing.
“I doubt he’ll sleep through the night, but he’s been through a lot, so who knows.”
Again, her eyes didn’t meet his.
“I’m going to claim the guest room for the time being. I took tomorrow off work, which means we can get everything settled and reevaluate what we need to do. All that can wait till the morning. I’m beat.”
She was at the door before he could call her back.
“Clara.” He tried anyway.
She paused, turning back to him. “Yes?”
“I—” The words died on his tongue. How did he explain he knew how badly he’d screwed up in her eyes? Knew she might never forgive him for it?
“Don’t worry about it, Walker,” she said before he could speak. Like a wraith, she slipped from the room.
He stared at the empty doorway, a cold certainty filling him.
He had three weeks to make this right for all of them. And if he couldn’t, it wouldn’t just be his room that felt empty.
It’d be the rest of his life.
Chapter Three
“I’m sorry. It sounded like you just said you wouldn’t be in today because Walker Beckett had a baby.”
Clara ran her hand down her face. “Again, yes. That’s the third time you’ve repeated it, Diane.”
“Walker Beckett.”
“Yes.”
“Had a baby.”
“Yes.”
“Do the scientific journals know about him yet?”
She sighed. “Obviously, there was a woman involved.”
“And just to clarify, the woman wasn’t you, right?”
“This right here? This is why people say you shouldn’t be friends with your boss.”
“I’m sorry. I’m trying to wrap my head around this. I thought it was a hoax when I got your email.”
“Which is why I’m calling. I won’t be in the office today, as you can see, but I’ll have the Barlow article to you by Friday, I promise.”
“I assume you’ll be taking more time as this plays out? We’ve got a great maternity package, but I’m not sure it applies to being the best friend of the actual parent.”
She snorted. “You should really take that up with HR at the next meeting.”
“I’ll see that it makes it on the schedule.” The humor dropped from Diane’s voice. “But seriously, Clara, what have you gotten yourself into?”
“Was I just supposed to leave?”
Diane sighed long and slow before saying, “Yes. This isn’t your family.”
She flinched, old memories of a different time and place flashed through her mind. One where she stood at a window looking in on a smiling family that would never open their arms to her… “I know,” she said, dragging her mind back to the present. “But Walker may as well be. All we have is each other.”
“I hate to point this out, but if there is a baby in his life that isn’t yours, that belief isn’t so justified anymore.”
“I said I’d help him for three weeks,” she said, ignoring how Diane’s words stabbed through her. “After that, things will go back to normal.”
“Clara…”
“Normal,” she said more firmly. “I just have to get us through twenty-one days.”
“And then what? Four weeks from now he’s still going to be a father. That’s not a reality that ever goes away.”
No, it doesn’t. No matter how she spun this, normalcy was in the rearview mirror.
“I can’t think long term right now.”
“Well damn,” her boss said. “Okay, get me that piece this week, and I’ll do what I can to clear your schedule. The paper will survive without you for a while, and we can figure out how to best balance this. Maybe you can work remotely.”
“Thanks, Diane. I appreciate the help.”
“I can’t say there’s any precedence for a situation like this. Let’s just take it a day at a time. I do want to meet soon and get the full scoop, though. Preferably with a glass of wine in my hand.”
“I’m buying,” Clara promised.
“The two best words in the English language. Now I’ve got to run. Let me know if you can be in for Tuesday and we’ll take it from there.”
“Sounds like a plan.”
“Good. And Clara, remember one thing.”
“What?”
There was a pause before Diane said, “This baby isn’t yours.”
She hissed out a breath. “I know.”
“Good. Then that’s all I’ll say. Give me a call if you need me.”
“Thanks. Will do.”
Disconnecting the call, Clara tossed her cell onto the next pillow. Snuggling back into the guest room’s decadent bed she stared up at the ceiling. It wasn’t the first time she’d slept in this room. She kept a shoebox full of essentials in a corner of the closet for exactly these occasions. Once, one of Walker’s overnight guests had come across it and demanded to know what another woman’s belongings were doing in the room she’d been staying in. Clara smiled as she remembered it was the woman who’d been sent packing, rather than her little emergency box.
Pushing herself out of bed, she retrieved her belongings and fished out a toothbrush and some toothpaste. It was likely a miracle she hadn’t woken to the cries of a baby. She’d set her alarm for only a few hours of sleep but still, either the child was an angel or Walker had been trying to keep the kid quiet. She appreciated the consideration, but she wasn’t sure silence was a good sign from a man this out of his element with a baby.
Hurrying through her morning routine, she shrugged back into her yoga pants and tank top and went searching for her new roommate.
Padding through the penthouse barefoot, she ran down the stairs to the lower level and searched through the sprawling open-concept living space. Not seeing him in either the kitchen or living room, she wandered over to the towering windows and spotted a sight she’d never thought to see.
Out on the balcony Walker bounced a baby in his arms as he paced back and forth.
“Please stop,” she heard him say as she opened the slid
ing door. “Please be quiet.”
His back was to her, but she didn’t need to see his face to hear the desperation edging his words.
“Name your price. A Ferrari on your eighteenth birthday? Done. Just stop crying now.”
“I don’t think the parenting books recommend bribing your children with European luxury vehicles.”
He glanced over his shoulder. “You’re awake.”
“Yeah. You too by the looks of things. How long have you been up?”
“I don’t think I ever went down,” he replied.
She blinked. “What?”
“He started crying almost immediately,” he said. “I tried to keep him quiet, so I brought him out here since it was a warm morning. I think we might have slept a few minutes here or there, but I’m not entirely sure I didn’t hallucinate them.”
“Okay. Let’s put the tiny life-form down,” Clara said, scooping the baby from his arms. “How about I fix him a bottle and you can get a few minutes’ rest?”
“Are you an angel?”
“If I had a nickel.”
She glanced up at his exhausted face and her heart twisted. He was clearly exhausted yet here he was, doing his best for his child.
He’ll be a good dad.
She’d never thought about Walker that way, but it was true. Once he found his footing, she knew he’d throw himself at this challenge the way he did everything else. And though she’d never pictured him being a father, now she saw things differently.
Things change. Things you never thought would.
It was a dangerous idea. One that opened a door to possibilities she’d spent years trying not to think about.
Stop it. You’re here to be his support. Do your job.
“I’ll meet you in the kitchen when you’re ready,” she said as she turned away.
Holding the baby with sure hands, she left Walker and headed for the kitchen. Soon the newly bought formula was heating on the stove, and a strong pot of coffee brewed on the counter.
“What do you think?” she asked the baby, sitting at the high island table as she waited for their drinks to finish. “Are you going to be a hellion or are you just adjusting to the change in your world?”
She stared down into wide unblinking eyes.
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