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by Nellie P. Strowbridge


  The girls turned towards the cold breath of the harbour. The Prospero had sailed as far away as Boston, and was now sitting out in St. Anthony harbour, alight from stem to stern. Along with mail, it had brought passengers. Some were still on the boat, looking over the rail watching barrels of flour, molasses and oil winched down to smaller boats.

  Clarissa wished she would get her own letter from her real home in Humbermouth. Instead, letters asking about her were always addressed to the headmistress.

  As she swung her legs up the orphanage steps, Clarissa almost fell on her face. She was now in as much of a rush as Cora to get inside the orphanage and up the stairs before Missus Frances asked them where they had been, and punished them for not staying on the grounds as they were supposed to do – except on church and school days. The mistress must never know the girls had been in a shack where the man likely had no wages and the children likely carried lice – and worse.

  Cora rushed on ahead while Clarissa regained her footing. She had to get upstairs and wash before supper, or there might not be any food for her. Cora was on her way down the stairs to the dining room when Clarissa left the bath and toilet room, which Miss Elizabeth called a lobby.

  Clarissa was relieved to get downstairs and hobble into the dining room before the last bell rang. Looking over at the table of boys, she hoped none of them would wander up Tea House Hill and discover the strange box before she and Cora had a chance to get back there.

  4

  A NEW ORPHAN IN THE

  CRACKER BOX

  Cora and the other girls were sitting on benches lining each side of the long table when Clarissa took her place at the end, placing her crutches against a stool. She sat facing Imogene, one of the older girls. Everyone called her Emma Jane when they weren’t calling her Miss Tattle-tale. Imogene was always trying to get in the mistresses’ good graces by looking for someone to tattle on. Clarissa hoped Miss Tattle-tale wouldn’t discover that she and Cora had been up on Tea House Hill.

  Missus Frances, a stout, light-haired American, looked Clarissa’s way with a deep frown on her white face; her cheeks were like dumplings against her nose, itself a pinch of white dough. Clarissa felt her heart rising in her throat, as if it would choke her. She expected the whip of Missus Frances’s voice to chase her and Cora to bed without supper. The woman’s grey eyes shifted away, and Clarissa’s heart settled.

  Missus Frances lifted her head high and opened her mouth wide to offer thanks for the meal. The children looked at her, ready to follow as her voice lifted to sing the grace.

  “Praise God, from Whom all blessings flow;

  Praise Him, all creatures here below;

  Praise Him above, ye heavenly host; Praise

  Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.”

  Once grace was finished, Clarissa dipped into her rabbit pie, trying not to think of the rabbit all in one piece, like the wild rabbits that hopped among the trees across from the orphanage. She stuck her spoon into the large tub of blackberry jam on the table and spread a heaping spoonful on her slice of buttered bread. Biting into it, she looked longingly towards the stainless steel water jug, swallowing dryly. No water until you have finished your meal. That was the rule. Clarissa chewed her food slowly, hoping it wouldn’t get stuck in her throat. By the time she got to the last bite, she was so thirsty she gulped her glass of water and got a stomach cramp.

  After supper, Clarissa hobbled towards the stairs with Cora beside her. The girls turned at the sound of the orphanage door opening. They smiled as Dr. Grenfell came inside with a little blond girl by the hand.

  Clarissa was always glad to see the Englishman, someone the orphanage helpers called “the man himself”, sometimes with as much reverence as if they were referring to “the Man Above.” He seemed almost as important as God. The mistresses scurried about putting everything in place whenever they heard that Dr. Grenfell was on his way. Clarissa knew he wasn’t God. Although Dr. Grenfell had used his knife and his medicine to make some people walk on two feet again, he had left her in pain and on crutches. She looked towards the frail little girl holding the arm of a wooden stick dolly dangling beside her.

  “This is your home now, Trophenia,” Dr. Grenfell was saying in a gentle voice, looking down into the child’s upturned face.

  The door to the mistresses’ office opened and out came Miss Elizabeth and the long sweep of her navy dress as she hurried towards the doctor. She smoothed dark hair pulled back into a bun and parted at the crown, showing an even line of white skin. Then she lifted her chin, her jaw as streamlined as a ship’s prow, and gave the doctor her best smile, the one she saved, like good clothes, for special occasions. The doctor glanced at her and nodded. “Another child to be in your care, and Frances’s,” he said in his crisp English voice. Then he smiled kindly at the children running to gather around him. He listened to news about their activities until Miss Elizabeth, with apologies to the doctor, shooed them off to the activity room, where they were allowed to spend an hour before bed.

  Clarissa lingered in the distance and watched the new inmate, one small, cuffed hand holding tightly to Dr. Grenfell’s large, gloved one. The doctor was wearing a sealskin parka, its hood trimmed with white fur; only a little of his kind, rugged face showed. Seams ran like white scars up his sealskin boots, their tops tied with twine. Clarissa wondered what he was carrying in the leather purse at his side. Likely a knife and thread, she reasoned, a knife to cut patients open and take out terrible things like the consumption bug, and some thread to tie the skin back up.

  There’s not a blemish on Trophenia’s face, Clarissa thought in awe. She stared at the bright blue eyes in that pale face, the blond hair under a round, blue cap. It was the hair of an angel. Cora’s mother had told Clarissa: “Your hair is rich brown, like fresh earth turned up in the spring.” The colour of wet dirt, Clarissa had answered her silently.

  Just wait, Clarissa thought. Soon Old Keziah will jib off Trophenia’s hair like a tomboy’s. The mistress had done that to Clarissa’s thick, heavy hair after she came from the Grenfell Hospital. “When children arrive at The Home,” Miss Elizabeth had explained, “their heads often carry creatures bent on finding new feeding grounds.”

  Miss Elizabeth was speaking quietly to the doctor. He followed her into the office with the new orphan by the hand; his sealskin boots chafing against each other, made soft whispers.

  As soon as Dr. Grenfell left the orphanage, the little orphan screamed, “Mammy! Mammy!” Her eyes darted back and forth as if looking for a familiar face in this strange place.

  Voices wrapped in silk gloves reach towards us when the doctor is present, Clarissa thought. Voices without gloves reach like sharp fingers grabbing ears when the door shuts behind him.

  Miss Elizabeth’s brown eyes narrowed as she looked back at Trophenia. “Your mother has gone to Heaven.”

  “She wouldn’t go away. She loves me,” the little girl sobbed. “But if she’s gone to Heaven, I wanna go too.”

  “It’s too far and you can’t go unless God calls you.”

  “Mammy never said she wus goin’ to dat place,” Trophenia cried.

  “You little heathen – you know nothing about Heaven!” the mistress scolded as she pulled off the girl’s dark, shabby coat and Juliet cap.

  The new girl looked so thin Clarissa imagined her shoulder blades turning into wings and flying her away to Heaven. She wanted to call to her, tell her not to cry. But she knew if she opened her mouth, nothing would get past the stern look on Miss Elizabeth’s face.

  The mistress warned: “Stop your whingeing, Child, or I shall put you in the broom closet.”

  The little girl’s eyes widened and she began to howl. The mistress grabbed her arm and pulled her towards the closet. She opened the door and pushed Trophenia into the dark. Clarissa stared as Miss Elizabeth closed the door and turned a key in the lock. Trophenia’s screams grew louder, and then stopped, leaving a heavy silence and a sense that the little girl had disappeared. The
mistress unlocked the door and opened it. Trophenia got up from the floor and rushed out, emitting quick, shuddering gasps. Finally she stood quiet, shivering.

  Clarissa hobbled over to her. “I’m Clarissa. I can show you around if you want.”

  The little girl looked at her. “I’m Treffie,” she murmured.

  Miss Elizabeth came between them. “Trophenia,” she said, “has to have food and a bath, and then it will be bedtime. Perhaps tomorrow.”

  The mistress nodded to Georgia, a young helper who was passing by, indicating she was to take care of Treffie. Then Miss Elizabeth strode towards the playroom. Clarissa watched as she stood in the doorway and called, “All up now to get your baths and brush your teeth.” Her hand seemed to sweep the children from the playroom.

  Clarissa knew what to expect for Treffie. She would get a toothbrush, a towel and a face cloth, and an ordinary comb. She would also get a fine-tooth comb to hang on the wall beside her bed so she could do a regular check for crawlers. The last time Clarissa had picked up a crawler, Missus Frances had blamed it on her mixing with outsiders on the school playground. Her hair was cut, and kerosene, mixed with larkspur, ether and cottonseed, was combed through what was left of it. The concoction was left on all night; it burned her scalp. In the morning, Housemother Simmons came huffing and puffing to wash her hair.

  Later that day, Cora’s mother, passing by the dormitory, had found Clarissa looking at herself in the bath and toilet room mirror and crying bitterly at the fierce sight of herself. “Now me child,” Mrs. Payne had chided, “sure, ’tis only to get the mites out of your mazard before they hatch and eat you out of head and skin. You’m lucky. In me mother’s day, to cure the grippe you had to swallow nine lice every third day for nine days.”

  Clarissa wanted to retort, Then there must have been a good supply of lice in the place, and no one to run them out of it. Instead, she went outside the orphanage, forgetting she would be made fun of when the boys saw her hair. Ilish had put it in clips, making curls tight to her head like lambs’ wool. Peter started the taunting, and the other boys took up his chant, “Baaa baaa, brown sheep, have you any wool? Yes, Clair, yes, Clair, a whole head full!”

  Clarissa’s hair lost its tight curls in a few days. She was relieved when Missus Frances told her she would be allowed to grow it to her shoulders.

  Clarissa pulled herself upstairs to the dormitory, thinking about Treffie and what would be done to her hair. When she got to her bed, she dropped her crutches against the wooden trunk. They leaned there like wooden soldiers. There was no padding on them and they hurt her armpits, but they did get her places her feet could not take her. She was glad for that – grateful for what Missus Frances called small mercies.

  She stripped off her clothes and laid them across the foot of her bed. Then she went to get a wash before the other girls came for their baths. She was too tired to wait for Ilish to give her a Saturday night bath.

  It was a relief to lie in bed, her legs no longer swinging between crutches, her arms at rest from having to help her body get around. It felt good even though the horsehair mattress was hard under her aching right hip. In bed she could listen to her thoughts, instead of hearing older people’s voices grating her ears. Adults, she thought spitefully, act as though time is in their hands to slide children in and out of, and fit them where they please.

  She could be thankful she wasn’t an orphan like Treffie. She would go home someday, although she wouldn’t want to go home to a shack like the one Esther lived in. Sometimes her thoughts brought discomforting images of older brothers and sisters waving as she went down the path to a boat. There came the vague memory of a little girl standing in a doorway with a tear-stained face. A face she knew must be her mother’s was clouded. She wasn’t sure if these images were real or if she had dreamed them.

  If she were home, she would likely have a sister to cuddle against in the night when winds blowing in off the sea rattled the windows like the hands of angry ghosts. But she was here – and with girls who didn’t like her most of the time. One night she had heard the two girls whose beds were next to hers whispering too low for her to hear anything but her name. Another night, she woke to hear Celetta, one of the older girls, saying to the younger girls, “You can’t trust Clarissa not to get up in the night and kill yer with a knife. My father said Catholics are cruel. Sure, you would think they were holding the Devil’s mass by the way they swear at everything, using the Holy Name. Then they tattle all their badness to a priest and he tells the Pope and the Pope tells God. By the time God gets it, yer don’t know how big a sin ’tis grown.”

  “But Clarissa doesn’t do that. She’s a Methodist while she’s here.” That had been Cora, defending her.

  Clarissa had stirred to let them know she was awake, and someone said, “Shush.”

  Their words echoed through her head during the day, and she imagined that the girls were looking at her strangely. She didn’t even know who the Pope was, and she wasn’t sure she wanted to. No one seemed to like him at the orphanage or at the church where God came every Sunday like the Holy Ghost; no one could see Him but He was there all the same. He helped people when no one else could or would. Her Catholic religion was something she knew nothing about, something she didn’t learn about at the United Church of Christ. A long time ago, someone had gotten into her bag and broken her little statue of the Mother Mary. Ettie, an older orphan, had said, “I bet someone broke your statue because it’s an idol and anyone having an idol is breaking the Ten Commandments.”

  She was drifting into sleep when Ilish knocked on the door and came in with a fresh flannel nightgown, ready to help with her bath.

  Clarissa watched from under the curtains of her eyelashes as Ilish shrugged and laid the clean nightgown on her bed. She left without a word. She must have known I was tired, Clarissa thought, feeling grateful. She let her mind drift to the strange, brass-sheeted box. Maybe there was nothing more in it than china cups and saucers for the English nurses’ teatime on the hill; likely, though, the box held a trapper’s furs and winter supplies – and spiders and sowbugs.

  Clarissa sighed with impatience at the thought she might have to wait until next summer to open the box. Missus Frances would be vexed if she discovered her and Cora wandering too far from the orphanage with the bite of a winter wind in the air, the smothering presence of a snowstorm waiting not far-off. It was best to leave the box. For sure, it had been there a long time. Maybe other people had seen it, but they hadn’t had the nerve to break the lock. She would open the box at the risk of bringing a curse down on her head.

  She shook away images of the box and thought of Treffie, sure she knew what the little girl was feeling. She had come to a strange place where there was no one who had the same last name, no one who knew anyone belonging to her. Clarissa shuddered with the loneliness Treffie must be feeling. She pulled the bedclothes tightly around her, pretending they were the arms of her mother.

  5

  TREFFIE

  Clarissa awoke to the clang of the morning bell. She stirred to the feel of cool air on her face. Missus Frances believed in leaving the windows open a crack all year long to let out stale breath and invite in fresh air. Sometimes freezing air and snow sweeping across Clarissa’s face made her wish she were bundled in a bear’s fur.

  Without the bear, she thought wryly. Georgia must have forgotten their dormitory this morning when she went around to close windows and turn on the radiator valves. Clarissa shivered as she got out of bed and pulled on her surgical corsets, clean petticoat, grey flannelette drawers, Sunday dress and stockings. She was glad for the trunk that had come with her to the orphanage. She sat on it to get into her braces before putting on her gaiters.

  Clarissa was moving sleepily down the hall, the clattering of her crutches on the hardwood floor mingling with the scuff of other children’s feet, when her eyes were drawn to the sky framed in the window at the end of the hall. She stopped to watch as the day rose from its dark
sleep. A liquid ribbon of startling pink was softening into a pool of light above shadows rising as purple hills. The rosy light glowed off the dark harbour waters. It spread over the new morning, stirring and stretching itself on puffy, pink pillows lying in a bed of delicate blue blankets. Cora, calling to her to hurry if she didn’t want to miss breakfast, drew her away from the window into the silence that came after the rushing feet of children.

  Clarissa tip-tapped her way down to the dining room and sat down at her place, staring at the hated bowl of porridge. She had been expecting cornmeal and molasses, forgetting that her favourite breakfast had been served yesterday, and would be served again tomorrow.

  Treffie had been scrubbed and her hair chopped to her ears. She was sitting at the side of the table by the younger girls. Missus Frances stood by the door in her Sunday dress, looking firm as she instructed the new orphan.

  “Trophenia Premer, everything we do here is for the benefit of our children, to see that you all grow into healthy and enlightened adults. We have thirty boys and girls. Although there are separate dormitories, the older boys and girls come together for meals. There is a separate dining room for small children. Your place is always in here. Do you understand, Trophenia?”

  Treffie looked towards the mistress and nodded.

  “Answer in a clear voice, Trophenia. Here you will learn not to mumble your words and run them into each other.”

  “Yes ma’am,” Treffie answered in a hoarse voice, swallowing hard. Her hands fell to the sides of her woollen gimp. She gripped the pockets with her fists.

  “We must depend on boats to bring much of our food, so it has to be allotted. Navigation will soon close for many months. You must eat all the food on your plate, chewing with your mouth closed. You will eat in silence. The left arm is to be kept under the table while you use the right hand to eat. Our staff will cut your food, if necessary.”

 

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